ROUSSILLON WINE
My mother's family was Scottish, and it was judged fitting I should pay
a visit, on my way Paris-ward, to my uncle Adam Loudon, a wealthy
retired grocer of Edinburgh. He was very stiff and very ironical; he fed
me well, lodged me sumptuously, and seemed to take it out of me all the
time, cent. per cent., in secret entertainment which caused his
spectacles to glitter and his mouth to twitch. The ground of this
ill-suppressed mirth (as well as I could make out) was simply the fact
that I was an American. "Well," he would say, drawing out the word to
infinity, "and I suppose now in your country things will be so-and-so."
And the whole group of my cousins would titter joyously. Repeated
receptions of this sort must be at the root, I suppose, of what they
call the Great American Jest; and I know I was myself goaded into saying
that my friends went naked in the summer months, and that the Second
Methodist Episcopal Church in Muskegon was decorated with scalps. I
cannot say that these flights had any great success; they seemed to
awaken little more surprise than the fact that my father was a
Republican, or that I had been taught in school to spell _colour_
without the _u_. If I had told them (what was, after all, the truth)
that my father had paid a considerable annual sum to have me brought up
in a gambling-hell, the tittering and grinning of this dreadful family
might perhaps have been excused.
I cannot deny but I was sometimes tempted to knock my uncle Adam down;
and indeed I believe it must have come to a rupture at last, if they
had not given a dinner party at which I was the lion. On this occasion I
learned (to my surprise and relief) that the incivility to which I had
been subjected was a matter for the family circle, and might be regarded
almost in the light of an endearment. To strangers I was presented with
consideration; and the account given of "my American brother-in-law,
poor Janie's man, James K. Dodd, the well-known millionaire of
Muskegon," was calculated to enlarge the heart of a proud son.
An aged assistant of my grandfather's, a pleasant, humble creature with
a taste for whisky, was at first deputed to be my guide about the city.
With this harmless but hardly aristocratic companion I went to Arthur's
Seat and the Calton Hill, heard the band play in Princes Street Gardens,
inspected the regalia and the blood of Rizzio, and fell in love with the
great castle on its cliff, the innumerable spires of churches, the
stately buildings, the broad prospects, and those narrow and crowded
lanes of the old town where my ancestors had lived and died in the days
before Columbus.
But there was another curiosity that interested me more deeply--my
grandfather, Alexander Loudon. In his time the old gentleman had been a
working mason, and had risen from the ranks--more, I think, by
shrewdness than by merit. In his appearance, speech, and manners, he
bore broad marks of his origin, which were gall and wormwood to my uncle
Adam. His nails, in spite of anxious supervision, were often in
conspicuous mourning; his clothes hung about him in bags and wrinkles,
like a ploughman's Sunday coat; his accent was rude, broad, and
dragging. Take him at his best, and even when he could be induced to
hold his tongue, his mere presence in a corner of the drawing-room, with
his open-air wrinkles, his scanty hair, his battered hands, and the
cheerful craftiness of his expression, advertised the whole gang of us
for a self-made family. My aunt might mince and my cousins bridle, but
there was no getting over the solid, physical fact of the stonemason in
the chimney-corner.
That is one advantage of being an American. It never occurred to me to
be ashamed of my grandfather, and the old gentleman was quick to mark
the difference. He held my mother in tender memory, perhaps because he
was in the habit of daily contrasting her with uncle Adam, whom he
detested to the point of frenzy; and he set down to inheritance from his
favourite my own becoming treatment of himself. On our walks abroad,
which soon became daily, he would sometimes (after duly warning me to
keep the matter dark from "Aadam") skulk into some old familiar
pot-house, and there (if he had the luck to encounter any of his veteran
cronies) he would present me to the company with manifest pride, casting
at the same time a covert slur on the rest of his descendants. "This is
my Jeannie's yin," he would say. "He's a fine fallow, him," The purpose
of our excursions was not to seek antiquities or to enjoy famous
prospects, but to visit one after another a series of doleful suburbs,
for which it was the old gentleman's chief claim to renown that he had
been the sole contractor, and too often the architect besides. I have
rarely seen a more shocking exhibition: the brick seemed to be blushing
in the walls, and the slates on the roof to have turned pale with shame;
but I was careful not to communicate these impressions to the aged
artificer at my side; and when he would direct my attention to some
fresh monstrosity--perhaps with the comment, "There's an idee of mine's;
it's cheap and tasty, and had a graand run; the idee was soon stole, and
there's whole deestricts near Glesgie with the goathic addeetion and
that plunth," I would civilly make haste to admire and (what I found
particularly delighted him) to inquire into the cost of each adornment.
It will be conceived that Muskegon capitol was a frequent and a welcome
ground of talk. I drew him all the plans from memory; and he, with the
aid of a narrow volume full of figures and tables, which answered (I
believe) to the name of Molesworth, and was his constant
pocket-companion, would draw up rough estimates and make imaginary
offers on the various contracts. Our Muskegon builders he pronounced a
pack of cormorants; and the congenial subject, together with my
knowledge of architectural terms, the theory of strains, and the prices
of materials in the States, formed a strong bond of union between what
might have been otherwise an ill-assorted pair, and led my grandfather
to pronounce me, with emphasis, "a real intalligent kind of a chield."
Thus a second time, as you will presently see, the capitol of my native
State had influentially affected the current of my life.
I left Edinburgh, however, with not the least idea that I had done a
stroke of excellent business for myself, and singly delighted to escape
out of a somewhat dreary house and plunge instead into the rainbow city
of Paris. Every man has his own romance; mine clustered exclusively
about the practice of the arts, the life of Latin Quarter students, and
the world of Paris as depicted by that grimy wizard, the author of the
_Comedie Humaine_. I was not disappointed--I could not have been; for I
did not see the facts, I brought them with me ready-made. Z. Marcas
lived next door to me in my ungainly, ill-smelling hotel of the Rue
Racine; I dined at my villainous restaurant with Lousteau and with
Rastignac: if a curricle nearly ran me down at a street-crossing, Maxime
de Trailles would be the driver. I dined, I say, at a poor restaurant
and lived in a poor hotel; and this was not from need, but sentiment. My
father gave me a profuse allowance, and I might have lived (had I
chosen) in the Quartier de l'Etoile and driven to my studies daily. Had
I done so, the glamour must have fled: I should still have been but
Loudon Dodd; whereas now I was a Latin Quarter student, Murger's
successor, living in flesh and blood the life of one of those romances I
had loved to read, to re-read, and to dream over, among the woods of
Muskegon.
At this time we were all a little Murger-mad in the Latin Quarter. The
play of the _Vie de Boheme_ (a dreary, snivelling piece) had been
produced at the Odeon, had run an unconscionable time--for Paris--and
revived the freshness of the legend. The same business, you may say, or
there and thereabout, was being privately enacted in consequence in
every garret of the neighbourhood, and a good third of the students were
consciously impersonating Rodolphe or Schaunard, to their own
incommunicable satisfaction. Some of us went far, and some farther. I
always looked with awful envy (for instance) on a certain countryman of
my own who had a studio in the Rue Monsieur le Prince, wore boots, and
long hair in a net, and could be seen tramping off, in this guise, to
the worst eating-house of the quarter, followed by a Corsican model, his
mistress, in the conspicuous costume of her race and calling. It takes
some greatness of soul to carry even folly to such heights as these; and
for my own part, I had to content myself by pretending very arduously to
be poor, by wearing a smoking-cap on the streets, and by pursuing,
through a series of misadventures, that extinct mammal the grisette. The
most grievous part was the eating and the drinking. I was born with a
dainty tooth and a palate for wine; and only a genuine devotion to
romance could have supported me under the cat-civets that I had to
swallow, and the red ink of Bercy I must wash them down withal. Every
now and again, after a hard day at the studio, where I was steadily and
far from unsuccessfully industrious, a wave of distaste would overbear
me; I would slink away from my haunts and companions, indemnify myself
for weeks of self-denial with fine wines and dainty dishes; seated
perhaps on a terrace, perhaps in an arbour in a garden, with a volume of
one of my favourite authors propped open in front of me, and now
consulted a while, and now forgotten: so remain, relishing my
situation, till night fell and the lights of the city kindled; and
thence stroll homeward by the riverside, under the moon or stars, in a
heaven of poetry and digestion.
One such indulgence led me in the course of my second year into an
adventure which I must relate: indeed, it is the very point I have been
aiming for, since that was what brought me in acquaintance with Jim
Pinkerton. I sat down alone to dinner one October day when the rusty
leaves were falling and scuttling on the boulevard, and the minds of
impressionable men inclined in about an equal degree towards sadness and
conviviality. The restaurant was no great place, but boasted a
considerable cellar and a long printed list of vintages. This I was
perusing with the double zest of a man who is fond of wine and a lover
of beautiful names, when my eye fell (near the end of the card) on that
not very famous or familiar brand, Roussillon. I remembered it was a
wine I had never tasted, ordered a bottle, found it excellent, and when
I had discussed the contents, called (according to my habit) for a final
pint. It appears they did not keep Roussillon in half-bottles. "All
right," said I, "another bottle." The tables at this eating-house are
close together; and the next thing I can remember, I was in somewhat
loud conversation with my nearest neighbours. From these I must have
gradually extended my attentions; for I have a clear recollection of
gazing about a room in which every chair was half turned round and every
face turned smilingly to mine. I can even remember what I was saying at
the moment; but after twenty years the embers of shame are still alive,
and I prefer to give your imagination the cue by simply mentioning that
my muse was the patriotic. It had been my design to adjourn for coffee
in the company of some of these new friends; but I was no sooner on the
side-walk than I found myself unaccountably alone. The circumstance
scarce surprised me at the time, much less now; but I was somewhat
chagrined a little after to find I had walked into a kiosque. I began
to wonder if I were any the worse for my last bottle, and decided to
steady myself with coffee and brandy. In the Cafe de la Source, where I
went for this restorative, the fountain was playing, and (what greatly
surprised me) the mill and the various mechanical figures on the rockery
appeared to have been freshly repaired, and performed the most
enchanting antics. The cafe was extraordinarily hot and bright, with
every detail of a conspicuous clearness--from the faces of the guests,
to the type of the newspapers on the tables--and the whole apartment
swang to and fro like a hammock, with an exhilarating motion. For some
while I was so extremely pleased with these particulars that I thought I
could never be weary of beholding them: then dropped of a sudden into a
causeless sadness; and then, with the same swiftness and spontaneity,
arrived at the conclusion that I was drunk and had better get to bed.
It was but a step or two to my hotel, where I got my lighted candle from
the porter, and mounted the four flights to my own room. Although I
could not deny that I was drunk, I was at the same time lucidly rational
and practical. I had but one pre-occupation--to be up in time on the
morrow for my work; and when I observed the clock on my chimney-piece to
have stopped, I decided to go downstairs again and give directions to
the porter. Leaving the candle burning and my door open, to be a guide
to me on my return, I set forth accordingly. The house was quite dark;
but as there were only the three doors on each landing, it was
impossible to wander, and I had nothing to do but descend the stairs
until I saw the glimmer of the porter's night-light. I counted four
flights: no porter. It was possible, of course, that I had reckoned
incorrectly; so I went down another and another, and another, still
counting as I went, until I had reached the preposterous figure of nine
flights. It was now quite clear that I had somehow passed the porter's
lodge without remarking it; indeed, I was, at the lowest figure, five
pairs of stairs below the street, and plunged in the very bowels of the
earth. That my hotel should thus be founded upon catacombs was a
discovery of considerable interest; and if I had not been in a frame of
mind entirely business-like, I might have continued to explore all night
this subterranean empire. But I was bound I must be up betimes on the
next morning, and for that end it was imperative that I should find the
porter. I faced about accordingly, and counting with painful care,
remounted towards the level of the street. Five, six, and seven flights
I climbed, and still there was no porter. I began to be weary of the
job, and reflecting that I was now close to my own room, decided I
should go to bed. Eight, nine, ten, eleven, twelve, thirteen flights I
mounted; and my open door seemed to be as wholly lost to me as the
porter and his floating dip. I remembered that the house stood but six
stories at its highest point, from which it appeared (on the most
moderate computation) I was now three stories higher than the roof. My
original sense of amusement was succeeded by a not unnatural irritation.
"My room has just _got_ to be here," said I, and I stepped towards the
door with outspread arms. There was no door and no wall; in place of
either there yawned before me a dark corridor, in which I continued to
advance for some time without encountering the smallest opposition. And
this in a house whose extreme area scantily contained three small rooms,
a narrow landing, and the stair! The thing was manifestly nonsense; and
you will scarcely be surprised to learn that I now began to lose my
temper. At this juncture I perceived a filtering of light along the
floor, stretched forth my hand, which encountered the knob of a
door-handle, and without further ceremony entered a room. A young lady
was within: she was going to bed, and her toilet was far advanced--or
the other way about, if you prefer.
"I hope you will pardon this intrusion," said I; "but my room is No.
12, and something has gone wrong with this blamed house."
She looked at me a moment; and then, "If you will step outside for a
moment, I will take you there," says she.
Thus, with perfect composure on both sides, the matter was arranged. I
waited a while outside her door. Presently she rejoined me, in a
dressing-gown, took my hand, led me up another flight, which made the
fourth above the level of the roof, and shut me into my own room, where
(being quite weary after these contra-ordinary explorations) I turned in
and slumbered like a child.
I tell you the thing calmly, as it appeared to me to pass; but the next
day, when I awoke and put memory in the witness-box, I could not conceal
from myself that the tale presented a good many improbable features. I
had no mind for the studio, after all, and went instead to the
Luxembourg gardens, there, among the sparrows and the statues and the
fallen leaves, to cool and clear my head. It is a garden I have always
loved. You sit there in a public place of history and fiction. Barras
and Fouche have looked from these windows. Lousteau and De Banville (one
as real as the other) have rhymed upon these benches. The city tramples
by without the railings to a lively measure; and within and about you,
trees rustle, children and sparrows utter their small cries, and the
statues look on for ever. Here, then, in a seat opposite the gallery
entrance, I set to work on the events of the last night, to disengage
(if it were possible) truth from fiction.
The house, by daylight, had proved to be six stories high, the same as
ever. I could find, with all my architectural experience, no room in its
altitude for those interminable stairways, no width between its walls
for that long corridor, where I had tramped at night. And there was yet
a greater difficulty. I had read somewhere an aphorism that everything
may be false to itself save human nature. A house might elongate or
enlarge itself--or seem to do so to a gentleman who had been dining. The
ocean might dry up, the rocks melt in the sun, the stars fall from
heaven like autumn apples; and there was nothing in these incidents to
boggle the philosopher. But the case of the young lady stood upon a
different foundation. Girls were not good enough, or not good that way,
or else they were too good. I was ready to accept any of these views:
all pointed to the same conclusion, which I was thus already on the
point of reaching, when a fresh argument occurred, and instantly
confirmed it. I could remember the exact words we had each said; and I
had spoken, and she had replied, in English. Plainly, then, the whole
affair was an illusion: catacombs, and stairs, and charitable lady, all
were equally the stuff of dreams.
I had just come to this determination, when there blew a flaw of wind
through the autumnal gardens; the dead leaves showered down, and a
flight of sparrows, thick as a snowfall, wheeled above my head with
sudden pipings. This agreeable bustle was the affair of a moment, but it
startled me from the abstraction into which I had fallen like a summons.
I sat briskly up, and as I did so my eyes rested on the figure of a lady
in a brown jacket and carrying a paint-box. By her side walked a fellow
some years older than myself, with an easel under his arm; and alike by
their course and cargo I might judge they were bound for the gallery,
where the lady was, doubtless, engaged upon some copying. You can
imagine my surprise when I recognised in her the heroine of my
adventure. To put the matter beyond question, our eyes met, and she,
seeing herself remembered, and recalling the trim in which I had last
beheld her, looked swiftly on the ground with just a shadow of
confusion.
I could not tell you to-day if she were plain or pretty; but she had
behaved with so much good sense, and I had cut so poor a figure in her
presence, that I became instantly fired with the desire to display
myself in a more favourable light. The young man, besides, was possibly
her brother; brothers are apt to be hasty, theirs being a part in which
it is possible, at a comparatively early age, to assume the dignity of
manhood; and it occurred to me it might be wise to forestall all
possible complications by an apology.
On this reasoning I drew near to the gallery door, and had hardly got in
position before the young man came out. Thus it was that I came face to
face with my third destiny, for my career has been entirely shaped by
these three elements--my father, the capitol of Muskegon, and my friend
Jim Pinkerton. As for the young lady, with whom my mind was at the
moment chiefly occupied, I was never to hear more of her from that day
forward--an excellent example of the Blind Man's Buff that we call life.