CHAPTER VI.--MY LADY OF MOODS.

On the 27th of July in this same year 1644 we saw his lordship and his

clan march from Inneraora to the dreary north. By all accounts (brought

in to the Marquis by foot-runners from the frontier of Lorn), the

Irishry of Colkitto numbered no more than 1200, badly armed with old

matchlocks and hampered by two or three dozen camp-women bearing the

bairns of this dirty regiment at their breasts. Add to this as many

Highlanders under Montrose and his cousin Para Dubh of Inchbrackie, and

there was but a force of 3500 men for the good government of Argile to

face. But what were they? If the Irish were poorly set up in weapons the

Gaels were worse. On the spring before, Gillesbeg had harried Athole,

and was cunning enough to leave its armouries as bare as the fields he

burned, so now its clans had but home-made claymores, bows, and arrows,

Lochaber _tuaghs_ and cudgels, with no heavy pieces. The cavalry of this

unholy gang was but three garrons, string and bone. Worse than their

ill-arming, as any soldier of experience will allow, were the jealousies

between the two bodies of the scratched-up army. Did ever one see a Gael

that nestled to an Irishman? Here’s one who will swear it impossible,

though it is said the blood is the same in both races, and we nowadays

read the same Gaelic Bible. Colkitto MacDonald was Gael by birth

and young breeding, but Erinach by career, and repugnant to the most

malignant of the west clans before they got to learn, as they did

later, his quality as a leader. He bore down on Athole, he and his towsy

rabble, hoping to get the clans there to join him greedily for the sake

of the old feud against MacCailein Mor, but the Stewarts would have

nothing to say to him, and blows were not far off when Montrose and his

cousin Black Pate came on the scene with his king’s licence.

To meet this array now playing havoc on the edge of Campbell country,

rumour said two armies were moving from the north and east: if Argile

knew of them he kept his own counsel on the point, but he gave colour

to the tale by moving from Inneraora with no more than 2000 foot and a

troop of horse. These regimentals had mustered three days previously,

camping on the usual camping-ground at the Maltland, where I spent

the last day and night with them. They were, for the main part, the

Campbells of the shire: of them alone the chief could muster 5000

half-merkland men at a first levy, all capable swordsmen, well drilled

and disciplined _soldadoes_, who had, in addition to the usual schooling

in arms of every Gael, been taught many of the niceties of new-fashioned

war, countermarch, wheeling, and pike-drill. To hear the orders,

“Pouldron to pouldron; keep your files; and middlemen come forth!” was

like an echo from my old days in Germanie. These manoeuvres they were

instructed in by hired veterans of the Munro and Mackay battalions who

fought with Adolphus. Four or five companies of Lowland soldiers from

Dunbarton and Stirling eked out the strength; much was expected from the

latter, for they were, unlike our clansmen, never off the parade-ground,

and were in receipt of pay for their militant service; but as events

proved, they were MacCailein’s poor reed.

I spent, as I have said, a day and a night in the camp between Aora

river and the deep wood of Tarradubh. The plain hummed with our little

army, where now are but the nettle and the ivied tower, and the yellow

bee booming through the solitude; morning and night the shrill of the

_piob-mhor_ rang cheerily to the ear of Dun-chuach; the sharp call of

the chieftains and sergeants, the tramp of the brogued feet in their

simple evolutions, the clatter of arms, the contention and the laughing,

the song, the reprimand, the challenge, the jest,--all these were

pleasant to me.

One morning I got up from a bed of gall or bog-myrtle I shared with John

Splendid after a late game of chess, and fared out on a little eminence

looking over the scene. Not a soldier stirred in his plaid; the army was

drugged by the heavy fir-winds from the forest behind. The light of the

morning flowed up wider and whiter from the Cowal hills, the birds woke

to a rain of twittering prayer among the bushes ere ever a man stirred

more than from side to side to change his dream. It was the most

melancholy hour I ever experienced, and I have seen fields in the wan

morning before many a throng and bloody day. I felt “fey,” as we say at

home--a premonition that here was no conquering force, a sorrow for the

glens raped of their manhood, and hearths to be desolate. By-and-by the

camp moved into life, Dun-barton’s drums beat the reveille, the pipers

arose, doffed their bonnets to the sun, and played a rouse; my gloom

passed like a mist from the mountains.

They went north by the Aora passes into the country of Bredalbane, and

my story need not follow them beyond.

Inneraora burghers went back to their commercial affairs, and I went

to Glen Shira to spend calm days on the river and the hill. My father

seemed to age perceptibly, reflecting on his companion gone, and he

clung to me like the _crotal_ to the stone. Then it was (I think) that

some of the sobriety of life first came to me, a more often cogitation

and balancing of affairs. I began to see some of the tanglement of

nature, and appreciate the solemn mystery of our travel across this

vexed and care-warped world. Before, I was full of the wine of youth,

giving doubt of nothing a lodgment in my mind, acting ever on the

impulse, sucking the lemon, seeds and all, and finding it unco sappy and

piquant to the palate. To be face to face day after day with this old

man’s grief, burdened with his most apparent double love, conscious that

I was his singular bond to the world he would otherwise be keen to be

leaving, set me to chasten my dalliance with fate. Still and on, our

affection and its working on my prentice mind is nothing to dwell on

publicly. I’ve seen bearded men kiss each other in the France, a most

scandalous exhibition surely, one at any rate that I never gazed on

without some natural Highland shame, and I would as soon kiss my father

at high noon on the open street as dwell with paper and ink upon my

feeling to him.

We settled down to a few quiet weeks after the troops had gone. Rumours

came of skirmishes at Tippermuir and elsewhere. I am aware that the

fabulous Wishart makes out that our lads were defeated by Montrose at

every turning, claiming even Dundee, Crief, Strathbogie, Methven Wood,

Philiphaugh, Inverness, and Dunbeath. Let any one coldly calculate the

old rogue’s narrative, and it will honestly appear that the winner was

more often Argile, though his lordship never followed up his advantage

with slaughter and massacre as did his foes at Aberdeen. All these

doings we heard of but vaguely, for few came back except an odd lad

wounded and cut off in the wilds of Athole from the main body.

Constant sentinels watched the land from the fort of Dunchuach, that

dominates every pass into our country, and outer guards took day and

night about on the remoter alleys of Aora and Shira Glens. South, east,

and west, we had friendly frontiers; only to the north were menace

and danger, and from the north came our scaith--the savage north and

jealous.

These considerations seemed, on the surface, little to affect Inneraora

and its adjacent parts. We slept soundly at night, knowing the warders

were alert; the women with absent husbands tempered their anxiety with

the philosophy that comes to a race ever bound to defend its own doors.

The common folks had _ceilidhs_ at night--gossip parties in each other’s

houses, and in our own hall the herds and shepherds often convocat to

change stories, the tales of the Fingalians, Ossian and the Firme. The

burgh was a great place for suppers too, and never _ceilidh_ nor supper

went I to but the daughter of Provost Brown was there before me. She

took a dislike to me, I guessed at last, perhaps thinking I appeared too

often; and I was never fully convinced of this till I met her once with

some companions walking in the garden of the castle, that always stood

open for the world.

I was passing up the Dame’s Pad, as it was called, a little turfed road,

overhung by walnut trees brought by the old Earl from England. I had on

a Lowland costume with a velvet coat and buckled shoes, and one or

two vanities a young fellow would naturally be set up about, and the

consciousness of my trim clothing put me in a very complacent mood as I

stopped and spoke with the damsels.

They were pretty girls all, and I remember particularly that Betty had a

spray of bog-myrtle and heather fastened at a brooch at her neck.

She was the only one who received me coldly, seemed indeed impatient to

be off, leaving the conversation to her friends while she toyed with a

few late flowers on the bushes beside her.

“You should never put heather and gall together,” I said to her,

rallyingly.

“Indeed!” she said, flushing. “Here’s one who wears what she chooses,

regardless of custom or freit.”

“But you know,” I said, “the badge of the Campbell goes badly with that

of so bitter a foe as the MacDonald. You might as well add the oak-stalk

of Montrose, and make the emblem tell the story of those troubles.”

It was meant in good-humour, but for some reason it seemed to sting her

to the quick. I could see it in the flash of her eyes and the renewed

flush at her temples.

There was a little mischievous girl in the company, who giggled and

said, “Betty’s in a bad key to-day; her sweetheart has vexed her

surely.”

It was a trivial remark, but I went off with it in my mind.

A strange interest in the moods of this old school-friend had begun to

stir me. Meeting her on my daily walks to town by the back way through

the new avenue, I found her seemingly anxious to avoid me, and difficult

to warm to any interest but in the most remote and abstract affairs.

Herself she would never speak of, her plans, cares, ambitions,

preferences, or aversions; she seemed dour set on aloofness. And though

she appeared to listen to my modestly phrased exploits with attention

and respect, and some trepidation at the dangerous portions, she had

notably more interest in my talk of others. Ours was the only big

house in the glen she never came calling to, though her father was an

attentive visitor and supped his curds-and-cream of a Saturday with

friendly gusto, apologising for her finding something to amuse and

detain her at Roderick’s over the way, or the widow’s at Gearran Bridge.

I would go out on these occasions and walk in the open air with a heart

uneasy.

And now it was I came to conclude, after all, that much as a man may

learn of many women studied indifferently, there is something magical

about his personal regard for one, that sets up a barrier of mystery

between them. So long as I in former years went on the gay assumption

that every girl’s character was on the surface, and I made no effort

to probe deeper, I was the confidant, the friend, of many a fine woman.

They all smiled at my douce sobriety, but in the end they preferred it

to the gaudy recklessness of more handsome men.

But here was the conclusion of my complacent belief in my knowledge of

the sex. The oftener I met her the worse my friendship progressed. She

became a problem behind a pretty mask, and I would sit down, as it were,

dumb before it and guess at the real woman within. Her step on the road

as we would come to an unexpected meeting, her handling of a flower I

might give her in a courtesy, her most indifferent word as we met or

parted, became a precious clue I must ponder on for hours. And the more

I weighed these things, the more confused thereafter I became in her

presence. “If I were in love with the girl,” I had to say to myself at

last, “I could not be more engrossed on her mind.”

The hill itself, with days of eager hunting after the red-deer, brought

not enough distraction, and to stand by the mountain tarns and fish the

dark trout was to hold a lonely carnival with discontent.

It happened sometimes that on the street of Inneraora I would meet Betty

convoying her cousin young Mac-Lachlan to his wherry (he now took care

to leave for home betimes), or with his sister going about the shops. It

would be but a bow in the bye-going, she passing on with equanimity and

I with a maddening sense of awkwardness, that was not much bettered

by the tattle of the plainstanes, where merchant lads and others made

audible comment on the cousinly ardour of young Lachie.

On Sundays, perhaps worst of all, I found my mind’s torment. Our kirk

to-day is a building of substantiality and even grace; then it was

a somewhat squalid place of worship, in whose rafters the pigeon

trespassed and the swallow built her home. We sat in torturous

high-backed benches so narrow that our knees rasped the boards before

us, and sleep in Master Gordon’s most dreary discourse was impossible.

Each good family in the neighbourhood had its own pew, and Elrigmore’s,

as it is to this day, lay well in the rear among the shadows of the

loft, while the Provost’s was a little to the left and at right angles,

so that its occupants and ours were in a manner face to face.

Gordon would be into many deeps of doctrine no doubt while I was in the

deeper depths of speculation upon my lady’s mind. I think I found no

great edification from the worship of those days--shame to tell it!--for

the psalms we chanted had inevitably some relevance to an earthly

affection, and my eyes were for ever roaming from the book or from the

preacher’s sombre face.

They might rove far and long, but the end of each journey round that

dull interior was ever in the Provost’s pew, and, as if by some hint of

the spirit, though Betty might be gazing steadfastly where she ought,

I knew that she knew I was looking on her. It needed but my glance to

bring a flush to her averted face. Was it the flush of annoyance or

of the conscious heart? I asked myself, and remembering her coldness

elsewhere, I was fain to think my interest was considered an

impertinence. And there I would be in a cold perspiration of sorry

apprehension.

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