CHAPTER XXVIII.

Barker stared at her aghast.

“Take them off!” said Esmeralda, almost fiercely. “Are you deaf?”

“N-o, my lady,” stammered Barker; and she obeyed. “What will your

ladyship wear, then?” she asked.

Esmeralda went to the wardrobe and pointed to a plain muslin frock.

“That,” she said, curtly.

Barker could have cried aloud with astonishment and disappointment,

but she got out the dress and put it on.

“What--what jewels will you wear with this, my lady?” asked Barker.

“None,” said Esmeralda.

“None!” echoed Barker. “Not the pearl suite, my lady?”

“Not the pearl suite, nor the diamond suite, nor the emerald suite,

nor any of them,” replied Esmeralda, firmly. “Stay; give me my

Australian heart.” She caught sight of the locket Norman had given

her, and pointed to it. “That, too,” she said.

Barker could have groaned aloud.

“How will you wear them both, my lady?” she asked.

“Put them where you like,” said Esmeralda.

Barker twisted the chain of the locket into a bracelet and

despairfully slipped it over Esmeralda’s wrist. As she did so,

there came a knock at the door. Barker opened it. It was Lady Ada;

she was in her dressing-robe.

“Oh, Barker,” she said, “can you find me a small piece of ribbon

to match this? I meant to buy a piece at Belmont to-day, but quite

forgot it. Oh, Esmeralda, I didn’t see you! Don’t let me worry you,

but I thought perhaps Barker might have something of the kind.”

“Come in,” said Esmeralda. “I dare say Barker will be able to find

you what you want. She generally has a milliner’s shop somewhere

about.”

“Oh, thank you so much!” murmured Lady Ada. “But aren’t you going

to dress?”

“I am dressed,” said Esmeralda.

Lady Ada looked at her in astonishment.

“Do you mean to say you are going to wear--”

Esmeralda smiled coldly.

“What you see,” she said. “Barker, get Lady Ada what she wants. I

am going down now.”

But she paused outside and went into her _boudoir_ by the outer

door. Barker began hunting for the piece of ribbon Lady Ada

required.

“I know I have a scrap or two like it somewhere, my lady,” she

said; “and I’ve seen it lately, but I can’t think where. The

marchioness used to wear a dress something of that color, and there

were ribbons on it; but it was a long while ago, before she was

married. It must be in one of the boxes that came from Grosvenor

Square.”

She went to a box and began turning out the things hurriedly.

“Oh, never mind,” said Lady Ada; but she knelt down beside the

litter and hunted with her. As she did so, she saw a sheet of

note-paper; it was evidently an old letter, and was creased as

if it had been carried about. She picked it up and glanced at it

mechanically; then her face flushed, and she looked sharply at

Barker, but Barker’s back was turned to her. She slid the letter

into her pocket.

“Never mind, Barker,” she said; “I can’t wait any longer. I’ll

wear another dress. Shall I help you put the things back?”

“Oh, no, my lady,” said Barker; “don’t trouble. They are only old

things, some of those that the marchioness had when she first came

to England. I can tumble them in anyhow now and set them straight

afterward.”

Lady Ada went to her room, and sent her maid away on some errand,

locked the door, and took the letter from her pocket.

She was not mistaken; it was in Norman’s handwriting. There were

only a few lines, but as she read them her heart beat so fast as

almost to prevent her breathing.

“I can not stay here now that there is no hope for me. It was too

much to hope that you would love me; but I must go on loving you

till I die.

NORMAN.”

The lines danced before her eyes. She looked at them as if she

could not believe the reality of their existence--as a man might

look who had unexpectedly come upon a rare gem; or as a woman might

look who had suddenly found ready to her hand a weapon with which

she could strike a hated foe to the very heart.

As she carefully placed the soiled and creased letter in her

bosom--it seemed to strike warm, as if it had life--she saw opening

before her a triumph which dazzled her and almost made her afraid.

With this letter she could thrust the girl she hated not only from

her lofty position but from Trafford’s side. It only needed skill

and a heart hard enough to laugh at scruples; and her heart was

adamant, and her love for Trafford rendered her incapable of a

conscience.

The guests were arriving when Esmeralda went down to the great

drawing-room. They were all eagerly awaiting her appearance.

They expected to see her beauty enhanced by splendid apparel and

the glitter of the Belfayre diamonds, and her appearance in the

white muslin frock with the simple golden heart at her bosom was

positively startling. She looked like a girl who had just run out

of the school-room, and they held their breath as she crossed the

room to greet them. She was no paler than usual, but there was a

strange, fixed look in her eyes which some of them noticed, and

afterward remembered. The women regarded the simple dress as a

piece of “theater.” Trafford alone, as he stood beside her, with

compressed lips and drawn brows, partly understood. She wished to

remind him of her contempt for her money in the most effectual way.

But even as the thought stabbed him, he thrilled at her beauty; for

the white muslin dress but heightened the effect of the wonderful

hair and the glorious eyes with that strange expression in them.

She was quite self-possessed, and talked with one and another, and

smiled and laughed in her usual frank way; and when the duke peered

at her curiously, she, unseen by any other but himself, dropped him

a swift, bewitching little courtesy.

“This is what I wear to-night, duke,” she said in a low voice.

“Yes, yes; charming, my dear!” he said, innocently. He thought the

plain muslin was some kind of rare silk, and that she had left

her diamonds upstairs in their case because she did not wish to

outshine some of the elder women. It was like her good taste, he

thought, and he nodded at her with loving approval. The dinner

was a stately one. It would have been a solemn one also but for

Esmeralda. She had never been in better spirits, apparently, and

she talked and laughed as she used to do before her marriage.

The duke looked on delightedly, and many of the staidest caught

fire at the flame of her bright, flashing spirit; the dinner was,

unlike such functions, both brilliant and enjoyable. But it was

with Norman that she exchanged her airiest badinage, that swift,

delightful repartee which came of the old Three Star stock with

London wit grafted on it.

Trafford, sitting near her, listened and watched. She dazzled

him, bewildered him, and bewitched him. He knew that the men were

looking at him with friendly envy, and he said to himself: “She is

my wife, and I love her!” He felt an almost irresistible impulse to

rise from his place, take her in his arms, and carry her to some

place where he could say to her, “You are my wife; you belong to

me; you shall not separate yourself from me any longer. Let the

past go to the devil; I care not what may have happened, I care

not whether you believe me or not, I tell you that I _love_ you,

and that you are mine, mine!” Then he looked across the table at

Norman, his face flushed and smiling, and he thought of the hideous

hint that Ada had thrown out.

Trafford was an extremely temperate man. He had gone through his

wild time, and, like most men who go through it and come out the

other side, was absolutely abstemious; but to-night he astonished

the butler by signing to him to fill his glass again and again.

He did not think the wine was having any effect upon him, was not

conscious that his usually pale face was growing flushed, that he

was talking rapidly, that his laughter rang now and again, with an

unnatural ring, above that of the others.

When the ladies left the room he passed the wine diligently. Some

of the men remarking it, looked at each other covertly. They

had never seen Trafford in this mood before, or, at any rate,

for some years. When they entered the drawing-room he looked

round for Esmeralda. The magnificent room, with its gilding and

innumerable candles, seemed to whirl before him, and the women,

in their brilliant dresses, to swim together like the figures

in a kaleidoscope. His heart clamored through the stress of his

excitement for Esmeralda; he wanted to speak to her, to touch her

hand; but she was surrounded immediately, and he could not get near

her without pushing aside some of those who encircled her. He felt

that he could even do that.

Some one was at the piano; they were playing the waltz which had

been playing the night he had stood beside Esmeralda when she

dropped her bracelet over the balcony. God! what a fool he had been

not to know that he loved her even then!

Lord Chesterleigh came up and spoke to him, and he scarcely

knew what Chesterleigh was saying or what he himself responded.

Esmeralda seemed to evade him like a will-o’-the-wisp; from

whatever part of the room she was standing or sitting there came

bursts and ripples of laughter; those who were not immediately

round her or talking to her were talking of her. Old Lady Desford

sung her praises in the duke’s ready ear.

“She really is the most brilliant creature I have ever met!” she

said. “One quite forgets, while listening to her, that she is

only a girl. No wonder you are so proud of her, and Trafford is

so devoted. It really makes one wish that our own girls could go

out for a time to the wilds of Australia on the chance of their

acquiring something of the dear marchioness’s spirit.”

“Ah, yes,” he said in his courtly way; “I am told that black

swans are not _rara avis_ there, but I can only say that I have

seen but one specimen--my daughter.” He said “my daughter” with

a pride beyond description. Presently he rose to retire, and

when Esmeralda, who had been watching him, came up to wish him

good-night, as she always did, no matter how large or stately the

company, he bent and kissed her.

For a moment a little tremor ran through her, and her hands clung

to his arm and a mist rose before her eyes; but she set her teeth

hard and turned swiftly to answer some one who had spoken to her.

Trafford took his father to the door, as usual, and the duke

murmured a few words of congratulation.

“She is surpassing herself to-night, Trafford,” he said. “Don’t let

her tire herself too much. She is very precious to me--as to you.”

Trafford could not speak. He turned back into the room and looked

round for her. He could not see her.

When the duke had gone, Esmeralda had suddenly begun to feel weary;

the excitement was bringing about the reaction. Almost abruptly she

left a group and passed into the fernery and stood, drooping like

one of the exotics, her arms hanging at her side, the golden heart

rising and falling on her bosom slowly and heavily. If she could

have done so she would have gone straight to her room. She sunk on

to a seat and let her head fall upon her arm outstretched upon the

back of the bench.

Norman’s voice roused her.

“Oh, I beg your pardon!” he said. “I mean I have startled you,

haven’t I?”

“No,” she said, looking up. Then she smiled faintly as she saw him

look round. “You did not expect to see me--you thought it was some

one else? Shall I guess?”

He colored guiltily.

“I--I thought I saw her pass this way,” he said.

“If so, she will come back presently,” said Esmeralda. “And if she

does, are you going to take the advice I gave you this morning and

tell her that, though you are only a pauper, as you call it, and

you’ve no money, you’ve grit enough to ask her to be your wife?”

He looked at her, the color coming and going in his face.

“No, not to-night, Esmeralda,” he said. “I’ll go to Selvaine first;

I’ll do the straight thing.”

“And if he says no?”

“Oh, then,” said Norman, ruefully, “I don’t know. I don’t suppose

Lilias would marry me without his and the duke’s consent, and

they’ll never give that.”

Esmeralda looked at him with a tenderness that had something

pathetic in it.

“What a lucky thing it is for you, Norman, that I didn’t accept you

that night by the river! No, I’m not laughing at you. I like you

all the better for--for having cared for me once. One doesn’t get

too many people to love one. And if you marry Lilias, I shall get

a brother as well as a sister; so I feel I’m taking a hand this

deal, as Varley would say.” She sighed as she spoke Varley’s name,

and looked beyond Norman’s handsome head. “Yes, I’m going to take a

hand in the game, and I think I hold the cards that will win it for

you.”

“What do you mean?” he asked in a low voice.

She laid her hand on his shoulder.

“You go to Selvaine to-morrow,” she said, “and ask for Lilias, like

a man, and tell him I sent you.”

Norman started and turned crimson.

“Esmeralda!” he exclaimed, scarce above his breath. “Do you mean

that you offer me--”

“Money?” she said. “No, no; I know I mustn’t do that. You’d be too

proud to take it, and from me. No, I daren’t offer you money. But I

don’t think they’ll refuse my wish.” Her eyes flashed. “How could

they? They have got all _they_ want. For very shame they _dare_ not

refuse me this one little thing. It’s all I shall have of good out

of the bargain; it’s all I shall ask. But”--the old Esmeralda of

Three Star stood before him, flashed from her eyes, spoke in her

voice--“but this I _will_ have!”

Norman went pale in his excitement.

“What can I say to you, Esmeralda?” he said, huskily.

“Say nothing,” she said. “I owe you something for caring for me

once, Norman--”

“I care a great deal for you now!” he broke in, in a passion of

gratitude.

“In another way. Yes, I know--in another way,” she said.

“By Heaven! there is no one like you,” he said--“no one in the

whole world so good, so generous!”

“Not even Lilias?” she said, with a little smile. “But I’m content

to come second to her. Yes”--he had bent his head so that his lips

were near her face--“you may kiss me, if you like. I will pass it

on to Lilias when we say good-night.”

He kissed her on the forehead with a brother’s love, a strong man’s

reverence. She sighed. A faint sound came from a bank of ferns

behind them. She turned her head listlessly.

“Some one is coming,” she said. “Stay here, and I will go and find

Lilias and manage to get her to come to you.”

She passed into the drawing-room as she spoke.

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