I COULD KILL HIM

I was on my way back to Jim's after having gone home to change my

clothes. Jim had asked me to stay with him that evening and, to tell

the truth, I was glad to do it, partly because of the threat Woods had

made and partly because of the way Helen looked at Jim when she passed

us in the hall on the way to her bedroom. Being a lawyer, I have

naturally made a pretty close study of character, and if I ever saw

vindictiveness on the face of any human, it was on Helen's at that

moment.

I said nothing about the affair to mother while I was home, for she has

been very frail ever since my father's death and I thought there was no

use in needlessly upsetting her. There would be plenty of time to

discuss the matter after Helen left Jim.

Again and again I recalled the struggle of the afternoon and again and

again, Helen's face, distorted with anger, reappeared. Finally I

decided to drive the car over to Mary Pendleton's and ask her to come

spend the night with Helen. In her overwrought, hysterical condition,

Helen was capable of doing almost anything.

Mary has been like a second sister to me. She really cares nothing for

me, except in a sisterly way, but we have been together, so much so and

so long that Eastbrook gossips have given up speculating whether we are

engaged. I'd marry her in a minute, or even less, if she would have

me, but Mary insists on treating me like a kid; calls my crude attempts

at love-making "silly tosh and flub-dub," which makes the going rather

difficult. She was bridesmaid to Helen and is the one person, besides

myself, who can influence her in the least, so I felt that her presence

would add ballast to our wildly tossing domestic craft. Needless to

say, my own lack of self-control during the afternoon had been as

unexpected as it was disappointing, but when it comes to anything that

concerns Jim, I'm not responsible.

I rang the bell and Mary, herself, came to the door, looking radiant as

usual.

"Hello, Buppkins!" She greeted me with that detestable nick-name she

has used since I wore rompers. "Aren't you trying for a record or

something? This is twice you've called on me this month."

"Mary, I'm in trouble."

"Is the poor 'ittle boy in trouble and come to Auntie Mary to tell her

all about it?" she sing-songed, making a little moue, as though she was

talking to her pet cat.

"Cut it, Mary!" I said. "I'm really in trouble."

"What is it, Bupps?"

"Helen ran off with Frank Woods to-day."

"Heavens, Bupps!"--she was serious enough now.--"Where did they go?"

"They went, but they came back. Helen's home with Jim. They tried to

force him to give Helen a divorce. There was an awful fight and Woods

swore that he would kill Jim unless he let Helen go. But put on your

hat and coat and get your things. Helen needs you with her. I'll tell

you the rest on the way over."

"I'll be with you in a second," she called, running up-stairs.

When Mary was snuggled down beside me in the car--and she does snuggle

the best of any girl I ever knew--I told her everything, not forgetting

the part where I wrenched the gun away from Woods.

"Goodness, Bupps! I bet you were scared," she commented, her eyes

twinkling.

"Frankly, I didn't know what I was doing, or I would never have had the

nerve," I laughed. "But, lord! I feel sorry for Jim."

Mary's face clouded over.

"So do I, Bupps, but any one could have seen it coming. Jim was too

good to her. As much as I like Helen, I will say that the only kind of

husband she deserves is a brute who would beat her. That's the only

kind she can love. I was with her the night before her wedding, and

she confessed then that if Jim were only cruel or indifferent to her,

just once, she thought she could love him to death. The only reason

Helen cares for you and me, was because we never paid any particular

attention to her when she acted up and pouted. That is why she is mad

about Frank Woods. When he came to Eastbrook, he treated her as though

she didn't exist."

"And if Jim were cruel to her now, do you think she would go back to

him?" I asked.

Mary shook her head. "No, it's different now. If Jim were cruel to

her, she would probably hate him all the more for it."

"Proving the incomprehensibility of woman," I jeered.

"Proving the flumdability of flapdoodle," Mary responded. "If you men

only put one little thought into giving a woman what she wants, instead

of giving her what you think she ought to want; if you kept as

up-to-date in your love-making as you do in your law practise, women

wouldn't be the incomprehensible riddle you always make them out to be."

"Well, why don't you tell us what you want?" I asked.

"Silly! That would spoil it all, don't you see? Besides we aren't

sure just what we want ourselves."

My spirits, which had risen considerably during our conversation,

dropped with a slump when Jim's big house loomed up ahead. Already,

something of the unhappiness within seemed to have added a more somber

touch to the outside. Have you noticed how you can tell from the face

of a house what kind of life the inhabitants lead? Happiness or

misery, health or sickness, riches or poverty all show as though the

walls were saturated from the admixture of life within.

I sent Mary up-stairs to see Helen, while I went into the drawing-room

in search of Jim, but there was no one there except Wicks, the butler,

who was lighting a fire, for, though it was only the last of September,

the nights were chilly. I snatched up the evening paper to see if by

any chance a hint of the scandal had crept into print. I felt sure

that, as matters stood, they would not dare to put in anything

definite, but _The Sun_ has a nasty way of writing all around a

scandal, so that, while the persons involved are readily recognized,

they are quite helpless as far as redress is concerned.

I noticed that Wicks had taken an infernally long time to start the

fire. Although it was burning merrily, he still puttered about,

brushing up the chips and rearranging the blower and tongs. When Wicks

hangs about he usually has a question on his mind that he wants

answered, and he takes that means of letting you know it. I decided

not to notice him but to force him to come out in the open and ask, for

once, a straightforward question. From the fire, he moved to the table

and straightened the magazines and books, glancing now and then in my

direction, trying to catch my eye, but I buried myself more deeply than

ever in the paper. When he finally stepped back of my chair, human

nature could stand his puttering no longer, so I laid down _The Sun_,

and turned to him.

"Well, Wicks, what do you want?" I snapped.

Wicks looked at me with the expression of a small boy caught

sticky-handed in the jam-closet.

"Nothing, sir!--that is--er--nothing." He turned and started from the

room.

"Come here, Wicks!" I called. "I know when you hang around a room

unnecessarily, as you have been doing for the last ten minutes, that

you have something on your mind. Now, out with it."

"I was merely going to arsk, sir, hif I 'ad better begin lookin' arfter

another place, sir?"

That was an extraordinary question. Wicks had been with the Feldersons

ever since they were married.

"What put that idea into your head, Wicks?"

He was far more confused than I had ever seen him.

"Meanin' no disrespect, sir, and I don't mean to be hinquisitive about

what doesn't concern me, but I couldn't 'elp 'earin' a bit of what took

place this arfternoon, sir."

Good lord! I'd forgotten there might have been other witnesses to the

scene of the afternoon besides myself.

"Do the other servants know about this, Wicks?"

"Hi think they do, sir, seein' as 'ow Mrs. Felderson 'as been actin'

and talkin' so queer."

"What do you mean?" I demanded.

Wicks struggled for composure. The subject was evidently most

distasteful to his conservative and conventional British nature.

"Hit was Annie, Mrs. Felderson's maid, sir, that hupset the servants.

W'en she came down from hup-stairs, she said as 'ow Mrs. Felderson was

a ragin' and a rampagin' around 'er room, sayin' that if Mr. Felderson

didn't give 'er a divorce, she would do violence to 'im, sir."

"Did Annie hear her say that?" I questioned.

"She says so, sir."

The whole thing was so monstrous that I gasped. For this awful

dime-novel muck to be tumbled into the middle of my family was too

sickening. My sister, running away from her husband with another man

and now threatening, in the hearing of the servants, to kill him,

unless he gave her a divorce, disgusted me with its cheap vulgarity. I

hid, as best I could, the tempest that was brewing inside me.

"Wicks, Mrs. Felderson is not well. Tell the servants that she is

greatly depressed over an accident that happened to a friend. At the

present time, she is so upset over that, she really doesn't know what

she is saying. Quiet them in some way, Wicks! And tell Annie to stay

with Mrs. Felderson!"

"Very good, sir." He started to leave.

"And, Wicks--"

"Yes, sir."

"There is no need of your looking for another place."

"Yes, sir. Thank you, sir!"

Wicks departed and I was left to my gloomy thoughts. Helen must be

brought to her senses. Mary and I must work, either to bring her back

to Jim, or, if that prove hopeless, to see that the divorce was hurried

as much as possible. The very thought of having Mary along with me,

with her inexhaustible fund of God-given humor and common sense, gave

me a vast amount of comfort and confidence.

At this point, Jim came in. He had had a bath and a shave and had put

on a dinner-coat, looking a lot more fit to grapple with his troubles

than he had the last time I had seen him. Only in his eyes did he show

the shock he'd received that day.

"Communing with yourself in the dark, Bupps?"--his voice was natural

and easy.

"Yes," I sighed, "I've been trying to see a way out of this mess."

Jim lit a cigarette and threw himself into a chair. For a few moments

he puffed in silence, taking deep inhalations and blowing the smoke

against the lighted tip, so that it showed all the rugged, strength of

his superb head.

"What would you say, Bupps, if I told you everything would come out all

right?"

"And Helen stay with you?" I asked incredulously.

"And Helen stay with me," he repeated calmly.

"Of her own free will?"

"Of her own free will," he answered.

"I should say that the events of the day had addled your brain and that

you are a damned inconsiderate brother-in-law to try to make a fool of

me."

"I mean it, Bupps," he said quietly.

"What do you mean?" I demanded.

"That everything will come out all right," he smiled.

"But how, man?" His complacency almost drove me wild.

"Bupps, have you noticed how much money Woods has been spending around

here--his extravagant way of living? Where do you think that money

comes from?"

"His contracts with the French Government," I replied.

"But I happen to know he didn't land those contracts. That's the

reason he beat it so suddenly when we got into the war." He tossed his

cigarette into the fire.

"His salary from the French, then. They must have paid him some kind

of salary."

"Have you never heard what ridiculously small salaries the French

Government pays its officers?"

It was true that Woods could never have lived as he did on ten times

the salary of a French captain.

"His own private fortune then," I suggested.

"Ah! There's the point! If he has a private fortune, then my whole

case falls to pieces. That's what I've got to find out. Woods has

been playing for a big stake, and I think he has been playing with

other people's money. Did you notice how he flushed this afternoon

when I suggested looking into his private affairs? It was the veriest

accident--I was stalling for time--but when I saw him color up I knew

I'd touched a sore spot. No, Bupps, I don't think Woods has a private

fortune."

"But even if you show him up as worthless, will Helen come back to you,

Jim?"

The color came to his face and he laughed with a queer twist to his

mouth.

"Am I as horrible as all that, Bupps?"

His words brought a lump to my throat. I went over to him and almost

hugged him.

"Jim, you're such a peach--dammit all--"

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