CHAPTER XLI.

As Esmeralda sunk unconscious against Trafford’s breast, a sharp

cry of horror rose from Varley, and was echoed by Norman, who

came up a moment or two afterward. The revolver dropped from

Varley’s hand, and he stood staring before him with ashen face and

quivering lips. She had come between him and Trafford at the very

moment Varley pulled the trigger; there had not even been time for

him to divert his aim.

For an instant or two not one of them was capable of realizing what

had happened; then, with cry of anguish, Trafford pressed Esmeralda

to him, and looked down into her face, which was as composed as if

by the hand of death. He saw a line of red trickling over the bosom

of her dress, and a groan burst from his lips.

“My God, you’ve killed her!” he exclaimed, hoarsely.

Varley came up with uncertain steps, but Trafford half turned away

with his precious burden, as if to prevent Varley from touching

her. Norman stood shaking and trembling, and it was Simon who,

being the least interested, retained his presence of mind, said:

“P’r’aps she isn’t killed; let us see!”

Trafford knelt down, and with her head still upon his breast,

unfastened her blouse.

The blood was oozing from a little wound in her shoulder; he could

feel her heart beat, though faintly, under his hand.

“She ain’t dead,” said Simon, judging by the swift look of

unspeakable relief upon Trafford’s face. “I thought as how Varley

Howard aimed too high to hit her mortal, like. It’s lucky for you,

mister, that she come a-tween you, or you’d been a dead ’un. She’s

saved your life--if she’s lost her own.”

Varley knelt on the other side of Esmeralda in speechless agony.

Simon turned to Norman.

“What’s to be done?” he asked. “They two have lost their wits, and

you and me will have to act.”

“We must get her to some place of shelter,” said Norman, huskily.

“That’s so,” said Simon. “If you’ll wait here, I’ll go and fetch my

man; we’ll make a kind of litter and carry her to the hut--p’r’aps

we could fix up something out of the things lying about here,” and

he looked round.

“Yes--yes, for God’s sake, let us do something!” said Norman.

With some of the _débris_ and a couple of planks from the hut they

constructed a litter, Varley assisting them in a kind of stupor.

When they carried it to where Trafford still held Esmeralda in his

arms, he looked up with bewildered eyes.

“She is alive--she is alive!” he said.

He did not seem to be aware of Norman’s presence, to be conscious

of anything but the limp figure lying in his arms. He made a pillow

of his coat, and they placed Esmeralda upon the litter and started

for the hut, Trafford, as he bore one corner of the stretcher,

bending over her with a distraught gaze. They went slowly, picking

every step, and almost in silence. Varley walked with bent head and

shoulders, crushed by this last blow from the hand of Fate.

They reached the hut at last, and the woman, hearing their steps,

came out to meet them; she uttered one cry at sight of the

motionless figure of the brave girl, then helped them place her on

the bed and silently drew a curtain before it. Trafford sunk on a

chair and hid his face in his hands; Varley leaned against the wall

as if utterly exhausted, as indeed he was; Simon looked from one to

the other grimly.

“I’ll trouble you for that two hundred, Varley Howard,” he said,

laconically.

Varley started, drew the bag containing the money from his pocket,

and handed it to him without a word.

The woman came from behind the curtain.

“She’s alive,” she said in a low voice, and with her eyes fixed

upon the ground. “You’d better fetch a doctor.”

“I will go,” said Norman, abruptly.

Both Trafford and Varley started as if to go also; but Norman waved

them back.

“No, no; you stay here. She may want you, if she comes to.”

As he hurried out of the hut, Simon followed him, and Varley and

Trafford were left alone.

Presently Trafford felt a tingling sensation in his arm, and saw

that the blood was oozing from under his shirt-sleeve, but he paid

no attention to it.

Varley went outside, and paced up and down. He saw now that

Esmeralda still loved her husband, and that if he had shot him,

he would have broken her heart, and so, perhaps, have killed her

one way as surely as he had, in all probability, killed her with a

bullet. Every now and then he went into the hut and gazed at the

curtain with a terrible anxiety, and on one occasion he noticed the

blood dropping from Trafford’s arm, and he pointed to it.

“You were hit?” he said.

Trafford looked stupidly at his arm.

“Yes; it is of no consequence,” he said, dully.

Varley got some water in a bowl, and offered to examine and bind

up the wound. Trafford made to repulse him for a moment, then

submitted with palpable indifference.

“It is a pity you didn’t kill me outright, Mr. Howard,” he said,

bitterly. “It would have been more merciful.”

Varley made no response, but bound up the wound as if he were

ministering to a close friend, and then went outside again.

The woman came from the bedside occasionally, but always with the

same report: Esmeralda was still unconscious.

The night passed; the dawn broke with exquisite beauty, and the sun

shone upon the white and haggard faces of the two men watching and

waiting with feverish and almost intolerable anxiety. Presently

they saw a party riding up the hill at a furious gallop; they were

Norman, the doctor, and Mother Melinda.

The doctor turned the men out, and went with Mother Melinda to the

bedside. Trafford withdrew to a little distance from the hut, and

sat with his face hidden in his hands, and Norman and Varley leaned

against a tree and waited silently for a time. Then Norman said,

with difficulty, as if there were a lump in his throat:

“It’s all my fault. If I had told you everything the night I

arrived, this wouldn’t have happened.”

Varley said nothing. He felt that if Esmeralda were to die, it

mattered little whose fault it was; the burden of her death would

lie upon his--Varley’s--soul forever.

After what seemed an interminable time, filled up with a suspense

beyond the power of words to describe, the door of the hut

opened and the doctor came out. The three men started forward

simultaneously. The doctor addressed Varley.

“She is still unconscious,” he said. “Keep up your heart, Varley;

the wound isn’t a mortal one. It isn’t the wound I’m afraid of;

it’s the shock to the system, and what has gone before. She was

dead beat when you--when this happened to her. She’d gone through

enough to knock up a strong man, let alone a woman, and she’s just

exhausted and played out.” He looked at Trafford as he said this,

and Trafford turned aside and stifled a groan. “You’re her husband,

sir, Lord Druce tells me. You’d better stay here. You, Varley, and

Lord Druce, had better get back to Three Star; I don’t want a crowd

round her, and you can do no good. I’ll give you a list of things I

want from the camp; you can send them by Taffy, in the spring-cart.

I shall move her down to the camp as soon as she’s fit.”

“She will recover?” exclaimed Norman, eagerly.

“I didn’t say that, young man,” said the doctor, pursing his lips.

“We shall see. If you think it’s an easy case you make a very

great mistake; as I said, I haven’t got to fight the wound alone;

there’s something behind that.”

Varley and Norman went toward their horses, which Simon, before

he left, had carefully tethered. Half-way, Varley paused and

looked round at Trafford, who was following the doctor to the hut.

Trafford stopped and waited, and the two men looked steadily at

each other.

“Our account is not yet settled, your grace,” said Varley, sternly.

Trafford inclined his head as if assenting.

“No--no!” said Norman in a kind of despair. “You neither of you

understand!” and he laid his hand upon Varley’s arm; but Varley

shook it off as he turned, and walked to his horse.

Trafford entered the hut. The two women had undressed Esmeralda,

and she lay like a flower, the red-gold hair framing her face and

streaming over the pillow; her eyes were closed, and she seemed

scarcely to breathe. She looked so “dead” that Trafford, as he

sunk on his knees beside the bed, shuddered, and had hard work to

repress the cry that rose to his lips. He would have taken the hand

that hung down so lifeless and laid it on his bosom, but the doctor

forbid it with a gesture.

“Don’t touch her,” he said. “There may be a glimmer of

consciousness in her somewhere, and I can’t have her startled.”

A silence fell upon the place, broken only by the whispering of

the two women as they moved about in ministration. The doctor

went in and out, always with that quiet gravity on his face which

the medical man wears in the presence of a “difficult” case. He

had brought his medicine-case with him, and once or twice he had

administered a few drops of something, and Trafford watched him as

if the precious life were depending upon him.

The hours passed by, hours fraught with such anguish as few men

have suffered. As he knelt there beside the girl who was his wife

only in name, Trafford had no thought for anything but his love for

her. He did not ask himself if she were guilty; at that moment he

did not care. If she had opened her lips and confessed her guilt,

he would not have cared. He loved her; and she had offered her life

for him. Yes. Whether she had ever loved him or not she had been

willing to die for him. There was no woman in the world like her,

guilty or not; and he loved her--loved her! It was all summed up in

that word. Honor, the desire for vengeance, were as nothing to him

now. If she should recover--if God should give her back to him, he

would hold her against Norman, against the whole world, no matter

what she had done, how deeply she had sinned.

Time passed unnoticed by him; he was in a kind of trance, and he

started when the doctor touched him upon the shoulder and beckoned

him from the bedside.

“You must have something to eat, my lord,” he said, eying Trafford

keenly.

Trafford shook his head and moved his hand impatiently.

“But I say you must,” said the doctor, with quiet determination.

“You’re looking almost as bad as she is; worse, in some ways.

Let me look at that arm of yours. H’m! Varley’s almost as good a

surgeon as he is a shot.”

Trafford took his arm away impatiently.

The doctor forced him into a chair, and motioned to the food which

the women had prepared.

“Eat, and try and look a little more cheerful,” he said. “If she

should wake and see that face of yours as it looks now, she’d think

it was a ghost, and get scared.”

Trafford forced himself to eat and drink, then went back to the

bedside.

Later on the cart arrived, then all was silent again. The day

passed, the shades of evening began to fall upon the valley below

as he sat and watched the white, lovely face.

The doctor was outside with the two women arranging the stores

which Taffy had brought. Trafford was alone with his girl-wife.

Suddenly he saw a faint color rise and spread over the white face,

her lips moved and quivered, and one hand, the one nearest him,

stirred like a wounded bird.

Trafford’s heart leaped, and he was about to rise from his knees

and fetch the doctor, but before he could do so, he heard her

speak, and her voice, so low as to be almost inaudible, chained him

to the spot.

“Trafford!” she breathed.

Trafford trembled at the sound of his name spoken with an infinite

tenderness.

“Trafford, don’t you think you could love me a little? I know that

I am ignorant and common, almost a savage compared with her, and

that you have loved her for a long time--but I am your wife, after

all, and I love you as well as she does.”

Trafford bit his lip to stifle the moan that would have expressed

the anguish of his heart; and not the anguish only, but a sudden

swift joy which ran through every vein like fire. She was speaking

in unconsciousness, speaking from her heart, the soul’s truth.

“You don’t believe me,” she went on, her brows contracting. “You

don’t believe me; you think that I am telling you a lie, that I

love some one else--who was it? I forget! I forget!” She moved her

head restlessly to and fro. “It is not true. I have never loved any

one in the world excepting you, Trafford, my husband. But you are

not my husband, are you? You only wanted my money, not me, and you

sent me away because you love Lady Ada.”

Trafford could bear no more. He rose and staggered out of the hut

and leaned against the wall, with his face upon his arm.

The doctor glanced at him and hurried inside, followed by the two

women. He came out again presently to fetch something from the

stores, and Trafford grasped his arm.

“How is she?” he demanded, hoarsely.

The doctor shook him off almost roughly.

“In a high fever, if you must know,” he said. “The battle’s just

beginning; keep outside here, and leave us to fight it.”

“You will save her? You must--you must! I tell you she must _not_

die! She loves me--she loves me! I know it now! You must save her!”

The doctor looked at the distorted face and wild eyes, and setting

down the bottle he had in his hand, took up another and poured out

a draught.

“Drink that,” he said. “Drink that, man! For God’s sake, calm

yourself, or I shall have a mad man, as well as a sick woman, on my

hands.”

Trafford raised the cup with trembling hands to his burning lips,

and pushed the hair, damp with sweat, from his brow.

The doctor led him to a mound under a tree.

“Lie down there, and try and sleep,” he said. “Keep quiet, at any

rate; if not for your own sake, for hers. If she should come to

and ask for you, and you presented yourself in your condition, I

wouldn’t answer for the consequences.”

Trafford sunk upon the mound and covered his face with his hands as

a sob shook him from head to foot.

“Yes, yes!” he said. “Tell her-- Oh, God! let me go to her the

moment she wakes!”

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