THE RIGHT MAN IN THE RIGHT PLACE.
The very next day, I was afloat as a seaman of the Royal Navy of the
United Kingdom. None but a sailor can imagine what I felt and what I
thought. Here for years I had been adrift from the very work God shaped
me for, wrecked before my time by undue violence of a Frenchman. Also I
had bred my son up to supply my place a little; and a very noble fellow,
though he could not handle cutlash or lay gun as I had done. But he
might have come to it if he ever had come to my own time of life. This
however had been cut short by the will of Providence; and now I felt
bound to make good for it. Only one thing grieved me, viz., to find the
war declining. This went to my heart the more, because our Navy had not
done according to its ancient fame, anywhere but at Gibraltar and with
Admiral Rodney, in the year before I rejoined it. Off the coast of
America, things I could not bear to hear; also the loss of the Royal
George, the capture of the Leeward Islands, and of Minorca by the
French; and even a British sloop of war taken by a French corvette. Such
things moved me to the marrow, after all I had seen and done; and all
our ship's company understood that I returned to the service in the hope
to put a stop to it. This reclaiming of me to the thing that I was meant
for took less time than I might use to bring a gun to its bearings. That
beautiful Miss Carey managed everything with Captain Drake, and in less
than fifty kisses they had settled my affairs. I could have no more
self-respect, if I said another word.
But the King and the nation won the entire benefit of this. It came to
pass that I was made a second-instructor in gunnery, with an entire new
kit found me, and six-and-twopence a-week appointed, together with
second right to stick a fork into the boiler. Of course I could not have
won all this by favour; but showed merit. It had however been allowed
me, under an agreement (just enough, yet brought about by special love
of justice) that I should receive a month ashore at Newton-Nottage, in
the course of the spring, whenever it might suit our cruising. My
private affairs demanded this; as well as love of neighbours, and
strong desire to let them know how much they ought to make of me.
How I disdained my rod and pole, and the long-shore life and the
lubberly ways, when I felt once more the bounding of the open water, the
spring of the buoyant timbers answering every movement gallantly, the
generous vehemence of the canvas, and the noble freedom of the ocean
winds around us! The rush up a liquid mountain, and the sway on the
balance of the world, then the plunge into the valley, almost out of the
sight of God, though we feel Him hovering over us. While the heart leaps
with the hope of yet more glorious things to come--the wild delight, the
rage, suspense, and majesty of battle.
Nothing vexed me now so much as to hear from private people, and even
from the public sailors, that the nation wanted peace. No nation ever
should want peace, until it has thoroughly thrashed the other, or is
bound by wicked luck to knock under hopelessly. And neither of those
things had befallen England at this period. But I have not skill enough
to navigate in politics. And before we had been long at sea, we spoke a
full-rigged ship from Hamburg, which had touched at Falmouth; and two
German boys, in training for the British Navy, let us know that peace
was signed between Great Britain, France, and Spain, as nearly as might
be on Valentine's Day of the year 1783. A sad and hard thing we found to
believe it, and impossible to be pleased after such practice of gunnery.
Nevertheless it was true enough, and confirmed by another ship; and now
a new Ministry was in office under a man of the name of Fox, doubtless
of that nature also, ready always to run to earth. Nothing more could be
hoped except to put up with all degradation. A handful of barbarous
fellows, wild in the woods and swamps of America, most of them sent from
this home-country through their contempt of discipline, fellows of this
sort had been able (mainly by skulking and shirking fight) to elude and
get the better of His Britannic Majesty's forces, and pretend to set up
on their own account, as if they could ever get on so. No one who sees
these things as clearly as I saw them then and there, can doubt as to
the call I felt to rejoin the Royal Navy.
Of course I could not dream that now there was rising in a merchant-ship
captured from the Frenchmen, and fitted with two dozen guns, a British
Captain such as never had been seen before, nor will ever be again; and
whose skill and daring left the Frenchmen one hope only--to run ashore,
and stay there.
However, not to dwell too long on the noblest and purest motives, it did
not take me quite three weeks to supersede the first instructor, and to
get him sent ashore, and find myself hoisted into his berth, with a rise
of two-and-two per week. This gave me eight-and-fourpence, with another
stripe on my right arm, and what was far more to the purpose, added
greatly to the efficiency of the British Navy. Because the man was very
well, or at any rate well enough, in his way and in his manners, and
quite worth his wages; but to see him train a gun, and to call him First
Instructor! Captain Bampfylde saw, in twenty minutes, that I could shoot
this fine fellow's head off, unwilling as I was to give offence, and
delicate about priming. And all the men felt at once the power of a
practised hand set over them. I saw that the Navy had fallen back very
much in the matter of gunnery, in the time of the twenty years, or so,
since I had been Gun-captain; and it came into my head to show them many
things forgotten. The force of nature carried me into this my proper
position; and the more rapidly, because it happened to occur to me that
here was the very man pointed out, as it were by the hand of Providence,
for Parson Chowne to blow up next. Our Captain had the very utmost
confidence that could be in him, and he stood on his legs with a breadth
that spoke to the strength of his constitution; a man of enduring
gravity. Also his weight was such that the Parson never could manage to
blow him up, with any powder as yet admitted into the Royal Dockyards. I
liked this man, and I let him know it; but I thought it better for him
to serve his country on shore a little, after being so long afloat; if
(as I put it to his conscience) he could keep from poaching, and from
firing stackyards, or working dangerous ferries. He told me that he had
no temptation towards what I had mentioned; but on the other hand felt
inclined, after so many years at sea, to have a family of his own; and a
wife, if found consistent. This I assured him I could manage; and in a
few words did so; asking for nothing more on his part than entire
confidence. My nature commanded this from him; and we settled to
exchange our duties in a pleasant manner. I gave him introduction to the
liveliest of the farmers' daughters, telling him what their names were.
And being over-full of money, he paid me half-a-crown apiece, for
thirteen girls to whom I gave him letters of commendation. This was far
too cheap, with all of them handsomer than he had any right to; and
three of them only daughters, and two with no more than grandmothers.
But I love to help a fellow-sailor; and thus I got rid of him. For our
Captain had the utmost faith in this poor man's discretion, and had
thought, before I said it, of laying him up at Narnton Court, to keep a
general look-out, because his eyes were failing. I did not dare to offer
more opinion than was asked for, but it struck me that if Parson Chowne
had been too clever for David Llewellyn, and made the place too hot for
him, he was not likely to be outwitted by Naval Instructor Heaviside.
However, I could not see much occasion for Chowne to continue his plots
any longer, or even to keep watch on the house, unless it were from
jealousy of our Captain's visits. As far as any one might fathom that
unfathomable Parson, he had two principal ends in view. The first was to
get possession of Miss Carey and all her property, by making her Mrs
Chowne, No. 4; the second, which would help him towards the first, was
to keep up against poor Captain Drake the horrible charge of having
killed those two children, whose burial had been seen as before related.
And here I may mention what I had forgotten, through entire want of
vindictive feeling--to wit, that I had, as a matter of duty, contrived
to thrash very heavily both of those fellows on Braunton Burrows, who
had been spying on Narnton Court, and committed such outrages against
me. Without doing this, I could not have left the county
conscientiously.
And now on board the Alcestis, a rattling fine frigate of 44 guns, it
gave me no small pleasure to find that (although the gunnery-practice
was not so good as I was accustomed to), in seamanship, and discipline,
and general smartness, there was little to be reasonably complained of;
especially when it was borne in mind what our special duty was, and why
we were kept in commission when so many other ships were paid off, at
the conclusion of the war. Up to that time the Alcestis had orders to
cruise off the western coasts, not only on account of some French
privateers, which had made mischief with our shipping, but also as a
draft-ship for receiving and training batches of young hands, who were
transferred, as occasion offered, to Halifax, or the West Indies
station. And now as the need for new forces ceased, Captain Drake was
beginning to expect orders for Spithead to discharge. Instead of that,
however, the Admiralty had determined to employ this ship, which had
done so much in the way of education, for the more thorough settlement
of a question upon which they differed from the general opinion of the
Navy, and especially of the Ordnance Board. This was concerning the
value of a new kind of artillery invented by a clever Scotchman, and
called a "Carronade," because it was cast at certain iron-works on the
banks of the river Carron. This gun is now so thoroughly well known and
approved, and has done so much to help us to our recent triumphs, that I
need not stop to describe it, although at first it greatly puzzled me.
It was so short, and light, and handy, and of such large caliber,
moreover with a great chamber for the powder, such as a mortar has, that
at first it quite upset me, knowing that I must appear familiar, yet not
being so. However, I kept in the background, and nodded and shook my
head so that every one misunderstood me differently.
That night I arose and studied it, and resolved to back it up, because
only Captain Drake was in its favour, and the first-lieutenant.
Heaviside was against it strongly, although he said that six months ago
the Rainbow, an old 44, being refitted with nothing else but carronades
of large caliber, had created such terror in a French ship of almost
equal force, that she fired a broadside of honour, and then surrendered
to the Rainbow. But to come back to our Alcestis, at the time I was
promoted to first place in gunnery. Over and above her proper armament
of long guns, eighteen and twelve pounders, she carried on the
quarter-deck six 24-pounder carronades, and two of 18 in the forecastle.
So that in truth she had fifty-two guns, and was a match in weight of
metal for a French ship of sixty guns, as at that time fitted.
Afterwards it was otherwise; and their artillery outweighed ours, as
much as a true Briton outweighs them.
Now Naval Instructor Mr Llewellyn had such a busy time of it, and was
found so indispensable on board the Alcestis, that I do assure you they
could not spare him for even a glimpse of old Newton-Nottage, until the
beginning of the month of May. But as I always find that people become
loose in their sense of duty, unless girt up well with money (even as
the ancients used to carry their cash in their girdles), I had taken
advantage of a run ashore at Pembroke, to send our excellent Parson
Lougher a letter containing a £5 note, as well as a few words about my
present position, authority, and estimation. I trusted to him as a
gentleman not to speak of those last matters to any untrustworthy
person whatever; because there would be six months' pension falling due
to me at Swansea, at the very time of writing; and which of course I
meant to have; for my zeal in overlooking my wound could not replace me
unwounded, I trow. But knowing our Government to be thoroughly versed in
every form of stinginess and peculation (which was sure to be doubled
now a Fox was in), I thought that they might even have the dishonesty to
deny me my paltry pittance on account of ancient merit and great valour,
upon the shabby plea that now I was on full pay again! They would have
done so, I do believe, if their own clumsy and careless ways had allowed
them to get scent of it. But they do things so stupidly, that a clever
man need never allow them to commit roguery upon him. And by means of
discreet action, I was enabled for fourteen years to draw the pension I
had won so nobly, as well as the pay I was earning so grandly. However,
these are trifles.
The £5 note was for Mother Jones, to help our Bunny with spring-clothes,
and to lay out at her discretion for my grandchild's benefit, supposing
(as I must needs suppose) that Churchwarden Morgan, in face of his
promise, would refuse indignantly to accept a farthing for the child's
nourishment. He disappointed me, however, by accepting four pound ten,
and Mrs Jones was quite upset; for even Bunny never could have eaten
that much in the time. Charles was a worthy man enough (as undertakers
always are), but it was said that he could not do according to his
lights, when fancy brought his wife across them. Poor Mother Jones was
so put out, that she quite forgot what she was doing until she had spent
the ten shillings of change in drawers for her middle children. And so
poor Bunny got nothing at all; nor even did poorer Bardie. For this
little dear I had begged to be bought, for the sake of her vast
imagination, nothing less than a two-shilling doll, jointed both at knee
and elbow, as the Dutchmen turn them out. It was to be naked (like
Parson Chowne's folk), but with the girls at the well stirred up to make
it more becoming. And then Mother Jones was to go to Sker, and in my
name present it.
All things fail, unless a man himself goes and looks after them. And so
my £5 note did; and when I was able to follow it, complaint was too
late, as usual. But you should have seen the village on the day when our
Captain Drake--as we delighted to call him--found himself for the first
time able to carry out his old promise to me, made beneath the very
eyes of his true-love, Isabel. The thought of this had long been chafing
in between his sense of honour, and of duty set before him by the
present Naval Board. And but for his own deeper troubles, though I did
my best for ease, he must have felt discomfort. If I chose, I could give
many tokens of what he thought of me, not expressed, nor even hinted;
yet to my mind palpable. But as long as our Navy lasts, no man will dare
to intrude on his Captain.
Be it enough, and it was enough, that his Majesty's 44-gun ship Alcestis
brought up, as near as her draught allowed, to Porthcawl Point, on the
5th of May 1783. This was by no means my desire, because it went against
my nature to exhibit any grandeur. And I felt in my heart the most warm
desire that Master Alexander Macraw might happen to be from home that
day. Nothing could have grieved me more, than for a man of that small
nature to behold me stepping up in my handsome uniform, with all the
oars saluting me, and the second-lieutenant in the stern-sheets crying,
"Farewell, Mr David!" also officership marked upon every piece of my
clothes in sight; and the dignity of my bearing not behind any one of
them. But as my evil luck would have it, there was poor Sandy Mac
himself, and more half-starved than ever. Such is the largeness of my
nature, that I sank all memory of wrongs, and upon his touching his hat
to me I gave him an order for a turbot, inasmuch as my clothes were now
too good, and my time too valuable, to permit of my going fishing.
This, however, was nothing at all, compared with what awaited me among
the people at the well. All Newton was assembled there to welcome and
congratulate me, and most of them called me "Captain Llewellyn," and
every one said I looked ten years younger in my handsome uniform. I gave
myself no airs whatever--that I leave for smaller men--but entered so
heartily into the shaking of hands, that if I had been a pump, the well
beneath us must have gone quite dry. But all this time I was looking for
Bunny, who was not among them; and presently I saw short legs of a size
and strength unparalleled, except by one another, coming at a mighty
pace down the yellow slope of sand, and scattering the geese on the
small green patches. Mrs Morgan had kept her to smarten up,--and really
she was a credit to them, so clean, and bright, and rosy-faced. At first
she was shy of my grand appearance; but we very soon made that right.
Now I will not enlarge upon or even hint at the honour done me for
having done such honour to my native place, because as yet I had done
but little, except putting that coat on, to deserve it. Enough that I
drew my salary for attending to the old church clock, also my pension at
Swansea, and was feasted and entertained, and became for as long as
could be expected the hero of the neighbourhood. And I found that Mother
Jones had kept my cottage in such order, that after a day or two I was
able to go to Sker for the purpose of begging the favour of a visit from
Bardie.
But first, as in duty bound, of course, I paid my respects to Colonel
Lougher. As luck would have it, both the worthy Colonel and Lady Bluett
were gone from home; but my old friend Crumpy, their honest butler,
kindly invited me in, and gave me an excellent dinner in his own pantry;
because he did not consider it proper that an officer of the Royal Navy
should dine with the maids in the kitchen, however unpretending might be
his behaviour. And here, while we were exchanging experience over a fine
old cordial, in bursts the Honourable Rodney, without so much as
knocking at the door. Upon seeing me his delight was such that I could
forgive him anything; and his admiration of my dress, when I stood up
and made the salute to him, proved that he was born a sailor. A fine
young fellow he was as need be, in his twelfth year now, and come on a
mitching expedition from the great grammar-school at Cowbridge. To drink
his health, both Crumpy and myself had courage for another glass; and
when I began to tell sea-stories, with all the emphasis and expression
flowing out of my uniform, he was so overpowered that he insisted on a
hornpipe. This, although it might be now considered under dignity, I
could not refuse as a mark of respect for him, and for the service; and
when I had executed, as perhaps no other man can, this loyal and
inimitable dance, his feelings were carried away so strongly that he
offered all the money left him by a course of schoolwork (and amounting
to fourpence-halfpenny) if I would only agree to smuggle him on board
our Alcestis, when she should come to fetch me.
This, of course, I could not think of, even for a hundred pounds; and
much as I longed for the boy to have the play of his inclination. And in
the presence of Crumpy too, who with all his goodwill to me, would be
sure to give evidence badly, if his young master were carried away! And
under such love and obligation to the noble Colonel, I behaved as a man
should do, when having to deal with a boyish boy; that is to say, I told
his guardians on the next opportunity.
But to break away at once from all these trifling matters, only one day
came to pass before I went for Bardie. All along the sea-coast I was
going very sadly; half in hopes, but more in fear, because I had bad
news of her. What little they could tell at Newton was that Delushy was
almost dead, by means of a dreadful whooping-cough, all throughout the
winter, and the small caliber of her throat. And Charles Morgan had no
more knowledge of my warm feeling thitherway, than to show me that he
had been keeping some boards of sawn and seasoned elm, two feet six in
length, and in breadth ten inches, from what he had heard about her
health, and the likelihood of her measurement. When I heard this, you
might knock me down, in spite of all my uniform, with a tube of
macaroni. People have a foolish habit, when a man comes home again, of
keeping all the bad news from him, and pushing forward all the good. If
this had not been done to me, I never could have slept a wink, ere going
to Sker Manor.
To me that old house always seemed even more desolate and forlorn with
the summer sunshine on it, than in the fogs and storms of winter;
perhaps from the bareness of the sandhills, and the rocks, and
dry-stone walls, showing more in the brightness, and when woods and
banks are fairest. I looked in vain for a moving creature; there seemed
to be none for miles around, except a sullen cormorant sleeping far away
at sea. Only little Dutch was howling in some lonely corner slowly, as
when her five young masters died.
As I approached the door in fear of being too late to say good-bye to my
pretty little one, yet trying to think how well it might be for her poor
young life to flutter to some guardian angel, my old enemy Black Evan
stood and barred the way for me. I doubt if he knew me, at first sight;
and beyond any doubt at all, I never should have known him, if I had
chanced to meet him elsewhere. For I had not set eyes on his face from
the day when he frightened us so at the Inquest; and in those ten
months, what a change from rugged strength to decrepitude!
"You cannot see any one in this house," he said very quietly, and of
course in Welsh; "every one is very busy, and in great trouble every
one."
"Evan Black, I feel sorrow for you. And have felt it, through all your
troubles. Take the hand of a man who has come with goodwill, and to help
you."
He put out his hand, and its horn was gone. I found it flabby, cold, and
trembling. A year ago he had been famous for crushing everything in his
palm.
"You cannot help us; neither can any man born of a woman," he answered,
with his black eyes big with tears: "it is the will of the Lord to slay
all whom He findeth dear to me."
"Is Delushy dead?" I asked, with a great sob rising in my throat, like
wadding rammed by an untaught man.
"The little sweetheart is not yet dead; but she cannot live beyond the
day. She lies panting with lips open. What food has she taken for five
days?"
Any one whose nature leads him to be moved by little things, would have
been distressed at seeing such a most unlucky creature finishing her
tender days in that quiet childish manner, among strangers' tenderness.
In her weak, defeated state, with all her clever notions gone, she lay
with a piece of striped flannel round her, the lips, that used to
prattle so, now gasping for another breath, and the little toes that
danced so, limp, and frail, and feebly twitching. The tiny frame was too
worn to cough, and could only shudder faintly, when the fit came through
it. Yet I could see that the dear little eyes looked at me, and tried to
say to the wandering wits that it was Old Davy; and the helpless tongue
made effort to express that love of beauty, which had ever seemed to be
the ruling baby passion. The crown and stripes upon my right arm were
done in gold--at my own expense, for Government only allowed yellow
thread. Upon these her dim eyes fastened, with a pleasure of surprise;
and though she could not manage it, she tried to say, "How boofely!"