XII. THE GREEN-EYED MONSTER

“WHILE Thee I seek, protecting Power,” was the first hymn on this

particular Sunday morning, and it usually held Patty's rather vagrant

attention to the end, though it failed to do so to-day. The Baxters

occupied one of the wing pews, a position always to be envied, as one

could see the singers without turning around, and also observe everybody

in the congregation,--their entrance, garments, behavior, and especially

their bonnets,--without being in the least indiscreet, or seeming to

have a roving eye.

Lawyer Wilson's pew was the second in front of the Baxters in the same

wing, and Patty, seated decorously but unwillingly beside her father,

was impatiently awaiting the entrance of the family, knowing that Mark

would be with them if he had returned from Boston. Timothy Grant, the

parish clerk, had the pew in between, and afforded a most edifying

spectacle to the community, as there were seven young Grants of a

church-going age, and the ladies of the congregation were always

counting them, reckoning how many more were in their cradles at home

and trying to guess from Mrs. Grant's lively or chastened countenance

whether any new ones had been born since the Sunday before.

Patty settled herself comfortably, and put her foot on the wooden

“cricket,” raising her buff calico a little on the congregation side,

just enough to show an inch or two of petticoat. The petticoat was

as modestly long as the frock itself, and disclosing a bit of it was

nothing more heinous than a casual exhibition of good needlework.

Deacon Baxter furnished only the unbleached muslin for his daughters'

undergarments; but twelve little tucks laboriously done by hand,

elaborate inch-wide edging, crocheted from white spool cotton, and days

of bleaching on the grass in the sun, will make a petticoat that can be

shown in church with some justifiable pride.

The Wilsons came up the aisle a moment later than was their usual

habit, just after the parson had ascended the pulpit. Mrs. Wilson always

entered the pew first and sat in the far end. Patty had looked at her

admiringly, and with a certain feeling of proprietorship, for several

Sundays. There was obviously no such desirable mother-in-law in the

meeting-house. Her changeable silk dress was the latest mode; her shawl

of black llama lace expressed wealth in every delicate mesh, and her

bonnet had a distinction that could only have emanated from Portland or

Boston. Ellen Wilson usually came in next, with as much of a smile to

Patty in passing as she dared venture in the Deacon's presence, and

after her sidled in her younger sister Selina, commonly called “Silly,”

and with considerable reason.

Mark had come home! Patty dared not look up, but she felt his approach

behind the others, although her eyes sought the floor, and her cheeks

hung out signals of abashed but certain welcome. She heard the family

settle in their seats somewhat hastily, the click of the pew door and

the sound of Lawyer Wilson's cane as he stood it in the corner; then

the parson rose to pray and Patty closed her eyes with the rest of the

congregation.

Opening them when Elder Boone rose to announce the hymn, they

fell--amazed, resentful, uncomprehending--on the spectacle of Mark

Wilson finding the place in the book for a strange young woman who sat

beside him. Mark himself had on a new suit and wore a seal ring that

Patty had never observed before; while the dress, pelisse, and hat

of the unknown were of a nature that no girl in Patty's position, and

particularly of Patty's disposition, could have regarded without a

desire to tear them from her person and stamp them underfoot; or better

still, flaunt them herself and show the world how they should be worn!

Mark found the place in the hymn-book for the--creature, shared it with

her, and once, when the Grant twins wriggled and Patty secured a better

view, once, Mark shifted his hand on the page so that his thumb touched

that of his pretty neighbor, who did not remove hers as if she found

the proximity either unpleasant or improper. Patty compared her own

miserable attire with that of the hated rival in front, and also

contrasted Lawyer Wilson's appearance with that of her father; the

former, well dressed in the style of a gentleman of the time, in

broadcloth, with fine linen, and a tall silk hat carefully placed on the

floor of the pew; while Deacon Baxter wore homespun made of wool from

his own sheep, spun and woven, dyed and finished, at the fulling-mill in

the village, and carried a battered felt hat that had been a matter of

ridicule these dozen years. (The Deacon would be buried in two coats,

Jed Morrill always said, for he owned just that number, and would be too

mean to leave either of 'em behind him!)

The sermon was fifty minutes long, time enough for a deal of thinking.

Many a housewife, not wholly orthodox, cut and made over all her

children's clothes, in imagination; planned the putting up of her fruit,

the making of her preserves and pickles, and arranged her meals for

the next week, during the progress of those sermons. Patty watched the

parson turn leaf after leaf until the final one was reached. Then came

the last hymn, when the people stretched their aching limbs, and rising,

turned their backs on the minister and faced the choir. Patty looked

at Waitstill and wished that she could put her throbbing head on her

sisterly shoulder and cry,--mostly with rage. The benediction was said,

and with the final “Amen” the pews were opened and the worshippers

crowded into the narrow aisles and moved towards the doors.

Patty's plans were all made. She was out of her pew before the Wilsons

could possibly leave theirs, and in her progress down the aisle securely

annexed her great admirer, old Dr. Perry, as well as his son Philip.

Passing the singing-seats she picked up the humble Cephas and carried

him along in her wake, chatting and talking with her little party while

her father was at the horse-sheds, making ready to go home between

services as was his habit, a cold bite being always set out on the

kitchen table according to his orders. By means of these clever

manoeuvres Patty made herself the focus of attention when the Wilson

party came out on the steps, and vouchsafed Mark only a nonchalant nod,

airily flinging a little greeting with the nod,--just a “How d'ye do,

Mark? Did you have a good time in Boston?”

Patty and Waitstill, with some of the girls who had come long distances,

ate their luncheon in a shady place under the trees behind the

meeting-house, for there was an afternoon service to come, a service

with another long sermon. They separated after the modest meal to walk

about the Common or stray along the road to the Academy, where there was

a fine view.

Two or three times during the summer the sisters always went quietly

and alone to the Baxter burying-lot, where three grassgrown graves lay

beside one another, unmarked save by narrow wooden slabs so short that

the initials painted on them were almost hidden by the tufts of clover.

The girls had brought roots of pansies and sweet alyssum, and with a

knife made holes in the earth and planted them here and there to make

the spot a trifle less forbidding. They did not speak to each other

during this sacred little ceremony; their hearts were too full when they

remembered afresh the absence of headstones, the lack of care, in the

place where the three women lay who had ministered to their father,

borne him children, and patiently endured his arbitrary and loveless

rule. Even Cleve Flanders' grave,--the Edgewood shoemaker, who lay

next,--even his resting-place was marked and, with a touch of some one's

imagination marked by the old man's own lapstone twenty-five pounds in

weight, a monument of his work-a-day life.

Waitstill rose from her feet, brushing the earth from her hands, and

Patty did the same. The churchyard was quiet, and they were alone with

the dead, mourned and unmourned, loved and unloved.

“I planted one or two pansies on the first one's grave,” said Waitstill

soberly. “I don't know why we've never done it before. There are no

children to take notice of and remember her; it's the least we can do,

and, after all, she belongs to the family.”

“There is no family, and there never was!” suddenly cried Patty. “Oh!

Waity, Waity, we are so alone, you and I! We've only each other in all

the world, and I'm not the least bit of help to you, as you are to me!

I'm a silly, vain, conceited, ill-behaved thing, but I will be better,

I will! You won't ever give me up, will you, Waity, even if I'm not like

you? I haven't been good lately!”

“Hush, Patty, hush!” And Waitstill came nearer to her sister with a

motherly touch of her hand. “I'll not have you say such things; you

that are the helpfullest and the lovingest girl that ever was, and the

cleverest, too, and the liveliest, and the best company-keeper!”

“No one thinks so but you!” Patty responded dolefully, although she

wiped her eyes as if a bit consoled.

It is safe to say that Patty would never have given Mark Wilson a second

thought had he not taken her to drive on that afternoon in early May.

The drive, too, would have quickly fled from her somewhat fickle memory

had it not been for the kiss. The kiss was, indeed, a decisive factor

in the situation, and had shed a rosy, if somewhat fictitious light of

romance over the past three weeks. Perhaps even the kiss, had it never

been repeated, might have lapsed into its true perspective, in due

course of time, had it not been for the sudden appearance of the

stranger in the Wilson pew. The moment that Patty's gaze fell upon that

fashionably dressed, instantaneously disliked girl, Marquis Wilson's

stock rose twenty points in the market. She ceased, in a jiffy, to weigh

and consider and criticize the young man, but regarded him with wholly

new eyes. His figure was better than she had realized, his smile more

interesting, his manners more attractive, his eyelashes longer; in

a word, he had suddenly grown desirable. A month ago she could have

observed, with idle and alien curiosity, the spectacle of his thumb

drawing nearer to another (feminine) thumb, on the page of the Watts and

Select Hymn book; now, at the morning service, she had wished nothing so

much as to put Mark's thumb back into his pocket where it belonged, and

slap the girl's thumb smartly and soundly as it deserved.

The ignorant cause of Patty's distress was a certain Annabel Franklin,

the daughter of a cousin of Mrs. Wilson's. Mark had stayed at the

Franklin house during his three weeks' visit in Boston, where he had

gone on business for his father. The young people had naturally seen

much of each other and Mark's inflammable fancy had been so kindled by

Annabel's doll-like charms that he had persuaded her to accompany him to

his home and get a taste of country life in Maine. Such is man, such is

human nature, and such is life, that Mark had no sooner got the whilom

object of his affections under his own roof than she began to pall.

Annabel was twenty-three, and to tell the truth she had palled before,

more than once. She was so amiable, so well-finished,--with her smooth

flaxen hair, her neat nose, her buttonhole of a mouth, and her trim

shape,--that she appealed to the opposite sex quite generally and

irresistibly as a worthy helpmate. The only trouble was that she began

to bore her suitors somewhat too early in the game, and they never

got far enough to propose marriage. Flaws in her apparent perfection

appeared from day to day and chilled the growth of the various young

loves that had budded so auspiciously. She always agreed with everybody

and everything in sight, even to the point of changing her mind on the

instant, if circumstances seemed to make it advisable. Her instinctive

point of view, when she went so far as to hold one, was somewhat cut and

dried; in a word, priggish. She kept a young man strictly on his good

behavior, that much could be said in her favor; the only criticism that

could be made on this estimable trait was that no bold youth was ever

tempted to overstep the bounds of discretion when in her presence. No

unruly words of love ever rose to his lips; his hand never stole out

involuntarily and imprudently to meet her small chilly one; the sight of

her waist never even suggested an encircling arm; and as a fellow never

desired to kiss her, she was never obliged to warn or rebuke or strike

him off her visiting list. Her father had an ample fortune and some

one would inevitably turn up who would regard Annabel as an altogether

worthy and desirable spouse. That was what she had seemed to Mark Wilson

for a full week before he left the Franklin house in Boston, but there

were moments now when he regretted, fugitively, that he had ever removed

her from her proper sphere. She did not seem to fit in to the conditions

of life in Edgewood, and it may even be that her most glaring fault

had been to describe Patty Baxter's hair at this very Sunday dinner

as “carroty,” her dress altogether “dreadful,” and her style of beauty

“unladylike.” Ellen Wilson's feelings were somewhat injured by these

criticisms of her intimate friend, and in discussing the matter

privately with her brother he was inclined to agree with her.

And thus, so little do we know of the prankishness of the blind god,

thus was Annabel Franklin working for her rival's best interests; and

instead of reviling her in secret, and treating her with disdain in

public, Patty should have welcomed her cordially to all the delights of

Riverboro society.

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