In my turn I stared aghast.
'Mrs. _Barnes_?' I exclaimed, stung to quite a loud exclamation by the
grossness of this injustice.
'Yes,' said my uncle, horrified. 'Yes. Didn't you notice her expression?
Good heavens--and I who've taken care not to speak to a pro-German for
five years, and had hoped, God willing, never to speak to one again,
much less--' he banged his fists on the arms of the chair, and the
_Times_ slid on to the floor--'much less be under the same roof with
one.'
'Well then, you see, God wasn't willing,' I said, greatly shocked.
Here was the ecclesiastic coming up again with a vengeance in all the
characteristic anti-Christian qualities; and I was so much stirred by
his readiness to believe what he thinks is the very worst of poor,
distracted Mrs. Barnes, that I flung caution to the winds and went
indignantly on: 'It isn't Mrs. Barnes who is pro-German in this
house--it's Dolly.'
'What?' cried my uncle.
'Yes,' I repeated, nodding my head at him defiantly, for having said it
I was scared, 'it's Dolly.'
'Dolly?' echoed my uncle, grasping the arms of his chair.
'Perhaps pro-German doesn't quite describe it,' I hurried on nervously,
'and yet I don't know--I think it would. Perhaps it's better to say that
she is--she is of an unprejudiced international spirit--'
Then I suddenly realised that Mrs. Barnes was gone. Driven away. Not
likely to appear again for ages.
I got up quickly. 'Look here, Uncle Rudolph,' I said, making hastily,
even as Mrs. Barnes had made, for the stairs, 'you ask Dolly about it
yourself. I'll go and tell her to come down. You ask her about being
pro-German. She'll tell you. Only--' I ran back to him and lowered my
voice--'propose first. She won't tell you unless you've proposed first.'
Then, as he sat clutching the arms of his chair and staring at me, I
bent down and whispered, 'Now's your chance, Uncle Rudolph. You've
settled poor Mrs. Barnes for a bit. She won't interrupt. I'll send
Dolly--goodbye--good luck!'
And hurriedly kissing him I hastened upstairs to Dolly's room.
Because of the door leading out of it into Mrs. Barnes's room I had to
be as cautious as I was last night. I did exactly the same things: went
in on tiptoe, took hold of her firmly by the wrist, and led her out
without a word. Then all I had to do was to point to the stairs, and at
the same time make a face--but a kind face, I hope--at her sister's shut
door, and the intelligent Dolly did the rest.
She proceeded with a sober dignity pleasant to watch, along the passage
in order to be proposed to. Practice in being proposed to has made her
perfect. At the top of the stairs she turned and smiled at me,--her
dimple was adorable. I waved my hand; she disappeared; and here I am.
Forty minutes of the hour are gone. She must be in the very middle now
of Juchs.
_Night._
I knew this little house was made for kindness and love. I've always,
since first it was built, had the feeling that it was blest. Sure indeed
was the instinct that brought me away from England, doggedly dragging
myself up the mountain to tumble my burdens down in this place. It
invariably conquers. Nobody can resist it. Nobody can go away from here
quite as they arrived, unless to start with they were of those blessed
ones who wherever they go carry peace with them in their hearts. From
the first I have felt that the worried had only got to come here to be
smoothed out, and the lonely to be exhilarated, and the unhappy to be
comforted, and the old to be made young. Now to this list must be added:
and the widowed to be wedded; because all is well with Uncle Rudolph and
Dolly, and the house once more is in its normal state of having no one
in it who isn't happy.
For I grew happy--completely so for the moment, and I shouldn't be
surprised if I had really done now with the other thing--the minute I
caught sight of Uncle Rudolph's face when I went downstairs.
Dolly was sitting by the file looking pleased. My uncle was standing on
the rug; and when he saw me he came across to me holding out both his
hands, and I stopped on the bottom stair, my hands in his, and we looked
at each other and laughed,--sheer happiness we laughed for.
Then we kissed each other, I still on the bottom stair and therefore
level with him, and then he said, his face full of that sweet affection
for the whole world that radiates from persons in his situation, 'And to
think that I came here only to scold you!'
'Yes, Uncle Rudolph,' I said. 'To think of it!'
'Well, if I came to scold I've stayed to love,' he said.
'Which,' said I, while we beamed at each other, 'as the Bible says, is
far better.'
Then Dolly went upstairs to tell Mrs. Barnes--lovely to be going to
strike off somebody's troubles with a single sentence!--and my uncle
confessed to me that for the first time a doubt of Dolly had shadowed
his idea of her when I left him sitting there while I fetched her--
'Conceive it--conceive it!' he cried, smiting his hands together.
'Conceive letting Germans--_Germans_, if you please--get even for half
an instant between her and me!'--but that the minute he saw her coming
down the stairs to him such love of her flooded him that he got up and
proposed to her before she had so much as reached the bottom. And it was
from the stairs, as from a pulpit, that Dolly, supporting herself on the
balustrade, expounded Siegfried and Juchs.
She wouldn't come down till she had finished with them. She was, I
gathered, ample over Siegfried, but when it came to Juchs she was
profuse. Every single aspect of them both that was most likely to make a
dean think it impossible to marry her was pointed out and enlarged upon.
She wouldn't, she announced, come down a stair further till my uncle was
in full possession of all the facts, while at the same time carefully
bearing in mind the Table of Affinity.
'And were you terribly surprised and shocked, Uncle Rudolph?' I asked,
standing beside him with our backs to the fire in our now familiar
attitude of arm in arm.
My uncle is an ugly little man, yet at that moment I could have sworn
that he had the face of an angel. He looked at me and smiled. It was the
wonderfullest smile.
'I don't know what I was,' he said. 'When she had done I just said, "My
Beloved"--and then she came down.'
_October 15th._
This is my last night here, and this is the last time I shall write in
my old-age book. To-morrow we all go away together, to Bern, where my
uncle and Dolly will be married, and then he takes her to England, and
Mrs. Barnes and I will also proceed there, discreetly, by another route.
So are the wanderings of Mrs. Barnes and Dolly ended, and Mrs. Barnes
will enter into her idea of perfect bliss, which is to live in the very
bosom of the Church with a cathedral almost in her back garden. For my
uncle, prepared at this moment to love anybody, also loves Mrs. Barnes,
and has invited her to make her home with him. At this moment indeed he
would invite everybody to make their homes with him, for not only has he
invited me but I heard him most cordially pressing those peculiarly
immovable Antoines to use his house as their headquarters whenever they
happen to be in England.
I think a tendency to invite runs in the family, for I too have been
busy inviting. I have invited Mrs. Barnes to stay with me in London till
she goes to the Deanery, and she has accepted. Together we shall travel
thither, and together we shall dwell there, I am sure, in that unity
which is praised by the Psalmist as a good and pleasant thing.
She will stay with me for the weeks during which my uncle wishes to have
Dolly all to himself. I think there will be a great many of those weeks,
from what I know of Dolly; but being with a happy Mrs. Barnes will be
different from being with her as she was here. She is so happy that she
consists entirely of unclouded affection. The puckers from her face, and
the fears and concealments from her heart, have all gone together. She
is as simple and as transparent as a child. She always was transparent,
but without knowing it; now she herself has pulled off her veils, and
cordially requests one to look her through and through and see for
oneself how there is nothing there but contentment. A little
happiness,--what wonders it works! Was there ever anything like it?
This is a place of blessing. When I came up my mountain three months
ago, alone and so miserable, no vision was vouchsafed me that I would go
down it again one of four people, each of whom would leave the little
house full of renewed life, of restored hope, of wholesome
looking-forward, clarified, set on their feet, made useful once more to
themselves and the world. After all, we're none of us going to be
wasted. Whatever there is of good in any of us isn't after all going to
be destroyed by circumstances and thrown aside as useless. When I am so
foolish--_if_ I am so foolish I should say, for I feel completely cured!
as to begin thinking backwards again with anything but a benevolent
calm, I shall instantly come out here and invite the most wretched of my
friends to join me, and watch them and myself being made whole.
The house, I think, ought to be rechristened.
It ought to be called _Chalet du Fleuve Jordan_.
But perhaps my guests mightn't like that.