Where people wish to attract, they should always be ignorant ... a
woman, especially, if she have the misfortune of knowing anything,
should conceal it as well as she can.
_Northanger Abbey._
It was snowing--or rather, sleeting, in the half-hearted, fitful way to
which Londoners are accustomed. Out of doors, the lamps flared on wet
glistening pavements, with here and there a mass of rapidly thawing,
congealed ice, which made walking unpleasant. It was pitch-dark, though
not yet five o'clock, and the atmosphere was full of a raw cold, more
penetrating than frost.
In the suburb of Woodstead, the streets were swimming in slush, through
which rolled the omnibuses, packed full inside, and thatched with
soaking umbrellas under which cowered unlucky passengers who felt that
they were taking cold every moment. Crowsley Road, the main
thoroughfare, contained fine, solid houses, standing well back from the
street--detached, for the most part, and having their own gardens.
Mansfield Road was a turning out of Crowsley Road, and here the houses
were small, semidetached, and unpretentious, though these, too, as is
the fashion in Woodstead, had a strip of garden in front.
In number seven, the blinds had not been drawn, nor the lamps lit,
though it was so dark, and the outside prospect so uninviting. The fire
was the only light in the little dining-room, and on the hearth-rug
before it sat a girl, her arms round her knees, her eyes fixed on the
glowing coals.
The uncertain light of the flickering flames showed that the little room
was furnished with several bits of handsome old oak, with a goodly
supply of books, and with several oil-paintings, the quality of which
could hardly be judged in the dark.
On the floor by the fire lay a number of loose sheets of manuscript, a
pen, and inkstand, so arranged that anyone suddenly entering the room
must of necessity knock them down. Wynifred Allonby, however--for she it
was who sat alone--took no heed of her surroundings. She was miles away,
in a dream-world of her own.
The expression of her face had changed since last summer. The
independent, courageous, free look was gone. In its stead was a
wistfulness, a certain restlessness, which, though it saddened, yet
certainly infused a fresh interest. Apparently a struggle was going on
in her mind, for her brows were drawn together, and at last, as she
stared into the embers, she broke into a little laugh and spoke aloud.
"My dear girl, if I could only persuade you what an idiot you are," said
she. "Will nothing--absolutely nothing make you ashamed of yourself?
Faugh! I am sick of you--you that were always so high and mighty, you
that hated and abhorred love-sick maidens, nicely you are, served out,
now ... a man that chance just flung into your society for a few weeks,
a man above you in social standing--whose family would think it as great
a comedown for him to marry you, as you would think it to marry the
butcher!... I have no patience with you, really. Haven't you read your
Clough? Don't you remember the _Amours de Voyage_? Yes, that was a
Claud, too; and I think he must have been something like mine--like this
one, I mean. 'Juxtaposition,' my good young woman, 'is much.' And what
was it but juxtaposition? Oh, didn't I know it all the time--know that
it couldn't last, that he was just masquerading for the time in a
country romance, that he must needs go back to his world of Piccadilly
and peeresses.... And yet, I had not the sense to----Oh, it is so hard,
so very hard! That I should want him so, and have to confess it to
myself, the hateful truth that I do want him and can't forget--while he
has no need of me at all!..."
Her face, no longer pale for the moment, dropped upon her hands, and she
gave a little sound, between a laugh and a sob.
"It is so many weeks ago, now--years, it seems. I thought I should have
been quite cured by the time winter set in. What in the world drew me so
to that one man, when I never felt so much as a passing fancy for other
people--for poor Mr. Merritt, for instance. Why couldn't I marry him? He
was rich, and I liked him too; so did Osmond and the girls; but somehow
it wouldn't do. And yet, now.... I can bear it, mostly, only sometimes,
in blindman's holiday, it comes over me. It is galling, it is
frightfully humiliating. It ought to make me arise and thrash myself for
being so unwomanly. I know for a fact that he doesn't want to see me in
the least; for, if he had, he would have come ... and yet--yet--if he
were to open that door, and stand there this moment, I should be, for
the time, absolutely and entirely happy. Oh, what a fall, what a fall
for me. I was so certain and so safe. And now, is this pain to go on
always? Am I never to be able to fling my heart into my books as I used?
Oh, surely, if I am firm enough, I _must_ be able to stop it. I will! I
am determined I will!"
A footfall, running up the front door steps, made her pause, and
foolishly hold her breath; then she laughed contemptuously as a
latch-key was thrust into the lock. There was a stamping and rubbing of
boots on the mat in the hall, sounds of a mackintosh being removed, an
umbrella thrust into the stand, and then Jacqueline walked in, her eyes
like stars, her cheeks glowing with the stinging cold outside.
"Are you there, Wyn?" she asked, peering into the twilight.
"Yes. Mind the ink," said the authoress, heaving a sigh.
"Why in the world don't you draw the curtains and light the lamp?" asked
Jacqueline, coming forward, and unfastening the dark fur round her
throat. "Why is there no tea ready? Where's Osmond? Isn't Hilda in yet?
What have you been about, eh?"
"Oh, I don't know," said Wyn, stretching, and picking herself and her
writing materials up from the floor. "I was writing hard all the
morning, and this afternoon was so horrid, I thought I wouldn't go out;
so I have been moping rather. Osmond's out. Hilda won't be in for
half-an-hour--it's not five yet."
As she spoke, she drew the curtains, lit the lamp, and rang the bell for
tea; then, drawing a low chair to the fire, sat down and looked at
Jacqueline.
That young lady had removed her out-door apparel, and was kneeling on
the hearthrug, holding her hands to the blaze. The severe weather had
brought a magnificent glow to her face, and she looked excessively
pretty and elegant. Wyn watched her with elder-sisterly pride. There was
something evidently well-bred about Jac; something in the brilliant
eyes, the tempting smile, the tall slender figure which gave her a style
of her own. It was not exactly dashing, but it was something peculiar to
herself, which made her noticed wherever she went, the undeniable beauty
of the academy schools, and the pride of her devoted family.
Something had pleased her to-day. Wyn easily divined this, from the
gleam in the big, laughing, hazel eyes, and the pleasant curves of the
pretty mouth. But the eldest sister was too diplomatic to ask any
questions. She knew that, when the slim hands were warmed, confidence
would begin to flow, so she only sat still, and remarked casually.
"Bad light down at the schools to-day, I should think."
"Awful," was the candid reply. "I expect I shall have to paint out
everything I have put in--such a pity! It looked most weird and
Rembrandtesque in the rich pea-soupy atmosphere, but alas! to-morrow
will reveal it in its true colors, dirty and opaque. Here comes tea. How
nice! Bring it here, Sally, there's a dear."
Sally obeyed. She was a middle-aged, kind, capable woman, who had been
their nurse in old days, and their factotum ever since they were
orphans.
"Miss Jac," said she, in righteous wrath, "take off them wet boots this
minute, you naughty girl. Nice colds you'd all 'ave, if I wasn't to look
after you. There was Mr. Osmond painting away this morning with 'is
skylight wide open, and the snow falling on 'is 'ed. Wants to kill
himself, _I_ think."
"Sally," said Jac, as she sat down on the floor, and rapidly unlaced the
offending boots, "I've something very particular to say. What is there
for dinner? Is there anything in the house?"
"There's plenty of cold beef, and, as I know Miss 'Ilda don't fancy cold
meat, I got some sausages."
"Any pudding?"
"Yes, miss."
"Sausages and mashed potatoes are perhaps vulgar, but they're very
nice," said Jacqueline, meditatively. "You might make some anchovy
toast, Sal--and--couldn't we have some spinach?"
"Who is coming?" asked Wyn, with interest.
"Mr. Haldane. He is coming to finish that charcoal sketch of me so I
told him he had better come to dinner," replied Jac, with airy
nonchalance.
"Oh, bless your 'eart, I've got plenty for 'im; he don't know what 'e's
putting into his mouth most of the time," said Sally, picking up the wet
boots, and retiring.
"Only I do like to have things nice when he comes, because of course he
is used to having things done in the proper way," remarked Jacqueline,
with a stifled sigh. She was the only one of the four who felt their
poverty in this kind of way.
"I never see Mr. Haldane eat anything but chocolate," said Wyn with a
laugh. "Perhaps he doesn't like our food."
"Sally is a really good cook, that's my one comfort," returned Jac. "And
now I have two pieces of news for you. The first is that he, Mr.
Haldane, has got the gold medal."
"No!" cried Wyn, in tremendous excitement. "You don't say so! How
splendid! How we will all congratulate him! Tell me all about it--how
many votes ahead was he?"
Jacqueline launched into a mass of details, most eagerly appreciated by
her listener.
"How we will cheer him at the Distribution to-morrow!" she cried. "I
always felt sure he would do it."
"I don't think there was ever much doubt about it," was the answer, in a
voice which Jac in vain strove to render perfectly tranquil. "He is very
clever, isn't he?"
"Clever and nice too," said Wynifred. "One of the very nicest men we
know. And, now, what's the other piece of news?"
"Oh--only that the Ortons are back in town. As I passed Sefton Lodge in
the omnibus, it was all lighted up."
"Oh--I wonder if there is any chance for poor old Osmond to get his
money now?"
"Don't know, I am sure; I would try, if I were he. Did you have a letter
from Mr. Fowler this morning?"
"Yes," answered Wyn, pulling it out of her pocket. "Very nice, as usual.
Elsa is still abroad, with her aunts, but he is back at Lower House. It
is very strange that Elsa doesn't write--I haven't heard from her for
six weeks."
"It is making poor old Osmond very anxious--he looks quite haggard,"
said Jacqueline, resentfully. "I believe she is in love with this man
the yacht belongs to."
"Oh, don't say such a thing, Jac!" cried Wyn, in a quick voice of pain,
"it will simply drive Osmond out of his mind if any such thing happens.
Poor boy! Just see what he has been doing--how superbly he has been
painting since he had this hope, and how his things are selling! How the
papers reviewed his 'Valley of Avilion' in the Institute. Why, Mr. Mills
said there was scarcely a doubt of his being R.I. next year. If Elsa
fails him, I don't believe he will ever paint another stroke."
Jacqueline stared at the fire.
"You see," she said, "the circumstances under which she met this man
were so very romantic--so remarkably unusual. And, then, he seems to be
a wealthy, dazzling sort of person--with a yacht and a German _Schloss_,
and other fancy fixings of the same kind. I don't see, if you come to
consider it fairly, how poor Osmond can have a chance against a man who
can follow her to the world's end."
"Surely she's too young to be mercenary--girls of her age usually prefer
the poor one!" cried Wyn, protestingly.
"Mercenary? Oh, it's not exactly mercenary; but she is dazzled. Here is
a mysterious hero, who flashes suddenly upon her with a large staff of
retainers to do his behests, and a magic yacht which glides in and out
regardless of wind and tide, and a face like a Viking of the Middle
Ages, if that picture of him in the _Graphic_ is to be relied upon. He
is a sort of Ragnar Lodbrog. If she declined his addresses, he would
most probably set sail alone in his yacht, set fire to it, and be found
by some Channel steamer in the act of burning himself to death, and
shouting a battle-cry while the leaping flames encircled him. Now, poor
Osmond can't compete with this sort of thing; he has no accessories of
any kind to help him along."
"Jac, you are very ridiculous," said Wyn, unable to help laughing a
little; but her laugh was not very hearty.
"We shall soon see when she comes to London," said Jacqueline,
flourishing the poker.
"If she comes to see us! I don't see why she should. Lady Mabel
Wynch-Frere and her brother have dropped us completely," said Wyn, with
some bitterness. "The Valley of Avilion was one thing, London is
another."
"I'm sure we don't want them," said Jacqueline, indifferently. "From
your account, Lady Mabel was not the kind of person I should take to at
all."
"She was excessively artificial, but not altogether uninteresting,"
observed Wyn, in her trenchant way. "They were both very kind to Osmond,
but that was their humanity, you know--they would have done the same for
any village yokel. Like Lady Geraldine,
'"She is too kind to be cruel, and too haughty not to pardon,
Such a man as I--'twere something to be level to her hate!"'
Jacqueline began to laugh.
"She is like Aunt Anna," she said.
Aunt Anna was the wife of a dean, and she never dared to invite any of
her London-weary nieces to stay with her, lest they should unwittingly
reveal to any of her titled friends the ghastly fact that they had to
work for their living. Of this secret the said nieces were perfectly
aware, and derived much amusement therefrom.
"Oh, I daresay she has never thought of us from that day to this," said
Wyn, carelessly. "There's Hilda knocking. Let her in."
Hilda walked in like a duchess. Nature certainly had not intended the
Miss Allonbys for daily governesses, and many a time had poor Hilda been
doomed to hear the condemning words, "I am afraid, Miss Allonby, you are
of too striking an appearance," from some anxious mother, who felt that
life would be a burden when weighted with a governess so dignified that
to suggest that she should take Kitty to the dentist's, or Jack to have
his boots tried on, would seem a flagrant insult.
"If they only knew how meek and mild I am really!" the poor child would
remark, dolorously. "If I could but make myself three inches shorter, or
pad myself out round the waist till I was no shape at all! But it would
be so dreadfully hot. And I really _can't_ wear unbecoming
hats--something in me revolts against the idea!"
To-night she had a letter in hand, which she dropped into Wyn's lap.
"I met the postman," she said, explanatorily. "Open it, do--it feels
stiff, I believe it's an invitation."
Wyn opened it, drew out a square card with gilt edges, and read.
MISS ALLONBY, MISS H. ALLONBY, MISS J. ALLONBY,
MR. ALLONBY.
MRS. MILES AT HOME.
Tuesday, Jan. 5th.
Dancing 8.30,
_R. S. V. P._
INNISFALLE, THE AVENUE.
"A ball at the Miles'! Oh, Wyn, how splendid!" cried Jacqueline in
ecstasies.
"Every creature we know will be there," said Hilda.
"Oh, Hilda, how glad I am we had those dresses made," said Jacqueline,
jumping up and careering round the table in the excess of her spirits.
"How nice of them to ask us all three by name," said Hilda, gloating
over the card. "They know we never go out more than two at a time unless
specially invited."
"It's a good long invitation," said Wyn.
"Wyn!" cried Jac, suddenly stopping before her and shaking her fist in
her face, "Wynifred Allonby, what have you got to wear?"
"Nothing," said Wyn, helplessly. "I don't think I shall go--you two are
the ones that do us credit. You can go in your pretty new gowns."
"I hope you understand," said Hilda, with decision, "that not one of us
sets foot in that glorious studio, with a parquet floor, and most
probably Willoughby's band, unless you are forthcoming _in an entirely
new rig-out_! Do you hear me? If I have to drag you to Oxford Street
myself, you must and shall be decent! You have disgraced your family
long enough in that old black rag, or in something made of tenpenny
muslin! A new dress you shall have--silk it must be--thick, good silk,
thick enough to stand by itself! Now, do, there's a darling!"
"I don't think----" began Wyn.
"Oh, yes, I know what you are doing," said Hilda, calmly, "paying for
the housekeeping out of your own money, so that Osmond may save up; but
I am going to put a stop to that; and you have heaps of money in the
savings bank. Don't be miserly, it is so hateful."
Wyn looked somewhat confused by these terrible charges.
"Well," admitted she, hesitatingly, "I don't mind telling you two, that
I had a cheque this morning from Carter" (her publisher). "It was not a
very big one--only the royalty on about fifty copies of 'Cicely
Montfort.' But I could buy a really good gown with it. Do you think I
might?"
"Might? I say you ought; it's your duty," cried Jac, vehemently.
"Everyone at Innisfallen will know you--every soul knows you are an
authoress. You ought to do us credit--you shall. I'll have no nonsense
about it."
"I don't see why I shouldn't," burst out Wyn, suddenly. "I will be
welldressed for once in my life. I will enjoy myself as much as ever I
can. Girls, my mind is made up. I will have a really good gown, as good
as can be got; and it shall fit me well, and the skirt shall hang
properly. For this once I'll have my fling; I'll go to Innisfallen and
eclipse you both."
Here Sally walked in to fetch out the tea-things, and swooped on Hilda's
boots as she had done on Jacqueline's. After which, retiring to cook
the sausages, she set open the door at the head of the kitchen stairs,
that she might hear Osmond's latch-key, and, descending on him like the
wolf on the fold, rob him of his understandings if ever he came to the
shelter of his studio.