IN THE NEW GRAY DAWN
My anxious glance wandered from the face I so dearly loved, out where
those dark restless waters merged into the brooding mystery of the
black night. How unspeakably dreary, lonely, hopeless it all was!
Into what tragic unknown fate had this earliest comrade of my manhood
been remorselessly swept? Was all indeed well with him? or had the
Nemesis of a wrong once done dealt its fatal stroke at last? The
voices of the night were silent; the chambers of the great tossing sea
hid their secret well. Had this gallant and reckless young soldier of
France, this petted courtier of the gayest court in Europe, whose very
name and rank I knew not, succeeded in his desperate deed? Had he
reached yonder blood-stained shore, lined with infuriated savages, and
found safe passage through them to the side of the woman he had once
called wife, and then forgotten? Or had he found, instead, the solemn
peace of death, amid the swirling waters of this vast inland sea, so
many leagues to the westward of that sunny land he loved? These were
the thoughts that shook me, as I leaned out above the rail, her dear
hand always on my shoulder. Never have the circling years found voice,
nor the redeemed wilderness made answer.
"Possibly it might be done," I admitted slowly. "'T is scarce farther
than I swam just now, and he is neither weary nor wounded."
We all realised it was a useless peril to remain there longer, and I
sat at the helm and watched, while Burns, who developed considerable
knowledge in such matters, fitted the heavy sail in place. With the
North Star over the water for our guidance, I headed the blunt nose of
the boat due eastward into the untracked waters.
I confess that my memory was still lingering upon De Croix, and my eyes
turned often enough along our foam-flecked wake in vague wonderment at
his fate. It was Mademoiselle who laid hand softly on my knee at last,
and aroused my attention to her.
"Why did you tell Sister Celeste that you came to Dearborn seeking Elsa
Matherson?" she questioned, her clear eyes intently reading my face.
"I had even forgotten that I mentioned it," I answered, surprised at
this query at such a time. "But it is strictly true. While upon his
death-bed Elsa Matherson's father wrote to mine,--they were old
comrades in the great war,--and I was sent hither to bring the orphan
girl eastward. I sought her as a brother might seek a sister he had
never seen, Mademoiselle; yet have failed most miserably in my mission."
"How failed?"
"In that I have found no trace of the girl, and beyond doubt she
perished in the massacre. I know not how, but I have been strangely
baffled and misled from the first in my search for her, and it was all
to no purpose."
For the first time since I had fallen dripping into the boat, a slight
smile was visible in the dark eyes fronting me.
"Why hid you from me with such care the object of your search?"
"I hid nothing, Mademoiselle. We spoke together about it often."
"Ay, indeed you told me you sought a young girl, and your words led me
to think at first it must be Josette, and later still the Indian
missionary. But not once did you breathe the name of the girl in my
ears. The dwellers at Dearborn were neither so many nor so strange to
me that I could not have aided you in your search."
"You knew this Elsa Matherson?"
"I am not so sure of that, Master Wayland." she returned gravely, her
eyes wandering into the night. "Once I thought I did, but she has
changed so greatly in the last few days that I am hardly sure. A young
girl's life is often filled with mystery, and there are happenings that
turn girlhood to womanhood in a single hour. Love has power to change
the nature as by magic, and sorrow also has a like rare gift. Do you
still greatly wish to find this Elsa Matherson?"
"To find her?" and I gazed about me incredulously into those flitting
shadows where the waves raced by. "Ay, for I have dreamed of her as of
a lost sister, and it will sadly grieve those at home to have me return
thus empty-handed. Yet the thought is foolishness, Mademoiselle, and I
understand not why you should mock me so."
She drew closer, in the gentle caressing way she had, and found my
disengaged hand, her sweet face held upward so that I could mark every
changing expression.
"Never in my useless life was I farther removed from any spirit of
mockery," she insisted, soberly; "for never before have I seen the
presence of God so clearly manifest in His mysterious guidance of men.
You, who sought after poor Elsa Matherson in this wilderness, looking
perchance for a helpless orphan child, have been led to pluck me in
safety out from savage hands, and yet never once dreamed that in doing
so you only fulfilled your earlier mission."
I stared at her, grasping with difficulty the full significance of her
speech.
"Your words puzzle me."
"Nay, they need not," and I caught the sudden glitter of tears on her
lashes; "for I am Elsa Matherson."
"You? you?" and I crushed her soft hand within my fingers, as I peered
forward at the quickly lowered face. "Why, you are French,
Mademoiselle, and of a different name!"
She glanced up now into my puzzled face, a bit shyly, yet with some of
the old roguishness visible in her eyes.
"My mother was indeed French, but my father was an American soldier,"
she said rapidly, as if eager to have the explanation ended. "You
never asked my name, save that one night when we first met amid the
sand, and then I gave you only that by which I have been most widely
known. None except my father ever called me Elsa; to all others I was
always Toinette. But I am Roger Matherson's only child."
It was clear enough now, and the deception had been entirely my own,
rendered possible by strange chances of omission, by rare negligence of
speech--aided by my earlier impression that she whom I sought was a
mere child.
"And 't was Sister Celeste who told you whom I sought?" I asked, for
lack of courage to say more.
"Yes, to-night, while we waited for you beside the ruins of the old
factory. Oh, how far away it all seems now!" and she pointed backward
across the voters. "Poor, poor girl! Poor Captain de Croix! Oh, it
is all so sad, so unutterably sad to me! I knew them both so well,
Monsieur," and she rested her bowed head upon one hand, staring out
into the night, and speaking almost as if to herself alone; "yet I
never dreamed that he was a nobleman of France, or that he had married
Marie Faneuf. She was so sweet a girl then,--and now to be buried
alive in that wilderness! Think you that he truly loved her?"
"I almost have faith that he did, Mademoiselle," I answered gravely.
"He was greatly changed from his first sight of her face, though he was
a difficult man to gauge in such matters. There was a time when I
believed him in love with you."
She tossed her head.
"Nay," she answered, "he merely thought he was, because he found me
hard to understand and difficult of conquest; but 't was little more
than his own vanity that drew him hither. I trust it may be the deeper
feeling that has taken him back now in face of death to Marie."
"You have indeed proved hard to understand by more than one," I
ventured, for in spite of her graciousness the old wound rankled. "It
has puzzled me much to understand how you so gaily sent me forth to a
mission that might mean death, to save this Captain de Croix."
It was a foolish speech, and she met it bravely, with heightened color
and a flash of dark eyes.
"'T was no more than the sudden whim of a girl," she answered quickly,
"and regretted before you were out of sight. Nor did I dream you would
meet my conditions by such a sacrifice."
"You showed small interest as you stood on the stockade when we went
forth!"
"You mean when Captain de Croix and I leaned above the eastern
palisades?"
"Ay, not once did your eyes wander to mark our progress."
Her eyes were smiling now, and her face archly uplifted.
"Indeed, Master Wayland, little you know of the struggles of my heart
during that hour. Nor will I tell you; for the secrets of a girl must
be her own. But I marked each step you took onward toward the Indian
camp, until the night hid you,--the night, or else the gathering tears
in my eyes."
The sudden yawing of the boat before a gust of wind drew my thought
elsewhere, and kept back the words ready upon my tongue. When once
more I had my bearings and had turned back the plunging bow, she sat
silent, deep in thought that I hesitated to disturb. Soon I noted her
head droop slightly to the increased movement of the boat.
"You are worn out!" I said tenderly. "Lean here against me, and sleep."
"Indeed, I feel most weary," was her drowsy reply. "Yes, I will rest
for a few moments."
How clear remains the memory of those hours, while I sat watchful of
the helm, her head resting peacefully on my lap, and all about us those
lonely tossing waters! What a mere chip was our boat in the midst of
that desolate sea; how dark and dreary the changeless night shadows!
Over and over again I pictured the details of each scene I have here
set forth so poorly, to dream at the end of a final homecoming which
should not be alone. It was with heart thankful to God, that I watched
the slow stealing upward of the gray dawn as the early rays of light
crept toward us across the heaving of the waters. It was typical of
all I had hoped,--this, and the black shadows fleeing away into the
west. Brighter and brighter grew the crimsoning sky over the boat's
bow, where Burns lay sleeping, until my eyes could distinguish a
far-off shore-line heavily crowned with trees. I thought to rouse her
to the glorious sight; but even as I glanced downward into the fair
young face, her dark eyes opened in instant smile of greeting.
"'T is the morning," she said gladly, "and that dark, dark night has
passed away."
"For ever, Mademoiselle; and there is even a land of promise to be seen
out yonder!"
She sat up quickly, shading her eyes with her hand as she gazed with
eagerness toward where I pointed.
"Think you we shall find shelter and friends there?"
"The half-breed chief said there were yet white settlers upon the Saint
Joseph, Mademoiselle; and the mouth of that river should be easily
found."
She turned toward me, a slight frown darkening her face.
"I wish you would not call me Mademoiselle," she said slowly. "It is
as if we were still mere strangers; and you said Elsa Matherson was to
be as your sister."
I bent over her suddenly, all my repressed love glowing in my face.
"Toinette!" I whispered passionately, "I would call you by a dearer
name than that,--by the dearest of all dear names if I might, for you
have won my heart in the wilderness."
For a single instant she glanced shyly up into my face, her own crimson
at my sudden ardor. Her eyes drooped and hid themselves behind their
long lashes.
"Those who sent you forth seeking a sister might not thus wish to
welcome Elsa Matherson," she said softly.
"'Tis a venture I most gladly make," I insisted, "and would seal it
with a kiss."
Her eyes flashed up at me, full of sudden merriment.
"The unpaid wager leaves me helpless to resist, Monsieur."
* * * * * *
The soft haze of Indian summer rested over the valley of the Maumee.
We rode slowly along the narrow winding trail that hugged the river
bank; for our journey had been a long one, and the horses were wearied.
Burns was riding just in advance of Toinette and me, his cap pulled low
over his eyes, his new growth of hair standing out stiff and black
beneath its covering. Once he twisted his seamed face about in time to
catch us smiling at his odd figure, and growled to himself as he kicked
at his horse's flanks.
It was thus we rounded the bend and saw before us the little clearing
with the cabin in the centre of its green heart. At sight of it my
eyes grew moist and I rested my fingers gently upon the white hand that
lay against her saddle-pommel.
"Fear not, dear heart!" I whispered tenderly.
"It is home for both alike, and the welcome of love awaits you as well
as me."
She glanced up at me, half shyly as in the old way, and there was a
mist of tears clinging to the long lashes.
"Those who love you, John, I will love," she said solemnly.
It was Rover who saw us first, and came charging forth with savage
growl and ruffled fur, until he scented me, and changed his fierceness
into barks of frantic welcome. Then it was I saw them, even as when I
last rode forth, my father seated in his great splint chair, my mother
with her arm along the carved back, one hand shading her eyes as she
watched our coming.
This is not a memory to be written about for stranger eyes to read, but
as I turned from them after that first greeting, their glances were
upon her who stood waiting beside me, so sweet and pure in her young
womanhood.
"And this, my son?" questioned my father kindly. "We would bid her
welcome also; yet surely she cannot be that little child for whose sake
we sent you forth?"
I took her by the hand as we faced them.
"You sent me in search of one whom you would receive even as your own
child," I answered simply. "This is Roger Matherson's daughter, and
the dear wife of your son."
What need have I to dwell upon the love that bade her welcome? And so
it was that out of all the suffering and danger,--forth from the valley
of the shadow of death,--Toinette and I came home.