CHAPTER XIX.

Esmeralda did not understand in the least. An ordinary girl,

brought up in London society, would have grasped the whole thing

and known that she was being married for her money. But Esmeralda

was not only innocent but, measuring the marquis by her own

standard, would have deemed him incapable of anything ignoble.

Where ignorance is bliss ’tis folly to be wise. And she was

blissfully happy! She understood now why she had turned away from

Norman Druce that night by the stream: she had not loved him. She

loved Trafford, and she loved him with the fullness of a girl’s

pure love, as sweet as it is unfathomable.

For a day or two she seemed living in a dreamland, in which she

could think of nothing but her new and strange happiness. The folk

at Belfayre, much as they had already admired her, were struck

by the expression of her face, the strange, deep light in her

wonderful eyes, and Lilias looked and spoke to her almost shyly, as

if Esmeralda’s happiness were something sacred.

But presently Esmeralda remembered Three Star, and remembered it

with a feeling near akin to remorse.

“I must write to Varley--Varley Howard, my guardian,” she said to

Trafford, one morning. “I must tell him all--all that has happened.”

“Yes, certainly,” said Trafford, to whom the facts and companions

of her past always seemed misty and almost mythical. “Do you think

he would come and pay us a visit? Ask him. We should all be glad to

see him; glad to see any friend of yours, Esmeralda.”

“May I?” said Esmeralda, delightedly. Then her face fell. “But I’m

afraid he would not come. He--he said he would not.”

“I don’t see why he shouldn’t,” said Trafford, in faint surprise.

“It’s nothing of a journey nowadays.”

Esmeralda looked at him wistfully. She saw that he did not

understand, and she would have liked to have explained to him; but

for Varley’s sake she kept silent.

She wrote a long letter to him, telling him all about Belfayre, and

the duke, and Lady Lilias, and of her engagement to Trafford; and

she begged Varley to come over to England. She sent her love to all

old friends, mentioning them by name, and she signed herself his

dear Esmeralda. “You told me that if I was ever unhappy I was to

come back to you and Three Star,” she added, in a postscript; “but,

Varley, dear, I am the happiest girl alive, and I’m afraid I shall

never come back to Three Star again. So you must come to me. Do

come! You would like the duke and Trafford--oh! you would be sure

to like him, and he you. He is just what you like, so brave, and

kind, and good!”

With the letter she sent a great case of presents. Dresses and

shawls for Melinda, tobacco for Taffy and the rest of the men, and

a diamond ring--one of the best--for Varley himself.

Varley did not acquaint the men with her engagement to the Marquis

of Trafford, but he conveyed her love to them; and, when the case

arrived, there was much rejoicing in Three Star.

“Who said our Esmeralda was a-going to forget her old pals?”

demanded Taffy, fiercely. “Let him stand out, and I’ll knock his

head off!”

As no one had made the assertion, no one came forward to have his

head knocked off; but heads ached the next morning from the whisky

that was drunk over that case.

Varley’s reply came in due course. He wished his Esmeralda all

the happiness in the world--as did all the camp--but he would not

come to England. He, too, put a postscript to remind her that her

promise still held good, and that, if ever she was unhappy, she was

to go straight back to Three Star, where loving hearts awaited her.

The letter brought tears to Esmeralda’s eyes. But it did not reach

her until she was back in London, and plunged into a whirl of

pleasure and gayety.

As Esmeralda, the girl from the wilds, she had made a sensation;

as Miss Chetwynde, the _fiancée_ of the Marquis of Trafford, and

future Duchess of Belfayre, she was at once raised to a position of

vast importance. She was sought after, and courted, and flattered

to an extent that would have turned most girls’ heads. But

Esmeralda managed to retain her simplicity and modesty through it

all.

Men raved about her and envied Trafford, and the women copied her

dresses, and even her peculiar accent, and envied _her_. Even her

strange backwood phrases became the fashion, and when she made a

slip in grammar, her auditors did not sneer, but smiled, as if she

had said something clever.

As Lady Wyndover said, “You may say what you like, wear what you

like, do what you like, when you own two millions, and are going to

be the Duchess of Belfayre.”

Her ladyship was in her glory. Her hall table was strewn with

cards, and all the big and most exclusive houses open to her; for

was she not the guardian of Miss Chetwynde?

And Trafford? It is hard to describe his condition. He had done his

duty, and was going to save the noble house of which he would some

day be the head. He had won one of the loveliest girls in England;

but he told himself that he still loved Ada Lancing.

They met, for the first time, after the announcement of his

engagement to Esmeralda, at a dance at the Countess of Blankyre’s.

She came late, as usual, and Trafford made his way to her. He

noticed, with a pang of remorse, that she was thinner, and that her

face was more ethereal-looking even than it had been.

She greeted him with the quiet nonchalance which we favor nowadays,

the quietude and repose which must be observed though our hearts

are breaking: and not until they had taken two or three turns

round the room did she speak; then she said:

“So it is done, Trafford?”

“Yes; it is done,” he said, gravely. She drew a long breath, and he

felt her hand close tightly upon his.

“I was right!” she said. “I knew that if you got her down to

Belfayre you would succeed. Did you find it difficult?”

The question jarred upon him.

“Do not let us go into details,” he said.

She was silent for a moment, then she looked across the room at

Esmeralda, who was dancing with one of her many admirers.

“How happy she looks!” she said. “She is positively radiant!” Her

lips curled with something like a sneer. “A shop-girl could not

look more elated; it is as if she were saying aloud, ‘I am to be

the Duchess of Belfayre!’”

Trafford’s brows came down.

“You do her an injustice, Ada,” he said. “She sets no value on the

title or the position. No one could think less of it than she does.”

She laughed scornfully.

“How blind men are! Do you think that, with all her innocence, she

is ignorant of the worth of a dukedom? No girl out of her teens can

be. But I beg your pardon; I would not dispel the delusion.”

“What delusion?” he asked.

“That she is in love with you,” she said, with almost vulgar

frankness. “You think that she would have consented to marry you if

you had been a commoner, and just a mere nobody?”

He was silent, but he glanced at Esmeralda under his knit brows.

“Trust me that, with all her seeming simplicity, she knows the

worth of the bargain she has made. Do you think that you are the

first man who has made love to her?”

His face grew dark.

“You are unjust to her,” he said.

She laughed bitterly.

“And you take up her defense,” she said. “Has it come to that

already?”

“For God’s sake, be silent!” he said, almost fiercely. “What is

done is done. You know how necessary, how inevitable it was. You

yourself advised--yes, drove me to--the doing of it. Do not make

my duty harder and more difficult than it is.”

“Is it so hard, so difficult?” she murmured, with a thrill of

gratification. “Forgive me, Trafford! You can not know, understand,

what I feel, what I suffer! Yes, I advised you, I helped you.

But--but all the same, I--I am a woman, and, ah! do not forget

that--that I love you! Can I help envying her the wealth that gives

you to her? Don’t expect too much of me!”

“Forgive me, Ada,” he murmured, penitently; but, even as he spoke,

he looked across the room at Esmeralda, and her face, radiant with

happiness, smote him with remorse.

“When is the wedding to be?” asked Ada, as they promenaded.

“I don’t know. Soon,” he said.

She sighed heavily. “Yes, it must be soon,” she said. “I think I

shall be almost glad when it is over. I shall have done with life

then--done with it forever. Take me to her; I want to speak to her.

Oh, do not be afraid,” she said, with a curl of her lip, as he

seemed to hesitate. “I have nothing but pleasant things to speak to

your future bride, Lord Trafford.”

He led her to Esmeralda, who was surrounded by a circle of

admirers, and Lady Ada tactfully contrived to get Esmeralda to

herself.

“I have not wished you happiness, Miss Chetwynde,” she said, with a

smile that cost her much.

“Thank you,” said Esmeralda, with a flash of her eyes and a sudden

blush.

“And in wishing you happiness I am quite confident of the

fulfillment of my wish,” said Ada. “You see, I know Lord Trafford

so well. Any girl would be happy as his wife.”

“Yes, I think so,” said Esmeralda, slowly, and with her usual

startling candor. Lady Ada looked at her.

“You are very confident!” she said, with a smile.

Esmeralda waited a moment to grasp the significance of the sentence.

“You mean that I am sure of being happy,” she said. “Why shouldn’t

I be? Wouldn’t you be happy if you were going to marry the man

you--cared for?”

Lady Ada’s smile grew ghastly in its artificiality.

“And you care for him so much?” she said.

The color rose to Esmeralda’s face. “Don’t women generally care for

the men they are going to marry?” she asked, naïvely.

Lady Ada laughed.

“Not always. Sometimes a girl has to marry for--well, for all sorts

of reasons other than love for her future husband; and then--” She

paused, stopped by Esmeralda’s direct and questioning glance.

“But that is not the case with you,” she continued. “It will be

quite a love match, will it not?”

Esmeralda thought her question over before replying.

“Yes; I think so.”

“Therefore, you will be happy,” said Lady Ada. “When is the wedding

to be? I ask because I am going to ask a favor of you.”

“What is it?” said Esmeralda in her outspoken fashion.

“I want to be one of your bride-maids,” said Ada, smiling still,

but with close-set lips. “Of course, I don’t know whom you have

chosen, and, if you have already made your selection, you must not

mind saying ‘No’ to me; but, if you have not, please let me be one.”

“I don’t know when I am going to be married,” said Esmeralda in a

lower voice, and with her eyes bent on the ground. “And I have not

chosen any bride-maids. I don’t know any one. I shall be glad if

you will be one. But I don’t know anything about it.”

“Thanks,” said Lady Ada. “I don’t suppose the wedding is very far

off. Why should you wait? And I shall be pleased to be one of your

bride-maids. Lady Lilias will be one, of course?”

“I hope so,” said Esmeralda, her eyes brightening at the thought.

“Then that is settled,” said Ada. She drew a long breath at the

prospect of the ordeal before her. She scarcely knew why she had

proffered the request; but some women are given to self-torture,

and she was one of them; besides, in any case, she would have to be

present at the wedding, for her absence would provoke remark; and,

being present, she might as well take part in it. She arose, and

left Esmeralda, almost abruptly, soon afterward.

As she had said, there was no reason why the wedding should not

take place at an early date; indeed, there was every reason, on

Trafford’s side, for a speedy marriage; the million was sadly

wanted at Belfayre.

He waited for a week or two, and then, one morning, when they were

riding together in the park, he said to her:

“Esmeralda, will you be my wife very soon?”

She did not start, and scarcely blushed, but looked at him a little

timidly.

“Yes, if you wish it,” she said in a low voice.

The “if you wish it” smote him keenly.

“I do wish it,” he said. “We have not been engaged long, I know,

and, if you would rather wait, we will do so. It shall be exactly

as you wish. It ought to be so. But there is no reason why we

should wait until the autumn or the winter. My father is very

anxious that the wedding should take place--he is very fond of you,

as you know, and is looking forward to the day when he can really

call you his daughter.”

“And I am very fond of him,” said Esmeralda. “I would do anything

to please him.”

“But you must please yourself,” said Trafford. “We all think of you

and seek your happiness.”

“Very well,” said Esmeralda. “I will be married whenever you

please.”

“You are very good to me!” he said, and, under cover of stroking

her horse’s mane, he touched her hand.

Then she blushed, for his lightest caress had power to thrill her.

“Lady Ada has offered to be one of my bride-maids,” she said.

His hands tightened on his reins, and his brows darkened.

“Lady Ada?” he said. “Why did she do that?--I mean, it was very

kind of her.”

“Yes,” she said, innocently. “But why were you surprised?”

“I don’t know,” he said, evasively. “It was a stupid speech. Most

girls like to play the part; she will play it very well.”

When she got home, she told Lady Wyndover, and that lady was thrown

into a state of mild excitement.

“We could manage it in three weeks,” she said. “But not a day less.

I must see Cerise at once.”

Esmeralda laughed.

“I hope you are not going to order a great many more dresses,” she

said. “I’ve more now than I can wear, and Barker doesn’t know what

to do with them; she says every place is choked up.”

“There will be plenty of room for them at Belfayre,” said Lady

Wyndover, with a sigh of profound satisfaction. “Of course, you

will live there. The duke is an old man, and will be glad to have

you and Trafford with him. He is so fond of you, dear. Of course,

I don’t know what plans you’ve made about the honey-moon, but you

might spend it at that pretty little place of mine in Surrey. You

haven’t seen it yet. It really is a charming place; quite a box, of

course; but it will be quite large enough for you two. I think it’s

a mistake for a newly married couple to go to a big house, with

a mob of servants; they want to be alone, to moon about, and all

that. But, perhaps, you would like to go on the Continent.”

Esmeralda laughed again.

“I don’t think Trafford has made any plans; but you seem to have

thought it all out.”

“My dear, I thought it all out from the beginning,” said Lady

Wyndover, with a smile. “You don’t know how hard and cleverly I’ve

worked to bring about this match of yours.”

Esmeralda looked rather startled.

“I don’t understand,” she said. “Why should you?” and her brows

came straight.

Lady Wyndover was always a little frightened when Esmeralda wore

that expression.

“Never mind, dear,” she said. “You have been the sweetest and

dearest of girls, and I am very fond and very proud of you,” and

she kissed her affectionately.

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