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The medical faculty are of the opinion that a sprain is often worse than

a broken limb; a purely scientific, view of the matter, in which the

patient usually does not coincide. Well-bred people shrink from the

vulgarity of violence, and avoid the publicity of any open rupture in

domestic and social relations. And yet, perhaps, a lively quarrel

would be less lamentable than the withering away of friendship while

appearances are kept up. Nothing, indeed, is more pitiable than the

gradual drifting apart of people who have been dear to each other--a

severance produced by change of views and of principle, and the

substitution of indifference for sympathy. This disintegration is

certain to take the spring and taste out of life, and commonly to

habituate one to a lower view of human nature.

There was no rupture between the Hendersons and the Brandon circle, but

there was little intercourse of the kind that had existed before. There

was with us a profound sense of loss and sorrow, due partly to the

growing knowledge, not pleasing to our vanity, that Margaret could get

on very well without us, that we were not necessary to her life.

Miss Forsythe recovered promptly her cheerful serenity, but not the

elasticity of hope; she was irretrievably hurt; it was as if life was

now to be endured. That Margaret herself was apparently unconscious of

this, and that it did not affect much her own enjoyment, made it the

harder to bear. The absolute truth probably was that she regretted

it, and had moments of sentimental unhappiness; but there is great

compensation for such loss in the feeling of freedom to pursue a career

that is more and more agreeable. And I had to confess, when occasionally

I saw Margaret during that winter, that she did not need us. Why should

she? Did not the city offer her everything that she desired? And where

in the world are beauty, and gayety with a touch of daring, and a

magnificent establishment better appreciated? I do not know what

criterion newspaper notoriety is of social prestige, but Mrs. Rodney

Henderson's movements were as faithfully chronicled as if she had been

a visiting princess or an actress of eccentric proclivities. Her name

appeared as patroness of all the charities, the balls, the soirees,

musical and literary, and if it did not appear in a list of the persons

at any entertainment, one might suspect that the affair lacked the

cachet of the best society. I suppose the final test of one's importance

is to have all the details of one's wardrobe spread before the public.

Judged by this, Margaret's career in New York was phenomenal. Even our

interested household could not follow her in all the changing splendor

of her raiment. In time even Miss Forsythe ceased to read all these

details, but she cut them out, deposited them with other relics in a

sort of mortuary box of the child and the maiden. I used to wonder if,

in the Brandon attitude of mind at this period, there were not just

a little envy of such unclouded prosperity. It is so much easier to

forgive a failure than a success.

In the spring the Hendersons went abroad. The resolution to go may have

been sudden, for Margaret wrote of it briefly, and had not time to

run up and say good-by. The newspapers said that the trip was taken on

account of Mrs. Henderson's health; that it was because Henderson needed

rest from overwork; that he found it convenient to be away for a time,

pending the settlement of certain complications. There were ugly stories

afloat, but they were put in so many forms, and followed by so many

different sorts of denial, and so much importance was attached to

every word Henderson uttered, and every step he took, that the general

impression of his far-reaching sagacity and Napoleonic command of

fortune was immensely raised. Nothing is more significant of our

progress than the good-humored deference of the world to this sort of

success. It is said that the attraction of gravitation lessens according

to the distance from the earth, and there seems to be a region of

aerial freedom, if one can attain it, where the moral forces cease to be

operative.

They remained in Europe a year, although Mr. Henderson in the interim

made two or three hasty trips to this country, always, so far as it was

made public, upon errands of great importance, and in connection with

names of well-known foreign capitalists and enterprises of dignity.

Margaret wrote seldom, but always with evident enjoyment of her

experiences, which were mainly social, for wherever they went they

commanded the consideration that is accorded to fortune. What most

impressed me in these hasty notes was that the woman was so little

interested in the persons and places which in the old days she expressed

such a lively desire to see. If she saw them at all, it was from a

different point of view than that she formerly had. She did indeed

express her admiration of some charming literary friends of ours in

London, to whom I had written to call on her--people in very moderate

circumstances, I am ashamed to say--but she had not time to see much

of them. She and her husband had spent a couple of days at

Chisholm--delightful days. Of the earl she had literally nothing to say,

except that he was very kind, and that his family received them with the

most engaging and simple cordiality. “It makes me laugh,” she wrote from

Chisholm, “when I think what we considered fine at Lenox and Newport.

I've got some ideas for our new house.” A note came from “John Lyon” to

Miss Forsythe, expressing the great pleasure it was to return, even in

so poor a way, the hospitality he had received at Brandon. I did not see

it, but Miss Forsythe said it was a sad little note.

In Paris Margaret was ill--very ill; and this misfortune caused for

a time a revival of all the old affection, in sympathy with a

disappointment which awoke in our womankind all the tenderness of their

natures. She was indeed a little delicate for some time, but all our

apprehensions were relieved by the reports from Rome of a succession of

gayeties little interfered with by archaeological studies. They returned

in June. Of the year abroad there was nothing to chronicle, and there

would be nothing to note except that when Margaret passed a day with us

on her return, we felt, as never before, that our interests in life were

more and more divergent.

How could it be otherwise? There were so many topics of conversation

that we had to avoid. Even light remarks on current news, comments

that we used to make freely on the conduct of conspicuous persons, now

carried condemnation that took a personal color. The doubtful means of

making money, the pace of fashionable life, the wasteful prodigality

of the time, we instinctively shrank from speaking of before Margaret.

Perhaps we did her injustice. She was never more gracious, never more

anxious to please. I fancied that there was at times something pathetic

in her wistful desire for our affection and esteem. She was always

a generous girl, and I have no doubt she felt repelled at the quiet

rejection of her well-meant efforts to play the Lady Bountiful. There

were moments during her brief visit when her face was very sad, but no

doubt her predominant feeling escaped her in regard to the criticism

quoted from somebody on Jerry Hollowell's methods and motives. “People

are becoming very self-righteous,” she said.

My wife said to me that she was reminded of the gentle observation of

Carmen Eschelle, “The people I cannot stand are those who pretend they

are not wicked.” If one does not believe in anybody his cynicism has

usually a quality of contemptuous bitterness in it. One brought up as

Margaret had been could not very well come to her present view of

life without a touch of this quality, but her disposition was so

lovely--perhaps there is no moral quality in a good temper--that change

of principle could not much affect it. And then she was never more

winning; perhaps her beauty had taken on a more refined quality from her

illness abroad; perhaps it was that indefinable knowledge of the world,

which is recognized as well in dress as in manner, which increased her

attractiveness. This was quite apart from the fact that she was not so

sympathetically companionable to us as she once was, and it was this

very attractiveness of the worldly sort, I fancied, that pained her

aunt, and marked the separateness of their sympathies.

How could it be otherwise than that our interests should diverge? It was

a very busy summer with the Hendersons. They were planning the New York

house, which had been one of the objects of Henderson's early ambition.

The sea-air had been prescribed for Margaret, and Henderson had built a

steam-yacht, the equipment and furnishing of which had been a prolific

newspaper topic. It was greatly admired by yachtsmen for the beauty of

its lines and its speed, and pages were written about its sumptuous and

comfortable interior. I never saw it, having little faith in the

comfort of any structure that is not immovably reposeful, but from the

descriptions it was a boudoir afloat. In it short voyages were made

during the summer all along the coast from New York to Maine, and the

arrival and departure of the Henderson yacht was one of the telegraphic

items we always looked for. Carmen Eschelle was usually of the party on

board, sometimes the Misses Arbuser; it was always a gay company, and in

whatever harbor it dropped anchor there was a new impetus given to the

somewhat languid pleasure of the summer season. We read of the dinners

and lunches on board, the entertainments where there were wine and

dancing and moonlight, and all that. I always thought of it as a fairy

sort of ship, sailing on summer seas, freighted with youth and beauty,

and carrying pleasure and good-fortune wherever it went. What more

pleasing spectacle than this in a world that has such a bad name for

want and misery?

Henderson was master of the situation. The sudden accumulation of

millions of money is a mystery to most people. If Henderson had been

asked about it he would have said that he had not a dollar which he had

not earned by hard work. None worked harder. If simple industry is a

virtue, he would have been an example for Sunday-school children.

The object of life being to make money, he would have been a perfect

example. What an inspiration, indeed, for all poor boys were the names

of Hollowell and Henderson, which were as familiar as the name of the

President! There was much speculation as to the amount of Henderson's

fortune, and many wild estimates of it, but by common consent he was one

of the three or four great capitalists. The gauge of this was his power,

and the amounts he could command in an emergency. There was a mystery in

the very fact that the amount he could command was unknown. I have said

that his accumulation was sudden; it was probably so only in appearance.

For a dozen years, by operations, various, secret, untiring, he had

been laying the foundations for his success, and in the maturing of his

schemes it became apparent how vast his transactions had been. For years

he had been known as a rising man, and suddenly he became an important

man. The telegraph, the newspapers, chronicled his every movement;

whatever he said was construed like a Delphic oracle. The smile or the

frown of Jay Hawker himself had not a greater effect upon the market.

The Southwest operation, which made so much noise in the courts, was

merely an incident. In the lives of many successful men there are such

incidents, which they do not care to have inquired into, turning-points

that one slides over in the subsequent gilded biography, or, as it

is called, the nickel-plated biography. The uncomfortable A. and B.

bondholders had been settled with and silenced, after a fashion. In the

end, Mrs. Fletcher had received from the company nearly the full amount

of her investment. I always thought this was due to Margaret, but I made

no inquiries. There were many people who had no confidence in Henderson,

but generally his popularity was not much affected, and whatever was

said of him in private, his social position was almost as unchallenged

as his financial. It was a great point in his favor that he was very

generous to his family and his friends, and his public charities began

to be talked of. Nothing could have been more admirable than a paper

which appeared about this time in one of the leading magazines, written

by a great capitalist during a strike in his “system,” off the uses of

wealth and the responsibilities of rich men. It amused Henderson and

Uncle Jerry, and Margaret sent it, marked, to her aunt. Uncle Jerry said

it was very timely, for at the moment there was a report that Hollowell

and Henderson had obtained possession of one of the great steamship

lines in connection with their trans-continental system. I thought

at the time that I should like to have heard Carmen's comments on the

paper.

The continued friendly alliance of Rodney Henderson and Jerry Hollowell

was a marvel to the public, which expected to read any morning that

the one had sold out the other, or unloaded in a sly deal. The Stock

Exchange couldn't understand it; it was so against all experience that

it was considered something outside of human nature. But the explanation

was simple enough. The two kept a sharp eye on each other, and, as Uncle

Jerry would say, never dropped a stitch; but the simple fact was that

they were necessary to each other, and there had been no opportunity

when the one could handsomely swallow the other. So it was beautiful to

see their accord, and the familiar understanding between them.

One day in Henderson's office--it was at the time they were arranging

the steamship “scoop” while they were waiting for the drafting of some

papers, Uncle Jerry suddenly asked:

“By the way, old man, what's all this about a quarter of a million for a

colored college down South?”

“Oh, that's Mrs. Henderson's affair. They say it's the most magnificent

college building south of Washington. It's big enough. I've seen the

plan of it. Henderson Hall, they are going to call it. I suggested

Margaret Henderson Hall, but she wouldn't have it.”

“What is it for?”

“One end of it is scientific, geological, chemical, electric,

biological, and all that; and the other end is theological. Miss

Eschelle says it's to reconcile science and religion.”

“She's a daisy-that girl. Seems to me, though, that you are educating

the colored brother all on top. I suppose, however, it wouldn't have

been so philanthropic to build a hall for a white college.”

Henderson laughed. “You keep your eye on the religious sentiment of the

North, Uncle Jerry. I told Mrs. Henderson that we had gone long on the

colored brother a good while. She said this was nothing. We could endow

a Henderson University by-and-by in the Southwest, white as alabaster,

and I suppose we shall.”

“Yes, probably we've got to do something in that region to keep 'em

quiet. The public is a curious fish. It wants plenty of bait.”

“And something to talk about,” continued Henderson. “We are going down

next week to dedicate Henderson Hall. I couldn't get out of it.”

“Oh, it will pay,” said Uncle Jerry, as he turned again to business.

The trip was made in Henderson's private car; in fact, in a special

train, vestibuled; a neat baggage car with library and reading-room in

one end, a dining-room car, a private car for invited guests, and

his own car--a luxurious structure, with drawing-room, sleeping-room,

bath-room, and office for his telegrapher and type-writer. The whole

was a most commodious house of one story on wheels. The cost of it would

have built and furnished an industrial school and workshop for a hundred

negroes; but this train was, I dare say, a much more inspiring example

of what they might attain by the higher education. There were half

a dozen in the party besides the Hendersons--Carmen, of course; Mr.

Ponsonby, the English attache; and Mrs. Laflamme, to matronize three

New York young ladies. Margaret and Carmen had never been so far South

before.

Is it not agreeable to have sweet charity silver shod? This sumptuous

special train caused as much comment as the errand on which it went. Its

coming was telegraphed from station to station, and crowds everywhere

collected to see it. Brisk reporters boarded it; the newspapers devoted

columns to descriptions of it; editorials glorified it as a signal

example of the progress of the great republic, or moralized on it as a

sign of the luxurious decadence of morals; pointing to Carthage and Rome

and Alexandria in withering sarcasm that made those places sink into

insignificance as corrupters of the world. There were covert allusions

to Cleopatra ensconced in the silken hangings of the boudoir car, and

one reporter went so far as to refer to the luxury of Capua and Baiae,

to their disparagement. All this, however, was felt to add to the glory

of the republic, and it all increased the importance of Henderson. To

hear the exclamations, “That's he!” “That's him!” “That's Henderson!”

was to Margaret in some degree a realization of her ambition; and Carmen

declared that it was for her a sweet thought to be identified with

Cleopatra.

So the Catachoobee University had its splendid new building--as great a

contrast to the shanties from which its pupils came as is the Capitol

at Washington to the huts of a third of its population. If the reader is

curious he may read in the local newspapers of the time glowing accounts

of its “inaugural dedication”; but universities are so common in this

country that it has become a little wearisome to read of ceremonies of

this sort. Mr. Henderson made a modest reply to the barefaced eulogy on

himself, which the president pronounced in the presence of six hundred

young men and women of various colors and invited guests--a eulogy which

no one more thoroughly enjoyed than Carmen. I am sorry to say that she

refused to take the affair seriously.

“I felt for you, Mr. Henderson,”; she said, after the exercises were

over. “I blushed for you. I almost felt ashamed, after all the president

said, that you had given so little.”

“You seem, Miss Eschelle,” remarked Mr. Ponsonby, “to be enthusiastic

about the education and elevation of the colored people.”

“Yes, I am; I quite share Mr. Henderson's feeling about it. I'm for the

elevation of everything.”

“There is a capital chance for you,” said Henderson; “the university

wants some scholarships.”

“And I've half a mind to found one--the Eschelle Scholarship of Washing

and Clear-starching. You ought to have seen my clothes that came back to

the car. Probably they were not done by your students. The things looked

as if they had been dragged through the Cat-a-what-do-you-call-it River,

and ironed with a pine chip.”

“Could you do them any better, with all your cultivation?” asked

Margaret.

“I think I could, if I was obliged to. But I couldn't get through that

university, with all its ologies and laboratories and Greek and queer

bottles and machines. You have neglected my education, Mr. Henderson.”

“It is not too late to begin now; you might see if you could pass

the examination here. It is part of our plan gradually to elevate the

whites,” said Henderson.

“Yes, I know; and did you see that some of the scholars had red hair and

blue eyes, quite in the present style? And how nice the girls looked,”

she rattled on; “and what a lot of intelligent faces, and how they

kindled up when the president talked about the children of Israel in

the wilderness forty years, and Caesar crossing the Rubicon! And you,

sir”--she turned to the Englishman--“I've heard, were against all this

emancipation during the war.”

“Bless my soul!” exclaimed Ponsonby, “we never were against

emancipation, and wanted the best side to win.”

“You had a mighty queer way of showing it, then.”

“Well, honestly, Miss Eschelle, do you think the negroes are any better

off?”

“You'd better ask them. My opinion is that everybody should do what he

likes in this world.”

“Then what are you girding Mr. Henderson for about his university?”

“Because these philanthropists, like Mr. Henderson and Uncle Jerry

Hollowell, are all building on top; putting on the frosting before the

cake rises.”

“Haven't you found out, Mr. Ponsonby,” Margaret interrupted, “that if

there were eight sides to a question, Miss Eschelle would be on every

one of them?”

“And right, too. There are eight sides to every question, and generally

more. I think the negro question has a hundred. But there is only one

side to Henderson Hall. It is a noble institution. I like to think about

it, and Uncle Caesar Hollowell crossing the Rubicon in his theological

seminary. It is all so beautiful!”

“You are a bad child,” said Margaret. “We should have left you at home.”

“No, not bad, dear; only confused with such a lot of good deeds in a

naughty world.”

That this junketing party was deeply interested in the cause of

education for whites or blacks, no one would have gathered from the

conversation. Margaret felt that Carmen had exactly hit the motives of

this sort of philanthropy, and she was both amused and provoked by the

girl's mockery. By force of old habit she defended, as well she might,

these schools.

“You must have a high standard,” she said. “You cannot have good lower

schools without good higher schools. And these colleges, which you think

above the colored people, will stimulate them and gradually raise the

whole mass. You cannot do anything until you educate teachers.”

“So I have always heard,” replied the incorrigible. “I have always been

a philanthropist about the negro till I came down here, and I intend to

be again when I go back.”

Mrs. Laflamme was not a very eager apostle either, and the young ladies

devoted themselves to the picturesque aspects of the population, without

any concern for the moral problems. They all declared that they liked

the negro. But Margaret was not to be moved from her good-humor by any

amount of badgering. She liked Henderson Hall; she was proud of the

consideration it brought her husband; she had a comfortable sense of

doing something that was demanded by her opportunity. It is so difficult

to analyze motives, and in Margaret's case so hard to define the change

that had taken place in her. That her heart was not enlisted in this

affair, as it would have been a few years before, she herself knew.

Insensibly she had come to look at the world, at men and women, through

her husband's eyes, to take the worldly view, which is not inconsistent

with much good feeling and easy-going charity. She also felt the

necessity--a necessity totally unknown to such a nature as Carmen's--of

making compensation, of compounding for her pleasures. Gradually she was

learning to play her husband's game in life, and to see no harm in

it. What, then, is this thing we call conscience? Is it made of

India-rubber? I once knew a clever Southern woman, who said that New

England women seemed to her all conscience--Southern women all soul and

impulse. If it were possible to generalize in this way, we might say

that Carmen had neither conscience nor soul, simply very clever reason.

Uncle Jerry had no more conscience than Carmen, but he had a great deal

of natural affection. Henderson, with an abundance of good-nature, was

simply a man of his time, troubled with no scruples that stood in the

way of his success. Margaret, with a finer nature than either of them,

stifling her scruples in an atmosphere of worldly-mindedness, was likely

to go further than either of them. Even such a worldling as Carmen

understood this. “I do things,” she said to Mrs. Laflamme--she made

anybody her confidant when the fit was on her--“I do things because I

don't care. Mrs. Henderson does the same, but she does care.”

Margaret would be a sadder woman, but not a better woman, when the

time came that she did not care. She had come to the point of accepting

Henderson's methods of overreaching the world, and was tempering the

result with private liberality. Those were hypocrites who criticised

him; those were envious who disparaged him; the sufficient ethics of

the world she lived in was to be successful and be agreeable. And it is

difficult to condemn a person who goes with the general opinion of

his generation. Carmen was under no illusions about Henderson, or the

methods and manners of which she was a part. “Why pretend?” she said.

“We are all bad together, and I like it. Uncle Jerry is the easiest

person to get on with.” I remember a delightful, wicked old baroness

whom I met in my youth stranded in Geneva on short allowance--European

resorts are full of such characters. “My dear,” she said, “why shouldn't

I renege? Why shouldn't men cheat at cards? It's all in the game. Don't

we all know we are trying to deceive each other and get the best of each

other? I stopped pretending after Waterloo. Fighting for the peace of

Europe! Bah! We are all fighting for what we can get.”

So the Catachoobee Henderson Hall was dedicated, and Mr. Henderson got

great credit out of it.

“It's a noble deed, Mr. Henderson,” Carmen remarked, when they were at

dinner on the car the day of their departure. “But”--in an aside to

her host--“I advise the lambs in Wall Street to look alive at your next

deal.”

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