MAGGIE
It was still unopened when Dr. Square came out of the house with Dolly,
and at his approach she pushed it behind a cushion.
Whether he noted any agitation on her part or not she could not say, but
he was very emphatic in his orders to her to rest, and impressed upon
Dolly the necessity for absolute quiet. Then he departed, and, before
she could open her letter, Milly came out with her work and a chair and
sat down beside her with the evident intention of remaining. Milly was
the silent one of the family, a shy, diffident girl who shared Ruth’s
adoration for her mother, but had little in common with the rest. She
was stitching at a flannel shirt for Arthur, and she worked steadily
without lifting her eyes.
Frances did not attempt any conversation. She was very tired, and the
thought of that letter which could only be read in solitude burdened
her. She had not answered the first, and he had written again so soon!
She had a bewildered feeling as of being driven against her will, but
whither she could not have said. Only she knew that if she would save
herself this letter must be answered. He was growing impatient, and
perhaps it was not surprising. She had given him a certain right over
her. He could at least with justice claim an explanation of her changed
attitude. But the bare thought of such an explanation revolted her. She
had a passionate desire to thrust him out of her life, never to see him,
never to communicate with him again. Only she knew—too well—that he
would not submit to such treatment. Sooner or later he would demand a
reckoning. And—torturing thought!—after all, had he not a right?
Oliver’s cheery voice across the lawn diverted her attention. He was
leaning on the sill of the dairy window, talking jauntily to someone
within. She liked Oliver—Oliver Twist as they called him, on account,
she had discovered, of a slight limp, the result of a kick on the knee
in his boyhood. He had a gay personality that appealed to her, and the
comic flash of his daring blue eyes was a thing to remember. He was
never depressed, whatever the weather.
He was plainly enjoying himself on this occasion, and presently a
ringing laugh in unison with his told her who was the companion of his
idle moments. There was only one person at Tetherstones who ever laughed
like that.
Milly glanced up nervously from her work at the sound, but made no
comment. Only, as the distant figure suddenly leapt the sill and
disappeared into the dairy, she coloured very deeply as if ashamed.
Frances, who had viewed the whole incident with amused interest, felt a
little out of patience with her. She had noticed before that Maggie and
Oliver were evidently kindred spirits.
She closed her eyes with the reflection that Milly must be something of
a prude, when a sudden commotion rekindled her interest and she opened
them again in time to see Oliver come hurtling through the window with
amazing force to land on his back in a bed of mignonette. With amazement
that seemed to choke her she saw Arthur, his head lowered like an
infuriated bull, draw back from the window into the dairy.
“Good heavens!” she said aloud. “Did he do that?”
“Yes,” said Milly under her breath. She added very nervously,
“It—it—it was Oliver’s fault.”
“Good heavens!” said Frances again.
The glimpse of Arthur’s face, dead-white, a mask of anger, had set her
pulses wildly throbbing. She watched tensely to see what Oliver would
do.
What he did do amazed her almost more than his first involuntary
gymnastic. He got up from the mignonette laughing as if he had just come
out of a football scrum, straightened his attire without the smallest
hint of discomfiture, and coolly vaulted back through the window into
the dairy.
“Ah!” whispered Milly, and held her breath.
She clearly expected some further act of violence, and trembled for the
young man’s safety. Frances also watched with keen anxiety. But at the
end of many seconds she began to realize that the episode was over. No
one approached the window again.
Milly drew a deep breath and resumed her work in silence.
It was clear that she did not wish to discuss what had just taken place,
and Frances was far too considerate to trouble her with questions or
comments. But the incident had very successfully diverted her own
thoughts. She actually forgot that disturbing letter which lay hidden
under her cushion.
Her thoughts dwelt persistently upon Arthur Dermot. The man puzzled her.
There was something tragic about him, something fierce, untamed and
solitary, with which she found herself strangely in sympathy. She
realized that the life he led was a singlehanded fight against odds. He
was like a swimmer battling to make headway against an overwhelming
current, succeeding only in keeping afloat; and she who for so long had
also fought alone was aware of a quick sense of comradeship urging her
to a readier comprehension than it seemed anyone else at Tetherstones
possessed. She was beginning to understand what had made her first
visualize him as a gladiator standing alone in the arena of life.
The rest of the morning passed uneventfully, save that Oliver presently
appeared, unabashed and cheery of mien, armed with a hoe, and proceeded,
whistling, to restore order in the bed of crushed mignonette. Then Dolly
came out with her midday meal, after which the sisters took her back to
her room to rest. She slept deeply during the afternoon, only awakening
when the shadows were beginning to grow long. Then, looking forth from
her window, there came to her the sudden memory of the letter she had
forgotten. A gleam of something white under the cedar-tree where her
couch had been caught her eye, and she realized immediately that it must
have fallen there when they gathered up her rugs. The house was very
still and seemed deserted. She guessed that those of the family who were
not occupied in farm-work were gathering apples for cider in the orchard
on the other side of the building.
There was no one to send for her letter, and that sense of shame with
which the bare thought of Rotherby now inspired her urged her strongly
not to leave it for any chance comer to discover. She was stronger far
than she had been, and she made swift decision to use her strength. She
got up from her bed and slipped on her shoes. She was already dressed,
and she only paused to throw around her a shawl that Dolly had left
handy. Then, with an odd feeling of guilt, she opened her door and went
out into the dark oak passage.
The stairs were steep and winding. She knew that they would try her
endurance and prepared to descend with caution. The dizziness of
weakness came upon her as she reached them. And she hung upon the rail
of the banisters to gather her forces.
In those moments of semi-helplessness there came to her the sound of
voices talking in the kitchen below, but having embarked upon the
expedition she was in no mood to draw back on account of a little
physical weakness and it did not even cross her mind to call for help.
Resolutely she summoned her strength, and, conquering her giddiness,
began to descend.
It seemed to her that the stairs had become inexplicably steeper, and
her hold upon the rail had developed into a desperate clinging with both
hands before she rounded the final curve which brought her in sight of
the bottom. Her heart was thumping uncontrollably, and her legs were
almost refusing to support her by the time she reached the last stair.
It was necessity rather than expediency that induced her to sit down
there at the foot to gather her forces afresh.
So sitting, with her throbbing head in her hands, there came to her
words at first dimly, then with a growing meaning which, too late she
realized, were never intended for her ear to hear.
“I’d do it in a minute—you know I would,—” it was Maggie’s voice, but
strangely devoid of its customary cheery lilt—“if it weren’t for
Mother. But—I believe it would kill her if another of us went wrong.”
“I’m not asking you to go wrong!” Swift and decided came the answer in
Oliver’s voice. “I wouldn’t do such a thing. I love you too much for
that. Good heavens! Don’t you think your honour is as dear to me as it
is to your mother—or Arthur?”
“Yes, but—” Unmistakable distress sounded in Maggie’s rejoinder. She
gave a little sob and left it at that.
“Well, then!” said Oliver, in the tone of one who scores a triumph.
There was a brief pause, then a sudden movement, followed by a muffled
whisper from Maggie that was half protest and half appeal. “I don’t know
what Arthur would say. He’d half kill you.”
“Oh, damn Arthur!” came the cheery response. “Why can’t he get a girl of
his own? P’raps he’d be more human then.”
“He wouldn’t—he wouldn’t! Nothing would make him that, so long as—”
Again the words broke off in half-hearted remonstrance.
“Rot!” said Oliver. “Once you were married to me, he’d have to come into
line.”
“No—no, he wouldn’t! You don’t understand.” Maggie’s answer came with a
sound of tears. “You don’t know him if you think that. He would simply
kick you out of the place. And Mother—Mother would break her heart if I
went too.”
“Don’t cry!” said Oliver softly.
Maggie was plainly sobbing against his shoulder. “I can’t help it. Oh,
Oliver, we’ll have to be patient. We’ll have to wait.”
“But what are we going to wait for?” There was a hint of exasperation in
Oliver’s query. “I don’t see what we gain by waiting. You’re
twenty-eight. I’m thirty-two. We’ve both of us waited five years as it
is.”
“Yes—yes! But let’s go on waiting—there’s a darling. Something’ll
happen some day. Something’s sure to happen. And then we’ll get
married.” Urgent entreaty backed the words. “It’s no good getting
married if we can’t live together. And we—we—we are—very happy—as we
are.”
More tears followed the assurance. Maggie was evidently aware of
pleading a lost cause.
“Oh, we’re awfully happy, aren’t we?” said Oliver, grimly humorous.
“Don’t cry, darling! I want to think. There’s no law against our getting
married—even if we don’t live together—that I can see, is there? It
would make things more sure anyway, and I guess we’d be a lot happier.”
“Oh, Oliver! Deceiving everyone! I couldn’t do it! Why, I’d be miserable
every time I went to church!”
“No, you wouldn’t. There’d be no harm done to anyone. You’re old enough
to manage your own life, and no one has any right to know how you do
it.” Oliver spoke with blunt decision. “You love me and I love you, and
if we choose to marry—well, it doesn’t matter a damn to anyone else. I
may not be good enough for you, but that’s your business, not Arthur’s.
If I’m good enough to love, I’m good enough to marry.”
“Yes.” Dubiously came Maggie’s answer. “But then, Oliver darling, what’s
the use? We couldn’t be together any more than we are. And we——”
“That’s rot, isn’t it?” Vigorously Oliver overruled her argument. “Well,
anyway, you marry me and see!”
“Ah, but I’m afraid. The beast—the beast might do you a mischief!”
There was almost a wail in Maggie’s words, but Oliver’s hearty laugh
drowned it. “Bless the girl! What next? Seems I’d better carry a
pitchfork about with me. No, now listen! I’ll fix it all up, and I won’t
even tell you till it’s all cut and dried. Then one day you and I’ll go
into Fordestown to market, and when we come back we’ll—” Inarticulate
whispering ended the sentence. “There now! Will you do that?”
“I don’t know, Oliver. I’m frightened. I’m sure it isn’t right, and yet
I don’t know why.”
Maggie’s answer sounded piteous, yet somehow Frances knew that her arms
were clinging about her lover’s neck.
There came a pause, then Oliver’s cheery voice. “There now! Don’t you
fret yourself! You may take it from me, it is right. And I’m going in to
Fordestown to-morrow to get it settled. Mind, I shan’t say another word
to you till everything is ready. You won’t back out? Promise!”
“Back out! Oh, darling—darling!”
Broken sounds came from Maggie that brought Frances to an abrupt
realization of her position. She straightened herself and got up. Her
knees were still trembling, but she forced them into action. She
tottered down the passage to the nearest door and out on to the brick
path that led to the garden.
The sun was going down. She passed between tall hollyhocks and
sunflowers into the kitchen-garden. The lawn lay beyond. It was further
than she had thought, and her strength was failing her. She came upon a
rough bench set against the wall out of sight of the house and dropped
down upon it with a feeling that she could go no further.
How long she had sat there she could not have said, for she was very
near to fainting, when there came the sound of a man’s feet on the path
beside her, and, looking up, she saw Arthur in his shirt-sleeves, a
spade on his shoulder.
He stopped beside her, and drove his spade into the ground.
“Miss Thorold!” he said. “What are they all thinking of? How did you
come here?”
She tried to smile in answer, but her lips felt very cold and numb. “Oh,
I just—walked,” she said.
“You—walked!” Amazement and displeasure sounded in his voice. “Where is
everyone?” he said. “Where is Maggie?”
He swung on his heel as if he would go in search of her, but Frances put
forth an urgent hand to detain him.
“Don’t go! It—really doesn’t matter. Maggie is busy—getting the tea.
I—I didn’t like to interrupt her. I give too much trouble as it is.”
Arthur growled something very deeply into his chest, but he checked his
first impulse at her behest.
“Well, but what are you doing here? Why did you come out?” he asked,
after a moment.
She hesitated to answer him. Then: “I dropped a letter,” she said. “It
is under the cedar-tree. I just thought I would fetch it.”
“You must be mad,” he said. “Stay here while I fetch it!”
He strode away, and she sat and waited for his return, shivering against
the wall, wondering if Maggie and Oliver had separated, wishing with all
her heart that she had not overheard their talk.
She heard the tramp of his heavy boots returning. He came back to her.
“The letter is not here,” he said briefly. “Does it matter?”
She started. “Not there! But—I thought I saw it from my window. I
thought——”
“It is not there,” he repeated. “It has probably blown away. Is it of
any great importance?”
His tone seemed to challenge her. She looked up and met his eyes
watching her with a certain hardness.
“No,” she said, and wondered what impulse moved her to utter the word.
“You are sure?” he said.
She smiled a little at his insistence. “Yes, quite sure. Please don’t
trouble about it! It will probably turn up later.”
He dropped the subject without further discussion. “I had better carry
you back now,” he remarked, and stooped to lift her.
She drew back sharply. “Oh, don’t, please! I can walk quite well.”
“You’re not going to walk,” he said, and in a moment the strong brown
arms encompassed her.
She abandoned protest. Somehow he made her feel like a child, and she
knew that resistance was useless. It was not a dignified situation, but
it appealed to her sense of humour, and as he bore her solidly back
along the paths between the hollyhocks she uttered a breathless little
laugh.
“What a giant you are!” she said.
“So you’re not angry?” he said.
“Why, no! I am obliged to you. To be quite honest, I rather doubt if I
could have walked back without some help.”
“Then it is just as well I am here to carry you,” he rejoined.
There was no sound of voices as he entered the house, and Frances
breathed a sigh of thankfulness.
He carried her straight through and up to her room. “I hope you will not
attempt that again before you are fit for it,” he said, as he deposited
her upon the bed.
“Thank you very much. I hope I shall soon be fit,” said Frances.
He lingered in the doorway, his rugged face in shadow. “I hope you
won’t,” he said suddenly and unexpectedly, and in a moment flung away
down the passage awkwardly, precipitately, as if he feared he had stayed
too long.
“Good gracious!” whispered Frances to the lengthening shadows. “What—on
earth—did he mean by that?”
But there was only the queer uneven beating of her heart to answer her
in the silence.