CHAPTER XXVIII.

YOU might have read in this morning’s _Englishman_, in the list of

passengers booked per P. and O. steamer _Ganges_, sailing 3d April, “Mr.

and Mrs. Perth Macintyre and Miss Macalister, for Brindisi.” Miss

Macalister is a niece of the Perth Macintyres. She has been out two

years and a half, and, so far as her opportunities are concerned, we

have nothing to reproach ourselves with. For the first time in fifteen

years we have attended the subscription dances to take her, and did not

shirk the fancy dress ball, Mr. Perth Macintyre going as Falstaff, for

her sake. At our time of life this is a great deal of exertion for a

niece, and I consider, if such things are possible, Mr. Perth

Macintyre’s deceased sister ought to have felt gratification at what we

did. Nevertheless, I have not had occasion to mention Miss Macalister

before, and it is only in connection with her return-ticket that I

mention her now. It represents an outlay which we did not expect to be

obliged to make.

We are due in England about the 1st of May, when we will endeavour to

find the warmest south wall in Devonshire—I shiver at the thought—and

hang ourselves up on it. As the summer advances and the conditions of

temperature in Great Britain become less severe, we will make an effort

to visit the parental Peacheys in Canbury, if neither of us have

previously succumbed to influenza; in which case the box of chutneys and

guava jelly that the Brownes have charged us to deliver will be sent by

luggage train. The survivor—we expect there will be at least a temporary

survivor—is to attend to this.

It will make a difference to the Brownes, our going, the difference of a

junior partnership; and although I hope I have a correct idea of the

charms of our society, I fully expect that their grief at our departure

will be tempered by this consideration. Some one of our administrators

is always being quoted in the newspapers as having called India “a land

of regrets.” It is to be feared, however, that the regrets are felt

exclusively by those who are going. The satisfactions of retirement are

obscure, and the prospect of devoting a shrunken end of existence to the

solicitous avoidance of bronchitis is not inviting. Whereas it is always

to somebody’s profit that an Englishman leaves India, and he is so

accustomed to the irony of the idea of being his own chief mourner, that

he would suspect the deeply-afflicted at his going of more than the

usual manœuvres to obtain his shoes. The Brownes are very pleased,

undisguisedly very pleased, though Mrs. Browne has condoled with me

sincerely, in private, on the subject of Miss Macalister; and we quite

understand it.

There is nothing, on the other hand, to mitigate our regret at parting

with the Brownes, which is lively. I may not have been able to make it

plain in these few score pages, but I like the Brownes. They are nice

young people, and my advice has been so often useful to them. As the

wife of the junior partner in Macintyre and Macintyre’s, Mrs. Browne

will be obliged to depend upon her own for the future; but I am leaving

her a good deal to go on with, and a certain proportion of our

drawing-room furniture as well, which she will find equally useful. I

inherited it myself from Mrs. J. Macintyre; it has been a long time in

the firm. Further, we have put off sailing for a fortnight so that I can

be godmother in person to the Browne baby, for whose prospective future

I knitted fifteen pairs of socks this last cold weather; and that I

consider the final proof of our regard.

If it is necessary to explain my interest in these young Brownes, which

you, I regret to think, may find inexplicable, it lies, I dare say, as

much in this departure of ours as in anything else. Their first chapter

has been our last. When you turn down the page upon the Brownes you

close the book upon the Perth Macintyres, and it has been pleasant to me

that our story should find its end in the beginning of theirs. If this

is not excuse enough, there is a sentimental one besides. For I also

have seen a day when the spell of India was strong upon my youth, when I

saw romance under a turban and soft magic behind a palm, and found the

most fascinating occupation in life to be the wasting of my husband’s

substance among the gabbling thieves of the China bazar. It was all new

to me once—I had forgotten how new until I saw the old novelty in the

eyes of Helen Browne. Then I thought of reading the first pages of the

Anglo-Indian book again with those young eyes of hers; and as I have

read I have re-written, and interleaved, as you see. It may be that they

will give warning to some and encouragement to others. I don’t mind

confessing that to me they have brought chiefly a gay reminder of a time

when pretty little subalterns used to trip over their swords to dance

with young Mrs. Perth Macintyre also, which seems quite a ludicrous

thing to print—and that has been enough.

I think she will avoid the graver perils of memsahibship, Mrs. Browne. I

think she will always be a nice little woman. George and the baby will

take care of that. With the moderate social facilities of the wife of a

junior partner in Macintyre and Macintyre’s, she will not be likely even

to make the acquaintance of the occasional all-conquering lady who

floats on the surface of Anglo-Indian society disreputably fair, like

the Victoria Regia in the artificial lake of the Eden Gardens. As to the

emulation of such a one, I believe it is not in the power of

circumstances to suggest it to Mrs. Browne. Besides, she is not clever,

and the Victoria Regia must be clever, clever all round, besides having

a specialty in the souls of men.

Nevertheless, Mrs. Browne has become a memsahib, graduated, qualified,

sophisticated. That was inevitable. I have watched it come to pass with

a sense that it could not be prevented. She has lost her pretty colour,

that always goes first, and has gained a shadowy ring under each eye,

that always comes afterwards. She is thinner than she was, and has

acquired nerves and some petulance. Helen Peachey had the cerebral

placidity and good temper of one of Fra Angelico’s piping angels. To

make up, she dresses her hair more elaborately, and crowns it with a

little bonnet which is somewhat extravagantly “chic.” She has fallen

into a way of crossing her knees in a low chair that would horrify her

Aunt Plovtree, and a whole set of little feminine Anglo-Indian poses

have come to her naturally. There is a shade of assertion about her chin

that was not there in England, and her eyes—ah, the pity of this!—have

looked too straight into life to lower themselves as readily as they did

before. She has come into an empire among her husband’s bachelor

friends, to whom she will continue to give gracious little orders for

ten years yet, if she does not go off too shockingly; and her interests

have expanded to include a great many sub-masculine ones, which she

discusses with them in brief and casual sentences interspersed with

smiles that are a little tired. Without being actually slangy she takes

the easiest word and the shortest cut—in India we know only the

necessities of speech, we do not really talk, even in the cold weather.

[Illustration: SHE HAS FALLEN INTO A WAY OF CROSSING HER KNEES IN A LOW

CHAIR THAT WOULD HORRIFY HER AUNT PLOVTREE.]

Domesticity has slipped away from Mrs. Browne, though she held it very

tightly for a while, into the dusky hands whose business is with the

house of the sahib. She and young Browne and the baby continue to be

managed by Kasi with a skill that deceives them into thinking themselves

comfortable, and Helen continues to predict with confidence that next

month there will be a balance in her favour instead of Kasi’s. On the

contrary, the accounts will show that the Brownes have had all they

wanted to eat and drink, that the dhoby has been paid, the memsahib has

had a rupee’s worth of postage stamps, and there is one anna and six

pices to pay to Kasi.

It was a very little splash that submerged Mrs. Browne in Anglo-India,

and there is no longer a ripple to tell about it. I don’t know that life

has contracted much for her. I doubt if it was ever intended to hold

more than young Browne and the baby—but it has changed. Affairs that are

not young Browne’s or the baby’s touch her little. Her world is the

personal world of Anglo-India, and outside of it, except in affection of

Canbury, I believe she does not think at all. She is growing dull to

India, too, which is about as sad a thing as any. She sees no more the

supple savagery of the Pathan in the market-place, the bowed reverence

of the Mussulman praying in the sunset, the early morning mists lifting

among the domes and palms of the city. She has acquired for the Aryan

inhabitant a certain strong irritation, and she believes him to be nasty

in all his ways. This will sum up her impressions of India as completely

years hence as it does to-day. She is a memsahib like another.

Her mother still occasionally refers to the reports of the Society for

the Propagation of the Gospel that reach them in Canbury, and freely

supposes that the active interest her daughter took in Indian Missions

has increased and intensified in India. In reply, Helen is obliged to

take refuge in general terms, and has always discreetly refrained from

mentioning the prejudice that exists in Calcutta against Christian

cooks.

I hope she may not stay twenty-two years. Anglo-Indian tissues, material

and spiritual, are apt to turn in twenty-two years to a substance

somewhat resembling cork. And I hope she will not remember so many dead

faces as I do when she goes away—dead faces and palm fronds grey with

the powder of the wayside, and clamorous voices of the bazar crying,

“_Here iz! memsahib! Here iz!_”...

So let us go our several ways. This is a dusty world. We drop down the

river with the tide to-night. We shall not see the red tulip blossoms of

the silk cottons fall again.

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Transcriber’s note:

○ Missing or obscured punctuation was corrected.

○ Unpaired quotation marks were left as the author intended.

○ Typographical errors were silently corrected.

○ Inconsistent spelling and hyphenation were made consistent when a

predominant form was found in this book; otherwise it was not

changed.

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