After we had inspected the palace we walked about the gardens, which

were charming that bright October morning,--the sun really too strong.

We found a bench in the shade, and sat there very happy, W. smoking and

wondering what the next turn of the wheel would bring us. A great many

people were walking about and sitting under the trees. It was quite a

different public from what one saw anywhere else, many students of both

sexes carrying books, small easels, and campstools,--some of the men

such evident Bohemians, with long hair, sweeping moustache, and soft

felt hat,--quite the type one sees in the pictures or plays of "La Vie

de Bohême." Their girl companions looked very trim and neat, dressed

generally in black, their clothes fitting extremely well--most of them

bareheaded, but some had hats of the simplest description--none of the

flaunting feathers and bright flowers one sees on the boulevards. They

are a type apart, the modern grisettes, so quiet and well-behaved as to

be almost respectable. One always hears that the Quartier Latin doesn't

exist any more--the students are more serious, less turbulent, and that

the hardworking little grisette, quite content with her simple life and

pleasure, has degenerated into the danseuse of the music-halls and

barrière theatres. I don't think so. A certain class of young,

impecunious students will always live in that quarter and will always

amuse themselves, and they will also always find girls quite ready and

happy to enjoy life a little while they are young enough to live in the

present, and have no cares for the future. Children were playing about

in the alleys and broad, open spaces, and climbing on the fountains

when the keepers of the garden were not anywhere near--their nurses

sitting in a sunny corner with their work. It was quite another world,

neither the Champs-Elysées nor Montmartre. All looked perfectly

respectable, and the couples sitting on out-of-the-way benches, in most

affectionate attitudes, were too much taken up with each other to heed

the passer-by.

I went back there several times afterward, taking Francis with me, and

it was curious how out of the world one felt. Paris, our Paris, might

have been miles away. I learned to know some of the habitués quite

well--a white-haired old gentleman who always brought bread for the

birds; they knew him perfectly and would flutter down to the Square as

soon as he appeared--a handsome young man with a tragic face, always

alone, walking up and down muttering and talking to himself--he may have

been an aspirant for the Odéon or some of the theatres in the

neighbourhood--a lame man on crutches, a child walking beside him

looking wistfully at the children playing about but not daring to leave

her charge--groups of students hurrying through the gardens on their way

to the Sorbonne, their black leather serviettes under their

arms--couples always everywhere. I don't think there were many

foreigners or tourists,--I never heard anything but French spoken. Even

the most disreputable-looking old beggar at the gate who sold

shoe-laces, learned to know us, and would run to open the door of

the carriage.

With the contrariety of human nature, some people would say of feminine

nature, now that I felt I was not going to live much longer on the rive

gauche I was getting quite fond of it. Life was so quiet and restful in

those long, narrow streets, some even with grass growing on the

pavement--no trams, no omnibuses, very little passing, glimpses

occasionally of big houses standing well back from the street, a

good-sized courtyard in front and garden at the back--the classic

Faubourg St. Germain hotel entre cour et jardin. I went to tea sometimes

with a friend who lived in a big, old-fashioned house in the rue de

Varenne. She lived on the fourth floor--one went up a broad, bare, cold

stone staircase (which always reminded me of some of the staircases in

the Roman palaces). Her rooms were large, very high ceilings, very

little furniture in them, very little fire in winter, fine old family

portraits on the walls, but from the windows one looked down on a lovely

garden where the sun shone and the birds sang all day. It was just like

being in the country, so extraordinarily quiet. A very respectable man

servant in an old-fashioned brown livery, with a great many brass

buttons, who looked as old as the house itself and as if he were part of

it, always opened the door. Her husband was a literary man who made

conférences at the Sorbonne and the Collège de France, and they lived

entirely in that quarter--came very rarely to our part of Paris. He was

an old friend of W.'s, and they came sometimes to dine with us. He

deplored W.'s having gone to the Foreign Office--thought the Public

Instruction was so much more to his tastes and habits. She had an

English grandmother, knew English quite well, and read English reviews

and papers. She had once seen Queen Victoria and was very interested in

all that concerned her. Queen Victoria had a great prestige in France.

People admired not only the wise sovereign who had weathered

successfully so many changes, but the beautiful woman's life as wife and

mother. She was always spoken of with the greatest respect, even by

people who were not sympathetic to England as a nation.

Another of my haunts was the Convent and Maison de Santé of the Soeurs

Augustines du Saint Coeur de Marie in the rue de la Santé. It was

curious to turn out of the broad, busy, populous avenue, crowded with

trams, omnibuses, and camions, into the narrow, quiet street, which

seemed all stone walls and big doors. There was another hospital and a

prison in the street, which naturally gave it rather a gloomy aspect,

but once inside the courtyard of the Convent there was a complete

transformation. One found one's self in a large, square, open court with

arcades and buildings all around--the chapel just opposite the entrance.

On one side of the court were the rooms for the patients, on the other

nice rooms and small apartments which were let to invalids or old

ladies, and which opened on a garden, really a park of thirteen or

fourteen acres. The doors were always open, and one had a lovely view of

green fields and trees. The moment you put your foot inside the court,

you felt the atmosphere of peace and cheerfulness, though it was a

hospital. The nuns all looked happy and smiling--they always do, and I

always wonder why. Life in a cloister seems to me so narrow and

monotonous and unsatisfying unless one has been bred in a convent and

knows nothing of life but what the teachers tell.

I have a friend who always fills me with astonishment--a very clever,

cultivated woman, no longer very young, married to a charming man,

accustomed to life in its largest sense. She was utterly wretched when

her husband died, but after a time she took up her life again and

seemed to find interest and pleasure in the things they had done

together. Suddenly she announced her intention of becoming a nun--sold

her house and lovely garden, where she had spent so many happy hours

with her flowers and her birds, distributed her pretty things among her

friends, and accepted all the small trials of strict convent life--no

bath, nor mirror, coarse underlinen and sheets--no fire, no lights, no

privacy, the regular irksome routine of a nun's life, and is perfectly

happy--never misses the intellectual companionship and the refinement

and daintiness of her former life,--likes the commonplace routine of the

convent--the books they read to each other in "recreation," simple

stories one would hardly give to a child of twelve or fourteen,--the

fêtes on the "mother's" birthday, when the nuns make a cake and put a

wreath of roses on the mother's head.

The Soeurs Augustines are very happy in their lives, but they see a

great deal more of the outside world. They always have patients in the

hospital, and people in the apartments, which are much in demand. The

care and attendance is very good. The ladies are very comfortable and

have as many visitors as they like in the afternoon at stated hours, and

the rooms are very tempting with white walls and furniture, and

scrupulously clean. The cuisine is very good, everything very daintily

served. All day one saw black-robed figures moving quietly across the

court, carrying all kinds of invalid paraphernalia--cushions, rugs, cups

of bouillon--but there was never any noise--no sound of talking or

laughing. When they spoke, the voices were low, like people accustomed

to a sick-room. No men were allowed in the Convent, except the doctors

of course, and visitors at stated hours.

I spent many days there one spring, as C. was there for some weeks for a

slight operation. She had a charming room and dressing-room, with

windows giving on a garden or rather farmyard, for the soeurs had their

cows and chickens. Sometimes in the evening we would see one of the

sisters, her black skirt tucked up and a blue apron over it, bringing

the cows back to their stables. No man could have a room in the house.

F. wanted very much to be with his wife at night, as he was a busy man

and away all day, and I tried to get a room for him, but the mother

superior, a delightful old lady, wouldn't hear of it. However, the night

before-and the night after the operation, he was allowed to remain with

her,--no extra bed was put in the room--he slept on the sofa.

Often when C. was sleeping or tired, I would take my book and establish

myself in the garden. Paris might have been miles away, though only a

few yards off there was a busy, crowded boulevard, but no noise seemed

to penetrate the thick walls. Occasionally at the end of a quiet path I

would see a black figure pacing backward and forward, with eyes fixed on

a breviary. Once or twice a soeur jardinière with a big, flat straw hat

over her coiffe and veil tending the flowers (there were not many) or

weeding the lawn, sometimes convalescents or old ladies seated in

armchairs under the trees, but there was never any sound of voices or of

life. It was very reposeful (when one felt one could get away for a

little while), but I think the absolute calm and monotony would pall

upon one, and the "Call of the World"--the struggling, living, joyous

world outside the walls--would be an irresistible temptation.

I walked about a good deal in my quarter in the morning, and made

acquaintance with many funny little old squares and shops, merceries,

flower and toy shops which had not yet been swallowed up by the enormous

establishments like the Louvre, the Bon Marché, and the big bazaars. I

don't know how they existed; there was never any one in the shops, and

of course their choice was limited, but they were so grateful, their

things were so much cheaper, and they were so anxious to get anything

one wanted, that it was a pleasure to deal with them. Everything was

much cheaper on that side--flowers, cakes, writing-paper, rents,

servants' wages, stable equipment, horses' food. We bought some toys one

year for one of our Christmas trees in the country from a poor old lame

woman who had a tiny shop in one of the small streets running out of the

rue du Bac. Her grandson, a boy of about twelve or fourteen, helped her

in the shop, and they were so pleased and excited at having such a large

order that they were quite bewildered. We did get what we wanted, but it

took time and patience,--their stock was small and not varied. We had to

choose piece by piece--horses, dolls, drums, etc.--and the writing down

of the items and making up the additions was long and trying. I meant to

go back after we left the Quai d'Orsay, but I never did, and I am afraid

the poor old woman with her petit commerce shared the fate of all the

others and could not hold out against the big shops.

One gets lazy about shopping. The first years we lived in the country we

used to go ourselves to the big shops and bazaars in Paris for our

Christmas shopping, but the heat and the crowd and the waiting were so

tiring that we finally made arrangements with the woman who sold toys in

the little town, La Ferté-Milon. She went to Paris and brought back

specimens of all the new toys. We went into town one afternoon--all the

toys were spread out on tables in her little parlour at the back of the

shop (her little girl attending to the customers, who were consumed with

curiosity as to why our carriage was waiting so long at the door) and we

made our selection. She was a great help to us, as she knew all the

children, their ages, and what they would like. She was very pleased to

execute the commission--it made her of importance in the town, having

the big boxes come down from Paris addressed to her, and she paid her

journey and made a very good profit by charging two or three sous more

on each article. We were quite willing to pay the few extra francs to be

saved the fatigue of the long day's shopping in Paris. It also settled

another difficult question--what to buy in a small country town. Once we

had exhausted the butcher and the baker and the small groceries, there

was not much to buy.

From the beginning of my life in the country, W. always wanted me to buy

as much as possible in the town, and I was often puzzled. Now the shops

in all the small country towns have improved. They have their things

straight from Paris, with very good catalogues, so that one can order

fairly well. The things are more expensive of course, but I think it is

right to give what help one can to the people of the country. One cold

winter at Bourneville, when we had our house full of people, there was a

sudden call for blankets. I thought my "lingerie" was pretty well

stocked, but one gentleman wanted four blankets on his bed, three over

him and one under the sheet. A couple wanted the same, only one more, a

blanket for a big armchair near the fire. I went in to La Ferté to see

what I could find--no white blankets anywhere--some rather nice red

ones--and plenty of the stiff (not at all warm) grey blankets they give

to the soldiers. Those naturally were out of the question, but I took

three or four red ones, which of course could not go in the guests'

rooms, but were distributed on the beds of the family, their white ones

going to the friends. After that experience I always had a reserve of

blankets, but I was never asked for so many again. Living in the

country, with people constantly staying in the house, gives one much

insight into other people's way of living and what are the necessities

of life for them. I thought our house was pretty well provided for. We

were a large family party, and had all we wanted, but some of the

demands were curious, varying of course with the nationalities.

The Chambers met in Paris at the end of November and took possession of

their respective houses without the slightest disturbance of any kind.

Up to the last moment some people were nervous and predicting all sorts

of trouble and complications. We spent the Toussaint in the country with

some friends, and their views of the future were so gloomy that it was

almost contagious. One afternoon when we were all assembled in the

drawing-room for tea, after a beautiful day's shooting, the conversation

(generally retrospective) was so melancholy that I was rather impressed

by it,--"The beginning of the end,--the culpable weakness of the

Government and Moderate men, giving way entirely to the Radicals, an

invitation to the Paris rabble to interfere with the sittings of the

Chambers," and a variety of similar remarks.

It would have been funny if one hadn't felt that the speakers were

really in earnest and anxious. However, nothing happened. The first few

days there was a small, perfectly quiet, well-behaved crowd, also a very

strong police force, at the Palais Bourbon, but I think more from

curiosity and the novelty of seeing deputies again at the Palais Bourbon

than from any other reason. If it were quiet outside, one couldn't say

the same of the inside of the Chamber. The fight began hotly at once.

Speeches and interpellations and attacks on the Government were the

order of the day. The different members of the cabinet made statements

explaining their policy, but apparently they had satisfied nobody on

either side, and it was evident that the Chamber was not only

dissatisfied but actively hostile.

W. and his friends were very discouraged and disgusted. They had gone as

far as they could in the way of concessions. W., at any rate, would do

no more, and it was evident that the Chamber would seize the first

pretext to overthrow the ministry. W. saw Grévy very often. He was

opposed to any change, didn't want W. to go, said his presence at the

Foreign Office gave confidence to Europe,--he might perhaps remain at

the Foreign Office and resign as Premier, but that, naturally, he

wouldn't do. He was really sick of the whole thing.

Grévy was a thorough Republican but an old-fashioned Republican,--not in

the least enthusiastic, rather sceptical--didn't at all see the ideal

Republic dreamed of by the younger men--where all men were alike--and

nothing but honesty and true patriotism were the ruling motives. I

don't know if he went as far as a well-known diplomatist, Prince

Metternich, I think, who said he was so tired of the word fraternité

that if he had a brother he would call him "cousin." Grévy was certainly

very unwilling to see things pass into the hands of the more advanced

Left. I don't think he could have done anything--they say no

constitutional President (or King either) can.

There was a great rivalry between him and Gambetta. Both men had such a

strong position in the Republican party that it was a pity they couldn't

understand each other. I suppose they were too unlike--Gambetta lived in

an atmosphere of flattery and adulation. His head might well have been

turned--all his familiars were at his feet, hanging upon his words,

putting him on a pinnacle as a splendid patriot. Grévy's entourage was

much calmer, recognising his great ability and his keen legal mind, not

so enthusiastic but always wanting to have his opinion, and relying a

good deal upon his judgment. There were of course all sorts of meetings

and conversations at our house, with Léon Say, Jules Ferry, Casimir

Périer, and others. St. Vallier came on from Berlin, where he was still

ambassador. He was very anxious about the state of affairs in

France--said Bismarck was very worried at the great step the Radicals

had made in the new Parliament--was afraid the Moderate men would have

no show. _I_ believe he was pleased and hoped that a succession of

incapable ministries and internal quarrels would weaken France still

more--and prevent her from taking her place again as a great power. He

wasn't a generous victor.

As long as W. was at the Foreign Office things went very smoothly. He

and St. Vallier thought alike on most subjects, home politics and

foreign--and since the Berlin Congress, where W. had come in touch with

all the principal men in Germany, it was of course much easier for them

to work together. We dined generally with my mother on Sunday

night--particularly at this time of the year, when the official banquets

had not begun and our Sundays were free. The evenings were always

interesting, as we saw so many people, English and Americans always, and

in fact all nationalities. We had lived abroad so much that we knew

people all over the world,--it was a change from the eternal politics

and "shop" talk we heard everywhere else. Some of them, English

particularly (I don't think the Americans cared much about foreign

politics), were most interested and curious over what was going on, and

the probable fall of the cabinet. An English lady said to me: "How

dreadful it will be for you when your husband is no longer minister;

your life will be so dull and you will be of so much less importance."

The last part of the sentence was undoubtedly true--any functionary's

wife has a certain importance in France, and when your husband has been

Foreign Minister and Premier, you fall from a certain height, but I

couldn't accept the first part, that my life would be necessarily dull

because I was no longer what one of my friends said in Italy, speaking

of a minister's wife, a donna publica. I began to explain that I really

had some interest in life outside of politics, but she was so convinced

of the truth of her observation that it was quite useless to pursue the

conversation, and I naturally didn't care. Another one, an American this

time, said to me: "I hope you don't mind my never having been to see you

since you were married, but I never could remember your name; I only

knew it began with W. and one sees it very often in the papers."

Arthur Sullivan, the English composer, was there one night. He had come

over to Paris to hear one of his symphonies played at the Conservatoire,

and was very much pleased with the way it had been received by that very

critical audience. He was quite surprised to find the Parisians so

enthusiastic--had always heard the Paris Salle was so cold.

Miss Kellogg, the American prima donna, was there too that evening, and

we made a great deal of music, she singing and Sullivan accompanying by

heart. Mrs. Freeman, wife of one of the English secretaries, told W.

that Queen Victoria had so enjoyed her talk with him--"quite as if I

were talking with one of my own ministers." She had found Grévy rather

stiff and reserved--said their conversation was absolutely banal. They

spoke in French, and as Grévy knew nothing of England or the English,

the interview couldn't have been interesting.

We saw a great many people that last month, dined with all our

colleagues of the diplomatic corps. They were already dîners d'adieux,

as every day in the papers the fall of the ministry was announced, and

the names of the new ministers published. I think the diplomatists were

sorry to see W. go, but of course they couldn't feel very strongly on

the subject. Their business is to be on good terms with all the foreign

ministers, and to get as much as they can out of them. They are, with

rare exceptions, birds of passage, and don't trouble themselves much

about changing cabinets. However, they were all very civil, not too

diffuse, and one had the impression that they would be just as civil to

our successor and to his successor. It must be so; there is no

profession so absolutely banal as diplomacy. All diplomatists, from the

ambassador to the youngest secretary, must follow their instructions,

and if by any chance an ambassador does take any initiative, profiting

by being on the spot, and knowing the character of the people, he is

promptly disowned by his chief.

I had grown very philosophical, was quite ready to go or to stay, didn't

mind the fight any more nor the attacks on W., which were not very

vicious, but so absurd that no one who knew him could attach the least

importance to them. He didn't care a pin. He had always been a

Protestant, with an English name, educated in England, so the

reiteration of these facts, very much exaggerated and leading up to the

conclusion that on account of his birth and education he couldn't be a

convinced French Republican, didn't affect him very much. He had always

promised me a winter in Italy when he left office. He had never been in

Rome, and I was delighted at the prospect of seeing that lovely land

again, all blue sky and bright sun and smiling faces.

We dined often with M.L., W.'s uncle, who kept us au courant of all (and

it was little) that was going on in the Royalist camp, but that was not

of importance. The advanced Republicans were having it all their own

way, and it was evident that the days of conciliatory measures and

moderate men were over. W. was not a club man, went very rarely to his

club, but his uncle went every afternoon before dinner, and gave us all

the potins (gossip) of that world, very hostile to the Republic, and

still quite believing that their turn would come. His uncle was not of

that opinion. He was a very clever man, a diplomatist who had lived in a

great many places and known a great many people, and was entirely on the

Royalist side, but he thought their cause was a lost one, at least for a

time. He often asked some of his friends to meet us at dinner, said it

was a good thing for W. to hear what men on the other side thought, and

W. was quite pleased to meet them. They were all absolutely opposed to

him in politics, and discussion sometimes ran high, but there was never

anything personal--all were men of the world, had seen many changes in

France in their lives; many had played a part in politics under the

former régimes. It seemed to me that they underrated the intelligence

and the strength of the Republican party.

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