CHAPTER XXII

Melissa had one letter from Luke, on his way across the continent. He

wrote briefly, with what was either an utter absence of emotion or

incredible control of it:

DEAR MELISSA--

I was sorry not to have seen you to say good-by before I left Four

Oaks Farm. Murdock said he would explain for me. I am catching the

Los Angeles in two days now--with any luck--and should be in Hawaii

in another week. The cable I received said merely that Iwalani had

been drowned at Nanakuli, which is a beach near Honolulu--she must

have been down there visiting some one ... and she was a very strong

swimmer, so I still can’t see how the thing could have happened.

Except for some extraordinary circumstance--I will write you again

when I know. This is always an unpleasant trip and just now, very

nearly unbearable. I hope things are well with you--I don’t retract

any recent advice--neither do I expect you to follow it. You have a

right to your own mistakes. At the moment, I am not too proud of mine.

Yours,

LUKE.

A most un-Kenealian document, written in a rangy scrawl which might

be due either to acute spiritual disturbance on Luke’s part or to the

perennially rugged condition of western roadbeds.

Melissa put the letter away in her desk and missed Luke exceedingly.

She had been sure, in him, of an unfailing understanding and

sure--_with_ him--of herself. Which was more than could be said--for

understanding--of Murdock ... and for safety--of Beall, the inscrutable.

Missing Luke, she endeavored to steer a middle course, aware, back of

every other consideration that the year was wearing on, that her chance

for escape from a lifetime of mediocrity would expire in the early

autumn ... she had days of trying to convince herself that to go back

to the office (to an office, rather, for her old place was of course

long ago filled) would be the best and decentest thing which could

happen to her. Those days, however, came sparsely among a stream of

others in which it seemed to Melissa almost physically impossible that

she should ever return to the old hopeless round, to work without aim

and rest, if one cared to call it such, in the illimitable side-streets

of penurious respectability.

She never discussed, with the Marchesa, the eventual ending of their

agreement. The Marchesa, to her own infinite amusement, doubtless,

preserved always the attitude, where Melissa was concerned, of one

well-dowered lady to another. She criticized Melissa’s clothes, her

manners, her management of the apartment, with the utmost, at times the

most caustic freedom ... but the source of clothes, apartment and so

on, was never in question. For which a certain amount of credit is due

the relict of the Marchese di Ricci.

No one more deftly than she could have kept the wound open, inserted

salt at appropriate intervals.

“Granny’s pretty sweet to you, isn’t she?” Beall suggested, loitering

with Melissa through the Park on a late afternoon in May.

It was significant of an intensified relation between them, that he

walked in the Park at all: having, in general no time for such gently

sentimental practices and preferring, commonly, his newest thing in

cars to personal exertion of any sort.

Melissa cherished a feeling for forsythia and syringa--so Melissa

walked in the Park and Beall, however incongruously, walked with her.

“Granny--” he continued, musing critically, “is by way of being the

approximate ideal in aged parents,--I should say. Where did you know

her first, Melissa? Old friend of the family--and so on?”

“It’s odd!” said Melissa, smiling faintly, “--She knew Luke’s uncle,

ages ago, in Venice ... did he ever tell you that?”

“Luke is a good bit like you,” Beall returned, eyes on an averted

cheek, “he tells me nothing he doesn’t intend to.”

“Perhaps--like me--” said Melissa, delicately dégagé, “he has really

nothing to tell. Of interest, that is, to outsiders.”

“Between the eyes--no less!” said her companion and bowed to a lady

passing in a purple sedan with deference not untouched by appraisal.

“That,” he explained, “is Laure duBois ... have you seen her in my new

show?”

Melissa said she hadn’t.

“Should you care to?” asked Beall.

Melissa said sorry--that she didn’t think she should.

“Aren’t you crowding your luck a bit?” she inquired. “The newspapers

say such unpleasant things of it.”

Beall looked annoyed--then amused. He laughed.

“Little prig! Don’t play jeune fille, Melissa. It isn’t smart any more.”

“Neither is smut,” said Melissa. “So one’s told, by the critics.”

“I’d give a good deal to know,” said Beall suddenly--“how much of

that is real with you ... and just how much is pose. I’ll admit it’s

effective--but how deep does it go?”

Melissa bowed in her turn to a young man passing on horseback.

“That,” she said, “is a friend of Murdock’s. Nice-looking, isn’t he?”

“If you like ’em open-faced and dumb!” Beall retorted. He had the grace

the second after to look ashamed. “Melissa--you’re on my nerves.... I

don’t get you. I can’t be sure you’re what you seem....”

“I should think,” said Melissa, “that ought to endear--”

“It does,” said Beall grimly--“a good part of the time. When it doesn’t

infuriate. When I don’t want to kiss you--I want to wring your pretty

neck. It’s unsettling. Until I get you card-indexed and filed, I’m no

good at anything else....”

He was abruptly and unquestionably in earnest. Fear stirred in Melissa

and outrageous satisfaction.

“Is it so impossible to understand?” she inquired remotely. “One’s a

bit fastidious--that’s all.”

“Yes--and that’s enough--quite!” he assured her. “I thought I knew

women--roughly speaking....”

Melissa echoed--“Roughly speaking!... I’d say that was just your

handicap.”

“I can speak your language, my dear,” said Beall--“if I cared to.” He

added with extraordinary frankness. “I’m afraid I’m going to care.

That’s the devil of it!”

“You’re still quite safe,” said Melissa. “Aren’t you? Unless I should

care--too. And that--I don’t mean to be rude--is most unlikely.”

“Oh, no, it isn’t!” said Beall. “There’s a creature behind those eyes

of yours could tell a tale worth two of that. Wait till she hears her

master’s voice--you won’t always be able to turn the key on her....”

Melodramatic nonsense--for the most part. But Beall’s nonsense had the

tang of sincerity and his melodrama was usually plausible.

Melissa saw him fairly often and each time with a vivider sense of

approaching the edge.

She began to feel that in the long run, if she wanted to marry him, she

could do it. As to taking third place in a sequence of wives ... there,

romance would undoubtedly go out of the window. But life with Beall

would have a background of color and movement, in which romance if not

actually present might yet have acceptable substitutes. One might be

repelled--or angered--or hurt--one would never be bored by him.

Melissa had lied to the Marchesa when she said she had lost interest

... and the Marchesa, after Four Oaks, Melissa rather suspected had

reëxamined that lie.

“That man Beall,” said the Marchesa--“amuses me enormously. Bluebeard,

with a typewriter under one arm! We shall hear more of him, Melissa.”

Melissa felt, as usual, that the Marchesa was not deceived.

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