VINCENT: Verily, good uncle, with this good answer I am well
content.
ANTHONY: Yea, cousin, but many men are there with whom God is not
content! For they abuse this great high goodness of his, whom
neither fair treating nor hard handling can cause to remember their
maker. But in wealth they are wanton and forget God and follow
their pleasure, and when God with tribulation draweth them toward
him, then wax they mad and draw back as much as ever they can, and
run and seek help at any other hand rather than at his. Some for
comfort seek to the flesh, some to the world, and some to the devil
himself.
Consider some man who in worldly prosperity is very dull and hath
stepped deep into many a sore sin; which sins, when he did them, he
counted for part of his pleasure. God, willing of his goodness to
call the man to grace, casteth a remorse into his mind, after his
first sleep, and maketh him lie a little while and bethink him.
Then beginneth he to remember his life, and from that he falleth to
think upon his death, and how he must leave all his worldly wealth
within a while behind here in this world, and walk hence alone, he
knows not whither. Nor knows he how soon he shall take his journey
thither, nor can he tell what company he shall meet there. And then
beginneth he to think that it would be good to make sure and to be
merry, so that he be wise therewith, lest there happen to be indeed
such black bugbears as folk call devils, whose torments he was wont
to take for poet's tales. Those thoughts, if they sink deep, are a
sore tribulation. And surely, if he takes hold of the grace that
God therein offereth him, his tribulation is wholesome. And it
shall be full comforting to remember that God by this tribulation
calleth him and biddeth him come home, out of the country of sin
that he was bred and brought up so long in, and come into the land
of behest that floweth milk and honey. And then if he follow this
calling, as many a one full well doth, joyful shall his sorrow be.
And glad shall he be to change his life, to leave his wanton
pleasures and do penance for his sins, bestowing his time upon some
better business.
But some men, now, when this calling of God causeth them to be sad,
they are loth to leave their sinful lusts that hang in their
hearts, especially if they have any kind of living such that they
must needs leave it off or fall deeper into sin, or if they have
done so many great wrongs that they have many amends to make if
they follow God, which must diminish much their money. Then are
these folk, alas, woefully bewrapped, for God pricketh them of his
great goodness still. And the grief of this great pang pincheth
them at the heart, and of wickedness they wry away. And from this
tribulation they turn to their flesh for help, and labour to shake
off this thought. And then they mend their pillow and lay their
head softer and essay to sleep. And when that will not be, then
they talk a while with those who lie by them. If that cannot be
either, then they lie and long for day, and get them forth about
their worldly wretchedness, the matter of their prosperity, and the
selfsame sinful things with which they displease God most. And at
length, when they have many times behaved in this manner, God
utterly casteth them off. And then they set naught by either God or
devil. "When the sinner cometh even into the depth, then he
contemneth," and setteth naught by anything, saving worldly fear
that may befall by chance, or that needs must, he knoweth well,
befall once by death.
But alas, when death cometh, then cometh again his sorrow. Then
will no soft bed serve, nor no company make him merry. Then must he
leave his outward worship and comfort of his glory, and lie panting
in his bed as it were on a pine bench. Then cometh his fear of his
evil life and of his dreadful death. Then cometh his torment, his
cumbered conscience and fear of his heavy judgment. Then the devil
draweth him to despair with imagination of hell, and suffereth him
not then to take it for a fable--and yet, if he do, then the wretch
findeth it no fable. Ah, woe worth the time, that folk think not of
this in time!
God sometimes sendeth a man great trouble in his mind, and great
tribulation about his worldly goods, because he would of his
goodness take his delight and confidence from them. And yet the man
withdraweth no part of his foolish fancies, but falleth more
fervently to them than before, and setteth his whole heart, like a
fool, more upon them. And then he betaketh him all to the devices
of his worldly counsellors, and without any counsel of God or any
trust put in him, maketh many wise ways--or so he thinks, but all
turn at length to folly, and one subtle drift driveth another to
naught.
Some have I see even in their last sickness, set up in their
deathbed, underpropped with pillows, take their playfellows to them
and comfort themselves with cards. And this, they said, did ease
them well, to put fancies out of their heads. And what fancies,
think you? Such as I told you right now, of their own lewd life and
peril of their soul, of heaven and of hell, that irked them to
think of. And therefore they cast it out with cards, playing as
long as ever they might, till the pure pangs of death pulled their
heart from their play, and put them in such a case that they could
not reckon their game. And then their gamesters left them and slyly
slunk away, and it was not long ere they galped up the ghost. And
what game they came then to, that God knoweth and not I. I pray God
it were good, but I fear it very sore.
Some men are there also that do as did King Saul, and in their
tribulation go seek unto the devil. This king had commanded all
those to be destroyed who used the false abominable superstition of
this ungracious witchcraft and necromancy. And yet fell he to such
folly afterwards himself, that ere he went to battle he sought unto
a witch and besought her to raise up a dead man to tell him how he
should fare. Now God had showed him by Samuel before that he should
come to naught, and he went about no amendment, but waxed worse and
worse, so that God would not look to him. And when he sought by the
prophet to have answer of God, there came no answer to him, which
he thought strange. And because he was not heard by God at his
pleasure, he made suit to the devil, desiring a woman by witchcraft
to raise up the dead Samuel. But he had such success thereof as
commonly they have who in their business meddle with such matters.
For an evil answer had he, and an evil fortune thereafter--his army
discomfited and himself slain. And as it is rehearsed in
Paralipomenon, the tenth chapter of the first book, one cause of
his fall was for lack of trust in God, for which he left off taking
counsel of God and fell to seek counsel of the witch, against God's
prohibition in the law and against his own good deed by which he
punished and put out all witches so short a time before. Such
fortune let them look for, who play the same part! I see many do
so, who in a great loss send to seek a conjurer to get their
belongings again. And marvellous things there they see, sometimes,
but never great of their good. And many a silly fool is there who,
when he lies sick, will meddle with no physic in no manner of wise,
nor send his urine to no learned man, but will send his cap or his
hose to a wisewoman, otherwise called a witch. Then sendeth she
word back that she hath spied in his hose where, when he took no
heed, he was taken with a spirit between two doors as he went in
the twilight. But the spirit would not let him feel it for five
days after, and it hath all the while festered in his body, and
that is the grief that paineth him so sore. But let him go to no
leechcraft nor any manner of physic--other than good meat and
strong drink--for medicines would pickle him up. But he shall have
five leaves of valerian that she enchanted with a charm and
gathered with her left hand. Let him fasten those five leaves to
his right thumb by a green thread--not bind it fast, but let it
hang loose. He shall never need to change it, provided it fall not
away, but let it hang till he be whole and he shall need it no
more. In such wise witches, and in such mad medicines, have many
fools a great deal more faith than in God.
And thus, cousin, as I tell you, all these folk who in their
tribulation call not upon God, but seek for their ease and help
elsewhere--to the flesh and the world, and to the flinging
fiend--the tribulation that God's goodness sendeth them for good,
they themselves by their folly turn into their harm. And those who,
on the other hand, seek unto God therein, both comfort and profit
they greatly take thereby.