XIV

Our lives are largely made up of the things we do not have. In May,

the time of the apple blossoms--just a year from the swift wooing of

Margaret--Miss Forsythe received a letter from John Lyon. It was in a

mourning envelope. The Earl of Chisholm was dead, and John Lyon was Earl

of Chisholm. The information was briefly conveyed, but with an air of

profound sorrow. The letter spoke of the change that this loss brought

to his own life, and the new duties laid upon him, which would confine

him more closely to England. It also contained congratulations--which

circumstances had delayed--upon Mrs. Henderson's marriage, and a simple

wish for her happiness. The letter was longer than it need have been

for these purposes; it seemed to love to dwell upon the little visit to

Brandon and the circle of friends there, and it was pervaded by a tone,

almost affectionate, towards Miss Forsythe, which touched her very

deeply. She said it was such a manly letter.

America, the earl said, interested him more and more. In all history,

he wrote, there never had been such an opportunity for studying

the formation of society, for watching the working out of political

problems; the elements meeting were so new, and the conditions so

original, that historical precedents were of little service as guides.

He acknowledged an almost irresistible impulse to come back, and he

announced his intention of another visit as soon as circumstances

permitted.

I had noticed this in English travelers of intelligence before. Crude

as the country is, and uninteresting according to certain established

standards, it seems to have a “drawing” quality, a certain unexplained

fascination. Morgan says that it is the social unconventionality that

attracts, and that the American women are the loadstone. He declares.

that when an Englishman secures and carries home with him an American

wife, his curiosity about the country is sated. But this is generalizing

on narrow premises.

There was certainly in Lyon's letter a longing to see the country again,

but the impression it made upon me when I read it--due partly to its

tone towards Miss Forsythe, almost a family tone--was that the earldom

was an empty thing without the love of Margaret Debree. Life is so brief

at the best, and has so little in it when the one thing that the heart

desires is denied. That the earl should wish to come to America again

without hope or expectation was, however, quite human nature. If a man

has found a diamond and lost it, he is likely to go again and again and

wander about the field where he found it, not perhaps in any defined

hope of finding another, but because there is a melancholy satisfaction

in seeing the spot again. It was some such feeling that impelled

the earl to wish to see again Miss Forsythe, and perhaps to talk of

Margaret, but he certainly had no thought that there were two Margaret

Debrees in America.

To her aunt's letter conveying the intelligence of Mr. Lyon's loss,

Margaret replied with a civil message of condolence. The news had

already reached the Eschelles, and Carmen, Margaret said, had written

to the new earl a most pious note, which contained no allusion to

his change of fortune, except an expression of sympathy with his now

enlarged opportunity for carrying on his philanthropic plans--a most

unworldly note. “I used to think,” she had said, when confiding what

she had done to Margaret, “that you would make a perfect missionary

countess, but you have done better, my dear, and taken up a much more

difficult work among us fashionable sinners. Do you know,” she went on,

“that I feel a great deal less worldly than I used to?”

Margaret wrote a most amusing account of this interview, and added that

Carmen was really very good-hearted, and not half as worldly-minded as

she pretended to be; an opinion with which Miss Forsythe did not at all

agree. She had spent a fortnight with Margaret after Easter, and she

came back in a dubious frame of mind. Margaret's growing intimacy with

Carmen was one of the sources of her uneasiness. They appeared to be

more and more companionable, although Margaret's clear perception of

character made her estimate of Carmen very nearly correct. But the fact

remained that she found her company interesting. Whether the girl tried

to astonish the country aunt, or whether she was so thoroughly a child

of her day as to lack certain moral perceptions, I do not know, but her

candid conversation greatly shocked Miss Forsythe.

“Margaret,” she said one day, in one of her apparent bursts of

confidence, “seems to have had such a different start in life from mine.

Sometimes, Miss Forsythe, she puzzles me. I never saw anybody so much in

love as she is with Mr. Henderson; she doesn't simply love him, she is

in love with him. I don't wonder she is fond of him--any woman might be

that--but, do you know, she actually believes in him.”

“Why shouldn't she believe in him?” exclaimed Miss Forsythe, in

astonishment.

“Oh, of course, in a way,” the girl went on. “I like Mr. Henderson--I

like him very much--but I don't believe in him. It isn't the way now to

believe in anybody very much. We don't do it, and I think we get along

just as well--and better. Don't you think it's nicer not to have any

deceptions?”

Miss Forsythe was too much stunned to make any reply. It seemed to her

that the bottom had fallen out of society.

“Do you think Mr. Henderson believes in people?” the girl persisted.

“If he does not he isn't much of a man. If people don't believe in each

other, society is going to pieces. I am astonished at such a tone from a

woman.”

“Oh, it isn't any tone in me, my dear Miss Forsythe,” Carmen continued,

sweetly. “Society is a great deal pleasanter when you are not anxious

and don't expect too much.”

Miss Forsythe told Margaret that she thought Miss Eschelle was a

dangerous woman. Margaret did not defend her, but she did not join,

either, in condemning her; she appeared to have accepted her as a part

of her world. And there were other things that Margaret seemed to

have accepted without that vigorous protest which she used to raise

at whatever crossed her conscience. To her aunt she was never more

affectionate, never more solicitous about her comfort and her pleasure,

and it was almost enough to see Margaret happy, radiant, expanding day

by day in the prosperity that was illimitable, only there was to her a

note of unreality in all the whirl and hurry of the busy life. She liked

to escape to her room with a book, and be out of it all, and the two

weeks away from her country life seemed long to her. She couldn't

reconcile Margaret's love of the world, her tolerance of Carmen,

and other men and women whose lives seemed to be based on Carmen's

philosophy, with her devotion to the church services, to the city

missions, and the dozens of charities that absorb so much of the time of

the leaders of society.

“You are too young, dear, to be so good and devout,” was Carmen's

comment on the situation.

To Miss Forsythe's wonder, Margaret did not resent this impertinence,

but only said that no accumulation of years was likely to bring Carmen

into either of these dangers. And the reply was no more satisfactory to

Miss Forsythe than the remark that provoked it.

That she had had a delightful visit, that Margaret was more lovely

than ever, that Henderson was a delightful host, was the report of Miss

Forsythe when she returned to us. In a confidential talk with my wife

she confessed, however, that she couldn't tell whither Margaret was

going.

One of the worries of modern life is the perplexity where to spend the

summer. The restless spirit of change affects those who dwell in the

country, as well as those who live in the city. No matter how charming

the residence is, one can stay in it only a part of the year. He

actually needs a house in town, a villa by the sea, and a cottage in the

hills. When these are secured--each one an establishment more luxurious

year by year--then the family is ready to travel about, and is in a

greater perplexity than before whether to spend the summer in Europe

or in America, the novelties of which are beginning to excite the

imagination. This nomadism, which is nothing less than society on

wheels, cannot be satirized as a whim of fashion; it has a serious

cause in--the discovery of the disease called nervous prostration, which

demands for its cure constant change of scene, without any occupation.

Henderson recognized it, but he said that personally he had no time to

indulge in it. His summer was to be a very busy one. It was impossible

to take Margaret with him on his sudden and tedious journeys from

one end of the country to the other, but she needed a change. It was

therefore arranged that after a visit to Brandon she should pass the

warm months with the Arbusers in their summer home at Lenox, with a

month--the right month--in the Eschelle villa at Newport; and he hoped

never to be long absent from one place or the other.

Margaret came to Brandon at the beginning of June, just at the season

when the region was at its loveliest, and just when its society was

making preparations to get away from it to the sea, or the mountains,

or to any place that was not home. I could never understand why a people

who have been grumbling about snow and frost for six months, and longing

for genial weather, should flee from it as soon as it comes. I had made

the discovery, quite by chance--and it was so novel that I might have

taken out a patent on it--that if one has a comfortable home in our

northern latitude, he cannot do better than to stay in it when the hum

of the mosquito is heard in the land, and the mercury is racing up and

down the scale between fifty and ninety. This opinion, however, did not

extend beyond our little neighborhood, and we may be said to have had

the summer to ourselves.

I fancied that the neighborhood had not changed, but the coming of

Margaret showed me that this was a delusion. No one can keep in the same

place in life simply by standing still, and the events of the past two

years had wrought a subtle change in our quiet. Nothing had been changed

to the eye, yet something had been taken away, or something had been

added, a door had been opened into the world. Margaret had come home,

yet I fancied it was not the home to her that she had been thinking

about. Had she changed?

She was more beautiful. She had the air--I should hesitate to call it

that of the fine lady--of assured position, something the manner of that

greater world in which the possession of wealth has supreme importance,

but it was scarcely a change of manner so much as of ideas about life

and of the things valuable in it gradually showing itself. Her delight

at being again with her old friends was perfectly genuine, and she

had never appeared more unselfish or more affectionate. If there was

a subtle difference, it might very well be in us, though I found it

impossible to conceive of her in her former role of teacher and simple

maiden, with her heart in the little concerns of our daily life. And why

should she be expected to go back to that stage? Must we not all live

our lives? Miss Forsythe's solicitude about Margaret was mingled with

a curious deference, as to one who had a larger experience of life

than her own. The girl of a year ago was now the married woman, and was

invested with something of the dignity that Miss Forsythe in her pure

imagination attached to that position. Without yielding any of her

opinions, this idea somehow changed her relations to Margaret; a little,

I thought, to the amusement of Mrs. Fletcher and the other ladies, to

whom marriage took on a less mysterious aspect. It arose doubtless from

a renewed sense of the incompleteness of her single life, long as it had

been, and enriched as it was by observation.

In that June there were vexatious strikes in various parts of the

country, formidable combinations of laboring-men, demonstrations of

trades-unions, and the exhibition of a spirit that sharply called

attention to the unequal distribution of wealth. The discontent was

attributed in some quarters to the exhibition of extreme luxury and

reckless living by those who had been fortunate. It was even said that

the strikes, unreasonable and futile as they were, and most injurious

to those who indulged in them, were indirectly caused by the railway

manipulation, in the attempt not only to crush out competition, but to

exact excessive revenues on fictitious values. Resistance to this could

be shown to be blind, and the strikers technically in the wrong, yet the

impression gained ground that there was something monstrously wrong

in the way great fortunes were accumulated, in total disregard of

individual rights, and in a materialistic spirit that did not take into

account ordinary humanity. For it was not alone the laboring class that

was discontented, but all over the country those who lived upon small

invested savings, widows and minors, found their income imperiled by the

trickery of rival operators and speculators in railways and securities,

who treated the little private accumulations as mere counters in the

games they were playing. The loss of dividends to them was poorly

compensated by reflections upon the development of the country, and the

advantage to trade of great consolidations, which inured to the benefit

of half a dozen insolent men.

In discussing these things in our little parliament we were not

altogether unprejudiced, it must be confessed. For, to say nothing

of interests of Mr. Morgan and my own, which seemed in some danger of

disappearing for the “public good,” Mrs. Fletcher's little fortune was

nearly all invested in that sound “rock-bed” railway in the Southwest

that Mr. Jerry Hollowell had recently taken under his paternal care. She

was assured, indeed, that dividends were only reserved pending some sort

of reorganization, which would ultimately be of great benefit to all the

parties concerned; but this was much like telling a hungry man that if

he would possess his appetite in patience, he would very likely have a

splendid dinner next year. Women are not constituted to understand this

sort of reasoning. It is needless to say that in our general talks on

the situation these personalities were not referred to, for although

Margaret was silent, it was plain to see that she was uneasy.

Morgan liked to raise questions of casuistry, such as that whether money

dishonestly come by could be accepted for good purposes.

“I had this question referred to me the other day,” he said. “A

gambler--not a petty cheater in cards, but a man who has a splendid

establishment in which he has amassed a fortune, a man known for his

liberality and good-fellowship and his interest in politics--offered

the president of a leading college a hundred thousand dollars to endow a

professorship. Ought the president to take the money, knowing how it was

made?”

“Wouldn't the money do good--as much good as any other hundred thousand

dollars?” asked Margaret.

“Perhaps. But the professorship was to bear his name, and what would be

the moral effect of that?”

“Did you recommend the president to take the money, if he could get it

without using the gambler's name?”

“I am not saying yet what I advised. I am trying to get your views on a

general principle.”

“But wouldn't it be a sneaking thing to take a man's money, and refuse

him the credit of his generosity?”

“But was it generosity? Was not his object, probably, to get a

reputation which his whole life belied, and to get it by obliterating

the distinction between right and wrong?”

“But isn't it a compromising distinction,” my wife asked, “to take

his money without his name? The president knows that it is money

fraudulently got, that really belongs to somebody else; and the

gambler would feel that if the president takes it, he cannot think very

disapprovingly of the manner in which it was acquired. I think it would

be more honest and straightforward to take his name with the money.”

“The public effect of connecting the gambler's name with the college

would be debasing,” said Morgan; “but, on the contrary, is every charity

or educational institution bound to scrutinize the source of every

benefaction? Isn't it better that money, however acquired, should be

used for a good purpose than a bad one?”

“That is a question,” I said, “that is a vital one in our present

situation, and the sophistry of it puzzles the public. What would you

say to this case? A man notoriously dishonest, but within the law, and

very rich, offered a princely endowment to a college very much in need

of it. The sum would have enabled it to do a great work in education.

But it was intimated that the man would expect, after a while, to be

made one of the trustees. His object, of course, was social position.”

“I suppose, of course,” Margaret replied, “that the college couldn't

afford that. It would look like bribery.”

“Wouldn't he be satisfied with an LL.D.?” Morgan asked.

“I don't see,” my wife said, “any difference between the two cases

stated and that of the stock gambler, whose unscrupulous operations have

ruined thousands of people, who founds a theological seminary with the

gains of his slippery transactions. By accepting his seminary the public

condones his conduct. Another man, with the same shaky reputation,

endows a college. Do you think that religion and education are benefited

in the long-run by this? It seems to me that the public is gradually

losing its power of discrimination between the value of honesty and

dishonesty. Real respect is gone when the public sees that a man is able

to buy it.”

This was a hot speech for my wife to make. For a moment Margaret flamed

up under it with her old-time indignation. I could see it in her eyes,

and then she turned red and confused, and at length said:

“But wouldn't you have rich men do good with their money?”

“Yes, dear, but I would not have them think they can blot out by their

liberality the condemnation of the means by which many of them make

money. That is what they are doing, and the public is getting used to

it.”

“Well,” said Margaret, with some warmth, “I don't know that they are any

worse than the stingy saints who have made their money by saving, and

act as if they expected to carry it with them.”

“Saints or sinners, it does not make much difference to me,” now put

in Mrs. Fletcher, who was evidently considering the question from a

practical point of view, “what a man professes, if he founds a hospital

for indigent women out of the dividends that I never received.”

Morgan laughed. “Don't you think, Mrs. Fletcher, that it is a good sign

of the times, that so many people who make money rapidly are disposed to

use it philanthropically?”

“It may be for them, but it does not console me much just now.”

“But you don't make allowance enough for the rich. Perhaps they are

under a necessity of doing something. I was reading this morning in the

diary of old John Ward of Stratford-on-Avon this sentence: 'It was a

saying of Navisson, a lawyer, that no man could be valiant unless he

hazarded his body, nor rich unless he hazarded his soul.'”

“Was Navisson a modern lawyer?” I asked.

“No; the diary is dated 1648-1679.”

“I thought so.”

There was a little laugh at this, and the talk drifted off into a

consideration of the kind of conscience that enables a professional man

to espouse a cause he knows to be wrong as zealously as one he knows to

be right; a talk that I should not have remembered at all, except for

Margaret's earnestness in insisting that she did not see how a lawyer

could take up the dishonest side.

Before Margaret went to Lenox, Henderson spent a few days with us.

He brought with him the abounding cheerfulness, and the air of a

prosperous, smiling world, that attended him in all circumstances. And

how happy Margaret was! They went over every foot of the ground on which

their brief courtship had taken place, and Heaven knows what joy there

was to her in reviving all the tenderness and all the fear of it! Busy

as Henderson was, pursued by hourly telegrams and letters, we could

not but be gratified that his attention to her was that of a lover. How

could it be otherwise, when all the promise of the girl was realized

in the bloom and the exquisite susceptibility of the woman? Among other

things, she dragged him down to her mission in the city, to which he

went in a laughing and bantering mood. When he had gone away, Margaret

ran over to my wife, bringing in her hand a slip of paper.

“See that!” she cried, her eyes dancing with pleasure. It was a check

for a thousand dollars. “That will refurnish the mission from top to

bottom,” she said, “and run it for a year.”

“How generous he is!” cried my wife. Margaret did not reply, but she

looked at the check, and there were tears in her eyes.

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