They went up to her sitting-room to spend the rest of the evening. It
was a large high room overlooking the park and furnished in massive
walnut and blood-red brocade: a room as old-fashioned and ugly as its
mistress but comfortable withal. On a table in one corner was an
immense family Bible, very old, and recording the births, marriages,
and deaths of the Van den Poeles from the time they began their
American adventures in the seventeenth century. On another small table
in another corner was a pile of albums, the lowest containing the first
presentments of Mrs. Oglethorpe's family after the invention of
calotype photography. These albums recorded fashion in all its stages
from 1841 down to the sport suit, exposed legs and rolled stockings of
Janet Oglethorpe; a photograph her grandmother had sworn at but
admitted as a curiosity.
One of the albums was devoted to the friends of Mrs. Oglethorpe's
youth, and Mary Ogden occupied the place of honor. Clavering had once
derived much amusement looking over these old albums and listening to
Mrs. Oglethorpe's running and often sarcastic comment; but although he
had recalled to mind this photograph the night Mr. Dinwiddie had been
so perturbed by the stranger's resemblance to the flame of his youth,
he had, himself, been so little interested in Mary Ogden that it had
not occurred to him to disinter that old photograph of the eighties and
examine it in detail. He turned his back squarely on it tonight,
although he had a misgiving that it was not Janet who had inspired Mrs.
Oglethorpe's singular note.
On one wall was a group of daguerreotypes, hideous but rare and
valuable. An oil painting of James Oglethorpe, long dead, hung over
the fireplace; an amiable looking gentleman with long side-whiskers
sprouting out of plump cheeks, a florid complexion, and the expression
of a New Yorker who never shirked his civic obligations, his
chairmanships of benevolent institutions, nor his port. Opposite was
another oil painting of young James taken at the age of twelve, wearing
a sailor suit and the surly expression of an active boy detained within
walls while other boys were shouting in the park. Beside it was a
water color of Janet at the age of two, even then startlingly like her
grandmother. She had been Mrs. Oglethorpe's favorite descendant until
the resemblance had become too accentuated by modern divagations.
Clavering did not extend himself on the sofa tonight but drew a leather
chair (built for Mr. Oglethorpe) to the small coal grate, which
inadequately warmed the large room. Mrs. Oglethorpe, like many women
of her generation, never indulged her backbone save in bed, and she
seated herself in her own massive upright chair not too close to the
fire. She had made a concession to time in the rest of the house,
which was lighted by electricity, but the gas remained in her own
suite, and the room was lit by faint yellow flames struggling through
the ground-glass globes of four-side brackets. The light from the
coals was stronger, and as it fell on her bony austere old face with
its projecting beak, Clavering reflected that she needed only a
broomstick. He really loved her, but a trained faculty works as
impersonally as a camera.
He smoked in silence and Mrs. Oglethorpe stared into the fire. She,
too, was fond of her cigar, but tonight she had shaken her head as
Hawkins had offered the box, after passing the coffee. Her face no
longer looked sardonic, but relaxed and sad. Clavering regarded her
with uneasy sympathy. Would it be possible to divert her mind?
"Lady Jane," he began.
"I wish you would call me Jane tonight. I wouldn't feel so intolerably
old."
"Of course I'll call you Jane, but you'll never be old. What skeleton
have you been exhuming?" He was in for it and might as well give her a
lead.
"It's Mary Ogden," she said abruptly and harshly.
"Oh--I wondered how you felt about it. You certainly have been
splendid----"
"What else could I do? She was the most intimate friend of my youth,
the only woman I ever had any real affection for. I had already seen
her and recognized her. I suppose she has told you that I went there
and that she treated me like an intruding stranger. But I knew she
must have some good reason for it--possibly that she was here on some
secret political mission and had sworn to preserve her incognito. I
knew she had been mixed up in politics more than once. I thought I was
going mad when I saw her, but I never suspected the truth. The light
was dim and I took for granted that some one of those beauty experts
had made a mask for her, or ripped her skin off--I hardly knew what to
think, so I concluded not to think about it at all, and succeeded
fairly well in dismissing it from my mind. I was deeply hurt at her
lack of confidence in me, but I dismissed that, too. After all it was
her right. I do as I choose, why shouldn't she? And I remembered that
she always did."
Here Clavering stirred uneasily.
"When she came to me here last Tuesday and told me the whole truth I
felt as if I were listening to a new chapter out of the Bible, but on
the whole I was rather pleased than otherwise. I had never been
jealous of her when we were young, for I was married before she came
out, and she was so lovely to look at that I was rather grateful to her
than otherwise. After her marriage I used to meet her every few years
in Europe up to some three or four years before the outbreak of the
war, and it often made me feel melancholy as I saw her beauty
going . . . until there was nothing left but her style and her hair.
But nothing else was to be expected. Time is a brute to all
women. . . . So, while she sat here in this room so radiantly
beautiful and so exquisitely and becomingly dressed, and leaning toward
me with that old pleading expression I remembered so well; when she
wanted something and knew exactly how to go to work to get it; and
looking not a day over thirty--well, while she was here I felt young
again myself and I loved her as much as ever and felt it a privilege to
look at her. I arranged a luncheon promptly to meet several of her old
friends and put a stop to the clacking that was going on--I had been
called up eight times that morning. . . . I could have boxed your
ears, but of course it was a natural enough thing to do, and you had no
suspicion. . . . Well, as soon as she had gone I wrote to twelve
women, giving them a bare sketch of the truth, and sent the notes off
in the motor. And then--I went and looked at myself in the glass."
She paused, and Clavering rose involuntarily and put his hand on her
shoulder.
"Never mind, Jane," he said awkwardly. "What does it matter? You are
you and there's only one of the kind. After all it's only one more
miracle of Science. You could do it yourself if you liked."
"I? Ha! With twenty-three grandchildren. I may be a fool but I'm not
a damn fool, as James used to say. What good would it do me to look
forty? I had some looks left at that age but with no use for them as
women go. I'd have less now. But Mary was always lucky--a daughter of
the gods. It's just like her damned luck to have that discovery made
in her time and while she is still young enough to profit by it,
besides being as free as when she was Mary Ogden. Now, God knows what
devilment she'll be up to. What she wants she'll have and the devil
take the consequences." She patted his hand. "Go and sit down, Lee.
I've a good deal more to say."
Clavering returned to his seat with no sense of the old chair's
comfort, and she went on in a moment.
"The unfairness of it as I looked at that old witch in the glass that
had reflected my magnificent youth, seemed to me unendurable. I had
lived a virtuous and upright life. I knew damned well she hadn't. I
had done my duty by the race and my own and my husband's people, and I
had brought up my sons to be honorable and self-respecting men,
whatever their failings, and my daughters in the best traditions of
American womanhood. They are model wives and mothers, and they have
made no weak-kneed concessions to these degenerate times. They bore me
but I'd rather they did that than disgrace me. Mary never had even one
child, although her husband must have wanted an heir. I have lived a
life of duty--duty to my family traditions, my husband, my children, my
country, and to Society: she one of self-indulgence and pleasure and
excitement, although I'm not belittling the work she did during the
war. But noblesse oblige. What else could she do? And now, she'll be
at it again. She'll have the pick of our young men--I don't know
whether it's all tragic or grotesque. She'll waste no time on those
men who loved her in her youth--small blame to her. Who wants to
coddle old men? They've all got something the matter with 'em. . . .
But she'll have love--love--if not here--and thank God, she's not
remaining long--then elsewhere and wherever she chooses. Love! I too
once took a fierce delight in making men love me. It seems a thousand
years ago. What if I should try to make a man fall in love with me
today? I'd be rushed off by my terrified family to a padded cell."
"Well--Jane----"
"Don't 'well Jane' me! You'd jump out of the window if I suddenly
began to make eyes at you. I could rely on your manners. You wouldn't
laugh until you struck the grass and then you'd be arrested for
disturbing the peace. Well--don't worry. I'm not an old ass. But I'm
a terribly bewildered old woman. It seems to me there has been a
crashing in the air ever since she sat in that chair. . . . Growing
old always seemed to me a natural process that no arts or dodges could
interrupt, and any attempt to arrest the processes of nature was an
irreverent gesture in the face of Almighty God. It was immoral and
irreverent, and above all it showed a lack of humor and of sound common
sense. The world, my candid grandchild tells me, laughs at the women
of my generation for their old-fashioned 'cut.' But we have our code
and we have the courage to live up to it. That is one reason, perhaps,
why growing old has never meant anything to me but reading-spectacles,
two false teeth, and weak ankles. It had seemed to me that my life had
been pretty full--I never had much imagination--what with being as good
a wife as ever lived--although James was a pompous bore if there ever
was one--bringing eight children into the world and not making a
failure of one of them, never neglecting my charities or my social
duties or my establishments. As I have grown older I have often
reflected upon a life well-spent, and looked forward to dying when my
time came with no qualms whatever, particularly as there was precious
little left for me to do except give parties for my grandchildren and
blow them up occasionally. I never labored under the delusion that I
had an angelic disposition or a perfect character, but I had always
had, and maintained, certain standards; and, according to my lights, it
seemed to me that when I arrived at the foot of the throne the Lord
would say to me 'Well done, thou good and faithful servant.' The only
thing I ever regretted was that I wasn't a man."
She paused and then went on in a voice that grew more raucous every
moment. "That was later. It's a long time since I've admitted even to
myself that there was a period--after my husband's death--when I hated
growing old with the best of them. I was fifty and I found myself with
complete liberty for the first time in my life; for the elder children
were all married, and the younger in Europe at school. I had already
begun to look upon myself as an old woman. . . . But I soon made the
terrible discovery that the heart never grows old. I fell in love four
times. They were all years younger than myself and I'd have opened one
of my veins before I'd have let them find it out. Even then I had as
little use for old men as old men have for old women. Whatever it may
be in men, it's the young heart in women. I had no illusions. Fifty
is fifty. My complexion was gone, my stomach high, and I had the face
of an old war horse. But--and here is the damned trick that nature
plays on us--I hoped--hoped--I dreamed--and as ardently as I ever had
dreamed in my youth, when I was on the look-out for the perfect knight
and before I compromised on James Oglethorpe, who was handsome before
he grew those whiskers and got fat--yes, as ardently as in my youth I
dreamed that these clever intelligent men would look through the old
husk and see only the young heart and the wise brain--I knew that I
could give them more than many a younger woman. But if beauty is only
skin deep the skin is all any man wants, the best of 'em. They treated
me with the most impeccable respect--for the first time in my life I
hated the word--and liked my society because I was an amusing caustic
old woman. Of course they drifted off, either to marry, or because I
terrified them with my sharp tongue: when I loved them most and felt as
if I had poison in my veins. Well, I saved my pride, at all events.
"By the time you came along I had sworn at myself once for all as an
old fool, and, in any case, I would hardly have been equal to falling
in love with a brat of twenty-two."
She seized the stick that always rested against her chair and thumped
the floor with it. "Nevertheless," she exclaimed with savage contempt,
"my heart is as young today as Mary Ogden's. That is the appalling
discovery I have made this week. I'd give my immortal soul to be
thirty again--or look it. Why in heaven's name did nature play us this
appalling dirty trick?"
"But Jane!" He felt like tearing his hair. What was Mary Zattiany's
tragedy to this? Banalities were the only refuge. "Remember that at
thirty you were in love with your husband and bent on having a
family----"
"I meant thirty and all I know now. . . . I'm not so damn sure I'd
have tried to make myself think I was in love with James--who had about
as much imagination as a grasshopper and the most infernal mannerisms.
I'd have found out what love and life meant, that's what! And when I
did I'd have sent codes and traditions to the devil."
"Oh, no, you would not. If you'd had it in you you'd have done it,
anyhow. All women of your day were not virtuous--not by a long sight.
I'll admit that your best possibilities have been wasted; I've always
thought that. You have a terrific personality and if you were at your
maturity in this traditionless era you'd be a great national figure,
not a mere social power. But nature in a fit of spite launched you too
soon and the cast-iron traditions were too strong for you. It was the
epoch of the submerged woman."
"Mary Ogden was brought up in those same cast-iron traditions."
"Yes, but Madame Zattiany belongs to a class of women that derive less
from immediate ancestors than from a legendary race of sirens--not so
merely legendary, perhaps, as we think. Convention is only a flexible
harness for such women and plays no part whatever in their secret
lives."
"You're in love with Mary."
"_Don't_ come back to me. I won't have it. For the moment I don't
feel as if I had an atom of personality left, I'm so utterly absorbed
in you; and I'd give my immortal soul to help you."
"Yes, I know that. I wouldn't be turning myself inside out if I
didn't. I've never talked to a living soul as I've talked to you
tonight and I never shall again."
She stared at him for a moment, and then she burst into a loud laugh.
It was awe-inspiring, that laugh. Lucifer in hell, holding his sides
at the futilities of mankind, could not have surpassed it. "What a
mess! What a mess! Life! Begins nowhere, ends nowhere." She went on
muttering to herself, and then, abruptly, she broke into the sarcastic
speech which her friends knew best.
"Lord, Lee, I wish you could have been behind a screen at that
luncheon. Thirteen old tombstones in feathers and net collars--seven
or eight of 'em, anyhow--colonial profiles and lorgnettes, and all
looking as if they'd been hit in the stomach. I at one end of the
table looking like the Witch of Endor, Mary at the other looking like
one of our granddaughters and trying to be animated and intimate. I
forgot my own tragedy and haw-hawed three times. She looked almost
apologetic when she called us by our first names, especially when she
used the diminutive. Polly Vane, who's got a head like a billiard ball
and has to wear a wig for decency's sake, drew herself up twice and
then relaxed with a sickly grin. . . . All the same I don't think Mary
felt any more comfortable or liked it much better than the rest of us.
Too much like reading your own epitaph on a tombstone. I thought I saw
her squirm."
"How did they take it individually?" Clavering hoped she was finally
diverted. "Were they jealous and resentful?"
"Some. Elinor Goodrich had always been too besottedly fond of her to
mind. Others, who had been merely admirers and liked her, were--well,
it's too much to say they were enchanted to see Mary looking not a day
over thirty, but they were able to endure it. Isabel Lawrence thought
it downright immoral, and Polly Vane looked as if she had fallen into a
stinking morass and only refrained from holding her nose out of
consideration for her hostess. I think she feels that Mary's return is
an insult to New York. Lily Tracy was painfully excited. No doubt
she'll begin collecting for the Vienna poor at once and finding it
necessary to go over and distribute the funds in person. Mary lost no
time getting in her fine work for Vienna relief."
"But they'll all stand by her?"
"Oh, yes, she's Mary Ogden. We'd be as likely to desert New York
itself because we didn't like the mayor. And she'll need us. It's the
young women she'll have to look out for. My God! How they'll hate
her. As for Anne Goodrich and Marian Lawrence----"