I got hold of Mrs. Grose as soon after this as I could; and I can
give no intelligible account of how I fought out the interval. Yet I
still hear myself cry as I fairly threw myself into her arms: “They
_know_--it’s too monstrous: they know, they know!”
“And what on earth----?” I felt her incredulity as she held me.
“Why, all that _we_ know--and heaven knows what else besides!”
Then, as she released me, I made it out to her, made it out perhaps
only now with full coherency even to myself. “Two hours ago, in the
garden”--I could scarce articulate--“Flora _saw_!”
Mrs. Grose took it as she might have taken a blow in the
stomach. “She has told you?” she panted.
“Not a word--that’s the horror. She kept it to herself! The
child of eight, _that_ child!” Unutterable still, for me, was the
stupefaction of it.
Mrs. Grose, of course, could only gape the wider. “Then how do you
know?”
“I was there--I saw with my eyes: saw that she was perfectly
aware.”
“Do you mean aware of _him_?”
“No--of _her_.” I was conscious as I spoke that I looked
prodigious things, for I got the slow reflection of them in my
companion’s face. “Another person--this time; but a figure of
quite as unmistakeable horror and evil: a woman in black, pale and
dreadful--with such an air also, and such a face!--on the other side
of the lake. I was there with the child--quiet for the hour; and in the
midst of it she came.”
“Came how--from where?”
“From where they come from! She just appeared and stood there--but
not so near.”
“And without coming nearer?”
“Oh, for the effect and the feeling, she might have been as close
as you!”
My friend, with an odd impulse, fell back a step. “Was she someone
you’ve never seen?”
“Yes. But someone the child has. Someone _you_ have.” Then, to show
how I had thought it all out: “My predecessor--the one who died.”
“Miss Jessel?”
“Miss Jessel. You don’t believe me?” I pressed.
She turned right and left in her distress. “How can you be sure?”
This drew from me, in the state of my nerves, a flash of
impatience. “Then ask Flora--_she’s_ sure!” But I had no
sooner spoken than I caught myself up. “No, for God’s sake,
_don’t_! She’ll say she isn’t--she’ll lie!”
Mrs. Grose was not too bewildered instinctively to protest. “Ah, how
_can_ you?”
“Because I’m clear. Flora doesn’t want me to know.”
“It’s only then to spare you.”
“No, no--there are depths, depths! The more I go over it, the more
I see in it, and the more I see in it the more I fear. I don’t know
what I _don’t_ see--what I _don’t_ fear!”
Mrs. Grose tried to keep up with me. “You mean you’re afraid of
seeing her again?”
“Oh, no; that’s nothing--now!” Then I explained. “It’s of
_not_ seeing her.”
But my companion only looked wan. “I don’t understand you.”
“Why, it’s that the child may keep it up--and that the child
assuredly _will_--without my knowing it.”
At the image of this possibility Mrs. Grose for a moment collapsed, yet
presently to pull herself together again, as if from the positive force
of the sense of what, should we yield an inch, there would really be
to give way to. “Dear, dear--we must keep our heads! And after all,
if she doesn’t mind it----!” She even tried a grim joke. “Perhaps
she likes it!”
“Likes _such_ things--a scrap of an infant!”
“Isn’t it just a proof of her blessed innocence?” my friend
bravely inquired.
She brought me, for the instant, almost round. “Oh, we must clutch
at _that_--we must cling to it! If it isn’t a proof of what you
say, it’s a proof of--God knows what! For the woman’s a horror of
horrors.”
Mrs. Grose, at this, fixed her eyes a minute on the ground; then at
last raising them, “Tell me how you know,” she said.
“Then you admit it’s what she was?” I cried.
“Tell me how you know,” my friend simply repeated.
“Know? By seeing her! By the way she looked.”
“At you, do you mean--so wickedly?”
“Dear me, no--I could have borne that. She gave me never a
glance. She only fixed the child.”
Mrs. Grose tried to see it. “Fixed her?”
“Ah, with such awful eyes!”
She stared at mine as if they might really have resembled them. “Do
you mean of dislike?”
“God help us, no. Of something much worse.”
“Worse than dislike?”--this left her indeed at a loss.
“With a determination--indescribable. With a kind of fury of
intention.”