“Your name abruptly mentioned, casual words
Of comment on your deeds, praise from your uncle,
News from the armies, talk of your return,
A word let fall touching your youthful passion
Suffused her cheek, called to her drooping eye
A momentary lustre.”
I had no difficulty in putting my project of a private interview with
Grace, in execution in my own house. There was one room at Clawbonny,
that, from time immemorial, had been appropriated exclusively to the use
of the heads of the establishment; It was called the “family room,” as
one would say “family-pictures” or “family--plate.” In my father's time,
I could recollect that I never dreamed of entering it, unless asked
or ordered; and even then, I always did so with some such feeling as I
entered a church. What gave it a particular and additional sanctity
in out eyes, also, was the fact that the Wallingford dead were always
placed in their coffins, in this room, and thence they were borne to
their graves. It was a very small triangular room, with the fire-place
in one corner, and possessing but a single window, that opened on a
thicket of rose-bushes, ceringos, and lilacs. There was also a light
external fence around this shrubbery, as if purposely to keep listeners
at a distance. The apartment had been furnished when the house was
built, being in the oldest part of the structures, and still retained
its ancient inmates. The chairs, tables, and, most of the other
articles, had actually been brought from England, by Miles the First, as
we used to call the emigrant; though, he was thus only in reference to
the Clawbonny dynasty, having been something like Miles the Twentieth,
in the old country. My mother had introduced a small settee, or some
such seat as the French would call a _causeuse;_ a most appropriate
article, in such a place.
In preparation for the interview I had slipped into Grace's hand a piece
of paper, on which was written “meet me in the family-room, precisely at
six!” This was sufficient; at the hour named, I proceeded to the room,
myself. The house of Clawbonny, in one sense, was large for an American
residence; that is to say, it covered a great deal of ground, every one
of the three owners who preceded me, having built; the two last leaving
entire the labours of the first. My turn had not yet come, of course;
but the reader knows already that I, most irreverently, had once
contemplated abandoning the place, for a “seat” nearer the Hudson. In
such a _suite_ of constructions, sundry passages became necessary, and
we had several more than was usual at Clawbonny, besides having as many
pairs of stairs. In consequence of this ample provision of stairs, the
chambers of the family were totally separated from those of all the rest
of the house.
I began to reflect seriously, on _what_ I had to say, and _how_ it
was to be said, as I walked through the long passage which led to the
“family-room,” or the “triangle,” as my own father had nicknamed the
spot. Grace and I had never yet held what might be termed a family
consultation; I was too young to think of such a thing, when last at
home, and no former occasion had offered since my return. I was still
quite young, and had more diffidence than might have been expected in
a sailor. To me, it was far more embarrassing to open verbal
communications of a delicate nature, than it would have been to work a
ship in action. But for this _mauvaise honte_, I do think I should have
been explicit with Lucy, and not have parted from her on the piazza, as
I did, leaving everything in just as much doubt as it had been before a
word passed between us. Then I entertained a profound respect for Grace;
something more than the tenderness of a brother for a sister; for,
mingled with my strong affection for her, was a deference, a species
of awe of her angel-like character and purity, that made me far more
disposed to receive advice from her, than to bestow it. In the frame of
mind which was natural to all these blended feelings, I laid my hand on
the old-fashioned brass latch, by which the door of the “triangle”
was closed. On entering the room, I found my sister seated on the
“causeuses,” the window open to admit air, the room looking snug but
cheerful, and its occupant's sweet countenance expressive of care, not
altogether free from curiosity. The last time I had been in that room,
it was to look on the pallid features of my mother's corpse, previously
to closing the coffin. All the recollections of that scene rushed upon
our minds at the same instant; and taking a place by the side of Grace,
I put an arm around her waist, drew her to me, and, receiving her head
on my bosom, she wept like a child. My tears could not be altogether
restrained, and several minutes passed in profound silence. No
explanations were needed; I knew what my sister thought and felt, and
she was equally at home as respects my sensations. At length we regained
our self-command, and Grace lifted her head.
“You have not been in this room since, brother?” she observed, half
inquiringly.
“I have not, sister. It is now many years--many for those who are as
young as ourselves.”
“Miles, you will think better about that 'seat,' and never abandon
Clawbonny--never destroy this blessed room!”
“I begin to think and feel differently on the subject, from what I once
did. If this house were good enough for our forefathers, why is it not
good enough for me. It is respectable and comfortable, and what more do
I want?
“And so warm in winter, and so cool in summer; with good thick stone
walls; while everything they build now is a shingle palace! Besides,
you can add your portion, and each addition has already been a good
deal modernized. It is so pleasant to have a house that partakes of the
usages of different periods!”
“I hardly think I shall ever abandon Clawbonny, my dear; for I find it
growing more and more precious as other ties and expectations fail me.”
Grace drew herself entirely from my arms, and looked intently, and, as I
fancied, anxiously at me, from the other corner of the settee. Then she
affectionately took one of my hands, in both her own, and pressed it
gently.
“You are young to speak of such things, my dear brother,” she said with
a tone and air of sadness, I had never yet remarked in her voice and
manner; “much too young for a man; though I fear we women are born to
know sorrow!”
I could not speak if I would, for I fancied Grace was about to make some
communications concerning Rupert. Notwithstanding the strong affection
that existed between my sister and myself, not a syllable had ever been
uttered by either, that bore directly on our respective relations with
Rupert and Lucy Hardinge. I had long been certain that Rupert, who was
never backward in professions, had years before spoken explicitly to
Grace, and I made no doubt they were engaged, though probably subject
to some such conditions as the approval of his father and myself;
approvals, that neither had any reason for supposing would be
withheld. Still, Grace had never intimated anything of the sort, and
my conclusions were drawn from conjectures founded as I imagined on
sufficient observation. On the other hand, I had never spoken to Grace,
of my love for Lucy. Until within the last month, indeed, when jealousy
and distrust came to quicken the sentiment, I was unconscious myself
with how much passion I did actually love the dear girl; for, previously
to that, my affection had seemed so much a matter of course, was united
with so much that was fraternal, in appearance at least, that I had
never been induced to enter into an inquiry as to the nature of this
regard. We were both, therefore, touching on hallowed spots in our
hearts, and each felt averse to laying bare the weakness.
“Oh! you know how it is with life, Grace,” I answered, with affected
carelessness, after a moment's silence; “now all sun-shine, and now all
clouds--I shall probably never marry, my dear sister, and you, or your
children, will inherit Clawbonny; then you can do as you please with the
house. As a memorial of myself, however, I will leave orders for stone
to be got out this fall, and, next year, I will put up the south wing,
of which we have so much talked, and add three or four rooms in which
one will not be ashamed to see his friends.”
“I hope your are ashamed of nothing that is at Clawbonny, now, Miles--as
for your marrying, my dear brother, that remains to be seen; young men
do not often know their own minds on such a subject, at your age.”
This was said, not altogether without pleasantry, though there was a
shade of sadness in the countenance of the beloved speaker, that
from the bottom of my heart I wished were not there. I believe Grace
understood my concern, and that she shrunk with virgin sensitiveness
from touching further on the subject, for she soon added--
“Enough of this desponding talk. Why have you particularly desired to
see me, here, Miles?”
“Why? Oh! you know I am to sail next week, and we have never been
here--and, now we are both of an age to communicate our thoughts to each
other--I supposed--that is--there must be a beginning of all things, and
it is as well to commence now, as any other time. You do not seem more
than half a sister, in the company of strangers like the Mertons, and
Hardinges!”
“Strangers, Miles! How long have you regarded the last as strangers?”
“Certainly not strangers in the way of acquaintance, but strangers to
our blood. There is not the least connection between us and them.”
“No, but much love; and love that has lasted from childhood. I cannot
remember the time when I have not loved Lucy Hardinge.”
“Quite true--nor I. Lucy is an excellent girl, and one is almost certain
of always retaining a strong regard for _her_. How singularly the
prospects of the Hardinges are changed by this sudden liking of Mrs.
Bradfort!”
“It is not sudden, Miles. You have been absent years, and forget how
much time there has been to become intimate and attached. Mr. Hardinge
and Mrs. Bradfort are sister's children; and the fortune of the last,
which, I am told, exceeds six thousand a-year, in improving real estate
in town, besides the excellent and valuable house in which she lives,
came from their common grandfather, who cut off Mrs. Hardinge with a
small legacy, because she married a clergyman. Mr. Hardinge is Mrs.
Bradfort's heir-at-law, and it is by no means unnatural that she should
think of leaving the property to those who, in one sense, have as good a
right to it as she has herself.”
“And is it supposed she will leave Rupert her heir?”
“I believe it is--at least--I think--I am afraid--Rupert himself
imagines it; though doubtless Lucy will come in for a fair share. The
affection of Mrs. Bradfort for Lucy is very strong--so strong, indeed,
that she offered, last winter, openly to adopt her, and to keep her with
her constantly. You know how true and warm-hearted a girl Lucy is, and
how easy it is to love her.”
“This is all new to me--why was not the offer accepted?”
“Neither Mr. Hardinge nor Lucy would listen to it. I was present at the
interview in which it was discussed, and our excellent guardian thanked
his cousin for her kind intentions; but, in his simple way, he declared,
as long as life was spared him, he felt it a duty to keep his girl; or,
at least, until he committed her to the custody of a husband, or death
should part them.”
“And Lucy?”
“She is much attached to Mrs. Bradfort, who is a good woman in the main,
though she has her weaknesses about the world, and society, and such
things. Lucy wept in her cousin's arms, but declared she never could
leave her father. I suppose you do not expect,” added Grace, smiling,
“that _she_ had anything to say about a husband.”
“And how did Mrs. Bradfort receive this joint declaration of resistance
to her pleasure, backed, as the last was, by dollars?”
“Perfectly well. The affair terminated by Mr. Hardinge's consenting to
Lucy's passing each winter in town, until she marry. Rupert, you know,
lives there as a student at law, at present, and will become established
there, when admitted to the bar.”
“And I suppose the knowledge that Lucy is likely to inherit some of
the old Bleecker estate, has not in the least diminished her chance
of finding a husband to remove her from the paternal custody of her
father?”
“No husband could ever make Lucy anything but Mr. Hardinge's daughter;
but you are right, Miles, in supposing that she has been sought. I am
not in her secrets, for Lucy is a girl of too much principle to make a
parade of her conquests, even under the pretence of communicating them
to her dearest friend--and in that light, beyond all question, does she
regard me; but I feel as morally certain as one can be, without actually
knowing the facts, that Lucy refused _one_ gentleman, winter before
last, and three last winter.”
“Was Mr. Andrew Drewett of the number?” I asked, with a precipitation of
which I was immediately ashamed.
Grace started a little at the vivacity of my manner, and then she
smiled, though I still thought sadly.
“Of course not,” she answered, after a moment's thought, “or he would
not still be in attendance. Lucy is too frank to leave an admirer in
doubt an instant after his declaration is made, and her own mind made
up; and not one of all those who, I am persuaded, have offered, has ever
ventured to continue more than a distant acquaintance. As Mr. Drewett
never has been more assiduous than down to the last moment of our
remaining in town, it is impossible he should have been rejected. I
suppose you know Mr. Hardinge has invited him here?”
“Here? Andrew Drewett? And why is he coming here?”
“I heard him ask Mr. Hardinge's permission to visit us here; and you
know how it is with our dear, good guardian--the milk of human kindness
himself, and so perfectly guileless that he never sees more than is said
in such matters, it was impossible he could refuse. Besides, he likes
Drewett, who, apart from some fashionable follies, is both clever and
respectable. Mr. Drewett has a sister married into one of the best
families on the other side of the river, and is in the habit of coming
into the neighbourhood every summer; doubtless he will cross from his
sisters house to Clawbonny.”
I felt indignant for just one minute, and then reason resumed its sway.
Mr. Hardinge, in the first place, had the written authority, or request,
of my mother that he would invite whom he pleased, during my minority,
to the house; and, on that score, I felt no disapprobation. But it
seemed so much like braving my own passion, to ask an open admirer of
Lucy's to my own house, that I was very near saying something silly.
Luckily I did not, and Grace never knew what I suffered at this
discovery. Lucy had refused several offers--that was something; and I
was dying to know what sort of offers they were. I thought I might at
least venture to ask that question.
“Did you know the four gentlemen that you suppose Lucy to have refused?”
said I, with as indifferent an air as I could assume, affecting to
destroy a cobweb with my rattan, and even carrying my acting so far as
to make an attempt at a low whistle.
“Certainly; how else should I know anything about it? Lucy has never
said a word to me on the subject; and, though Mrs. Bradfort and I
have had our pleasantries on the subject, neither of us is in Lucy's
secrets.”
“Ay, your pleasantries on the subject! That I dare say. There is no
better fun to a woman than to see a man make a fool of himself in this
way; little does _she_ care how much a poor fellow suffers!”
Grace turned pale, and I could see that her sweet countenance became
thoughtful and repentant.
“Perhaps there is truth in your remark, and justice n your reproach,
Miles. None of us treat this subject with as much, seriousness as it
deserves, though I cannot suppose any woman can reject a man whom she
believes to be seriously attached to her, without feeling for him.
Still, attachments of this nature affect your sex less than ours, and
I believe few men die of love. Lucy, moreover, never has, and I believe
never would encourage any man whom she did not like; this principle must
have prevented any of that intimate connection, without which the heart
never can get much interested. The passion that is produced without
any exchange of sentiment or feeling, Miles, cannot be much more than
imagination or caprice.”
“I suppose those four chaps are all famously cured, by this time, then?”
said I, pretending again to whistle.
“I cannot answer for that--it is so easy to love Lucy, and to love her
warmly. I only know they visit her no longer, and, when they meet her in
society, behave just as I think a rejected admirer would behave, when he
has not lost his respect for his late flame. Mrs. Bradfort's fortune
and position may have had their influence on two; but the others I think
were quite sincere.”
“Mrs. Bradfort is quite in a high set, Grace--altogether above what we
have been accustomed to?”
My sister coloured a little, and I could see she was not at her ease.
Still, Grace had too much self-respect, and too much character, ever to
feel an oppressive inferiority, where it did not exist in essentials;
and she had never been made to suffer, as the more frivolous and vain
often suffer, by communications with a class superior to their own;
especially when that class, as always happens, contains those who,
having nothing else to be proud of, take care to make others feel their
inferiority.
“This is true, Miles,” she answered; “or I might better say, both are
true. Certainly I never have seen as many well-bred persons as I meet
in her circle--indeed, we have little around us at Clawbonny to teach
us any distinctions in such tastes. Mr. Hardinge, simple as he is, is so
truly a gentleman, that he has not left us altogether in the dark as to
what was expected of us; and I fancy the higher people truly are in the
world, the less they lay stress on anything but what is substantial, in
these matters.”
“And Lucy's admirers--and Lucy herself--”
“How, Lucy herself?”
“Was she well received--courted--admired? Met as an equal, and treated
as an equal? And you, too?”
“Had you lived more in the world, Miles, you would not have asked the
question. But Lucy has been always received as Mrs. Bradfort's daughter
would have been received; and as for myself, I have never supposed it
was not known exactly who I am.”
“_Captain_ Miles Wallingford's daughter, and _Captain_ Miles
Wallingford's sister,” said I, with a little bitterness on each
emphasis.
“Precisely; and a girl proud of her connections with both,” rejoined
Grace, with strong affection.
“I wish I knew one thing, Grace; and I think I _ought_ to know it, too.”
“If you can make the last appear, Miles, you may rest assured you shall
know it, if it depend on me.”
“Did any of these gentry--these soft-handed fellows--ever think of
offering to _you_?”
Grace laughed, and she coloured so deeply--oh! how heavenly was her
beauty, with that roseate tint on her cheek!--but she coloured so
deeply, that I felt satisfied that she, too, had refused her suitors.
The thought appeased some of my bitter feelings, and I had a sort of
semi-savage pleasure in believing that a daughter of Clawbonny was not
to be had for the asking, by one of that set. The only answers I got
were these disclosures by blushes.
“What are the fortune and position of this Mr. Drewett, since you are
resolved to tell me nothing of your own affairs?”
“Both are good, and such as no young lady can object to. He is even said
to be rich.”
“Thank God! _He_ then is not seeking Lucy in the hope of getting some of
Mrs. Bradfort's money?”
“Not in the least. It is so easy to love Lucy, for Lucy's sake, that
even a fortune-hunter would be in danger of being caught in his own
trap. But Mr. Drewett is above the necessity of practising so vile a
scheme for making money.”
Here, that the present generation may not be misled, and imagine
fortune-hunting has come in altogether within the last twenty years,
I will add that it was not exactly a trade, in this country--a regular
occupation--in 1802, as it has become, in 1844. There were such things
then, certainly, as men, or women, who were ready to marry anybody who
would make them rich; but I do not think theirs was a calling to which
either sex served regular apprenticeships, as is practised to-day.
Still, the business was carried on, to speak in the vernacular, and
sometimes with marked success.
“You have not told me, Grace,” I resumed, “whether you think Lucy is
pleased, or not, with the attentions of this gentleman.”
My sister looked at me intently, for a moment, as if to ascertain how
far I could, or could not, ask such a question with indifference. It
will be remembered that no verbal explanations had ever taken place
between us, on the subject of our feelings towards the companions of our
childhood, and that all that was known to either was obtained purely
by inference. Between myself and Lucy nothing had ever passed, indeed,
which might not have been honestly referred to our long and early
association, so far as the rules of intercourse were concerned, though I
sometimes fancied I could recall a hundred occasions, on which Lucy
had formerly manifested deep attachment for myself; nor did I doubt
her being able to show similar proofs, by reversing the picture. This,
however, was, or I had thought it to be, merely the language of the
heart; the tongue having never spoken. Of course, Grace had nothing but
conjecture on this subject, and alas! she had begun to see how possible
it was for those who lived near each other to change their views on such
subjects; no wonder, then, if she fancied it still easier, for those who
had been separated for years.
“I have not told you, Miles,” Grace answered, after a brief delay,
“because it would not be proper to communicate the secrets of my friend
to a young man, even to you, were it in my power, as it is not, since
Lucy never has made to me the slightest confidential communication, of
any sort or nature, touching love.”
“Never!” I exclaimed--reading my fancied doom in the startling fact; for
I conceived it impossible, had she ever really loved me, that the
matter should not have come up in conversation between two so closely
united--“Never! What, no girlish--no childish preference--have you never
had no mutual preferences to reveal?”
“Never”--answered Grace, firmly, though her very temples seemed
illuminated--“Never. We have been satisfied with each other's affection,
and have had no occasion to enter into any unfeminine and improper
secrets, if any such existed.”
A long, and I doubt not a mutually painful pause succeeded.
“Grace,” said I, at length--“I am not envious of this probable accession
of fortune to the Hardinges, but I think we should all have been much
more united--much happier--without it.”
My sister's colour left her face, she trembled all over, and she became
pale as death.
“You may be right, in some respects, Miles,” she answered, after a time.
“And, yet, it is hardly generous to think so. Why should we wish to
see our oldest friends; those who are so very dear to us, our excellent
guardian's children, less well off than we are ourselves? No doubt, no
doubt, it may seem better to _us_, that Clawbonny should be the castle
and we its possessors; but others have their rights and interests as
well as ourselves. Give the Hardinges money, and they will enjoy every
advantage known in this country--more than money can possibly give
us--why, then, ought we to be so selfish as to wish them deprived of
this advantage? Place Lucy where you will, she will always be Lucy; and,
as for Rupert, so brilliant a young man needs only an opportunity, to
rise to anything the country possesses!”
Grace was so earnest, spoke with so much feeling, appeared so
disinterested, so holy I had almost said, that I could not find, in my
heart, the courage to try her any farther. That she began to distrust
Rupert, I plainly saw, though it was merely with the glimmerings of
doubt. A nature as pure as her's, and a heart so true, admitted with
great reluctance, the proofs of the unworthiness of one so long loved.
It was evident, moreover, that she shrunk from revealing her own great
secret, while she had only conjectures to offer in regard to Lucy;
and even these she withheld, as due to her sex, and the obligations of
friendship. I forgot that I had not been ingenuous myself, and that
I made no communication to justify any confidence on the part of my
sister. That which would have been treachery in her to say, under this
state of the case, might have been uttered with greater frankness on
my own part. After a pause, to allow my sister to recover from her
agitation, I turned the discourse to our own more immediate family
interests, and soon got off the painful subject altogether.
“I shall be of age, Grace.” I said, in the course of my explanations,
“before you see me again. We sailors are always exposed to more chances
and hazards than people ashore; and, I now tell you, should anything
happen to me, my will may be found in my secretary; signed and sealed,
the day I attain my majority. I have given orders to have it drawn up
by a lawyer of eminence, and shall take it to sea with me, for that very
purpose.”
“From which I am to infer that I must not covet Clawbonny,” answered
Grace, with a smile that denoted how little she cared for the fact--“You
give it to our cousin, Jack Wallingford, as a male heir, worthy of
enjoying the honour.”
“No, dearest, I give it to _you_. It is true, the law would do this for
me; but I choose to let it be known that I wish it to be so. I am aware
my father made that disposition of the place, should I die childless,
before I became of age; but, once of age, the place is all mine; and
that which is all mine, shall be all thine, after I am no more.”
“This is melancholy conversation, and, I trust, useless. Under
the circumstances you mention, Miles, I never should have expected
Clawbonny, nor do I know I ought to possess it. It comes as much from
Jack Wallingford's ancestors, as from our own; and it is better it
should remain with the name. I will not promise you, therefore, I will
not give it to him, the instant I can.”
This Jack Wallingford, of whom I have not yet spoken, was a man of
five-and-forty, and a bachelor. He was a cousin-german of my father's,
being the son of a younger brother of my grandfather's, and somewhat of
a favourite. He had gone into what was called the new countries, in that
day, or a few miles west of Cayuga Bridge, which put him into Western
New York. I had never seen him but once and that was on a visit he paid
us on his return from selling quantities of pot and pearl ashes in town;
articles made oh his new lands. He was said to be a prosperous man, and
to stand little in need of the old paternal property.
After a little more conversation on the subject of my will, Grace and I
separated, each more closely bound to the other, I firmly believed,
for this dialogue in the “family room.” Never had my sister seemed more
worthy of all my love; and, certain I am, never did she possess more of
it. Of Clawbonny she was as sure, as my power over it could make her.
The remainder of the week passed as weeks are apt to pass in the
country, and in summer. Feeling myself so often uncomfortable in the
society of the girls, I was much in the fields; always possessing the
good excuse of beginning to look after my own affairs. Mr. Hardinge took
charge of the Major, an intimacy beginning to spring up between these
two respectable old men. There were, indeed, so many points of common
feeling, that such a result was not at all surprising. They both loved
the church--I beg pardon, the Holy Catholic Protestant Episcopal Church.
They both disliked Bonaparte--the Major hated him, but my guardian
hated nobody--both venerated Billy Pitt, and both fancied the French
Revolution was merely the fulfilment of prophecy, through the agency
of the devils. As we are now touching upon times likely to produce
important results, let me not be misunderstood. As an old man, aiming,
in a new sphere, to keep enlightened the generation that is coming into
active life, it may be necessary to explain. An attempt has been made
to induce the country to think that Episcopalian and tory were something
like synonymous terms, in the “times that tried men's souls.” This is
sufficiently impudent, _per se_, in a country that possessed Washington,
Jay, Hamilton, the Lees, the Morrises, the late Bishop White, and so
many other distinguished patriots of the Southern and Middle States;
but men are not particularly scrupulous when there is an object to be
obtained, even though it be pretended that Heaven is an incident of that
object. I shall, therefore, confine my explanations to what I have said
about Billy Pitt and the French.
The youth of this day may deem it suspicious that an Episcopal
divine--_Protestant_ Episcopal, I mean; but it is so hard to get the use
of new terms as applied to old thoughts, in the decline of life!--may
deem it suspicious that a Protestant Episcopal divine should care
anything about Billy Pitt, or execrate Infidel France; I will,
therefore, just intimate that, in 1802, no portion of the country dipped
more deeply into similar sentiments than the descendants of those who
first put foot on the rock of Plymouth, and whose progenitors had just
before paid a visit to Geneva, where, it is “said or sung,” they had
found a “church without a bishop, and a state without a king.” In a
word, admiration of Mr. Pitt, and execration of Bonaparte, were by no
means such novelties in America, in that day, as to excite wonder. For
myself, however, I can truly say, that, like most Americans who went
abroad in those stirring times, I was ready to say with Mercutio, “a
plague on both your houses;” for neither was even moderately honest, or
even decently respectful to ourselves. Party feeling, however, the most
inexorable, and the most unprincipled, of all tyrants, and the bane of
American liberty, notwithstanding all our boasting, decreed otherwise;
and, while one half the American republic was shouting hosannas to
the Great Corsican, the other half was ready to hail Pitt as the
“Heaven-born Minister.” The remainder of the nation felt and acted as
Americans should. It was my own private opinion, that France and England
would have been far better off, had neither of these worthies ever had a
being.
Nevertheless, the union of opinion between the divine and the Major, was
a great bond of union, in friendship. I saw they were getting on well
together, and let things take their course. As for Emily, I cared very
little about her, except as she might prove to be connected with Rupert,
and through Rupert, with the happiness of my sister. As for Rupert,
himself, I could not get entirely weaned from one whom I had so much
loved in boyhood; and who, moreover, possessed the rare advantage
of being Lucy's brother, and Mr. Hardinge's son. “Sidney's sister,
Pembroke's mother,” gave him a value in my eyes, that he had long ceased
to possess on his own account.
“You see, Neb,” I said, towards the end of the week, as the black and
I were walking up from the mill in company, “Mr. Rupert has altogether
forgotten that he ever knew the name of a rope in a ship. His hands are
as white as a young lady's!”
“Nebber mind dat, Masser Mile. Masser Rupert nebber feel a saterfaction
to be wracked away, or to be prisoner to Injin! Golly! No gentleum to be
envy, sir, 'em doesn't enjoy _dat!_”
“You have a queer taste. Neb, from all which I conclude you expect to
return to town with me, in the Wallingford, this evening, and to go out
in the Dawn?”
“Sartain, Masser Mile! How you t'ink of goin' to sea and leave nigger at
home?”
Here Neb raised such a laugh that he might have been heard a hundred
rods, seeming to fancy the idea he had suggested was so preposterous as
to merit nothing but ridicule.
“Well, Neb, I consent to your wishes; but this will be the last voyage
in which you will have to consult me on the subject, as I shall make out
your freedom papers, the moment I am of age.”
“What dem?” demanded the black, quick as lightning.
“Why, papers to make you your own master--a free man--you surely know
what that means. Did you never hear of free niggers?”
“Sartin--awful poor debble, dey be, too. You catch Neb, one day, at
being a free nigger, gib you leave to tell him of it, Masser Mile!”
Here was another burst of laughter, that sounded like a chorus in
merriment.
“This is a little extraordinary, Neb! I thought, boy, all slaves pined
for freedom?”
“P'rhaps so; p'rhaps not. What good he do, Masser Mile, when heart and
body well satisfy as it is. Now, how long a Wallingford family lib,
here, in dis berry spot?”--Neb always talked more like a “nigger,” when
within hearing of the household gods, than he did at sea.
“How long? About a hundred years, Neb--just one hundred and seven, I
believe; to be accurate.”
“And how long a Clawbonny family, at 'e same time, Masser Mile?”
“Upon my word, Neb, your pedigree is a little confused, and I cannot
answer quite as certainly. Eighty or ninety, though, I should think, at
least; and, possibly a hundred, too. Let me see--you called old Pompey
your grand-father; did you not, Neb?”
“Sart'in--berry good grandfader, too, Masser Mile. Ole Pomp a won'erful
black!”
“Oh! I say nothing touching the quality--I dare say he was as good as
another. Well, I think that I have heard old Pompey's grandfather was an
imported Guinea, and that he was purchased by my great-grandfather about
the year 1700.”
“Dat just as good as gospel! Who want to make up lie about poor debble
of nigger? Well, den, Masser Mile, in all dem 1700 year, did he ebber
hear of a Clawbonny that want to be a free nigger? Tell me dat, once,
an' I hab an answer.”
“You have asked me more than I can answer, boy; for, I am not in the
secret of your own wishes, much less in those of all your ancestors.”
Neb pulled off his tarpaulin, scratched his wool, rolled his black eyes
at me, as if he enjoyed the manner in which he had puzzled me; after
which he set off on a tumbling excursion, in the road, going like a
wheel on his hands and feet, showing his teeth like rows of pearls, and
concluding the whole with roar the third, that sounded as if the hills
and valleys were laughing, in the very fatness of their fertility. The
physical _tour de force,_ was one of those feats of agility in which Neb
had been my instructor, ten years before.
“S'pose I free, who do sich matter for you, Masser Mile?” cried Neb,
like one laying down an unanswerable proposition. “No, no, sir,--I
belong to you, you belong to me, and we belong to one anodder.”
This settled the matter for the present, and I said no more. Neb was
ordered to be in readiness for the next day; and at the appointed hour,
I met the assembled party to take my leave, on this, my third departure
from the roof of my fathers. It had been settled the Major and Emily
were to remain at the farm until July, when they were to proceed to the
Springs, for the benefit of the water, after living so long in a hot
climate. I had passed an hour with my guardian alone, and he had no
more to say, than to wish me well, and to bestow his blessing. I did not
venture an offer to embrace Lucy. It was the first time we had parted
without this token of affection; but I was shy, and I fancied she
was cold. She offered me her hand, as frankly as ever, however, and I
pressed it fervently, as I wished her adieu. As for Grace, she wept
in my arms, just as she had always done, and the Major and Emily shook
hands cordially with me, it being understood I should find them in New
York, at my return. Rupert accompanied me down to the sloop.
“If you should find an occasion, Miles, let us hear from you,” said
my old friend. “I have a lively curiosity to learn something of the
Frenchmen; nor am I entirely without the hope of soon gratifying the
desire, in person.”
“You!--If you have any intention to visit France, what better
opportunity, than to go in my cabin? Is it business, that will take you
there?”
“Not at all; pure pleasure. Our excellent cousin thinks a gentleman of a
certain class ought to travel; and I believe she has an idea of getting
me attached to the legation, in some form or other.”
This sounded so odd to me! Rupert Hardinge, who had not one penny to rub
against another, so lately, was now talking of his European tour, and of
legations! I ought to have been glad of his good fortune, and I fancied
I was. I said nothing, this time, concerning his taking up any portion
of my earnings, having the sufficient excuse of not being on pay myself.
Rupert did not stay long in the sloop, and we were soon under way. I
looked eagerly along the high banks of the creek, fringed as it was with
bushes, in hopes of seeing Grace, at least; nor was I disappointed.
She and Lucy had taken a direct path to the point where the two waters
united, and were standing there, as the sloop dropped past. They both
waved their handkerchiefs, in a way to show the interest they felt in
me; and I returned the parting salutations by kissing my hand again
and again. At this instant, a sail-boat passed our bows, and I saw
a gentleman standing up in it, waving his handkerchief, quite as
industriously as I was kissing my hand. A look told me it was Andrew
Drewett, who directed his boat to the point, and was soon making his
bows to the girls in person. His boat ascended the creek, no doubt with
his luggage; while the last I saw of the party it was walking off in
company, taking the direction of the house.