CHAPTER XXI.

COLONEL KELMSCOTT'S PUNISHMENT.

While Montague Nevitt was thus congenially engaged in pulling off

his treble coup of settling his own share in the Rio Negro deficit,

pocketing three thousand pounds, pro tem, for incidental expenses,

and getting Guy Waring thoroughly into his power by his knowledge

of a forgery, two other events were taking place elsewhere, which

were destined to prove of no small importance to the future of

the twins and their immediate surroundings. Things generally were

converging towards a crisis in their affairs. Colonel Kelmscott's

wrong-doing was bearing first-fruit abundantly.

For as soon as Granville Kelmscott received that strangely-worded

note from Gwendoline Gildersleeve, he proceeded, as was natural,

straight down, in his doubt, to his father's library. There, bursting

into the room, with Gwendoline's letter still crushed in his hand

in the side pocket of his coat, and a face like thunder, he stood

in the attitude of avenging fate before his father's chair, and

gazed down upon him angrily.

"What does THIS mean?" he asked, in a low but fuming voice, brandishing

the note before his eyes as he spoke. "Is every one in the county

to be told it but I? Is everybody else to hear my business before

you tell me a word of it? A letter comes to me this morning--no

matter from whom--and here's what it says: 'I know you're not the

eldest son, and that somebody else is the heir of Tilgate.' Surely,

if anybody was to know, _I_ should have known it first. Surely,

if I'm to be turned adrift on the world, after being brought up to

think myself a man of means so long, I should, at least, be turned

adrift with my eyes open."

Colonel Kelmscott gazed at him open-mouthed with horror.

"Did Gwendoline Gildersleeve write that to you?" he cried, overpowered

at once by remorse and awe. "Did Gwendoline Gildersleeve write

that to you? Well, if Gwendoline Gildersleeve knows it, it's all

up with the scheme! That rascally lawyer, her father, has found

out everything. These two young men must have put their case in

the fellow's hands. He must be hunting up the facts. He must be

preparing to contest it. My boy, my boy, we're ruined! we're ruined!"

"These two young men," Granville repeated, with a puzzled air of

surprise. "WHAT two young men? I don't know them. I never heard

of them." Then suddenly one of those flashes of intuition burst in

upon him that burst in upon us all at moments of critical importance

to our lives. "Father, father," he cried, loaning forward in his

anguish and clutching the oak chair, "you don't mean to tell me

those fellows, the Warings, that we met at Chetwood Court, are your

lawful sons--and that THAT was why you bought the landscape with

the snake in it?"

Kelmscott, of Tilgate, bent his proud head down to the table

unchecked. "My son, my son," he cried, in his despair, "you have

said it yourself. Your own mouth has suggested it. What use my

trying to keep it from you any longer? These lads--are Kelmscotts."

"And--my mother?" Granville Kelmscott burst out, in a very tremulous

voice. The question was almost more than a man dare ask. But he

asked it in the first bitterness of a terrible awakening.

"Your mother," Colonel Kelmscott answered, lifting his head once

more, with a terrible effort, and looking his son point-blank in

the face--"your mother is just what I have always called her--my

lawful wife--Lady Emily Kelmscott. The mother of these lads, to

whom I was also once duly married, died before my marriage with my

present wife--thank God I can say so. I may have acted foolishly,

cruelly, criminally; but at least I never acted quite so basely

and so ill as you impute to me, Granville."

"Thank Heaven for that," his son answered fervently, with one hand

on his breast, drawing a deep sigh as he spoke. "You're my father,

sir, and it isn't for me to reproach you; but if you had only done

THAT--oh, my mother! my mother! I don't know, sir, I'm sure, how

I could ever have forgiven you; I don't know how I could ever have

kept my hands off you."

Colonel Kelmscott straightened himself up, and looked hard at his

son. A terrible pathos gleamed in his proud brown eyes. His white

moustache had more dignity than ever.

"Granville," he said slowly, like a broken man, "I don't ask you to

forgive me; you can never forgive me; I don't ask you to sympathise

with me; a father knows better than to accept sympathy from a son;

but I do ask you to bear with me while I try to explain myself."

He braced himself up, and with many long pauses, and many inarticulate

attempts to set forth the facts in the least unfavourable aspect,

told his story all through, in minute detail, to that hardest of

all critics, his own dispossessed and disinherited boy.

"If you're hard upon me, Granville," he cried at last as he finished,

looking wistfully for pity into his son's face, "you should remember,

at least, it was for your sake I did it, my boy; it was for your

sake I did it--yours, yours, and your mother's."

Granville let him relate his whole story in full to the bitter

end, though it was with difficulty at times that that proud and

grey-haired man nerved himself up to tell it. Then, as soon as

all was told, he looked in his father's face once more, and said

slowly, with the pitilessness of sons in general towards the faults

and failings of their erring parents--

"It's not my place to blame you, I know. You did it, I suppose, as

you say so, for me and my mother. But it IS my place to tell you

plainly, father, that I, for one, will have nothing at all to do

with the fruits of your deception. I was no party to the fraud; I

will be no party either to its results or its clearing up. I, too,

have to think, as you say, of my mother. For her sake, I won't

urge you to break her heart at once by disinheriting her son, now

and here, too openly. You can make what arrangements you like with

these blood-sucking Warings. You can do as you will in providing

them with hush-money. Let them take their black-mail! You've handed

them over half the sum you got for Dowlands already, I suppose.

You can buy them off for awhile by handing them over the remainder.

Twelve thousand will do. Leeches as they are, that will surely

content them, at least for the present."

Colonel Kelmscott raised one hand and tried hard to interrupt him;

but Granville would not be interrupted.

"No, no," he went on sternly, shaking his head and frowning. "I'll

have my say for once, and then for ever keep silence. This is the

first and last time as long as we both live I will speak with you

on the subject. So we may as well understand one another, once and

for ever. For my mother's sake, as I said, there need be just at

present no open disclosure. You have years to live yet; and as long

as you live, these Waring people have no claim upon the estate in

any way. You've given them as much as they've any right to expect.

Let them wait for the rest till, in the course of nature, they

come into possession. As for me, I will go to carve out for myself

a place in the world elsewhere by my own exertions. Perhaps, before

my mother need know her son was left a beggar by the father who

brought him up like the heir to a large estate, I may have been

able to carve out that place for myself so well that she need

never really feel the difference. I'm a Kelmscott, and can fight

the world on my own account. But, in any case, I must go. Tilgate's

no longer a fit home for me. I leave it to those who have a better

right to it."

He rose as if to depart, with the air of a man who sets forth upon

the world to seek his fortune. Colonel Kelmscott rose too, and

faced him, all broken.

"Granville," he said, in a voice scarcely audible through the

stifled sobs he was too proud to give vent to, "you're not going

like this. You're not going without at least shaking hands with your

father! You're not going without saying good-bye to your mother!"

Granville turned, with hot tears standing dim in his eyes--like his

father, he was too proud to let them trickle down his cheek--and

taking the Colonel's weather-beaten hand in his, wrung it silently

for some minutes with profound emotion.

Then he looked at the white moustache, the grizzled hair, the

bright brown eyes suffused with answering dimness, and said, almost

remorsefully, "Father, good-bye. You meant me well, no doubt. You

thought you were befriending me. But I wish to Heaven in my soul

you had meant me worse. It would have been easier for me to bear

in the end. If you'd brought me up as a nobody--as a younger son's

accustomed--" He paused and drew back, for he could see his words

were too cruel for that proud man's heart. Then he broke off

suddenly.

"But I CAN'T say good-bye to my mother," he went on, with a piteous

look. "If I tried to say good-bye to her, I must tell her all. I'd

break down in the attempt. I'll write to her from the Cape. It'll

be easier so. She won't feel it so much then."

"From the Cape!" Colonel Kelmscott exclaimed, drawing back in horror.

"Oh, Granville, don't tell me you're going away from us to Africa!"

"Where else?" his son asked, looking him back in the face steadily.

"Africa it is! That's the only opening left nowadays for a man

of spirit. There, I may be able to hew out a place for myself at

last, worthy of Lady Emily Kelmscott's son. I won't come back till

I come back able to hold my own in the world with the best of them.

These Warings shan't crow over the younger son. Good-bye, once

more, father." He wrung his hand hard. "Think kindly of me when

I'm gone; and don't forget altogether I once loved Tilgate."

He opened the door and went up to his own room again. His mind was

resolved. He wouldn't even say good-bye to Gwendoline Gildersleeve.

He'd pack a few belongings in a portmanteau in haste, and go forth

upon the world to seek his fortune in the South African diamond

fields.

But Colonel Kelmscott sat still in the library, bowed down in his

chair, with his head between his hands, in abject misery. A strange

feeling seemed to throb through his weary brain; he had a sensation

as though his skull were opening and shutting. Great veins on his

forehead beat black and swollen. The pressure was almost more than

the vessels would stand. He held his temples between his two palms

as if to keep them from bursting. All ahead looked dark as night;

the ground was cut from under him. The punishment of his sin was

too heavy for him to bear. How could he ever tell Emily now that

Granville was gone? A horrible numbness oppressed his brain. Oh,

mercy! mercy! his head was flooded.

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