III.

Old Jenny sat in the rocking-chair by the fireguard in the nursery.

She wore a black net cap with purple rosettes above her ears. You

could look through the black net and see the top of her head laid out

in stripes of grey hair and pinky skin.

She had a grey face, flattened and wide-open like her eyes. She held

it tilted slightly backwards out of your way, and seemed to be always

staring at something just above your head. Jenny's face had tiny

creases and crinkles all over it. When you kissed it you could feel

the loose flesh crumpling and sliding softly over the bone. There was

always about her a faint smell of sour milk.

No use trying to talk to Jenny. She was too tired to listen. You

climbed on to her lap and stroked her face, and said "Poor Jenny. Dear

Jenny. Poor Jenny-Wee so tired," and her face shut up and went to

sleep. Her broad flat nose drooped; her eyelids drooped; her long,

grey bands of hair drooped; she was like the white donkey that lived

in the back lane and slept standing on three legs with his ears lying

down.

Mary loved old Jenny next to Mamma and Mark; and she loved the white

donkey. She wondered why Jenny was always cross when you stroked her

grey face and called her "Donkey-Jenny." It was not as if she minded

being stroked; because when Mark or Dank did it her face woke up

suddenly and smoothed out its creases. And when Roddy climbed up with

his long legs into her lap she hugged him tight and rocked him,

singing Mamma's song, and called him her baby.

He wasn't. _She_ was the baby; and while you were the baby you could

sit in people's laps. But old Jenny didn't want her to be the baby.

The nursery had shiny, slippery yellow walls and a brown floor, and a

black hearthrug with a centre of brown and yellow flowers. The greyish

chintz curtains were spotted with small brown leaves and crimson

berries. There were dark-brown cupboards and chests of drawers, and

chairs that were brown frames for the yellow network of the cane. Soft

bits of you squeezed through the holes and came out on the other side.

That hurt and made a red pattern on you where you sat down.

The tall green fireguard was a cage. When Jenny poked the fire you

peeped through and saw it fluttering inside. If you sat still you

could sometimes hear it say "teck-teck," and sometimes the fire would

fly out suddenly with a soft hiss.

High above your head you could just see the gleaming edge of the brass

rail.

"Jenny--where's yesterday and where's to-morrow?"

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