V. PATIENCE AND IMPATIENCE

PATTY had been searching for eggs in the barn chamber, and coming down

the ladder from the haymow spied her father washing the wagon by the

well-side near the shed door. Cephas Cole kept store for him at meal

hours and whenever trade was unusually brisk, and the Baxter yard was so

happily situated that Old Foxy could watch both house and store.

There never was a good time to ask Deacon Baxter a favor, therefore this

moment would serve as well as any other, so, approaching him near enough

to be heard through the rubbing and splashing, but no nearer than was

necessary Patty said:--

“Father, can I go up to Ellen Wilson's this afternoon and stay to tea? I

won't start till I've done a good day's work and I'll come home early.”

“What do you want to go gallivantin' to the neighbors for? I never saw

anything like the girls nowadays; highty-tighty, flauntin', traipsin',

triflin' trollops, ev'ry one of 'em, that's what they are, and Ellen

Wilson's one of the triflin'est. You're old enough now to stay to home

where you belong and make an effort to earn your board and clothes,

which you can't, even if you try.”

Spunk, real, Simon-pure spunk, started somewhere in Patty and coursed

through her blood like wine.

“If a girl's old enough to stay at home and work, I should think she

was old enough to go out and play once in a while.” Patty was still too

timid to make this remark more than a courteous suggestion, so far as

its tone was concerned.

“Don't answer me back; you're full of new tricks, and you've got to stop

'em, right where you are, or there'll be trouble. You were whistlin'

just now up in the barn chamber; that's one of the things I won't have

round my premises,--a whistlin' girl.”

“'T was a Sabbath-School hymn that I was whistling!” This with a

creditable imitation of defiance.

“That don't make it any better. Sing your hymns if you must make a noise

while you're workin'.”

“It's the same mouth that makes the whistle and sings the song, so I

don't see why one's any wickeder than the other.”

“You don't have to see,” replied the Deacon grimly; “all you have to do

is to mind when you're spoken to. Now run 'long 'bout your work.”

“Can't I go up to Ellen's, then?”

“What's goin' on up there?”

“Just a frolic. There's always a good time at Ellen's, and I would so

like the sight of a big, rich house now and then!”

“'Just a frolic.' Land o' Goshen, hear the girl! 'Sight of a big, rich

house,' indeed!--Will there be any boys at the party?”

“I s'pose so, or 't wouldn't be a frolic,” said Patty with awful daring;

“but there won't be many; only a few of Mark's friends.”

[Illustration: “Well, there ain't going to be no more argyfyin’!”]

“Well, there ain't goin' to be no more argyfyin'! I won't have any girl

o' mine frolickin' with boys, so that's the end of it. You're kind

o' crazy lately, riggin' yourself out with a ribbon here and a flower

there, and pullin' your hair down over your ears. Why do you want to

cover your ears up? What are they for?”

“To hear you with, father,” Patty replied, with honey-sweet voice and

eyes that blazed.

“Well, I hope they'll never hear anything worse,” replied her father,

flinging a bucket of water over the last of the wagon wheels.

“THEY COULDN'T!” These words were never spoken aloud, but oh! how Patty

longed to shout them with a clarion voice as she walked away in perfect

silence, her majestic gait showing, she hoped, how she resented the

outcome of the interview.

“I've stood up to father!” she exclaimed triumphantly as she entered the

kitchen and set down her yellow bowl of eggs on the table. “I stood up

to him, and answered him back three times!”

Waitstill was busy with her Saturday morning cooking, but she turned in

alarm.

“Patty, what have you said and done? Tell me quickly!”

“I 'argyfied,' but it didn't do any good; he won't let me go to Ellen's

party.”

Waitstill wiped her floury hands and put them on her sister's shoulders.

“Hear what I say, Patty: you must not argue with father, whatever he

says. We don't love him and so there isn't the right respect in our

hearts, but at least there can be respect in our manners.”

“I don't believe I can go on for years, holding in, Waitstill!” Patty

whimpered.

“Yes, you can. I have!”

“You're different, Waitstill.”

“I wasn't so different at sixteen, but that's five years ago, and I've

got control of my tongue and my temper since then. Sometime, perhaps,

when I have a grievance too great to be rightly borne, sometime when you

are away from here in a home of your own, I shall speak out to father;

just empty my heart of all the disappointment and bitterness and

rebellion. Somebody ought to tell him the truth, and perhaps it will be

me!”

“I wish it could be me,” exclaimed Patty vindictively, and with an equal

disregard of grammar.

“You would speak in temper, I'm afraid, Patty, and that would spoil all.

I'm sorry you can't go up to Ellen's,” she sighed, turning back to her

work; “you don't have pleasure enough for one of your age; still, don't

fret; something may happen to change things, and anyhow the weather is

growing warmer, and you and I have so many more outings in summer-time.

Smooth down your hair, child; there are straws in it, and it's all rough

with the wind. I don't like flying hair about a kitchen.”

“I wish my hair was flying somewhere a thousand miles from here; or at

least I should wish it if it did not mean leaving you; for oh. I'm so

miserable and disappointed and unhappy!”

Waitstill bent over the girl as she flung herself down beside the table

and smoothed her shoulder gently.

“There, there, dear; it isn't like my gay little sister to cry. What is

the matter with you to-day, Patty?”

“I suppose it's the spring,” she said, wiping her eyes with her apron

and smiling through her tears. “Perhaps I need a dose of sulphur and

molasses.”

“Don't you feel well as common?”

“Well? I feel too well! I feel as if I was a young colt shut up in an

attic. I want to kick up my heels, batter the door down, and get out

into the pasture. It's no use talking, Waity;--I can't go on living

without a bit of pleasure and I can't go on being patient even for

your sake. If it weren't for you, I'd run away as Job did; and I never

believed Moses slipped on the logs; I'm sure he threw himself into the

river, and so should I if I had the courage!”

“Stop, Patty, stop, dear! You shall have your bit of pasture, at least.

I'll do some of your indoor tasks for you, and you shall put on your

sunbonnet and go out and dig the dandelion greens for dinner. Take the

broken knife and a milkpan and don't bring in so much earth with them as

you did last time. Dry your eyes and look at the green things growing.

Remember how young you are and how many years are ahead of you! Go

along, dear!”

Waitstill went about her work with rather a heavy heart. Was life going

to be more rather than less difficult, now that Patty was growing up?

Would she he able to do her duty both by father and sister and keep

peace in the household, as she had vowed, in her secret heart, always to

do? She paused every now and then to look out of the window and wave an

encouraging hand to Patty. The girl's bonnet was off, and her uncovered

head blazed like red gold in the sunlight. The short young grass was

dotted with dandelion blooms, some of them already grown to huge disks

of yellow, and Patty moved hither and thither, selecting the younger

weeds, deftly putting the broken knife under their roots and popping

them into the tin pan. Presently, for Deacon Baxter had finished the

wagon and gone down the hill to relieve Cephas Cole at the counter,

Patty's shrill young whistle floated into the kitchen, but with a

mischievous glance at the open window she broke off suddenly and began

to sing the words of the hymn with rather more emphasis and gusto than

strict piety warranted.

“There'll be SOMEthing in heav-en for chil-dren to do,

None are idle in that bless-ed land:

There'll be WORK for the heart. There'll be WORK for the mind,

And emPLOYment for EACH little hand.

“There'll be SOME-thing to do,

There'll be SOME-thing to do,

There'll be SOME-thing for CHIL-dren to do!

On that bright blessed shore where there's joy evermore,

There'll be SOME-thing for CHIL-DREN to do.”

Patty's young existence being full to the brim of labor, this view of

heaven never in the least appealed to her and she rendered the hymn with

little sympathy. The main part of the verse was strongly accented by

jabs at the unoffending dandelion roots, but when the chorus came she

brought out the emphatic syllables by a beat of the broken knife on the

milkpan.

This rendition of a Sabbath-School classic did not meet Waitstill's

ideas of perfect propriety, but she smiled and let it pass, planning

some sort of recreation for a stolen half-hour of the afternoon. It

would have to be a walk through the pasture into the woods to see what

had grown since they went there a fortnight ago. Patty loved people

better than Nature, but failing the one she could put up with the other,

for she had a sense of beauty and a pagan love of color. There would

be pale-hued innocence and blue and white violets in the moist places,

thought Waitstill, and they would have them in a china cup on the

supper-table. No, that would never do, for last time father had knocked

them over when he was reaching for the bread, and in a silent protest

against such foolishness got up from the table and emptied theirs into

the kitchen sink.

“There's a place for everything,” he said when he came back, “and the

place for flowers is outdoors.”

Then in the pine woods there would be, she was sure, Star of Bethlehem,

Solomon's Seal, the white spray of groundnuts and bunchberries. Perhaps

they could make a bouquet and Patty would take it across the fields

to Mrs. Boynton's door. She need not go in, and thus they would not

be disobeying their father's command not to visit that “crazy Boynton

woman.”

Here Patty came in with a pan full of greens and the sisters sat down in

the sunny window to get them ready for the pot.

“I'm calmer,” the little rebel allowed. “That's generally the way it

turns out with me. I get into a rage, but I can generally sing it off!”

“You certainly must have got rid of a good deal of temper this morning,

by the way your voice sounded.”

“Nobody can hear us in this out-of-the-way place. It's easy enough to

see that the women weren't asked to say anything when the men settled

where the houses should be built! The men weren't content to stick them

on the top of a high hill, or half a mile from the stores, but put them

back to the main road, taking due care to cut the sink-window where

their wives couldn't see anything even when they were washing dishes.”

“I don't know that I ever thought about it in that way”; and Waitstill

looked out of the window in a brown study while her hands worked with

the dandelion greens. “I've noticed it, but I never supposed the men did

it intentionally.”

“No, you wouldn't,” said Patty with the pessimism of a woman of ninety,

as she stole an admiring glance at her sister. Patty's own face,

irregular, piquant, tantalizing, had its peculiar charm, and her

brilliant skin and hair so dazzled the masculine beholder that he took

note of no small defects; but Waitstill was beautiful; beautiful even

in her working dress of purple calico. Her single braid of hair, the

Foxwell hair, that in her was bronze and in Patty pale auburn, was wound

once around her fine head and made to stand a little as it went across

the front. It was a simple, easy, unconscious fashion of her own, quite

different from anything done by other women in her time and place, and

it just suited her dignity and serenity. It looked like a coronet, but

it was the way she carried her head that gave you the fancy, there was

such spirit and pride in the poise of it on the long graceful neck. Her

eyes were as clear as mountain pools shaded by rushes, and the strength

of the face was softened by the sweetness of the mouth.

Patty never let the conversation die out for many seconds at a time and

now she began again. “My sudden rages don't match my name very well,

but, of course, mother didn't know how I was going to turn out when she

called me Patience, for I was nothing but a squirming little bald, red

baby; but my name really is too ridiculous when you think about it.”

Waitstill laughed as she said: “It didn't take you long to change it!

Perhaps Patience was a hard word for a baby to say, but the moment you

could talk you said, 'Patty wants this' and 'Patty wants that.”'

“Did Patty ever get it? She never has since, that's certain! And look

at your name: it's 'Waitstill,' yet you never stop a moment. When you're

not in the shed or barn, or chicken-house, or kitchen or attic, or

garden-patch, you are working in the Sunday School or the choir.”

It seemed as if Waitstill did not intend to answer this arraignment of

her activities. She rose and crossed the room to put the pan of greens

in the sink, preparing to wash them.

Taking the long-handled dipper from the nail, she paused a moment before

plunging it into the water pail; paused, and leaning her elbow on a

corner of the shelf over the sink, looked steadfastly out into the

orchard.

Patty watched her curiously and was just going to offer a penny for

her thoughts when Waitstill suddenly broke the brief silence by saying:

“Yes, I am always busy; it's better so, but all the same, Patty, I'm

waiting,--inside! I don't know for what, but I always feel that I am

waiting!”

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