A FAIR BARGAIN.
The Parson had a little shake in his system; and his faith in Higher
Providence was weaker in his friend's case than in his own, which is
contrary perhaps to the general rule. As he passed through the large
gloomy hall, his hat was quivering in his hand, like a leaf that has
caught the syringe; and when he stood face to face with Lady Waldron, he
would have given up a small subscription, to be as calm as she was.
But her self-possession was the style of pride and habit, rather than
the gift of nature. No one could look into her very handsome face, or
watch her dark eyes as she spoke, without perceiving that her nature was
strong, and warm, and generous. Pride of birth taught her to control her
temper; but education had been insufficient to complete the mastery. And
so she remained in a foreign country, vehement, prejudiced, and
indifferent to things too large for her to understand, jealous,
exacting, and quick to take offence; but at the same time a lover of
justice, truthful, free-handed, and loyal to friends, kind to those in
trouble, and devoted to her husband. Her father had been of Spanish, and
her mother of Irish birth, and her early memories were of tumult, war,
distress, and anarchy.
All English clergymen were to her as heretics and usurpers; and being
intensely patriotic, she disliked the English nation for its services to
her country. Mr. Penniloe had felt himself kept throughout at a very
well measured distance; but like a large-hearted, and humble man, had
concerned himself little about such trifles; though his wife had been
very indignant. And he met the lady now, as he had always done, with a
pleasant look, and a gentle smile. But she was a little annoyed at her
own confession of his influence.
"It is good of you to come so soon," she said, "and to break your very
nice engagements. But I have been so anxious, so consumed with great
anxiety. And everything grows worse and worse. What can I do? There is
none to help me. The only one I could trust entirely, my dear brother,
is far away."
"There are many who would do their best to help you," the Curate
answered with a faltering voice, for her strange humility surprised him.
"You know without any words of mine----"
"Is it that you really love Sir Thomas, or only that you find him
useful? Pardon me; I put not the question rudely. But all are so selfish
in this England."
"I hope not. I think not," he answered very gently, having learned to
allow for the petulance of grief. "Your dear husband is not of that
nature, Lady Waldron; and he does not suppose that his friends are so."
"No. It is true he makes the best of everybody. Even of that young Dr.
Fox, who is ill-treating him. That is the very thing I come to speak of.
If he had a good physician--but he is so resolute."
"But you will persuade him. It is a thing he owes to you. And in one
little way I can help you perhaps a little. He fancies, I dare say, that
to call in a man of larger experience would be unkind to Fox, and might
even seem a sort of slur upon him. But I think I can get Fox himself to
propose it, and even to insist upon it for his own sake. I believe that
he has been thinking of it."
"What is he, that his opinions should be consulted? He cannot see. But I
see things that agitate me--oh darker, darker--I cannot discover any
consolation anywhere. And my husband will not hear a word! It is
so--this reason one day, and then some other, to excuse that he is not
better; and his strong hands going, and his shoulders growing round, and
his great knees beginning to quiver, and his face--so what you call
cheerful, lively, jolly, turning to whiter than mine, and blue with
cups, and cords, and channels in it--oh, I will not have my husband
long; and where shall I be without him?"
As she turned away her face, and waved her hand for the visitor to leave
her, Mr. Penniloe discovered one more reason for doubting his own
judgment.
"I will go and see him. He is always glad to see me;" he said, as if
talking to himself alone. "The hand of the Lord is over us, and His
mercy is on the righteous."
The old soldier was not the man to stay indoors, or dwell upon his
ailments. As long as he had leg to move, or foot at all to carry him, no
easy-chair or study-lounge held any temptation for him. The open air,
and the breezy fields, or sunny breadth of garden full of ever-changing
incident, the hill-top, or the river-side, were his delight, while his
steps were strong; and even now, whenever bodily pain relaxed.
Mr. Penniloe found him in his kitchen-garden, walking slowly, as behoves
a man of large frame and great stature, and leaning on a staff of
twisted Spanish oak, which had stood him in good stead, some five and
twenty years ago. Following every uncertain step, with her nose as close
as if she had been a spur upon either boot, and yet escaping contact as
a dog alone can do, was his favourite little black spaniel _Jess_, as
loving a creature as ever lived.
"What makes you look at me in that way, Jumps?" the Colonel enquired,
while shaking hands. "I hope you are not setting up for a doctor too.
One is quite enough for the parish."
"Talking about doctors," replied the Parson, who thought it no scorn
when his old schoolmate revived the nickname of early days (conferred
perhaps by some young observer, in recognition of his springy
step)--"talking about doctors, I think it very likely that my old friend
Gowler--you have heard me speak of him--will pay me a little visit,
perhaps next week."
"Gowler? Was he at Peter's, after my time? It scarcely sounds like a
West country name. No, I remember now. It was at Oxford you fell in with
him."
"Yes. He got his Fellowship two years after I got mine. The cleverest
man in the College, and one of the best scholars I ever met with. I was
nowhere with him, though I read so much harder."
"Come now, Jumps--don't tell me that!" Sir Thomas exclaimed, looking
down with admiration at the laureate of his boyhood; "why, you knew
everything as pat as butter, when you were no more than a hop o' my
thumb! I remember arguing with Gus Browne, that it must be because you
were small enough to jump into the skulls of those old codgers, Homer,
and Horace, and the rest of them. But how you must have grown since
then, my friend! I suppose they gave you more to eat at Oxford. But I
don't believe in any man alive being a finer scholar than you are."
"Gowler was, I tell you, Tom; and many, many others; as I soon
discovered in the larger world. He had a much keener and deeper mind,
far more enquiring and penetrating, more subtle and logical, and
comprehensive, together with a smaller share perhaps of--of----"
"Humility--that's the word you mean; although you don't like to say it."
"No, that is not what I mean exactly. What I mean is docility,
ductility, sequacity--if there is any such word. The acceptance of what
has been discovered, or at any rate acknowledged, by the highest human
intellect. Gowler would be content with nothing, because it had
satisfied the highest human intellect. It must satisfy his own, or be
rejected."
"I am very sorry for him," said Sir Thomas Waldron; "such a man must be
drummed out of any useful regiment."
"Well, and he was drummed out of Oxford; or at any rate would follow no
drum there. He threw up his Fellowship, rather than take orders, and for
some years we heard nothing of him. But he was making his way in London,
and winning reputation in minute anatomy. He became the first authority
in what is called _histology_, a comparatively new branch of medical
science----"
"Don't Phil, I beg of you. You make me creep. I think of Burke, and
Hare, and all those wretches. Fellows who disturb a man's last rest! I
have a deep respect for an honest wholesome surgeon; and wonderful
things I have seen them do. But the best of them are gone. It was the
war that made them; and, thank God, we have no occasion for such carvers
now."
"Come and sit down, Tom. You look--at least, I mean, I have been upon my
legs many hours to-day, and there is nothing like the jump in them of
thirty years ago. Well, you are a kind man, the kindest of the kind, to
allow your kitchen-gardeners such a comfortable bench."
"You know what I think," replied Sir Thomas, as he made believe to walk
with great steadiness and vigour, "that we don't behave half well enough
to those who do all the work for us. And I am quite sure that we Tories
feel it, ay and try to better it, ten times as much as all those
spouting radical reformers do. Why, who is at the bottom of all these
shocking riots, and rick-burnings? The man who puts iron, and boiling
water, to rob a poor fellow of his bread and bacon. You'll see none of
that on any land of mine. But if anything happens to me, who knows?"
"My dear friend," Mr. Penniloe began, while the hand which he laid upon
his friend's was shaking, "may I say a word to you, as an ancient chum?
You know that I would not intrude, I am sure."
"I am sure that you would not do anything which a gentleman would not
do, Phil."
"It is simply this--we are most anxious about you. You are not in good
health, and you will not confess it. This is not at all fair to those
who love you. Courage, and carelessness about oneself, are very fine
things, but may be carried too far. In a case like yours they are
sinful, Tom. Your life is of very great importance, and you have no
right to neglect it. And can you not see that it is downright cruelty to
your wife and children, if you allow yourself to get worse and worse,
while their anxiety increases, and you do nothing, and won't listen to
advice, and fling bottles of medicine into the bonfire? I saw one just
now, as we came down the walk--as full as when Fox put the cork in. Is
that even fair to a young practitioner?"
"Well, I never thought of that. That's a new light altogether. You can
see well enough, it seems, when it is not wanted. But don't tell Jemmy,
about that bottle. Mind, you are upon your honour. But oh, Phil, if you
only knew the taste of that stuff! I give you my word----"
"You shall not laugh it off. You may say what you like, but you know in
your heart that you are not acting kindly, or even fairly, by us. Would
you like your wife, or daughter, to feel seriously ill, and hide it as
if it was no concern of yours? I put aside higher considerations, Tom I
speak to you simply as an old and true friend."
It was not the power of his words, so much as the trembling of his
voice, and the softness of his eyes, that vanquished the tough old
soldier.
"I don't want to make any fuss about it, Phil," Sir Thomas answered
quietly; "and I would rather have kept it to myself, a little longer.
But the simple truth is, that I am dying."
There was no sign of fear, or of sorrow, in his gaze; and he smiled very
cheerfully while offering his hand, as if to be forgiven for the past
concealment. Mr. Penniloe could not speak, but fell back on the bench,
and feared to look at him.
"My dear friend, I see that I was wrong to tell you," the sick man
continued in a feebler tone; "but you must have found it out very
shortly; and I know that Jemmy Fox is well aware of it. But not a word,
of course, to my wife or daughter, until--until it can't be helped. Poor
things--what a blow it will be to them! The thought of that makes me
rebel sometimes. But it is in your power to help me greatly, to help me,
as no other man on earth can do. It has long been in my thoughts, but I
scarcely dared to ask you. Perhaps that was partly why I told you this.
But you are too good and kind, to call me selfish."
"Whatever it is, I will do it for you readily, if God gives me power,
and ordains it so."
"Never make rash promises. What was it you used to construe to me in the
_Delectus_? This is a long and a troublesome job, and will place you in
a delicate position. It is no less a trouble than to undertake, for a
time at least, the management of my affairs, and see to the interests of
my Nicie."
"But surely your wife--surely Lady Waldron--so resolute, ready, and
capable----"
"Yes, she is all that, and a great deal more--honourable, upright, warm,
and loving. She is not at all valued as she should be here, because she
cannot come to like our country, or our people. But that would be no
obstacle; the obstacle is this--she has a twin-brother, a certain Count
de Varcas, whom she loves ardently, and I will not speak against him;
but he must have no chance of interfering here. My son Tom--_Rodrigo_
his mother calls him, after her beloved brother--is barely of age, as
you know, and sent off with his regiment to India; a very fine fellow in
many ways, but as for business--excuse me a moment, Phil; I will finish,
when this is over."
With one broad hand upon the bench, he contrived to rise, and to steady
himself upon his staff, and stood for a little while thus, with his head
thrown back, and his forehead like a block of stone. No groan from the
chest, or contortion of the face, was allowed to show his agony; though
every drawn muscle, and wan hollow, told what he was enduring. And the
blue scar of some ancient wound grew vivid upon his strong countenance,
from the left cheek-bone to the corner of the mouth, with the pallid
damp on either side. Little _Jess_ came and watched him, with wistful
eyes, and a soft interrogative tremble of tail; while the clergyman rose
to support him; but he would have no assistance.
"Thank God, it is over. I am all right now, for another three hours, I
dare say. What a coward you must think me, Phil! I have been through a
good deal of pain, in my time. But this beats me, I must confess. The
worst of it is, when it comes at night, to keep it from poor Isabel. Sit
down again now, and let me go on with my story."
"Not now, Tom. Not just yet, I implore you," cried the Parson, himself
more overcome than the sufferer of all that anguish. "Wait till you find
yourself a little stronger."
"No. That may never be. If you could only know the relief it will be to
me. I have not a great mind. I cannot leave things to the Lord, except
as concerns my own old self. Now that I have broken the matter to you, I
must go through with it. I cannot die, until my mind is easy about poor
Nicie. Her mother would be good to her, of course. But--well, Tom is her
idol; and there is that blessed Count. Tom is very simple, just as I
was, at his age. I have many old friends; but all easy-going fellows,
who would leave everything to their lawyers--none at all to trust, like
you. And I know how fond you are of Nicie."
"To be sure I am. How could I help it? But remember that I am not at all
a man of business."
"What does that matter? You are very clear-headed, and prudent--at any
rate for other people. And you will have Webber, a careful and clever
Solicitor, to back you up. And mind, I am not asking you to supersede my
wife, or take what should be her position. She is quite unacquainted
with English ways, she does not think as an Englishwoman would. She must
have an Englishman to act with her, in the trusts that will arise upon
my death; and when we were married in Spain, as you know, there was no
chance of any marriage-settlement. In fact there was nothing to settle
as yet, for I was not even heir to this property, until poor Jack was
killed at Quatrebras. And as for herself, all the family affairs were at
sixes and sevens, as you may suppose, during the French occupation. Her
father had been a very wealthy man and the head of an ancient race,
which claimed descent from the old Carthaginian Barcas, of whom you know
more than I do. But he had been too patriotic, and advanced immense sums
to the State without security, and in other ways dipped his fine
property, so that it would not recover for a generation. At any rate
nothing came to her then, though she ought to have had a good sum
afterwards. But whatever there may have been, her noble twin-brother
took good care that none of it came this way. And I was glad to get her
without a _peseta_; and what is more, I have never repented of it; for a
nobler and more affectionate woman never trod the earth."
As the sick man passed his hand before his eyes, in sad recollection of
the bygone bliss, Mr. Penniloe thought of his own dear wife--a far
sweeter woman in his mild opinion; and, if less noble, none the worse
for that.
"But the point of it is this, Tom," the clergyman said firmly, for he
began to feel already like a man of business, however sad and mournful
the business must become; "does Lady Waldron consent to receive me,
as--as co-trustee, or whatever it is called, if, if--which God
forbid--it should ever prove to be necessary?"
"My dear friend, I spoke to her about it yesterday, in such a way as not
to cause anxiety or alarm: and she made no objection, but left
everything to me. So you have only to agree; and all is settled."
"In that case, Tom," said Mr. Penniloe arising, and offering both hands
to his friend, "I will not shirk my duty to a man I love so much. May
the Lord be with me, for I am not a man of business--or at least, I have
not attained that reputation yet! But I will do my best, and your
Nicie's interests shall be as sacred to me, as my own child's. Is there
anything you would like to say about her?"
"Yes, Phil, one thing most important. She is a very loving girl; and I
trust that she will marry a good man, who will value her. I have
fancied, more than once, that Jemmy Fox is very fond of her. He is a
manly straightforward fellow, and of a very good old family, quite equal
to ours, so far as that goes. He has not much of this world's goods at
present; and her mother would naturally look higher. But when a man is
in my condition, he takes truer views of life. If Jemmy loves her, and
she comes to love him, I believe that they would have a very happy life.
He is very cheerful, and of the sweetest temper--the first of all things
in married life--and he is as upright as yourself. In a few years he
will be very well off. I could wish no better fortune for her--supposing
that she gives her heart to him."
"He is a great favourite of mine as well;" the Curate replied, though
surprised not a little. "But as I have agreed to all that you wish, Tom,
you must yield a little to my most earnest wish, and at the same time
discharge a simple duty. I cannot help hoping that your fears--or I will
not call them that, for you fear nothing--but your views of your own
case are all wrong. You must promise to take the highest medical
opinion. If I bring Gowler over, with Fox's full approval, will you
allow him to examine you?"
"You are too bad, Phil. But you have caught me there. If you let me put
you into the hands of lawyers, it is tit for tat that you should drive
me into those of doctors."