The next day Yevsey resolved not to leave the house for a long time. He
lay in bed looking at the ceiling. The leaden face of Sasha with the dim
eyes and the band of red pimples on the forehead floated before him.
To-day this face recalled his childhood and the sinister disk of the
moon in the mist over the marsh.
As he lay there, empty, languid, and cold, he gave himself over to grief
at his shattered dreams, the dreams that Sasha so easily crushed. His
hatred of the spy deepening, he felt himself capable of biting him with
his teeth, of gouging out his eyes.
It occurred to him that some of his comrades might come to fetch him,
and he hurriedly left the house, and ran down several streets. Tiring
almost immediately he stopped and waited for a car. People passed by in
a continuous stream. He scented something new in them to-day, and did
violence to himself in examining them closely. Soon he realized that
this new thing was the old fear so well known to him. It was the old
dread and perplexity. People looked around distrustfully, suspiciously,
no longer with the kind expression their eyes had recently worn. Their
voices sounded lower, and betrayed anger, resentment, sorrow. Their talk
was of the horrible.
Two persons stationed themselves near Yevsey. One of them, a stout
shaven man, asked of the other, who had a large black beard:
"How many were killed?"
"Five. Sixteen wounded."
"Did the Cossacks shoot?"
"Yes. A boy was killed, a student at the high school." Yevsey looked at
them, and inquired drily:
"What for?"
The man with the black beard shrugged his shoulders, and answered
reluctantly in a low voice:
"They say the Cossacks were drunk."
"Sasha arranged that," thought Yevsey.
"And on the Spassky Bridge the mob beat a student, and threw him into
the river," announced the shaven man, drawing a deep breath.
"What for?" Yevsey asked again.
"I don't know. Some sort of patriots."
The black-bearded man explained:
"Since this morning tramps waving tri-colored flags and carrying
portraits of the Czar have been marching the streets and beating the
decently clad people."
"Sasha!" Yevsey repeated to himself.
"They say it was organized by the police and the Department of Safety."
"Of course!" burst from Klimkov. But the next instant he compressed his
lips tightly, and glanced sidewise at the black-bearded man. He resolved
to go away. But just then the car came along, and as the two men
prepared to board it, he thought:
"I must get on, too, or else they'll guess I'm a spy. What would they
think of a man who waited for a car with them, and then didn't take it?"
The passengers in the car seemed calmer to Yevsey than the pedestrians
on the street.
"After all it's some sort of concealment, though only behind glass," was
his explanation of the difference, as he listened to the animated
conversation in the car.
A tall man with a bony face said plaintively, spreading his hands:
"I, too, love and respect the Czar; I'm heartily thankful to him for the
manifesto. I'm ready to shout 'Hurrah' as much as you please; and offer
up prayers of gratitude. But to smash windows from patriotism and break
bones--what's that?"
"Such barbarism, beastliness in our age!" said a stout lady. "Oh, those
people, how horribly cruel they are!"
From a corner came a firm assured voice:
"All the work of the police, no doubt of it!"
"But what for?"
All were silent for a minute.
"I know," thought Klimkov.
From the corner came the same assured voice:
"They're preparing a counter-revolution in Russian fashion. You
just take a close look at those in command of the patriotic
demonstrators--disguised police, agents of the Department of
Safety."
Yevsey heard these words with joy, and furtively regarded the young
face. It was dry and clean, with a cartilaginous nose, a small mustache,
and a tuft of light hair on a determined chin. The youth sat leaning
against the back of his seat in a corner of the car, one leg crossed
over the other. He looked at the passengers in the car with a wise
glance from his blue eyes, and spoke like a man who masters his words
and thoughts and believes in their effectiveness.
Dressed in a short warm jacket and tall boots, he resembled a
workingman, but his white hands and the thin horizontal lines on his
forehead betrayed him.
"Disguised," thought Yevsey. "Well, let him be disguised. What
difference does it make to me?"
He began to follow the loud firm talk of the fair-haired youth with the
greatest attention, looking at his wise, transparent blue eyes and
agreeing with him. But suddenly he shuddered, seized with a sharp
premonition. On the platform of the car, at the conductor's side, he saw
through the window a pair of narrow drooping shoulders, and the back of
a black protruding head. The car jolted, and the familiar figure swayed.
"Yakov Zarubin!"
Klimkov utterly dismayed turned his look again upon the blue-eyed youth.
He had removed his hat, and he smoothed his wavy hair as he said:
"As long as our administration has the soldiers in its hands, the
police, and the spies, it will not yield the people and society their
rights without a fight, without bloodshed. We must remember that."
"It isn't true, my dear sir," cried the bony-faced man. "The Czar
granted a full constitution. He granted it, yes, so how dare you--?"
"But who is arranging the street massacres? And who's shouting 'Down
with the constitution?'" the young man asked coldly. "You had better
take a look at the defenders of the old system. There they go!"
At that instant the car came to a standstill with a creak, and when the
irritating noise of its movement had subsided, the passengers could hear
loud turbulent shouts:
"God save the Czar!"
"Rrrra-a-h!"
A pack of boys came running from around the corner in front of the car,
and noisily scattered over the street, as if dropped from above. A crowd
of people waving three-colored flags over their heads pushed after them
like a black wedge in hurried disorder. Alarming shouts filled the air:
"Hurrah!"
"Stop, boys!"
"Down with the constitution!"
"We don't want--"
"God save the Czar!"
"Hurrah!"
The people shoved past one another, gesticulated wildly, and threw their
hats in the air. In front of all with his head hanging low like a bull,
walked Melnikov, holding a heavy pole from which the national flag
floated. His eyes were fastened on the ground. He lifted his feet high,
and apparently must have tramped the ground with great force, for at
each step his body quivered, and his head shook. His heavy bellow could
be heard above the chaos of thinner shouts.
"We don't want deception--"
Behind, a crowd of ragged people, dark and grey, pushed down the street,
jumping and twisting their necks. They raised their heads, hands, and
arms, looked up to the windows of the houses, jumped on the pavements to
knock off the hats of passersby, ran up to Melnikov again, shouted and
whistled and seized one another, rolling into a heap. Melnikov waving
the flag clanged like a huge bell:
"Down with the mutinee-e! Down with the impostors! Stop!"
"Drunk, or what?" thought Klimkov, coldly.
"Halt!" Raising his head and the flag on high, the spy commanded:
"Sing!"
From his broad mouth gushed a savage mournful note:
"Go-o-od--"
But at that moment excited shouts splashed in the air, disordered and
rapacious, like a flock of hungry birds. They clawed the voice of the
spy, and covered it with their hasty, greedy mass.
"Hurrah for the Emperor! Hats off! True Orthodox people--we want the
old! Down with treachery!"
It was quiet in the car. All stood with their hats off, silent, pale,
observing the crowd that encircled them like a wavy, dirty ring. But the
disguised man did not remove his hat. Yevsey looked at his stern face,
and thought:
"Putting on airs." And he turned his eyes on the street with a wry smile
on his face. He felt very distinctly the nothingness of these restless
jumping people. He clearly understood that dark terror was whipping them
from within, was pushing and carrying them from side to side. They were
fighting, intoxicating themselves with loud shouts, in the desire to
prove to themselves that they were afraid of nothing. They ran around
the car like a pack of hounds just released from the leash, full of
senseless joy, without having had time to free themselves from the
customary fear. Apparently they could not make up their minds to
traverse the broad bright street. They were unable to gather themselves
into one body. They tossed about, roared, and glared around alarmingly,
waiting for something.
Near the car stood a little thin, sharp-bearded muzhik in a torn hat and
short fur coat. He held his eyes closed and his face raised on high. His
hungry mouth gaped displaying his yellow teeth as he shouted in a thin
voice:
"D-o-o-wn! We don't want--"
Tears of fear and excitement ran down his cheeks. His forehead glistened
with sweat. Ceasing to shout, he bent his neck and looked around
distrustfully. Then he raised his shoulders, and closing his eyes again,
yelled once more as if he were being beaten:
"E-e-enough!"
"That's the way I would have become, too," thought Yevsey to himself.
Though the muzhik cut a droll figure, Yevsey was sorry for him and for
himself.
He saw the familiar faces of the janitors, always grim, the
large-whiskered visage of the church watchman Klimych, pious and sullen,
the hungry eyes of the young hooligans, the astonished expression of
timorous muzhiks, and a few creatures who pushed everyone, gave everyone
orders, and filled the will-less blind bodies with their will, with
their sick ferocity. Yevsey well understood that all these petty people
like himself lived in the close captivity of fear, with no strength to
tear themselves from its clutches. A powerful person might gain mastery
over them; in obedience to the will of a still more powerful person they
would overthrow the old receptacle of fear in exchange for a new one.
Now, separated by the windows from the mob, he looked at it from aside
and above, and his eyes were able to embrace much. Everything was clear
to him _ad nauseam_. Anguish and wrath sucked at his heart.
Little Yakov Zarubin was twisting and turning in the middle of the crowd
like an eel. Now he ran up to Melnikov, pulled his sleeve, and said
something to him, nodding his head in the direction of the car.
Klimkov quickly glanced around at the man in the hat, who had already
risen, and was walking to the door, his head lifted high and a frown on
his brow. Yevsey stepped after him, but Melnikov jumped to the platform,
and blocked the doorway with his large body.
"Hat off!" he bawled.
The man faced about abruptly, and walked to the other exit. There he was
met by Zarubin, who shouted in a loud voice:
"Here, this man in a hat! I know him! He makes bombs! Take care, boys!"
A revolver gleamed in Zarubin's hand. He swung it as if it were a stone,
and thrust it forward. People from the street clambered to the platform,
and the passengers pressing to the exits met them face to face. The lady
screeched:
"Take off your hat! Why, man!"
All screamed, roared, and pressed one another. Their eyes staring
insanely, fastened upon the man in the hat.
"I'm going to shoot! Get away!" the man shouted aloud, advancing upon
Zarubin. The spy retreated, but he was pushed in back, and fell to his
knees. Supporting himself on the floor with one hand, he stretched out
the other. A shot rang out, then another. The windows rattled. For a
second all the cries congealed. Then the firm voice said contemptuously:
"Vile curs!"
The air and the windows quivered with a third shot, and Zarubin uttered
a loud cry:
"Ugh!" His head struck the floor, as if he were making an obeisance at
somebody's feet. The car became emptier and quieter. Klimkov ensconced
in a corner, shrivelled up on his seat, and thought listlessly:
"I might have been killed."
The thought darted by, and disappeared without rousing in the darkness
of his soul either fear or joy. He looked around wearily. The man in the
hat stood on the platform of the car. Melnikov advanced toward him past
Yevsey, and Zarubin lay motionless face downward.
"I will shoot you down--everyone of you! Get away from here!" the loud,
dry cry was heard from the platform.
But Melnikov stepped across the body of Yakov, seized the fair-haired
youth by the waist, and threw him into the street.
"Beat him down--!" he shouted bluntly in a savage voice.
Three revolver shots followed in quick succession. The deaf blows
clapped. Someone howled in a long-drawn plaintive cry like an infant.
"Oh, oh, my leg!"
Another man shouted hoarsely with an effort:
"Ah, ah! Hit him on the head! Hey, hey!"
And a thin hysterical voice pealed in ecstasy:
"Tear him to pieces, my dear people. Choke him! Enough! Their time is
past! Now we'll give it to them. Now our turn has come--"
All the cries were suddenly covered by a loud ejaculation full of
mournful disdain:
"Idiots!"
Yevsey reeled from weakness in his legs. He walked to the platform, from
which he saw a dark heap of people. With bent backs, swinging their arms
and legs, groaning with the strain of excitement, uttering tired hoarse
articulations, they stirred busily on the street, like large shaggy
worms, as they dragged over the stones the body of the fair-haired
youth, already crushed and torn. They kicked at it, tramped on its face
and chest, pulled its hair, its legs and arms, and simultaneously tore
him in different directions. Half bare, covered with blood, it flapped
against the stones, soft as dough, with each blow losing more and more
semblance of a human figure. These people worked over him industriously.
The little lean muzhik trying to crush his skull, stepped on it with one
foot, and sang out:
"Aha! Our time has come, too."
The work was accomplished. One after the other they left the middle of
the street for the pavement. A pockmarked fellow wiped his hands on his
short sheepskin overcoat, and asked with the air of a manager, or
superintendent:
"Who took his pistol?"
Now the voices sounded weary, reluctant. But on the pavement a laugh was
heard coming from a small group of people standing next to the
lamp-post. An offended voice was discussing hotly:
"You lie! I was the first. The second he fell I gave him one on the jaw
with my boot."
"Cabman Mikhailov pounced on him first, then I."
"Mikhailov got a bullet in his leg."
"If it didn't hit the bone, it's all right."
These people after tasting blood had apparently grown bolder. They
looked around on all sides with unsatiated eyes, with greed, and assured
expectation.
In the middle of the street lay a formless dark heap, from which blood
was oozing into the hollows between the stones.
"That's the way--" Yevsey thought, looking at the red designs on the
paving. In the dark red mist trembling before his eyes appeared the
hairy face of Melnikov. His voice was tired and muffled.
"There, they've killed him!"
"Yes, how quickly!"
"They killed another one this morning."
"What for?"
"He was speaking. He was standing on the curb addressing the people.
Chasin fired into his stomach."
"What for?" Yevsey repeated.
"Those speakers are deceivers--a spurious manifesto--there's no such
thing--all a bluff!"
"Sasha thought that all out," said Yevsey quietly, with conviction.
Melnikov shook his head, and looked at his large hands.
"Somebody always deceives," he mumbled in a drunken voice.
He entered the car, and raised Zarubin lightly, placing him on the bench
face up.
"He's dead. There's where it hit him--"
Yevsey sought the scar on Zarubin's face that the blow of the bottle had
left. He did not find it. Now over the right eye was a little red hole
from which Klimkov could not tear his eyes. It absorbed his entire
attention, and aroused sharp pity for Yakov.
"Have you a pistol?" asked Melnikov.
"No."
"There, take Yakov's."
"I don't want to. I don't need it."
"Now everybody needs a pistol," said Melnikov simply, and slipped the
revolver into Yevsey's overcoat pocket. "Yes, there was a Yakov, now
there is no Yakov."
"It was I who marked him for death," thought Yevsey, looking at his
comrade's face.
Zarubin's brows were sternly drawn. A look of serious preoccupation
gleamed and died away in his dim eyes. His little black mustache
bristled on his raised lip. He appeared to be annoyed. His half-open
mouth seemed ready to pour forth a rapid torrent of irritated talk.
"Come," said Melnikov.
"And he--how about them?" asked Yevsey, tearing his eyes from Zarubin.
"The police will take them away. It's against the law to remove the
killed. Let's go somewhere, and shake ourselves up. I haven't eaten
to-day. I can't eat--the third day without food. No sleep either." He
sighed painfully, and concluded with somber _sang froid_. "I should have
been killed in Yakov's place."
"Sasha will ruin all," said Yevsey, through his teeth. "He'll ruin us
all."
"Blindness of the soul."
They walked along the street without observing anything, and each spoke
that with which his own mind was occupied. Both were like drunken men.
"Where's the truth?" asked Melnikov, putting his hand forward, as if to
test the air.
"There, you see, two have been killed," said Yevsey, making an effort to
catch an elusive thought.
"Many people have been killed to-day, I should think. All are blind."
"Why did Sasha arrange this?"
"I don't love him either."
"He's the one who ought to be killed," exclaimed Yevsey, with bitter
vengefulness.
Melnikov was silent for a long time. Then he suddenly shook his fist in
the air, and said resolutely:
"Enough! I've taken sins enough upon myself. On the other side of the
Volga I have an uncle, a very old man. He is all I have in this world.
I'll go to him. He keeps an apiary--when he was young he was tried for
forgery." After another pause of silence the spy laughed quietly.
"What's the matter?" asked Yevsey, annoyed.
"I'm forgetting everything. My uncle has now been dead for three years."
They reached a café known to them. Yevsey stopped at the door, and
looked meditatively at the illuminated windows.
"People again," he muttered, dissatisfied. "I don't want to go in
there."
"Let's go in. It's all the same," said Melnikov, taking him by the arm,
and leading him after himself. "It will be tiresome for me to be here
alone. Besides I've become fearsome. I'm not afraid of being killed if
I'm recognized as a spy. It's just a general feeling of dread."
The two men did not enter the room in which their comrades were wont to
gather, but took seats in a corner of the common hall, where there were
a number of persons, of whom none were drunk, though the talk was noisy
and evinced unusual excitement. Klimkov by habit began to listen to the
conversations, while the thought of Sasha clung to him, and quietly
unfolded itself in his head, stupefied by the impressions of the last
days, but freshened by the constant influx of poignant hatred and fear
of the spy.
He recalled the sullen face of the dead Zarubin, the mauled body of the
fair-haired man. He looked in perplexity at the noisy public, blinking
as if half asleep. All was incoherent, as in a nightmare. Melnikov drank
tea with no appetite, keeping silent and from time to time stretching
himself.
Not far from them at a table sat three men, apparently clerks with the
characteristic speech of the class. They were young and fashionably
dressed, with a display of gay necktie. One of them, a curly-headed
youth with a tanned face spoke excitedly, his dark eyes flashing.
"They utilize the ferocity of hungry ragged rowdies, by which they want
to prove to us that liberty is impossible because of the many barbarians
such as these. However--permit me--savages did not show themselves for
the first time yesterday. There have always been such, and justice has
always been able to cope with them; they could be held under fear of the
law. Then why are they permitted to perpetrate every sort of outrage and
bestiality to-day?" He looked around the hall with the air of a victor,
and answered his question with hot conviction. "Because they want to
point out to us, 'You are for freedom, ladies and gentlemen, well here
you have it. Freedom for you means murder, robbery, and all kinds of mob
violence.'"
"Do you hear?" demanded Yevsey, triumphantly. "Isn't that Sasha's
scheme?" The hot voice of the orator roused in his soul the quiet
smouldering hope. "Maybe Sasha won't conquer."
Melnikov looked at him sullenly, without replying.
The curly-headed man rose from the chair, and continued waving a glass
of wine in his hand.
"It's not true, and I protest. Honest people want liberty, not in order
to crush one another, but in order for each to be protected against the
prevailing violence of our lawless life. Liberty is the goddess of
reason. They have drunk enough of our blood. I protest. Long live
liberty!"
The public raised a cheer, and sprang to their feet.
Melnikov looked at the curly-headed orator, and muttered:
"What a fool!"
"He speaks truly," rejoined Yevsey, angrily.
"How do you know?" asked the spy indifferently, and began to drink the
beer in slow gulps.
Yevsey wanted to tell this heavy man that he himself was a fool, a blind
beast, whom the cunning and cruel masters of his life had taught to hunt
people down. But Melnikov raised his head, and looking into Klimkov's
face with dark eyes terribly widened, said in a sounding whisper:
"I'm afraid for this reason: when I was in prison an incident happened
there--"
"Hold on," said Yevsey, "I want to listen."
A thin voice which drilled the ear, pierced triumphantly through the
soft mass of sounds.
"Did you hear? He says a goddess, yet we Russian people have only one
goddess, the Holy Mother of God, the Virgin Mary. That's how those
curly-headed youngsters speak!"
"Out with him!"
"Silence!"
"No, if you please. If there's liberty, everyone has a right--"
"You see? The curly-headed youngsters walk the streets, beat the people
who rise up to maintain the Czar's truth against treachery, while we
Russians, the True Orthodox, don't dare even to speak. Is this liberty?"
"They'll fight," said Klimkov, starting to tremble. "Somebody will be
killed. I'm going."
"What a peculiar fellow you are! Well, let's go. The devil take them!
What are they to you?"
Melnikov flung the money on the table, and moved toward the exit, his
head bowed low, as if to conceal his conspicuous face. On the street in
the dark and the cold, he began to speak in a subdued voice:
"When I was in prison--it was on account of a certain foreman, who was
strangled in our factory--I was hauled up, too. They told me I would get
hard labor. Everybody said it, first the coroner, then the gendarmes
joined in. I got frightened. I was still young, and I didn't take to the
idea of hard labor. I used to cry." He coughed a clapping cough, and
slackened his pace. "Once the assistant overseer of the prison, Aleksey
Maksimych, a good little old man, came in to me. He loved me. He grieved
for me all the time. 'Ah,' says he, 'Liapin,'--my real name is
Liapin--'Ah,' says he, 'brother, I'm sorry for you. You are such an
unfortunate fellow--'"
Melnikov's speech unfolded itself like a soft band upon which Klimkov
quietly let himself down, as upon a narrow path leading down into the
darkness, into something terrible and awesomely interesting.
"He comes and says he, 'Liapin, I want to save you for a good life.
Yours is a hard-labor case, but you can escape it. The only thing you
need to do is to execute a man. He was sentenced for political
assassination. He will be hanged according to law in the presence of a
priest, will be given a cross to kiss, so that you needn't be uneasy
about it.' I say, 'Why not? If with the consent of the authorities, and
if I'm to be pardoned, I'll hang him. Only I can't.'--. 'We'll teach
you,' says he. 'We have a man who knows how, but he's stricken with
paralysis, and can't do it himself.' Well for a whole evening they
taught me. It was in a deep dungeon. We stuffed a sack with rags, tied
it with a string, so as to make a neck. Then I pulled it up on a hook. I
learned how to do the business. Early in the morning they gave me half a
bottle to drink, led me out into the yard with soldiers carrying guns. I
see a gallows has been erected, and various officers before it. They are
all muffled up and shrivelled. It was autumn then, too, November. I
ascended the scaffolding, and the boards shook, creaked under my feet
like teeth. This made me feel uncomfortable, and I said 'Give me more
whiskey. I'm afraid.' Then they brought him--"
Melnikov again began to cough dully, and clutched at his throat. Yevsey
pressed up to him, trying to keep step with him. He kept his eyes
fastened on the ground, not daring to look either to the front or the
side.
"I see a young powerful fellow. He stands firm, and all the time keeps
stroking his head from his forehead back to his neck. I began to put the
face-cloth on him. I must have pulled or pinched him in some way, and he
tells me quietly without anger, 'Be more careful, brother.' Yes. The
priest gave him the cross, and he says, 'Don't disturb yourself. I'm not
a believer.' His face was so--as if he knew everything that would be
after death, and now and to-morrow and always, knew it for certain.
Somehow I strangled him, shaking all over. My hands grew numb, my legs
would not hold me. I felt horrible on account of him--he was so calm
about it all--a master over death."
Melnikov was silent, looked around, and began to walk more quickly.
"Well?" asked Yevsey in a whisper.
"Well, I strangled him. That's all. Only ever since, when I see or hear
that a man has been killed, I recollect him--always. In my opinion he
was the only man who knew the truth. That was why he was not afraid. And
the main thing is, he knew what would be to-morrow--which no one knows.
I tell you what, Yevsey, come to me to sleep, eh? Come, please."
"All right," said Yevsey quietly.
He was glad of the offer. He could not walk to his room alone--along the
streets in the darkness. He felt a tightness in his breast and a heavy
pressure on his bones, as if he were creeping under ground, and the
earth were squeezing his back, his chest, his sides, and his head: while
in front of him gaped a deep pit, which he could not escape, into which
he must soon descend--a silent bottomless abyss down which he would drop
endlessly.
"That's good," said Melnikov. "I would feel bored alone."
"If you would kill Sasha--" Yevsey advised him sadly.
"There you are!" Melnikov fended off the idea. "What do you think--that
I love to kill? They asked me twice again to hang people, a woman and a
student. I declined. I might have had two to remember instead of one.
The killed appear again. They come back."
"Often?"
"Sometimes, sometimes not. When often, it's every night. How can you
defend yourself against them? I can't pray to God. I've forgotten my
prayers. Have you?"
"I remember mine."
They entered a court, and were long in penetrating to its depths,
stumbling as they walked over boards, stones, and rubbish. Then they
descended a flight of steps, which Klimkov, feeling the walls with his
hands, thought would never come to an end. When he found himself at last
in the lodging of the spy, and had examined it in the light of the lamp,
he was amazed to see the mass of gay pictures and paper flowers with
which the walls were almost entirely covered. Melnikov at once became a
stranger in this comfortable little room, with a broad bed in a corner
behind white curtains.
"All this was contrived by the woman with whom I lived," said Melnikov,
starting to undress. "She ran away, the hussy! A gendarme, a
quartermaster, decoyed her. I can't understand it. He's a grey-haired
widower, while she's young and greedy for a male. Nevertheless she went
away. The third one that's left me already. Come, let's go to bed."
They lay side by side in the same bed, which rocked under Yevsey like a
tossing sea, and all the time descended lower and lower. His heart sank
with it. The spy's words laid themselves heavily upon his breast.
"One was Olga."
"What!"
"Olga. Why?"
"Nothing."
"A little one, thin and jolly. She used to hide my hat, or something
else, and I would say, 'Olga, where's my hat?' And she would say, 'Look
for it. You're a spy.' She liked to joke, but she was a loose woman. I
hardly had my head turned, before she was with somebody else. I was
afraid to beat her. She was frail. Still I pulled her hair. You've got
to do something."
"Lord!" quietly exclaimed Klimkov. "What am I going to do?"
His comrade was silent for a while, then said dully and slowly:
"That's the way I howl, too, sometimes."
Klimkov buried his head in the pillow, compressing his lips tightly, to
restrain the stubborn need to utter cries and complaints.