CHAPTER XXVI. MEDITATIONS.

Either the small respect I had paid M. de Bruhl, or the words I had let

fall respecting the possible disappearance of M. Villequier, had had so

admirable an effect on the Provost-Marshal’s mind that from the

moment of leaving my lodgings he treated me with the utmost civility;

permitting me even to retain my sword, and assigning me a sleeping-place

for the night in his own apartments at the gate-house.

Late as it was, I could not allow so much politeness to pass

unacknowledged. I begged leave, therefore, to distribute a small

gratuity among his attendants, and requested him to do me the honour of

drinking a bottle of wine with me. This being speedily procured, at such

an expense as is usual in these places, where prisoners pay, according

as they are rich or poor, in purse or person, kept us sitting for an

hour, and finally sent us to our pallets perfectly satisfied with one

another.

The events of the day, however, and particularly one matter, on which I

have not dwelt at length, proved as effectual to prevent my sleeping as

if I had been placed in the dampest cell below the castle. So much had

been crowded into a time so short that it seemed as if I had had until

now no opportunity of considering whither I was being hurried, or what

fortune awaited me at the end of this turmoil. From the first

appearance of M. d’Agen in the morning, with the startling news that the

Provost-Marshal was seeking me, to my final surrender and encounter with

Bruhl on the stairs, the chain of events had run out so swiftly that I

had scarcely had time at any particular period to consider how I stood,

or the full import of the latest check or victory. Now that I had

leisure I lived the day over again, and, recalling its dangers and

disappointments, felt thankful that all had ended so fairly.

I had the most perfect confidence in Maignan, and did not doubt that

Bruhl would soon weary, if he had not already wearied, of a profitless

siege. In an hour at most--and it was not yet midnight--the king would

be free to go home; and with that would end, as far as he was concerned,

the mission with which M. de Rosny had honoured me. The task of

communicating his Majesty’s decision to the King of Navarre would

doubtless be entrusted to M. de Rambouillet, or some person of similar

position and influence; and in the same hands would rest the honour and

responsibility of the treaty which, as we all know now, gave after a

brief interval and some bloodshed, and one great providence, a lasting

peace to France. But it must ever be--and I recognised this that

night with a bounding heart, which told of some store of youth yet

unexhausted--a matter of lasting pride to me that I, whose career but

now seemed closed in failure, had proved the means of conferring so

especial a benefit on my country and religion.

Remembering, however, the King of Navarre’s warning that I must not look

to him for reward, I felt greatly doubtful in what direction the scene

would next open to me; my main dependence being upon M. de Rosny’s

promise that he would make my fortune his own care. Tired of the Court

at Blois, and the atmosphere of intrigue and treachery which pervaded

it, and with which I hoped I had now done, I was still at a loss to

see how I could recross the Loire in face of the Vicomte de Turenne’s

enmity. I might have troubled myself much more with speculating upon

this point had I not found--in close connection with it--other and more

engrossing food for thought in the capricious behaviour of Mademoiselle

de la Vire.

To that behaviour it seemed to me that I now held the clue. I suspected

with as much surprise as pleasure that only one construction could be

placed upon it--a construction which had strongly occurred to me on

catching sight of her face when she intervened between me and the king.

Tracing the matter back to the moment of our meeting in the antechamber

at St. Jean d’Angely, I remembered the jest which Mathurine had uttered

at our joint expense. Doubtless it had dwelt in mademoiselle’s mind,

and exciting her animosity against me had prepared her to treat me with

contumely when, contrary to all probability, we met again, and she found

herself placed in a manner in my hands. It had inspired her harsh words

and harsher looks on our journey northwards, and contributed with her

native pride to the low opinion I had formed of her when I contrasted

her with my honoured mother.

But I began to think it possible that the jest had worked in another

way as well, by keeping me before her mind and impressing upon her the

idea--after my re-appearance at Chize more particularly--that our fates

were in some way linked. Assuming this, it was not hard to understand

her manner at Rosny when, apprised that I was no impostor, and

regretting her former treatment of me, she still recoiled from the

feelings which she began to recognise in her own breast. From that time,

and with this clue, I had no difficulty in tracing her motives, always

supposing that this suspicion, upon which I dwelt with feelings of

wonder and delight, were well founded.

Middle-aged and grizzled, with the best of my life behind me I had

never dared to think of her in this way before. Poor and comparatively

obscure, I had never raised my eyes to the wide possessions said to be

hers. Even now I felt myself dazzled and bewildered by the prospect so

suddenly unveiled. I could scarcely, without vertigo, recall her as I

had last seen her, with her hand wounded in my defence; nor, without

emotions painful in their intensity, fancy myself restored to the youth

of which I had taken leave, and to the rosy hopes and plannings which

visit most men once only, and then in early years. Hitherto I had deemed

such things the lot of others.

Daylight found me--and no wonder--still diverting myself with these

charming speculations; which had for me, be it remembered, all the force

of novelty. The sun chanced to rise that morning in a clear sky, and

brilliantly for the time of year; and words fail me when I look

back, and try to describe how delicately this single fact enhanced

my pleasure! I sunned myself in the beams, which penetrated my barred

window; and tasting the early freshness with a keen and insatiable

appetite, I experienced to the full that peculiar aspiration after

goodness which Providence allows such moments to awaken in us in youth;

but rarely when time and the camp have blunted the sensibilities.

I had not yet arrived at the stage at which difficulties have to be

reckoned up, and the chief drawback to the tumult of joy I felt took

the shape of regret that my mother no longer lived to feel the emotions

proper to the time, and to share in the prosperity which she had so

often and so fondly imagined. Nevertheless, I felt myself drawn closer

to her. I recalled with the most tender feelings, and at greater leisure

than had before been the case, her last days and words, and particularly

the appeal she had uttered on mademoiselle’s behalf. And I vowed, if

it were possible, to pay a visit to her grave before leaving the

neighbourhood, that I might there devote a few moments to the thought of

the affection which had consecrated all women in my eyes.

I was presently interrupted in these reflections by a circumstance which

proved in the end diverting enough, though far from reassuring at the

first blush. It began in a dismal rattling of chains in the passage

below and on the stairs outside my room; which were paved, like the

rest of the building, with stone. I waited with impatience and some

uneasiness to see what would come of this; and my surprise may be

imagined when, the door being unlocked, gave entrance to a man in whom I

recognised on the instant deaf Mathew--the villain whom I had last seen

with Fresnoy in the house in the Rue Valois. Amazed at seeing him

here, I sprang to my feet in fear of some treachery, and for a moment

apprehended that the Provost-Marshal had basely given me over to

Bruhl’s custody. But a second glance informing me that the man was in

irons--hence the noise I had heard--I sat down again to see what would

happen.

It then appeared, that he merely brought me my breakfast, and was

a prisoner in less fortunate circumstances than myself; but as he

pretended not to recognise me, and placed the things before me in

obdurate silence, and I had no power to make him hear, I failed to

learn how he came to be in durance. The Provost-Marshal, however, came

presently to visit me, and brought me in token that the good-fellowship

of the evening still existed a pouch of the Queen’s herb; which I

accepted for politeness’ sake rather than from any virtue I found in it.

And from him I learned how the rascal came to be in his charge.

It appeared that Fresnoy, having no mind to be hampered with a wounded

man, had deposited him on the night of our MELEE at the door of a

hospital attached to a religious house in that part of the town. The

fathers had opened to him, but before taking him in put, according to

their custom, certain questions. Matthew had been primed with the right

answers to these questions, which were commonly a form; but, unhappily

for him, the Superior by chance or mistake began with the wrong one.

‘You are not a Huguenot, my son?’ he said.

‘In God’s name, I am!’ Matthew replied with simplicity, believing he was

asked if he was a Catholic.

‘What?’ the scandalised Prior ejaculated, crossing himself in doubt,

‘are you not a true son of the Church?’

‘Never!’ quoth our deaf friend--thinking all went well.

‘A heretic!’ cried the monk.

‘Amen to that!’ replied Matthew innocently; never doubting but that he

was asked the third question, which was, commonly, whether he needed

aid.

Naturally after this there was a very pretty commotion, and

Matthew, vainly protesting that he was deaf, was hurried off to the

Provost-Marshal’s custody. Asked how he communicated with him, the

Provost answered that he could not, but that his little godchild, a girl

only eight years old, had taken a strange fancy to the rogue, and was

never so happy as when talking to him by means of signs, of which she

had invented a great number. I thought this strange at the time, but I

had proof before the morning was out that it was true enough, and

that the two were seldom apart, the little child governing this grim

cut-throat with unquestioned authority.

After the Provost was gone I heard the man’s fetters clanking again.

This time he entered to remove my cup and plate, and surprised me by

speaking to me. Maintaining his former sullenness, and scarcely looking

at me, he said abruptly: ‘You are going out again?’

I nodded assent.

‘Do you remember a bald-faced bay horse that fell with you?’ he

muttered, keeping his dogged glance on the floor.

I nodded again.

‘I want to sell the horse,’ he said. ‘There is not such another in

Blois, no, nor in Paris! Touch it on the near hip with the whip and it

will go down as if shot. At other times a child might ride it. It is

in a stable, the third from the Three Pigeons, in the Ruelle Amancy.

Fresnoy does not know where it is. He sent to ask yesterday, but I would

not tell him.’

Some spark of human feeling which appeared in his lowering, brutal

visage as he spoke of the horse led me to desire further information.

Fortunately the little girl appeared at that moment at the door in

search of her play-fellow; and through her I learned that the man’s

motive for seeking to sell the horse was fear lest the dealer in whose

charge it stood should dispose of it to repay himself for its keep, and

he, Matthew, lose it without return.

Still I did not understand why he applied to me, but I was well pleased

when I learned the truth. Base as the knave was, he had an affection for

the bay, which had been his only property for six years. Having this

in his mind, he had conceived the idea that I should treat it well, and

should not, because he was in prison and powerless, cheat him of the

price.

In the end I agreed to buy the horse for ten crowns, paying as well what

was due at the stable. I had it in my head to do something also for the

man, being moved to this partly by an idea that there was good in him,

and partly by the confidence he had seen fit to place in me, which

seemed to deserve some return. But a noise below stairs diverted my

attention. I heard myself named, and for the moment forgot the matter.

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