CHAPTER XXVIII.

THE SACRIFICE.

A solemn silence ensued. Consternation and wrath were depicted on every

countenance. The Sacred Service was interrupted! ... a defiance had

been hurled as it were in the very teeth of the god Nagaya! ... and

this horrible outrage to Religion and Law had been actually committed

by the Laureate of the realm! It was preposterous, ... incredible! ...

and the gaping crowds reached over each other's shoulders to stare at

the offender, pressing forward eager, wondering, startled faces, which

to Theos looked far more spectral than real, seen in the shimmering

green radiance that was thrown flickering upon them from the luminous

Arch above the Altar. The priests stood still in speechless

indignation, . . Lysia moved not at all, nor raised her eyes; only her

lips parted in a very slight cold smile.

Seized with mortal dread, Theos gazed helplessly at his reckless,

beautiful poet friend, who with head erect and visage white as a waning

moon, haughtily confronted his Sovereign and audaciously asserted his

right to be heard, even in the Holy place of worship! The King was the

first to break the breathless stillness: his words came harshly from

his throat, . . and the great muscles in his neck seemed to swell

visibly with his hardly controlled anger.

"Peace! ... Thou art suddenly distraught, Sah-luma! ..." he said, in

half-smothered, fierce accents--"How darest thou uplift thy clamorous

tongue thus wantonly before Nagaya, and interrupt the progress of his

Sacred Ritual? ... check thy mad speech! ... if ever yonder maid were

thine, 'tis certain she is thine no longer; ... she hath offered

herself, a voluntary sacrifice, and the gods are pleased to claim what

thou perchance hast failed to value!"

For all answer, Sah-luma flung himself desperately at the monarch's

feet. "Zephoranim!" he cried again ... "I tell thee she is mine! ...

mine, as truly mine as Love can make her! Oh, she is chaster than

lily-buds in her sweet body! ... but in her spirit she is

wedded--wedded to me, Sah-luma, whom thou, O King, hast ever delighted

to honor! And now must I kneel to thee in vain?--thou whose victories I

have sung, whose praises I have chanted in burning words that shall

carry thy name forever with triumph, down to unborn generations? ...

Wilt thou become inglorious? ... a warrior stricken strengthless by the

mummeries of priestcraft,--the juggleries of a perishing creed? Thou

art the ruler of Al-Kyris,--thou and thou only! Restore to me this

innocent virgin-life that has scarcely yet begun to bloom! ... speak

but the word and she is saved! ... and her timely rescue shall add

lustre to the record of thy noblest deeds!"

His matchless voice, full of passionate pulsations, exercised for a

moment a resistless influence and magnetic charm. The King's lowering

brows relaxed,--and a gleam of pity passed like light across his

countenance. Instinctively he extended his hand to raise Sah-luma from

his humble attitude, as though, even in his wrath, he were conscious of

the immense intellectual superiority of a great Poet to ever so great a

King; and a thrill of involuntary compassion seemed at the same time to

run sympathetically through the vast congregation. Theos drew a quick

breath of relief, and glanced at Niphrata, ... how cold and unconcerned

was her demeanor! ... Did she not hear Sah-luma's pleading in her

behalf? ... No matter!--she would be saved, he thought, and all would

yet be well!

And truly it now appeared as if mercy, and not cruelty, were to be the

order of the hour, . . for just then the Priest Zel, after having

exchanged a few inaudible words with Lysia, advanced again to the front

of the Shrine and spoke in distinct tones of forced gentleness and

bland forbearance:

"Hear me, O King, Princes and People! ... Whereas it has unhappily

occurred, to the wonder and sorrow of many, that the holy Spouse of the

divine Nagaya is delayed in her desired departure, by the unforeseen

opposition and unedifying contumacy of Sah-luma, Poet Laureate of this

realm; and lest it may be perchance imagined by the uninitiated, that

the maiden is in any way unwilling to fulfil her glorious destiny, the

High and Immaculate Priestess of the Shrine doth bid me here pronounce

a respite; a brief interval wherein, if the King and the People be

willing, he who is named Sah-luma shall, by virtue of his high renown,

be permitted to address the Virgin-victim and ascertain her own wishes

from her own lips. Injustice cannot dwell within this Sacred

Temple,--and if, on trial, the maiden chooses the transitory joys of

Earth in preference to the everlasting joys of the Palaces of the Sun,

then in Nagaya's name shall she go free!--inasmuch as the god loves not

a reluctant bride, and better no Sacrifice at all, than one that is

grudgingly consummated!"

He ceased,--and Sah-luma sprang erect, his eyes sparkling, his whole

demeanor that of a man unexpectedly disburdened from some crushing

grief.

"Thanks be unto the benevolent destinies!" he exclaimed, flashing a

quick glance of gratitude toward Lysia, . . the statuesque Lysia, on

whose delicately curved lips the faintly derisive smile still lingered

... "And in return for the life of my Niphrata I will give a thousand

jewels rare beyond all price to deck Nagaya's tabernacle!--and I will

pour libations to the Sun for twenty days and nights, in token of my

heart's requital for mercy well bestowed!"

Stooping he kissed the King's hand,--whereupon at a sign from Zel, one

of the priests attired in scarlet unfastened Niphrata's bound hands,

and led her, as one leads a blind child, straight up to where Sah-luma

and Theos stood, close beside the King, who, together with many others,

stared curiously upon her. How fixed and feverishly brilliant were her

large dark-blue eyes! ... how set were the sensitive lines of her

mouth!--how indifferent she seemed, how totally unaware of the

Laureate's presence! The priest who brought her retired into the

background, and she remained where he left her, quite mute and

motionless. Oh, how every nerve in Theos's body throbbed with

inexpressible agony as he beheld her thus! The wildest remorse

possessed him, . . it was as though he looked on the dim picture of a

ruin which he himself had recklessly wrought, . . and he could have

groaned aloud in the horrible vagueness of his incomprehensible

despair! Sah-luma caught the girl's hand, and peered into her white,

still face.

"Niphrata! .. .Niphrata!" he said in a tremulous half-whisper, "I am

here,--Sah-luma! ... Dost thou not know me!"

She sighed, . . a long, shivering sigh,--and smiled, . . what a

strange, wistful, dying smile it was! ... but she made no answer.

"Niphrata!"--continued the Laureate, passionately pressing the little,

cold fingers that lay so passively in his grasp.. "Look at me! ... I

have come to save thee! ... to take thee home again, . . home to thy

flowers, thy birds, thy harp, . . thy pretty chamber with its curtained

nook, where thy friend Zoralin waits and weeps all day for thee! ... O

ye gods!--how weak am I!".. and he fiercely dashed away the drops that

glistened on his black silky lashes, . . "Come with me, sweet one! ..."

he resumed tenderly--"Come!--Why art thou thus silent? ... thou whose

voice hath many a time outrivalled the music of the nightingales! Hast

thou no word for me, thy lord?--Come!".. and Theos, struggling to

repress his own rising tears, heard his friend's accents sink into a

still lower, more caressing cadence ... "Thou shalt never again have

cause for grief, my Niphrata, never! ... We will never part! ...

Listen! ... am I not he whom thou lovest?"

The poor child's set mouth trembled,--her beautiful sad eyes gazed at

him uncomprehendingly.

"He whom I love is not here!".. she said in tired, soft tones; "I left

him, but he followed me; and now, he waits for me...yonder!".. And she

turned resolutely toward the Sanctuary, as though compelled to do so by

some powerful mesmeric attraction, . . "See you not how fair he

is!"...and she pointed with her disengaged hand to the formidable

python, through whose huge coils ran the tremors of impatient and eager

breathing, . . "How tenderly his eyes behold me! ... those eyes that I

have worshipped so patiently, so faithfully, and yet that never

lightened into love for me till now! O thou more than beloved!--How

beautiful thou art, my adored one, my heart's idol!" and a look of pale

exaltation lightened her features, as she fixed her wistful gaze, like

a fascinated bird, on the shadowy recess whence the Serpent had

emerged--"There,--there thou dost rest on a couch of fadeless

roses!--how softly the moonlight enfolds thee with a radiance as of

outspread wings!--I hear thy voice charming the silence! ... thou dost

call me by my name, . . O once poor name made rich by thy sweet

utterance! Yes, my beloved, I am ready! ... I come! I shall die in thy

embraces, . . nay, I shall not die but sleep! ... and dream a dream of

love that shall last forever and ever! No more sorrow ... no more

tears, . . no more heartsick longings ..."

Here she stopped in her incoherent speech, and strove to release her

hand from Sah-luma's, her blue eyes filling with infinite anxiety and

distress.

"I pray thee, good stranger," she entreated with touching

mildness,--"whosoever thou art, delay me not, but let me go! ... I am

but a poor love-sorrowful maid on whom Love hath at last taken

pity!--be gentle therefore, and hinder me not on my way to Sah-luma. I

have waited for happiness so long! ... so long!"

Her young, plaintive voice quavered into a half sob,--and again she

endeavored to break away from the Laureate's hold. But he, overcome by

the excess of his own grief and agitation, seized her other hand, and

drew her close up to him.

"Niphrata, Niphrata!" he cried despairingly. "What evil hath befallen

thee? Where is thy sight.. thy memory? ... LOOK! ... Look straight in

these eyes of mine, and read there my truth and tenderness! ... _I_ am

Sah-luma, thine own Sah-luma! ... thy poet, thy lover, thy master, thy

slave, . . all that thou wouldst have me be, I am! Whither wouldst thou

wander in search of me? Thou hast no further to go, dear heart, than

these arms, . . thou art safe with me, my singing bird, . . come! ..Let

me lead thee hence, and home!"

She watched him while he spoke, with a strange expression of distrust

and uneasiness. Then, by a violent effort, she wrenched her hands from

his clasp, and stood aloof, waving him back with an eloquent gesture of

amazed reproach.

"Away!" she said, in firm accents of sweet severity,--"Thou art a demon

that dost seek to tempt my soul to ruin! THOU Sah-luma!".. and she

lifted her lily-crowned head with a movement of proud rejection.. "Nay!

... thou mayst wear his look, his smile, . . thou mayst even borrow the

clear heaven-lustre of his eyes,--but I tell thee thou art fiend, not

angel, and I will not follow thee into the tangled ways of sin! Oh,

thou knowest not the meaning of true love, thou! ... There is treachery

on thy lips, and thy tongue is trained to utter honeyed falsehood!

Methinks thou hast wantonly broken many a faithful heart!--and made

light jest of many a betrayed virgin's sorrow! And thou darest to call

thyself MY Poet, . . MY Sah-luma, in whom there is no guile, and who

would die a thousand deaths rather than wound the frailest soul that

trusted him! ... Depart from me, thou hypocrite in Poet's guise! ...

thou cruel phantom of my love! ... Back to that darkness where thou

dost belong, and trouble not my peace!"

Sah-luma recoiled from her, amazed and stupefied. Theos clenched his

hands together in a sort of physical effort to keep down the storm of

emotions working within him,--for Niphrata's words burnt into his brain

like fire, ..too well, too well he understood their full intensity of

meaning! She loved the IDEAL Sah-luma, . . the Sah-luma of her own pure

fancies and desires, . . NOT the REAL man as he was, with all his

haughty egotism, vainglory, and vice,--vice in which he took more pride

than shame. Perhaps she had never known him in his actual

character,--she, like other women of her lofty and ardent type, had no

doubt set up the hero of her life as a god in the shrine of her own

holy and enthusiastic imagination, and had there endowed him with

resplendent virtues, which he had never once deemed it worth his while

to practise. Oh the loving hearts of women!--How much men have to

answer for, when they voluntarily break these clear mirrors of

affection, wherein they, all unworthy, have been for a time reflected

angel-wise, with all the warmth and color of an innocently adoring

passion shining about them like the prismatic rays in a vase of

polished crystal! To Niphrata, Sah-luma remained as a sort of splendid

divinity, for whom no devotion was too vast, too high, or too complete,

. . better, oh surely far better that she should die in her beautiful

self-deception, than live to see her elected idol descend to his true

level, and openly display all the weaknesses of his volatile, flippant,

godless, sensual, yet, alas! most fascinating and genius-gifted nature,

. . a nature, which, overflowing as it was with potentialities of noble

deeds, yet lacked sufficient intrinsic faith and force to accomplish

them! This thought stung Theos like a sharp arrow-prick, and filled him

with a strange, indescribable penitence; and he stood in dumb misery,

remorsefully eyeing his friend's consternation, disappointment, and

pained bewilderment, without being able to offer him the slightest

consolation.

Sah-luma was indeed the very picture of dismay, . . if he had never

suffered in his life before, surely he suffered now! Niphrata, the

tender, the humbly adoring Niphrata, positively rejected him!--refused

to recognize his actual presence, and turned insanely away from him

toward some dream-ideal Sah-luma whom she fancied could only be found

in that unexplored country bordered by the cold river of Death!

Meanwhile, the silence in the Temple was intense,--the Priests were

like so many wax figures fastened in fixed positions; the King, leaning

slightly forward in his chair, had the appearance of a massively

moulded image of bronze,--and to Theos's overwrought condition of mind,

the only actually living things present seemed to be the monster

Serpent whose scaly folds palpitated visibly in the strong light, . .

and the hideous "Eye of Raphon," that blazed on Lysia's breast with a

menacing stare, as of a wrathful ghoul. All at once a flash of

comprehension lightened the Laureate's sternly perplexed face,--a

bitter laugh broke from his lips.

"She has been drugged!" he cried fiercely, pointing to Niphrata's white

and rigid form, . . "Poisoned by some deadly potion devised of devils,

to twist and torture the quivering centres of the brain! Accursed

work!--Will none undo it?" and springing forward nearer the Shrine, he

raised his angry, impassioned eyes to the dark, inscrutable ones of the

High Priestess, who met his troubled look with serene and irresponsive

gravity ... "Is there no touch of human pity in things divine? ... no

mercy in the icy fate that rules our destinies? ... This child knows

naught of what she does; she hath been led astray in a moment of

excitement and religious exaltation, . . her mind hath lost its

balance,--her thoughts float disconnectedly on a sea of vague

illusions, ... Ah! ... by the gods! ... I understand it all now!" and

he suddenly threw himself on his knees, his appealing gaze resting, not

on the Snake-Deity, but on the lovely countenance of Lysia, fair and

brilliant as a summer morn, with a certain waving light of triumph

about it, like the reflected radiance of sunbeams, ... "She is under

the influence of Raphon! ... O withering madness! ... O cureless

misery.. She is ruled by that most horrible secret force, unknown as

yet to the outer world of men! ... and she hears things that are not,

and sees what has no existence! O Lysia, Daughter of the Sun! ... I do

beseech thee, by all the inborn gentleness of womanhood, unwind the

Mystic Spell!"

A serious smile of feigned, sorrowful compassion parted the beautiful

lips of the Priestess; but she gave no word or sign in answer,--and the

weird Jewel on her breast at that moment shot forth a myriad

scintillations as of pointed sharp steel. Some extraordinary power in

it, or in Lysia herself, was manifestly at work,--for with a violent

start Sah-luma rose from his knees, and staggered helplessly backward,

. . one hand pressed to his eyes as though to shut out some blinding

blaze of lightning! He seemed to be vaguely groping his way to his

former place beside the King, and Theos, seeing this, quickly caught

him by the arm and drew him thither, whispering anxiously the while:

"Sah-luma!-Sah-luma! ... What ails thee?"

The Laureate turned upon him a bewildered, piteous face, white with an

intensity of speechless anguish.

"Nothing!"...he faltered,--"Nothing! ... 'tis over, . . the child must

die!"...Then all suddenly the hard, drawn lines of his countenance

relaxed,--great tears gathered in his eyes, and fell slowly one by one,

. . and moving aside, he shrank away as far as possible into the shadow

cast by a huge column close by.. "O Niphrata! ... Niphrata!".. Theos

heard him say in a voice broken by despair.. "Why do I love thee only

now, . . NOW, when thou art lost to me forever!"

The King looked after him half-compassionately, half-sullenly; but

presently paid no further heed to his distress. Theos, however, kept

near him, whispering whatever poor suggestions of comfort he could, in

the extremity of his own grief, devise, . . a hopeless task,--for to

all his offered solace Sah-luma made but the one reply:

"Oh let me weep! ... Let me weep for the untimely death of Innocence!"

And now the cithern-playing, which had ceased, commenced again,

accompanied by the mysterious thrilling bass notes of the invisible

organ-like instrument, whose sound resembled the roll and rush of huge

billows breaking into foam. As the rich and solemn strains swept

grandly through the spacious Temple, Niphrata stretched out her hands

toward the High Priestess, a smile of wonderful beauty lighting up her

fair child-face.

"Take me, O ye immortal gods!" she cried, her voice ringing in clear

tune above all the other music.. "Take me and bear me away on your

strong, swift wings to the Everlasting Palaces of Air, wherein all

sorrows have end, and patient love meets at last its long-delayed

reward! Take me.. for lo! I am ready to depart! My soul is wounded and

weary of its prison,--it struggles to be free! O Destiny, I thank thee

for thy mercy! ... I praise thee for the glory thou dost here unveil

before mine eyes! Pardon my sins! ... accept my life! ... sanctify my

love!"

A murmur of relief and rejoicing ran rippling through the listening

crowds,--a weight seemed lifted from their minds, . . the victim was

willing to die after all! ... the Sacrifice would be proceeded with.

There was a slight pause,--during which the priests crossed and

re-crossed the Sanctuary many times, one of them descending the steps

to tie Niphrata's hands behind her back as before. In the immediate

interest of the moment, Sah-luma and his hot interference seemed to be

almost forgotten, . . a few people, indeed, cast injured and indignant

looks toward the corner where he dejectedly leaned, and once the

wrinkled, malicious head of old Zabastes peered at him, with an

expression of incredulous amazement,--but otherwise no sympathy was

manifested by any one for the popular Laureate's suffering and

discomfiture. He was the nation's puppet, . . its tame bird, whose

business was to sing when bidden, . . but he was not expected to have

any voice in matters of religion or policy,--and still less was he

supposed to intrude any of his own personal griefs on the public

notice. Let him sing!--and sing well,--that was enough; but let him

dare to be afflicted, and annoy others with his wants and troubles, why

then he at once became uninteresting! ... he might even die for all

anybody cared! This was the unspoken sullen thought that Theos,

sensitive to the core on his friend's behalf, instinctively felt to be

smouldering in the heart of the mighty multitude,--and he resented the

half-implied, latent ungratefulness of the people with all his soul.

"Fools!".. he muttered under his breath,--"For you, and such as you,

the wisest sages toil in vain! ... on you Art wastes her treasures of

suggestive loveliness! ... low grovellers in earth, ye have no eyes for

heaven! O ignorant, ungenerous, fickle hypocrites, whose ruling passion

is the greed of gold!--Why should great men perish, that YE may live!

... And yet.. your acclamations make up the thing called Fame! Fame?

... Good God!--'tis a brief shout in the universal clamor, scarce heard

and soon forgotten!"

And filled with strange bitterness, he gazed disconsolately at

Niphrata, who stood like one in a trance of ecstasy, patiently awaiting

her doom, her lovely, innocent blue eyes gladly upturned to the long,

jewel-like head of Nagaya, which twined round the summit of the ebony

staff, seemed to peer down at her in a sort of drowsy reflectiveness.

Then, all suddenly, Lysia spoke, . . how enchanting was the exquisite

modulation of that slow, languid, silvery voice!

"Come hither, O Maiden fair, pure, and faithful!

The desire of thy soul is granted!

Before thee are the Gates of the Unknown World!

Already they open to admit thee;

Through their golden bars gleams the glory of thy future!

Speak! ... What seest thou?"

A moment of breathless silence ensued,--all present seemed to be

straining their ears to catch the victim's answer. It came,--soft and

clear as a bell:

"I see a wondrous land o'er-canopied with skies of gold and azure: . .

white flowers grow in the fragrant fields, . . there are many trees, .

. I hear the warbling of many birds; . . I see fair faces that smile

upon me and gentle hands that beckon! ... Figures that wear glistening

robes, and carry garlands of roses and myrtle, pass slowly, singing as

they go! ... How beautiful they are! How strange! ... how sweet!"

And as she uttered these words, in accents of dreamy delight, she

ascended the first step of the Shrine. Theos, looking, held his breath

in wonder and fear, while Sah-luma with a groan turned himself

resolutely away, and, pressing his forehead against the great column

where he stood, hid his eyes in his clasped hands.

The High Priestess continued:

"Come hither, O Maiden of chaste and patient life!

Rejoice greatly, for thy virtue hath pleased the gods:

The undiscovered marvels of the Stars are thine,

Earth has no more control over thee:

Heaven is thine absolute Heritage! ...

Behold! the Ship of the Sun awaits thee!

Speak! ... What seest thou?"

A soft cry of rapture came from the girl's lips.

"Oh, I see glory everywhere!".. she exclaimed.. "Light everywhere! ...

Peace everywhere! ... O joy, joy! ... The face of my beloved shines

upon me,--he calls, . . he bids me come to him! ... Ah! we shall be

together at last, . . we twain shall be as one never to part, never to

doubt, never to suffer more! O let me hasten to him! ... Why should I

linger thus, when I would fain, be gone!"

And she sprang eagerly up the second and third steps of the Sanctuary,

and faced Lysia,--her head thrown back, her blue eyes ablaze with

excitement, her bosom heaving, and her delicate features transfigured

and illumined by unspeakable inward delirious bliss. Just then the

Priest Zel lifted the long, jewel-hilted knife from the black cushion

where it had lain till now, and, crouching stealthily in the shadow

behind Lysia, held it in both bands, pointed straight forward in a

level line with Niphrata's breast. Thus armed, he waited, silent and

immovable.

A slight shudder of morbid expectancy seemed to quiver through the vast

congregation, . . but Theos's nerves were strung up to such a high

pitch of frenzied horror that he could neither speak nor

sigh,--motionless as a statue, he could only watch, with freezing

blood, each detail of the extraordinary scene. Once more the High

Priestess spoke:

"Come hither, O happy Maiden whose griefs are ended:

The day of thy triumph and reward has dawned!

For thee the Immortals unveiled the mysteries of being,--

To thee, they openly declare all secrets ...

To thee the hidden things of Wisdom are made manifest:

For the last time ere thou leavest us, hear, and answer, . .

Speak!--What seest thou?"

"LOVE!" replied Niphrata in a tone of thrilling and solemn tenderness..

"LOVE, the Eternal All, in which dark things are made light!--Love,

that is never served in vain! ... LOVE wherein lost happiness is

rediscovered and perfected! ... O DIVINE LOVE, by whom the passion of

my heart is sanctified! Absorb me in the quenchless glory of thine

Immortality! ... Draw me to Thyself, and let me find in Thee my Soul's

completion!"

Her voice sank to a low prayerful emphasis, . . her look was as of a

rapt angel waiting for wings. Lysia's gaze dwelt upon her with

slow-dilating wonder and contempt.. such a devout and earnest

supplication was evidently not commonly heard from the lips of Nagaya's

victims. At that instant, too, Nagaya himself seemed curiously excited

and disturbed,--his great glittering coils quivered so violently, as to

shake the rod on which he was twined, . . and when his Priestess raised

her mesmeric reproving eyes toward him, he bent back his head

rebelliously, and sent a vehement hiss through the silence, like the

noise made by the whirl of a scimitar.

Suddenly, and with deafening abruptness, a clap of thunder, short and

sharp as a quick volley of musketry, crashed overhead,--accompanied by

a strange circular sweep of lightning that blazed through the windows

of the Temple, illumining it from end to end with a brilliant blue

glare. The superstitious crowd exchanged startled looks of terror, . .

the King moved uneasily and glanced frowningly about him,--it was

plainly manifest that no one had forgotten the disastrous downfall of

the Obelisk, ..and there seemed to be a contagion of alarm in the very

air. But Lysia was perfectly self-possessed, . . in fact she appeared

to accept the threat of a storm as an imposing, and by no means

undesirable, adjunct to the mysteries of the Sacrificial Rite, for

riveting her basilisk eyes on Niphrata, she said in firm, clear,

decisive accents:

"The gods grow impatient! ... Wherefore, O Princess and People of

Al-Kyris, let us hasten to appease their anger! Depart, O stainless

Maid! ... depart hence, and betake thee to the Golden Throne of the

Sun, our Lord and Ruler, . . and in the Name of Nagaya, may the

shedding of thy virginal blood avert from us and ours the wrath of the

Immortals! Linger no longer, . . Nagaya accepts thee! ... and the Hour

strikes Death!"

With the last word a sullen bell boomed heavily through and through the

Temple.. and, at once, . . like a frenzied bird or butterfly winging

its way into scorching flame, . . Niphrata rushed forward with swift,

unhesitating, dreadful precision straight on the knife outheld by the

untrembling ruthless hands of the Priest Zel! One second,--and Theos

sick with horror, saw her speeding thus, . . the next,--and the whole

place was enveloped in dense darkness!

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