WAITING AND WEARY.

"Oh! for the strength of God's right hand! the way is hard and dreary,

Through Him to walk and not to faint, to run and not be weary!"

E.L. Marzials.

We left the Royal party in conversation in the chamber at Westminster.

"Have you quite resolved, Sire, to expel all the Jews from England?"

asked De Valence.

"Resolved? Yes; I hope it is half done," replied the King. "You are

aware, fair Uncle, that our Commons voted us a fifteenth on this

condition?"

"No, I did not hear that," said De Valence.

"How many are there of those creatures?" inquired Lancaster.

"How should I know?" returned Edward, with an oath. "I only know that

the Chancellor said the houses and goods were selling well to our

profit."

"Fifteen thousand and sixty, my Lord of Surrey told me," said Lancaster.

"I doubted if it were not too high a computation; that is why I asked."

"Oh, very likely not," responded Edward, carelessly. "There are as many

of them as gnats, and as much annoyance."

"Well, it is a pious deed, of course," said Lancaster, stroking his

moustache, not in the dilettante style of De Echingham, but like a man

lost in thought. "It seems a pity, though, for the women and children."

"My cousin of Lancaster, I do believe, sings _Dirige_ over the chickens

in his barnyard," sneered De Valence.

Lancaster looked up with a good-tempered smile.

"Does my fair Uncle never wish for the day when the lion shall eat straw

like the ox?" [Note 1.]

"Not I!" cried De Valence, with a hearty laugh. "Why, what mean you?

are we to dine on a haunch of lion when it comes?"

"Nay, for that were to make us worse than either, methinks. I suppose

we shall give over eating what has had life, at that time."

"_Merci, mille fois_!" laughed his uncle. "My dinner will be spoiled.

Not thine, I dare say. I'll be bound, Sire, our fair cousin will munch

his apples and pears with all the gusto in the world, and send his

squire to the stable to inquire if the lion has a straw doubled under

him."

"Bah!" said the King. "What are you talking about?"

"How much will this business of the Jews cost your Grace?" asked De

Valence, dropping his sarcasms.

"Cost _me_?" demanded Edward, with a short laugh. "Did our fair uncle

imagine we meant to execute such a project at our own expense? Let the

rogues pay their own travelling fees."

"Ha! good!" said the Poitevin noble. "And our fair cousin of Lancaster

shall chant the _De Profundis_ while they embark, and I will offer a

silver fibula to Saint Edward that they may all be drowned. How sayest,

fair Cousin?"

"Nay," was Lancaster's answer, in a doubtful tone. "I reckon we ought

not to pity them, being they that crucified our Lord. But--"

But for all that, his heart cried out against his creed. Yet it did not

occur to him that the particular men who were being driven from their

homes for no fault of theirs, and forced with keen irony of oppression

to pay their own expenses, were not those who crucified Christ, but were

removed from them by many generations. The times of the Gentiles were

not yet fulfilled, and the cry, "His blood be on us, _and on our

children_" had not yet exhausted its awful power.

There was one person not present who would heartily have agreed with

Lancaster. This was his cousin and namesake, Edmund, Earl of Cornwall,

who not only felt for the lower animals--a rare yet occasional state of

mind in the thirteenth century--but went further, and compassionated the

villeins--a sentiment which very few indeed would have dreamed of

sharing with him. The labourers on the land were serfs, and had no

feelings,--that is, none that could be recognised by the upper classes.

They were liable to be sold with the land which they tilled; nor could

they leave their "hundred" without a passport. Their sons might not be

educated to anything but agriculture; their daughters could not be

married without paying a fine to the master. Worse things than these

are told of some, for of course the condition of the serf largely

depended on the disposition of his owner.

The journey from Oakham to Westminster was a pleasant change to all the

bower-maidens but one, and that was the one selected to travel with her

mistress in the litter. Each was secretly, if not openly, hoping not to

be that one; and it was with no little trepidation that Clarice received

the news that this honour was to be conferred on her. She discovered,

however, on the journey, that scolding was not the perpetual occupation

of the Countess. She spent part of every day in telling her beads, part

in reading books woefully dry to the apprehension of Clarice, and part

in sleeping, which not unfrequently succeeded the beads. Conversation

she never attempted, and Clarice, who dared not speak till she was

spoken to, began to entertain a fear of losing the use of her tongue.

Otherwise she was grave and quiet enough, poor girl! for she was not

naturally talkative. She was very sorry to part with Heliet, and she

felt, almost without knowing why, some apprehension concerning the

future. Sentiments of this sort were quite unknown to such girls as

Elaine, Diana, and Roisia, while with Olympias they arose solely from

delicate health. But Clarice was made of finer porcelain, and she could

not help mournfully feeling that she had not a friend in the world. Her

father and mother were not friends; they were strangers who might be

expected to do what they thought best for her, just as the authorities

of a workhouse might take conscientious care in the apprenticing of the

workhouse girls. But no more could be expected, and Clarice felt it.

If there had only been, anywhere in the world, somebody who loved her!

There was no such probability to which it was safe to look forward.

Possibly, some twenty or thirty years hence, some of her children might

love her. As for her husband, he was simply an embarrassing future

certainty, who--with almost equal certainty--would not care a straw

about her. That was only to be expected. The squire who liked Roisia

would be pretty sure to get Diana; while the girl who admired Reginald

de Echingham was safe to fall to Fulk de Chaucombe. Things always were

arranged so in this world. Perhaps, thought Clarice, those girls were

the happiest who did not care, who took life as it came, and made all

the fun they could out of it. But she knew well that this was how life

and she would never take each other.

Whitehall was reached at last, on that eve of Saint Botolph. Clarice

was excessively tired, and only able to judge of the noise without, and

the superb decorations and lofty rooms within. Lofty, be it remembered,

to her eyes; they would not look so to ours. She supped upon salt

merling [whiting], pease-cods [green peas], and stewed fruit, and was

not sorry to get to bed.

In the morning, she found the household considerably increased. Her

eyes were almost dazzled by the comers and goers; and she really noticed

only one person. Two young knights were among the new attendants of the

Earl, but one of them Clarice could not have distinguished from the

crowd. The other had attracted her notice by coming forward to help the

Countess from her litter, and, instead of attending his mistress

further, had, rather to Clarice's surprise, turned to help _her_. And

when she looked up to thank him, it struck her that his face was like

somebody she knew. She did not discover who it was till Roisia

observed, while the girls were undressing, that--"My cousin is growing a

beard, I declare. He had none the last time I saw him."

"Which is thy cousin?" asked Clarice.

"Why, Piers Ingham," said Roisia. "He that helped my Lady from the

litter."

"Oh, is he thy cousin?" responded Clarice.

"By the mother's side," answered Roisia. "He hath but been knighted

this last winter."

"Then he is just ready for a wife," said Elaine. "I wonder which of us

it will be! It is tolerably sure to be one. I say, maids, I mean to

have a jolly time of it while we are here! It shall go hard with me if

I do not get promoted to be one of the Queen's bower-women!"

"Oh, would I?" interpolated Diana.

"Why?" asked more than one voice.

"I am sure," said Olympias, "I had ever so much rather be under the Lady

Queen than our Lady."

"Oh, that may be," said Diana. "I was not looking at it in that light.

There is some amusement in deceiving our Lady, and one doesn't feel it

wrong, because she is such a vixen; but there would be no fun in taking

in the Queen, she's too good."

"I wonder what Father Bevis would say to that doctrine," demurely

remarked Elaine. "What it seems to mean is, that a lie is not such a

bad thing if you tell it to a bad person as it would be if you told it

to a good one. Now I doubt if Father Bevis would be quite of that

opinion."

"Don't talk nonsense," was Diana's reply.

"Well, but is it nonsense? Didst thou mean that?"

It was rather unusual for Elaine thus to satirise Diana, and looked as

if the two had changed characters, especially when Diana walked away,

muttering something which no one distinctly heard.

Elaine proved herself a tolerably true prophetess. _Fete_ followed

_fete_. Clarice found herself initiated into Court circles, and

discovered that she was enjoying herself very much. But whether the

attraction lay in the pageants, in the dancing, in her own bright array,

or in the companionship, she did not pause to ask herself. Perhaps if

she had paused, and made the inquiry, she might have discovered that

life had changed to her since she came to Westminster. The things

eternal, of which Heliet alone had spoken to her, had faded away into

far distance; they had been left behind at Oakham. The things temporal

were becoming everything.

In a stone balcony overhanging the Thames, at Whitehall, sat Earl Edmund

of Cornwall, in a thoughtful attitude, resting his head upon his hand.

He had been alone for half an hour, but now a tall man in a Dominican

habit, who was not Father Bevis, came round the corner of the balcony,

which ran all along that side of the house. He was the Prior or Rector

of Ashridge, a collegiate community, founded by the Earl himself, of

which we shall hear more anon.

The Friar sat down on the stone bench near the Earl, who took no further

notice of him than by a look, his eyes returning to dreamy contemplation

of the river.

"Of what is my Lord thinking?" asked the Friar, gently.

"Of life," said the Prince.

"Not very hopefully, I imagine."

"The hope comes at the beginning, Father. Look at yonder pleasure-boat,

with the lads and lasses in it, setting forth for a row. There is hope

enough in their faces. But when the journey comes near its end, and the

perilous bridge must be shot, and the night is setting in, what you see

in the faces then will not be hope. It will be weariness; perhaps

disgust and sorrow. And--in some voyages, the hope dies early."

"True--if it has reference only to the day."

"Ah," responded the Prince, with a smile which had more sadness than

mirth in it, "you mean to point me to the hope beyond. But the day is

long Father. The night has not come yet, and the bridge is still to be

shot. Ay, and the wind and rain are cold, as one drops slowly down the

river."

"There is home at the end, nevertheless," answered the Dominican. "When

we sit round the fire in the banquet hall, and all we love are round us,

and the doors shut safe, we shall easily forget the cold wind on the

water."

"When! Yes. But I am on the water yet, and it may be some hours before

my barge is moored at the garden steps. And--it is always the same,

Father. It does seem strange, when there is only one earthly thing for

which a man cares, that God should deny him that one thing. Why rouse

the hope which is never to be fulfilled? If the width of the world had

lain all our lives between me and my Lady, we should both have been

happier. Why should God bring us together to spoil each other's lives?

For I dare say she is as little pleased with her lot as I with mine--

poor Magot!"

"Will my Lord allow me to alter the figure he has chosen?" said the

Predicant Friar. "Look at your own barge moored down below. If the

rope were to break, what would become of the barge?"

"It would drift down the river."

"And if there were in it a little child, alone, too young to have either

skill or strength to steer it, what would become of him when the barge

shot the bridge?"

"Poor soul!--destruction, without question."

"And what if my Lord be that little child, safe as yet in the barge

which the Master has tied fast to the shore? The rope is his trouble.

What if it be his safety also? He would like far better to go drifting

down, amusing himself with the strange sights while daylight lasted; but

when night came, and the bridge to be passed, how then? Is it not

better to be safe moored, though there be no beauty or variety in the

scene?"

"Nay, Father, but is there no third way? Might the bridge not be passed

in safety, and the child take his pleasure, and yet reach home well and

sound?"

"Some children," said the Predicant Friar, with a tender intonation.

"But not that child."

The Earl was silent. The Prior softly repeated a text of Scripture.

"Endure chastisement. As sons God dealeth with you; what son then is

he, whom the Father chasteneth not?" [Hebrews 12, verse 7, Vulgate

version.]

A low, half-repressed sigh from his companion reminded the Prior that he

was touching a sore place. One of the Prince's bitterest griefs was his

childlessness. [He has told us so himself.] The Prior tacked about, and

came into deeper water.

"`Nor have we a High Priest who cannot sympathise with our infirmities,

for He was tempted in all things like us, except in sinning.'" [Hebrews

4, verse 15, Vulgate version.]

"If one could see!" said the Earl, almost in a whisper.

"It would be easier, without doubt. Yet `blessed are they who see not,

and believe.' God can see. I would rather He saw and not I, than--if

such a thing were possible--that I saw and not He. Whether is better,

my Lord, that the father see the danger and guard the child without his

knowing anything, or that the child see it too, and have all the pain

and apprehension consequent upon the seeing? The blind has the

advantage, sometimes."

"Yet who would wish to be blind on that account?" answered the Earl,

quickly.

"No man could wish it, nor need he. Only, the blind man may take the

comfort of it."

"But you have not answered one point, Father. Why does God rouse

longings in our hearts which He never means to fulfil?"

"Does God rouse them?"

"Are they sin, then?"

"No," answered the Prior, slowly, as if he were thinking out the

question, and had barely reached the answer. "I dare not say that.

They are nature. Some, I know, would have all that is nature to be sin;

but I doubt if God treats it thus in His Word. Still, I question if He

raises those longings. He allows them. Man raises them."

"Does He never guide them?"

"Yes, that I think He does."

"Then the question comes to the same thing. Why does God not guide us

to long for the thing that He means to give us?"

"He very often does."

"Then," pursued the Earl, a little impatiently, "why does He not turn us

away from that which He does not intend us to have?"

"My Lord," said the Predicant, gravely, "from the day of his fall, man

has always been asking God _why_. He will probably go on doing it to

the day of the dissolution of all things. But I do not observe that God

has ever yet answered the question."

"It is wrong to ask it, then, I suppose," said the Earl, with a weary

sigh.

"It is not faith that wants to know why. `He that believeth hasteneth

not.' [Isaiah 28, verse 16, Vulgate version.] `What I do, thou knowest

not now; but thou shalt know hereafter.' [John 13 verse 7.] We can

afford to wait, my Lord."

"Easily enough," replied the Earl, with feeling, "if we knew it would

come right in the end."

"It will come as He would have it who laid down His life that you should

live for ever. Is that not enough for my Lord?"

Perhaps the Prince felt it enough. At all events, he gave no answer.

"Well, that is not my notion of going comfortably through life!"

observed Miss Elaine Criketot, in a decided tone. "My idea is to pull

all the plums out of the cake, and leave the hard crusts for those that

like them."

"Does anybody like them?" laughingly asked Clarice.

"Well, for those who need them, then. Plenty of folks in this world are

glad of hard crusts or anything else."

"Thy metaphor is becoming rather confused," observed Diana.

"Dost thou not think, Elaine Criketot, that it might be only fair to

leave a few plums for those whose usual fare is crusts? A crust now and

then would scarcely hurt the dainty damsels who commonly regale

themselves on plums."

It was a fourth voice which said this--a voice which nobody expected,

and the sound of which brought all the girls to their feet in an

instant.

"Most certainly, Lord Earl," replied Elaine, courtesying low; "but I

hope they would be somebody else's plums than mine."

"I see," said the Earl, with that sparkle of fun in his eyes, which they

all knew. "Self-denial is a holy and virtuous quality, to be cultivated

by all men--except me. Well, we might all subscribe that creed with

little sacrifice. But then where would be the self-denial?"

"Please it the Lord Earl, it might be practised by those who liked it."

"I should be happy to hear of any one who liked self-denial," responded

the Earl, laughing. "Is that not a contradiction in terms?"

Elaine was about to make a half-saucy answer, mixed sufficiently with

reverence to take away any appearance of offence, when a sight met her

eyes which struck her into silent horror. In the doorway, looking a

shade more acetous than usual, stood Lady Margaret. It was well known

to all the bower-maidens of the Countess of Cornwall that there were two

crimes on her code which were treated as capital offences. Laughing was

the less, and being caught in conversation with a man was the greater.

But beneath both these depths was a deeper depth yet, and this was

talking to the Earl. Never was a more perfect exemplification of the

dog in the manger than the Lady Margaret of Cornwall. She did not want

the Earl for herself, but she was absolutely determined that no one else

should so much as speak to him. Here was Elaine, caught red-handed in

the commission of all three of these stupendous crimes. And if the

offence could be made worse, it was so by the Earl saying, as he walked

away, "I pray you, my Lady, visit not my sins on this young maid."

Had one compassionate sensation remained in the mind of the Countess

towards Elaine, that unlucky speech would have extinguished it at once.

She did not, as usual, condescend to answer her lord; but she turned to

Elaine, and in a voice of concentrated anger, demanded the repetition of

every word which had passed. Diana gave it, for Elaine seemed almost

paralysed with terror. Clarice, on the demand of her mistress,

confirmed Diana's report as exact. The Countess turned back to Elaine.

Her words were scarcely to be reported, for she lost alike her temper

and her gentlewomanly manners. "And out of my house thou goest this

day," was the conclusion, "thou shameful, giglot hussey! And I will not

give thee an husband; thou shalt go back to thy father and thy mother,

with the best whipping that ever I gave maid. And she that shall be in

thy stead shall be the ugliest maid I can find, and still of tongue, and

sober of behaviour. Now, get thee gone!"

And calling for Agatha as she went, the irate lady stalked away.

Of no use was poor Elaine's flood of tears, nor the united entreaties of

her four companions. Clarice and Diana soon found that they were not to

come off scatheless. Neither had spoken to the Earl, as Elaine readily

confessed; but for the offence of listening to such treachery, both were

sent to bed by daylight, with bread and water for supper. The offences

of grown-up girls in those days were punished like those of little

children now. All took tearful farewells of poor Elaine, who dolefully

expressed her fear of another whipping when she reached home; and so she

passed out of their life.

It was several weeks before the new bower-maiden appeared. Diana

suggested that the Countess found some difficulty in meeting with a girl

ugly enough to please her. But, at last, one evening in November,

Mistress Underdone introduced the new-comer, in the person of a girl of

eighteen, or thereabouts, as Felicia de Fay, daughter of Sir Stephen de

Fay and Dame Sabina Watefeud, of the county of Sussex. All the rest

looked with much curiosity at her.

Felicia, while not absolutely ugly, was undeniably plain. Diana

remarked afterwards to Clarice that there were no ugly girls to be had,

as plainly appeared. But the one thing about her which really was ugly

was her expression. She looked no one in the face, while she diligently

studied every one who was not looking at her. Let any one attempt to

meet her eyes, and they dropped in a moment. Some do this from mere

bashfulness, but Felicia showed no bashfulness in any other way.

Clarice's feeling towards her was fear.

"I'm not afraid!" said Diana. "I am sure I could be her match in fair

fight!"

"It is the fair fight I doubt," said Clarice. "I am afraid there is

treachery in her eyes."

"She makes me creep all over," added Olympias.

"Well, she had better not try to measure swords with me," said Diana.

"I tell you, I have a presentiment that girl and I shall fight; but I

will come off victor; you see if I don't!"

Clarice made no answer, but in her heart she thought that Diana was too

honest to be any match for Felicia.

It was the Countess's custom to spend her afternoon, when the day was

fine, in visiting some shrine or abbey. When the day was not fine, she

passed the time in embroidering among her maidens, and woe betide the

unlucky damsel who selected a wrong shade, or set in a false stitch.

The natural result of this was that the pine-cone, kept by Olympias as a

private barometer, was anxiously consulted on the least appearance of

clouds. Diana asserted that she offered a wax candle to Saint Wulstan

every month for fair weather. One of the young ladies always had to

accompany her mistress, and the fervent hope of each was to escape this

promotion. Felicia alone never expressed this hope, never joined in any

tirades against the Countess, never got into disgrace with her, and

seemed to stand alone, like a drop of vinegar which would not mingle

with the oil around it. She appeared to see everything, and say

nothing. It was impossible to get at her likes and dislikes. She took

everything exactly alike. Either she had no prejudices, or she was all

prejudice, and nobody could tell which it was.

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Note 1. Some readers will think such ideas too modern to have occurred

to any one in 1290. There is evidence to the contrary.

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