Chapter XXV

Shafts of pale sunlight darted into the room and rested on Mr. Levice’s

hair, covering it with a silver glory,--they trailed along the silken

coverlet, but stopped there; one little beam strayed slowly, and almost

as if with intention, toward Arnold, seated near the foot of the bed.

Ruth, lovely in her pallor, sat near him; Mrs. Levice, on the other

side of the bed, leaned back in her chair placed close to her husband’s

pillow; more remote, though inadvertently so, sat Dr. Kemp. It was by

Mr. Levice’s desire that these four had assembled here.

He was sitting up, supported by many pillows; his face was hollow and

colorless; his hands lay listlessly upon the counterpane. No one touches

him; bathed in sunlight, as he was, the others seemed in shadow. When he

spoke, his voice was almost a whisper, but it was distinctly audible

to the four intent listeners; only the clock seemed to accompany his

staccato speech, running a race, as it were, with his failing strength.

“It is a beautiful world,” he said dreamily, “a very beautiful world;”

the sunbeams kissed his pale hands as if thanking him; no one stirred,

letting the old man take his time. Finally he realized that all were

waiting for him, and thought sprang, strong and powerful, to his face.

“Dr. Kemp,” he began, “I have something to say to you,--to you in

particular, and to my daughter Ruth. My wife and nephew know in brief

what I have to say; therefore I need not dwell on the painful event

that happened here last September; you will pardon me, when you see the

necessity, for my reverting to it at all.”

Every one’s eyes rested upon him,--that is, all but Arnold’s,

which seemed holding some secret communion with the cupids on the

ceiling,--and the look of convulsive agony that swept across Ruth’s face

was unnoticed.

“In all my long, diversified life,” he went on, “I had never suffered as

I did after she told me her decision,--for in all those years no one

had ever been made to suffer through me; that is, so far as I knew.

Unconsciously, or in anger, I may have hurt many, but never, as in

this case, with knowledge aforethought,--when the blow fell upon my own

child. You will understand, and perhaps forgive, when I say I gave no

thought to you. She came to me with her sweet, renunciating hands held

out, and with a smile of self-forgetfulness, said, ‘Father, you are

right; I could not be happy with this man.’ At the moment I believed

her, thinking she had adopted my views; but with all her bravery, her

real feelings conquered her, and I saw. Not that she had spoken untruly,

but she had implied the truth only in part, I knew my child loved me,

and she meant honestly that my pain would rob her of perfect happiness

with you,--my pain would form an eclipse strong enough to darken

everything. Do you think this knowledge made me glad or proud? Do you

know how love, that in the withholding justifies itself, suffers from

the pain inflicted? But I said, ‘After all, it is as I think; she

will thank me for it some day.’ I was not altogether selfish, please

remember. Then, as I saw her silent wrestling, came distrust of myself;

I remembered I was pitted against two, younger and no more fallible than

myself. As soon as doubt of myself attacked me, I strove to look on

the other side; I strove to rid myself of the old prejudices, the old

superstitions, the old narrowness of faith; it was useless,--I was too

old, and my prejudices had become part of me. It was in this state of

perturbation that I had gone one day up to the top floor of the Palace

Hotel. Thank you, Doctor.”

The latter had quietly risen and administered a stimulant. As he resumed

his seat, Levice continued:

“I was seated at a window overlooking Market Street. Below me surged a

black mass of crowding, jostling, hurrying beings, so far removed they

seemed like little dots, each as large and no larger than his fellows.

Above them stretched the same blue arch of heaven, they breathed the

same air, trod in each other’s footsteps; and yet I knew they were all

so different,--ignorance walked with enlightenment, vice with virtue,

rich with poor, low with high,--but I felt, poised thus above them,

that they were creatures of the same God. Go once thus, and you will

understand the feeling. And so I judged these aliens. Which was greater;

which was less? This one, who from birth and inheritance is able

to stand the equal of any one, or this one, who through birth and

inheritance blinks blindly at the good and beautiful? Character and

circumstance are not altogether of our own making; they are, to a

great degree, results of inherited tendencies over which we have no

control,--accidents of birthplace, in the choosing of which we had no

voice. The high in the world do not shine altogether by their own light,

not do the lowly grovel altogether in their own debasement,--I felt the

excuse for humanity. I was overwhelmed with one feeling,--only God

can weigh such circumstantial evidence; we, in our little knowledge of

results, pronounce sentence, but final judgment is reserved for a higher

court, that sees the cross-purposes in which we are blindly caught.

So with everything. Below me prayed Christian and Jew, Mohammedan and

Brahmin, idolater and agnostic. Why was one man different in this way

from his fellows? Because he was born so, because his parents were so,

because he was bred so, because it seemed natural and convenient to

remain so,--custom and environment had made his religion. Because Jesus

Christ dared to attack their existing customs and beliefs, the Jews,

then powerful, first reviled, then feared, then slew him; because the

Jews could not honestly say, ‘I believe this man to be a God,’ they were

hurled from their eminence and dragged, living, for centuries in the

dust. And yet why? Because God withheld and still withholds from this

little band the power of believing in Christ as his son. Christians call

this a wilful weakness; Jews call it strength. After all, who is to

be praised or blamed for it? God. Then instead of beating the Jew, and

instead of sneering at the Christian, let each pity the other; because

one, I know not which, is weak, and because the other, I know not which,

is strong. I left the building; I came upon the street. I felt like

saluting every one as my brother. A little ragged child touched me,

and as I laid my hand upon her curly head, the thrill of humanity shot

through me.

“It was not until I went to New York that the feelings I then

experienced took on a definite shape. There, removed from my old haunts,

I wandered alone when I could. Then I thought of you, my friend, of

you, my child, and beside you I was pitiful,--pitiful, because in my

narrowness I had thought myself strong enough to uphold a vanishing

restriction. I resolved to be practical; I have been accused of being

a dreamer. I grasped your two images before me and drew parallels.

Socially each was as high as the other. Mentally the woman was as strong

in her sphere as the man was in his. Physically both were perfect types

of pure, healthy blood. Morally both were irreproachable. Religiously

each held a broad love for God and man. I stood convicted; I was in

the position of a blind fool who, with a beautiful picture before him,

fastens his critical, condemning gaze upon a rusting nail in the rusting

wall behind,--a nail even now loosened, and which in another generation

will be displaced. Yet what was I to do? Come back and tell you that I

had been needlessly cruel? What would that avail? True, I might make you

believe that I no longer thought marriage between you wrong; but that

would not remove the fact that the world, which so easily makes us happy

or otherwise, did not see as I saw. In this vortex I was stricken ill.

All the while I wanted to hasten to you, to tell you how it was with

me, and it seemed as if I never could get to you. ‘Is this Nemesis,’ I

thought, ‘or divine interposition?’ So I struggled till Louis came. Then

all was easier. I told him everything and said, ‘Louis, what shall

I do?’ ‘only this,’ he answered simply: ‘tell them that their happy

marriage will be your happiness, and the rest of the world will be as

nothing to these two who love each other.’”

The old man paused; the little sunbeam had reached the end of the

coverlet and gave a leap upon Louis’s shoulder like an angle’s finger,

but his gaze remained fixed upon the cupids on the ceiling. Ruth had

covered her face with her hands. Mrs. Levice was softly weeping, with

her eyes on Louis. Dr. Kemp had risen and stood, tall and pale, meeting

Levice’s eyes.

“I believe--and my wife believes,” said Levice, heavily, as if the words

were so many burdens, “that our child will be happy only as your wife,

and that nothing should stand in the way of the consummation of this

happiness. Dr. Kemp, you have assured me you still love my daughter.

Ruth!”

She sprang to her feet, looking only at her father.

“Little one,” he faltered, “I have been very cruel in my ignorance.”

“Do not think of this, Father,” she whispered.

“I must,” he said, taking her hand in his. “Kemp, your hand, please.”

He grasped the strong white hand and drew the two together; and as

Kemp’s large hand closed firmly over her little one, Levice stooped his

head, kissed them thus clasped, and laid his hand upon them.

“There is one thing more,” he said. “At the utmost I have but a few days

to live. I shall not see your happiness: I shall not see you, my

Ruth, as I have often pictured you. Ah, well, darling, a father may be

permitted sweet dreams of his only child. You have always been a good

girl, and now I am going to ask you to do one thing more--you also,

Doctor. Will you be married now, this day, here, so that I may yet bless

your new life? Will you let me see this? And listen,--will you let the

world know that you were married with my sanction, and did not have to

wait till the old man was dead? Will you do this for me, my dear ones?”

“Will you, Ruth?” asked Kemp, softly, his fingers pressing hers gently.

Ruth stifled a sob as she met her father’s eager eyes.

“I will,” she answered so low that only the intense silence in the room

made it audible.

Levice separated their hands and held one on each of his cheeks.

“Always doing things for her ugly old father,” he murmured; “this time

giving up a pretty wedding-day that all girls so love.”

“Oh, hush, my darling.”

“You will have no guests, unless, Doctor, there is some one you would

like to have.”

“I think not,” he decided, noting with a pang the pale, weary face of

Levice; “we will have it all as quiet as possible. You must rest now,

and leave everything to me. Would you prefer Dr. Stephens or a justice?”

“Either. Dr. Stephens is a good man, whom I know, however; and one good

man with the legal right is as good as another to marry you.”

There was little more said then. Kemp turned to Mrs. Levice and raised

her hand to his lips. Arnold confronted him with a pale, smiling face;

the two men wrung each other’s hands, passing out together immediately

after.

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