I.

Nobody has any innate ideas. Children and savages and idiots haven't any,

so grown-up people can't have, Mr. Locke says.

But how did he know? You might have them and forget about them, and only

remember again after you were grown up.

She sat up in the drawing-room till nine o'clock now, because she was

eleven years old. She had taken the doll's clothes out of the old wooden

box and filled it with books: the Bible, Milton, and Pope's Homer, the

Greek Accidence, and _Plutarch's Lives_, and the Comedies from Papa's

illustrated Shakespeare in seven volumes, which he never read, and two

volumes of _Pepys' Diary_, and Locke _On the Human Understanding_. She

wished the Bible had been bound in pink calf like Pepys instead of the

shiny black leather that made you think of wet goloshes. Then it would

have looked new and exciting like the other books.

She sat on a footstool with her box beside her in the corner behind

Mamma's chair. She had to hide there because Mamma didn't believe you

really liked reading. She thought you were only shamming and showing off.

Sometimes Mr. and Mrs. Farmer would come in, and Mr. Farmer would play

chess with Papa while Mrs. Farmer talked to Mamma about how troublesome

and independent the tradespeople were, and how hard it was to get

servants and to keep them. Mamma listened to Mrs. Farmer as if she were

saying something wonderful and exciting. Sometimes it would be the

Proparts; or Mr. Batty would come in alone. And sometimes they would all

come together with the aunts and uncles, and there would be a party.

Mary always hoped that Uncle Victor would notice her and say, "Mary is

reading Locke _On the Human Understanding_," or that Mr. Propart would

come and turn over the books and make some interesting remark. But they

never did.

At half-past eight Catty would bring in the tea-tray; the white and grey

and gold tea-cups would be set out round the bulging silver tea-pot that

lifted up its spout with a foolish, pompous expression, like a hen. Mamma

would move about the table in her mauve silk gown, and there would be a

scent of cream and strong tea. Every now and then the shimmering silk and

the rich scent would come between her and the grey, tight-pressed,

difficult page.

"'The senses at first let in particular ideas and furnish the yet empty

cabinet: and the mind growing by degrees familiar with some of them, they

are lodged in the memory and names got to them.'

"Then how--Then how?--"

The thought she thought was coming wouldn't come, and Mamma was telling

her to get up and hand round the bread and butter.

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