TOWARDS the middle of February the Gadfly went to Leghorn. Gemma had
introduced him to a young Englishman there, a shipping-agent of liberal
views, whom she and her husband had known in England. He had on several
occasions performed little services for the Florentine radicals: had
lent money to meet an unforeseen emergency, had allowed his business
address to be used for the party's letters, etc.; but always through
Gemma's mediumship, and as a private friend of hers. She was, therefore,
according to party etiquette, free to make use of the connexion in any
way that might seem good to her. Whether any use could be got out of it
was quite another question. To ask a friendly sympathizer to lend his
address for letters from Sicily or to keep a few documents in a corner
of his counting-house safe was one thing; to ask him to smuggle over a
transport of firearms for an insurrection was another; and she had very
little hope of his consenting.
“You can but try,” she had said to the Gadfly; “but I don't think
anything will come of it. If you were to go to him with that
recommendation and ask for five hundred scudi, I dare say he'd give them
to you at once--he's exceedingly generous,--and perhaps at a pinch he
would lend you his passport or hide a fugitive in his cellar; but if you
mention such a thing as rifles he will stare at you and think we're both
demented.”
“Perhaps he may give me a few hints, though, or introduce me to a
friendly sailor or two,” the Gadfly had answered. “Anyway, it's worth
while to try.”
One day at the end of the month he came into her study less carefully
dressed than usual, and she saw at once from his face that he had good
news to tell.
“Ah, at last! I was beginning to think something must have happened to
you!”
“I thought it safer not to write, and I couldn't get back sooner.”
“You have just arrived?”
“Yes; I am straight from the diligence; I looked in to tell you that the
affair is all settled.”
“Do you mean that Bailey has really consented to help?”
“More than to help; he has undertaken the whole thing,--packing,
transports,--everything. The rifles will be hidden in bales of
merchandise and will come straight through from England. His partner,
Williams, who is a great friend of his, has consented to see the
transport off from Southampton, and Bailey will slip it through the
custom house at Leghorn. That is why I have been such a long time;
Williams was just starting for Southampton, and I went with him as far
as Genoa.”
“To talk over details on the way?”
“Yes, as long as I wasn't too sea-sick to talk about anything.”
“Are you a bad sailor?” she asked quickly, remembering how Arthur had
suffered from sea-sickness one day when her father had taken them both
for a pleasure-trip.
“About as bad as is possible, in spite of having been at sea so much.
But we had a talk while they were loading at Genoa. You know Williams,
I think? He's a thoroughly good fellow, trustworthy and sensible; so is
Bailey, for that matter; and they both know how to hold their tongues.”
“It seems to me, though, that Bailey is running a serious risk in doing
a thing like this.”
“So I told him, and he only looked sulky and said: 'What business is
that of yours?' Just the sort of thing one would expect him to say. If
I met Bailey in Timbuctoo, I should go up to him and say: 'Good-morning,
Englishman.'”
“But I can't conceive how you managed to get their consent; Williams,
too; the last man I should have thought of.”
“Yes, he objected strongly at first; not on the ground of danger,
though, but because the thing is 'so unbusiness-like.' But I managed to
win him over after a bit. And now we will go into details.”
*****
When the Gadfly reached his lodgings the sun had set, and the blossoming
pyrus japonica that hung over the garden wall looked dark in the fading
light. He gathered a few sprays and carried them into the house. As he
opened the study door, Zita started up from a chair in the corner and
ran towards him.
“Oh, Felice; I thought you were never coming!”
His first impulse was to ask her sharply what business she had in his
study; but, remembering that he had not seen her for three weeks, he
held out his hand and said, rather frigidly:
“Good-evening, Zita; how are you?”
She put up her face to be kissed, but he moved past as though he had
not seen the gesture, and took up a vase to put the pyrus in. The next
instant the door was flung wide open, and the collie, rushing into the
room, performed an ecstatic dance round him, barking and whining with
delight. He put down the flowers and stooped to pat the dog.
“Well, Shaitan, how are you, old man? Yes, it's really I. Shake hands,
like a good dog!”
The hard, sullen look came into Zita's face.
“Shall we go to dinner?” she asked coldly. “I ordered it for you at my
place, as you wrote that you were coming this evening.”
He turned round quickly.
“I am v-v-very sorry; you sh-should not have waited for me! I will just
get a bit tidy and come round at once. P-perhaps you would not mind
putting these into water.”
When he came into Zita's dining room she was standing before a mirror,
fastening one of the sprays into her dress. She had apparently made up
her mind to be good-humoured, and came up to him with a little cluster
of crimson buds tied together.
“Here is a buttonhole for you; let me put it in your coat.”
All through dinner-time he did his best to be amiable, and kept up a
flow of small-talk, to which she responded with radiant smiles. Her
evident joy at his return somewhat embarrassed him; he had grown so
accustomed to the idea that she led her own life apart from his, among
such friends and companions as were congenial to her, that it had never
occurred to him to imagine her as missing him. And yet she must have
felt dull to be so much excited now.
“Let us have coffee up on the terrace,” she said; “it is quite warm this
evening.”
“Very well. Shall I take your guitar? Perhaps you will sing.”
She flushed with delight; he was critical about music and did not often
ask her to sing.
On the terrace was a broad wooden bench running round the walls. The
Gadfly chose a corner with a good view of the hills, and Zita, seating
herself on the low wall with her feet on the bench, leaned back against
a pillar of the roof. She did not care much for scenery; she preferred
to look at the Gadfly.
“Give me a cigarette,” she said. “I don't believe I have smoked once
since you went away.”
“Happy thought! It's just s-s-smoke I want to complete my bliss.”
She leaned forward and looked at him earnestly.
“Are you really happy?”
The Gadfly's mobile brows went up.
“Yes; why not? I have had a good dinner; I am looking at one of the
m-most beautiful views in Europe; and now I'm going to have coffee and
hear a Hungarian folk-song. There is nothing the matter with either my
conscience or my digestion; what more can man desire?”
“I know another thing you desire.”
“What?”
“That!” She tossed a little cardboard box into his hand.
“B-burnt almonds! Why d-didn't you tell me before I began to s-smoke?”
he cried reproachfully.
“Why, you baby! you can eat them when you have done smoking. There comes
the coffee.”
The Gadfly sipped his coffee and ate his burnt almonds with the grave
and concentrated enjoyment of a cat drinking cream.
“How nice it is to come back to d-decent coffee, after the s-s-stuff one
gets at Leghorn!” he said in his purring drawl.
“A very good reason for stopping at home now you are here.”
“Not much stopping for me; I'm off again to-morrow.”
The smile died on her face.
“To-morrow! What for? Where are you going to?”
“Oh! two or three p-p-places, on business.”
It had been decided between him and Gemma that he must go in person into
the Apennines to make arrangements with the smugglers of the frontier
region about the transporting of the firearms. To cross the Papal
frontier was for him a matter of serious danger; but it had to be done
if the work was to succeed.
“Always business!” Zita sighed under her breath; and then asked aloud:
“Shall you be gone long?”
“No; only a fortnight or three weeks, p-p-probably.”
“I suppose it's some of THAT business?” she asked abruptly.
“'That' business?”
“The business you're always trying to get your neck broken over--the
everlasting politics.”
“It has something to do with p-p-politics.”
Zita threw away her cigarette.
“You are fooling me,” she said. “You are going into some danger or
other.”
“I'm going s-s-straight into the infernal regions,” he answered
languidly. “D-do you happen to have any friends there you want to send
that ivy to? You n-needn't pull it all down, though.”
She had fiercely torn off a handful of the climber from the pillar, and
now flung it down with vehement anger.
“You are going into danger,” she repeated; “and you won't even say so
honestly! Do you think I am fit for nothing but to be fooled and joked
with? You will get yourself hanged one of these days, and never so
much as say good-bye. It's always politics and politics--I'm sick of
politics!”
“S-so am I,” said the Gadfly, yawning lazily; “and therefore we'll talk
about something else--unless you will sing.”
“Well, give me the guitar, then. What shall I sing?”
“The ballad of the lost horse; it suits your voice so well.”
She began to sing the old Hungarian ballad of the man who loses first
his horse, then his home, and then his sweetheart, and consoles himself
with the reflection that “more was lost at Mohacz field.” The song was
one of the Gadfly's especial favourites; its fierce and tragic melody
and the bitter stoicism of the refrain appealed to him as no softer
music ever did.
Zita was in excellent voice; the notes came from her lips strong and
clear, full of the vehement desire of life. She would have sung Italian
or Slavonic music badly, and German still worse; but she sang the Magyar
folk-songs splendidly.
The Gadfly listened with wide-open eyes and parted lips; he had never
heard her sing like this before. As she came to the last line, her voice
began suddenly to shake.
“Ah, no matter! More was lost----”
She broke down with a sob and hid her face among the ivy leaves.
“Zita!” The Gadfly rose and took the guitar from her hand. “What is it?”
She only sobbed convulsively, hiding her face in both hands. He touched
her on the arm.
“Tell me what is the matter,” he said caressingly.
“Let me alone!” she sobbed, shrinking away. “Let me alone!”
He went quietly back to his seat and waited till the sobs died away.
Suddenly he felt her arms about his neck; she was kneeling on the floor
beside him.
“Felice--don't go! Don't go away!”
“We will talk about that afterwards,” he said, gently extricating
himself from the clinging arms. “Tell me first what has upset you so.
Has anything been frightening you?”
She silently shook her head.
“Have I done anything to hurt you?”
“No.” She put a hand up against his throat.
“What, then?”
“You will get killed,” she whispered at last. “I heard one of those men
that come here say the other day that you will get into trouble--and
when I ask you about it you laugh at me!”
“My dear child,” the Gadfly said, after a little pause of astonishment,
“you have got some exaggerated notion into your head. Very likely I
shall get killed some day--that is the natural consequence of being a
revolutionist. But there is no reason to suppose I am g-g-going to get
killed just now. I am running no more risk than other people.”
“Other people--what are other people to me? If you loved me you wouldn't
go off this way and leave me to lie awake at night, wondering whether
you're arrested, or dream you are dead whenever I go to sleep. You don't
care as much for me as for that dog there!”
The Gadfly rose and walked slowly to the other end of the terrace.
He was quite unprepared for such a scene as this and at a loss how to
answer her. Yes, Gemma was right; he had got his life into a tangle that
he would have hard work to undo.
“Sit down and let us talk about it quietly,” he said, coming back after
a moment. “I think we have misunderstood each other; of course I should
not have laughed if I had thought you were serious. Try to tell
me plainly what is troubling you; and then, if there is any
misunderstanding, we may be able to clear it up.”
“There's nothing to clear up. I can see you don't care a brass farthing
for me.”
“My dear child, we had better be quite frank with each other. I have
always tried to be honest about our relationship, and I think I have
never deceived you as to----”
“Oh, no! you have been honest enough; you have never even pretended
to think of me as anything else but a prostitute,--a trumpery bit of
second-hand finery that plenty of other men have had before you--”
“Hush, Zita! I have never thought that way about any living thing.”
“You have never loved me,” she insisted sullenly.
“No, I have never loved you. Listen to me, and try to think as little
harm of me as you can.”
“Who said I thought any harm of you? I----”
“Wait a minute. This is what I want to say: I have no belief whatever in
conventional moral codes, and no respect for them. To me the relations
between men and women are simply questions of personal likes and
dislikes------”
“And of money,” she interrupted with a harsh little laugh. He winced and
hesitated a moment.
“That, of course, is the ugly part of the matter. But believe me, if I
had thought that you disliked me, or felt any repulsion to the thing,
I would never have suggested it, or taken advantage of your position to
persuade you to it. I have never done that to any woman in my life, and
I have never told a woman a lie about my feeling for her. You may trust
me that I am speaking the truth----”
He paused a moment, but she did not answer.
“I thought,” he went on; “that if a man is alone in the world and feels
the need of--of a woman's presence about him, and if he can find a woman
who is attractive to him and to whom he is not repulsive, he has a right
to accept, in a grateful and friendly spirit, such pleasure as that
woman is willing to give him, without entering into any closer bond. I
saw no harm in the thing, provided only there is no unfairness or insult
or deceit on either side. As for your having been in that relation with
other men before I met you, I did not think about that. I merely thought
that the connexion would be a pleasant and harmless one for both of us,
and that either was free to break it as soon as it became irksome. If I
was mistaken--if you have grown to look upon it differently--then----”
He paused again.
“Then?” she whispered, without looking up.
“Then I have done you a wrong, and I am very sorry. But I did not mean
to do it.”
“You 'did not mean' and you 'thought'----Felice, are you made of cast
iron? Have you never been in love with a woman in your life that you
can't see I love you?”
A sudden thrill went through him; it was so long since anyone had said
to him: “I love you.” Instantly she started up and flung her arms round
him.
“Felice, come away with me! Come away from this dreadful country and all
these people and their politics! What have we got to do with them? Come
away, and we will be happy together. Let us go to South America, where
you used to live.”
The physical horror of association startled him back into self-control;
he unclasped her hands from his neck and held them in a steady grasp.
“Zita! Try to understand what I am saying to you. I do not love you; and
if I did I would not come away with you. I have my work in Italy, and my
comrades----”
“And someone else that you love better than me!” she cried out fiercely.
“Oh, I could kill you! It is not your comrades you care about; it's----
I know who it is!”
“Hush!” he said quietly. “You are excited and imagining things that are
not true.”
“You suppose I am thinking of Signora Bolla? I'm not so easily duped!
You only talk politics with her; you care no more for her than you do
for me. It's that Cardinal!”
The Gadfly started as if he had been shot.
“Cardinal?” he repeated mechanically.
“Cardinal Montanelli, that came here preaching in the autumn. Do you
think I didn't see your face when his carriage passed? You were as white
as my pocket-handkerchief! Why, you're shaking like a leaf now because I
mentioned his name!”
He stood up.
“You don't know what you are talking about,” he said very slowly and
softly. “I--hate the Cardinal. He is the worst enemy I have.”
“Enemy or no, you love him better than you love anyone else in the
world. Look me in the face and say that is not true, if you can!”
He turned away, and looked out into the garden. She watched him
furtively, half-scared at what she had done; there was something
terrifying in his silence. At last she stole up to him, like a
frightened child, and timidly pulled his sleeve. He turned round.
“It is true,” he said.