CHAPTER X

THE WIDER OUTLOOK

1865; _aet._ 46

THE WORD

Had I one of thy words, my Master,

With a spirit and tone of thine,

I would run to the farthest Indies

To scatter the joy divine.

I would waken the frozen ocean

With a billowy burst of joy:

Stir the ships at their grim ice-moorings

The summer passes by.

I would enter court and hovel,

Forgetful of mien or dress,

With a treasure that all should ask for,

An errand that all should bless.

I seek for thy words, my Master,

With a spelling vexed and slow:

With scanty illuminations

In an alphabet of woe.

But while I am searching, scanning

A lesson none ask to hear,

My life writeth out thy sentence

Divinely just and dear.

J. W. H.

The war was nearly over, and all hearts were with Grant and Lee in their

long duel before Richmond. Patriotism and philosophy together ruled our

mother's life in these days; the former more apparent in her daily walk

among us, the latter in the quiet hours with her Journal.

The Journal for 1865 is much fuller than that of 1864; the record of

events is more regular, and we find more and more reflection,

meditation, and speculation. The influence of Kant is apparent; the

entries become largely notes of study, to take final shape in lectures

and essays.

"A morning visit received in study hours is a sickness from which the

day does not recover. I can neither afford to be idle, nor to have

friends who are so."

"Man is impelled by inward force, regulated by outward circumstance. He

is inspired from within, moralized from without.... A man may be devout

in himself, but he can be moral only in his relation with other men...."

"Early to Mary Dorr's, to consult about the Charade. Read Kant and wrote

as usual. Spent the afternoon in getting up my costumes for the Charade.

The word was Au-thor-ship.... Authorship was expressed by my appearing

as a great composer, Jerry Abbott performing my Oratorio--a very comical

thing, indeed. The whole was a success."

No one who saw the "Oratorio" can forget it. Mr. Abbott, our neighbor in

Chestnut Street, was a comedian who would have adorned any stage. The

"book" of the Oratorio was a simple rhyme of Boston authorship.

"Abigail Lord,

Of her own accord,

Went down to see her sister,

When Jason Lee,

As brisk as a flea,

He hopped right up and kissed her."

With these words, an umbrella, and a chair held before him like a

violoncello, Mr. Abbott gave a truly Handelian performance. Fugue and

counterpoint, first violin and bass tuba, solo and full chorus, all were

rendered with a _verve_ and spirit which sent the audience into

convulsions of laughter.--This was one of the "carryings-on" of the

Brain Club. After another such occasion our mother writes:--

"Very weary and aching a little. I must keep out of these tomfooleries,

though they have their uses. They are much better than some other social

entertainments, as after all they present some æsthetic points of

interest. They are better than scandal, gluttony, or wild dancing. But

the artists and I have still better things to do."

"_January 23._ It is always legitimate to wish to rise above one's self,

never above others. In this, however, as in other things, we must

remember the maxim: '_Natura nil facit per saltum_.' All true rising

must be gradual and laborious, in such wise that the men of to-morrow

shall look down almost imperceptibly upon the men of to-day. All sudden

elevations are either imaginary or factitious. If you had not a kingly

mind before your coronation, no crown will make a king of you. The true

king is somewhere, starving or hiding, very like. For the true value

which the counterfeit represents exists somewhere. The world has much

dodging about to produce the real value and escape the false one."

Throughout the Journal, we find a revelation of the conflict in this

strangely dual nature. Her study was, she thought, her true home; yet no

one who saw her in society would have dreamed that she was making an

effort: _nor was she_! She gave herself up entirely to the work or the

play of the hour. She was a many-sided crystal: every aspect of life met

its answering flash. The glow of human intercourse kindled her to flame;

but when the flame had cooled, the need of solitude and study lay on her

with twofold poignancy. She went through life in double harness, thought

and feeling abreast; though often torn between the two, in the main she

gave free rein to both, trusting the issue to God.

The winter of 1864-65 was an arduous one. She was writing new

philosophical essays, and reading them before various circles of

friends. The larger audience which she craved was not for the moment

attainable. She was studying deeply, reading Latin by way of relaxation,

going somewhat into society (Julia and Florence being now of the dancing

age), and entertaining a good deal in a quiet way. In February she

writes: "Much tormented by interruptions. Could not get five quiet

minutes at a time. Everybody torments me with every smallest errand. And

I am trying to study philosophy!"

Probably we were troublesome children and made more noise than we

should. Her accurate ear for music was often a source of distress to

her, as one of us can witness, an indolent child who neglected her

practising. As this child drummed over her scales, the door of the

upstairs study would open, and a clear voice come ringing down, "_B

flat_, dear, _not_ B natural!"

It seemed to the child a miracle; she, with the book before her, could

not get it right: "Mamma," studying Kant upstairs behind closed doors,

knew what the note should be.

"Few of us consider the wide and laborious significance of the simplest

formulas we employ. 'I love you!' opens out a long vista of labor and

endeavor; otherwise it means: 'I love myself and need you.'..."

"Played all last evening for Laura's company to dance. My heart flutters

to-day. It is a feeling unknown to me until lately."

Now, Laura would have gone barefoot in snow to save her mother pain or

fatigue; yet she has no recollection of ever questioning the

inevitability of "Mamma's" playing for all youthful dancing. Grown-up

parties were different; for them there were hired musicians, who made

inferior music; but for the frolics of the early 'teens, who _should_

play except "Mamma"?

On March 10, she writes: "I have now been too long in my study. I must

break out into real life, and learn some more of its lessons."

Two days later a lesson began: "I stay from church to-day to take care

of Maud, who is quite unwell. This is a sacrifice, although I am bound

and glad to make it. But I shall miss the church all the week."

The child became so ill that "all pursuits had to be given up in the

care of her." The Journal gives a minute account of this illness, and of

the remedies used, among them "long-continued and gentle friction with

the hand." The words bring back the touch of her hand, which was like no

other. There were no trained nurses in our nursery, rarely any doctor

save "Papa," but "Mamma" rubbed us, and that was a whole

pharmacopoeia in itself.

At this time she gave her first public lecture before the Parker

Fraternity. This was an important event to her; she had earnestly

desired yet greatly dreaded it. She found the hall pleasant, the

audience attentive. "When I came to read the lecture," she says, "I felt

that it had a value."

"All these things in my mind point one way, viz.: towards the adoption

of a profession of Ethical exposition, after my sort."

She had been asked to give a lecture at Tufts College, and says of this:

"The difficulties are great, the question is to me one of simple duty.

If I am sent for, and have the word to say, I should say it."

And again: "I determine that I can only be good in fulfilling my highest

function--all else implies waste of power, leading to demoralization."

She declined the invitation, "feeling unable to decide in favor of

accepting it."

"But I was sorry," she says, "and I remembered the words: 'He that hath

put his hand to the plough and looketh back is not fit for the kingdom

of heaven.' God keep me from so looking back!"

The Journal of this spring is largely devoted to philosophic

speculations and commentaries on Kant, whose theories she finds more and

more luminous and convincing; now and then comes a note of her own:--

"'I am God!' says the fool. 'I see God!' says the wise man. For while

you are your own supreme, you are your own God, and self-worship is true

atheism."

"It is better to use a bad man by his better side than a good man by his

worse side."

"Christ said that he was older than Abraham. I think that he used this

expression as a measure of value. His thoughts were further back in the

primal Ideal necessity. He did not speak of any personal life antedating

his own existence.... In his own sense, Christ was also newer than we

are, for his doctrine is still beyond the attainment of all and the

appreciation of most of us."

"There is no essential religious element in negation."

"Saw Booth in 'Hamlet'--still first-rate, I think, although he has

played it one hundred nights in New York. 'Hamlet' is an æsthetic

Evangel. I know of no direct ethical work which contains such powerful

moral illustration and instruction."

"James Freeman [Clarke] does not think much of Sam's book, probably not

as well as it deserves. But the knowledge of Sam's personality is the

light behind the transparency in all that he does."[52]

[52] _Lyrical Ventures_, by Samuel Ward.

These were the closing months of the Civil War. All hearts were lifted

up in thankfulness that the end was near. She speaks of it seldom, but

her few words are significant.

"_Monday, April 3...._ Richmond was taken this morning. _Laus Deo!_"

On April 10, after "Maud's boots, $3.00, Vegetables, .12, Bread, .04,"

we read, "Ribbons for victory, .40. To-day we have the news of Lee's

surrender with the whole remnant of his army. The city is alive with

people. All flags hung out--shop windows decorated--processions in the

street. All friends meet and shake hands. On the newspaper bulletins

such placards as '_Gloria in excelsis Deo_,' 'Thanks be to God!' We all

call it the greatest day of our lives.

"Apples, half-peck, .50."

That week was one of joy and thankfulness for all. Thursday was Fast

Day; she "went to church to fatigue Satan. Afterwards made a visit to

Mrs. ---- who did not seem to have tired her devil out."

The joy bells were soon to be silenced. Saturday, April 15, was

"A black day in history, though outwardly most fair. President Lincoln

was assassinated in his box at the theatre, last evening, by J. Wilkes

Booth. This atrocious act, which was consummated in a very theatrical

manner, is enough to ruin not the Booth family alone, but the theatrical

profession. Since my Sammy's death, nothing has happened that has given

me so much personal pain as this event. The city is paralyzed. But we

can only work on, and trust in God."

Our father's face of tragedy, the anguish in his voice, as he called us

down to hear the news, come vividly before us to-day, one of the

clearest impressions of our youth. Our mother went with him next day to

hear Governor Andrew's official announcement of the murder to the

Legislature, and heard with deep emotion his quotation from

"Macbeth":--

"Besides, this Duncan

Hath borne his faculties so meek, hath been

So clear in his great office, that his virtues

Will plead like angels, trumpet-tongued, against

The deep damnation of his taking-off," etc.

Wednesday, April 19, was:--

"The day of President Lincoln's funeral. A sad, disconnected day. I

could not work, but strolled around to see the houses, variously draped

in black and white. Went to Bartol's church, not knowing of a service at

our own. Bartol's remarks were tender and pathetic. I was pleased to

have heard them.

"Wrote some verses about the President--pretty good,

perhaps,--scratching the last nearly in the dark, just before bedtime."

This is the poem called "Parricide." It begins:--

O'er the warrior gauntlet grim

Late the silken glove we drew.

Bade the watch-fires slacken dim

In the dawn's auspicious hue.

Staid the armèd heel;

Still the clanging steel;

Joys unwonted thrilled the silence through.

On April 27 she "heard of Wilkes Booth's death--shot on refusing to give

himself up--the best thing that could have happened to himself and his

family"; and wrote a second poem entitled "Pardon," embodying her second

and permanent thought on the subject:

Pains the sharp sentence the heart in whose wrath it was uttered,

Now thou art cold;

Vengeance, the headlong, and Justice, with purpose close muttered,

Loosen their hold, etc.

Brief entries note the closing events of the war.

"_May 13._ Worked much on Essay.... In the evening said to Laura: 'Jeff

Davis will be taken to-morrow.' Was so strongly impressed with the

thought that I wanted to say it to Chev, but thought it was too silly."

"_May 14._ The first thing I heard in the morning was the news of the

capture of Jeff Davis. This made me think of my preluding the night

before...."

* * * * *

Other things beside essays demanded work in these days. The great

struggle was now over, and with it the long strain on heart and nerve,

culminating in the tragic emotion of the past weeks. The inevitable

reaction set in. Her whole nature cried out for play, and play meant

work.

"Working all day for the Girls' Party, to-morrow evening. Got only a

very short reading of Kant, and of Tyndall. Tea with the Bartols. Talk

with [E. P.] Whipple, who furiously attacked Tacitus. Bartol and I, who

know a good deal more about him, made a strong fight in his behalf."

"Working all day for the Party. The lists of men and women accepting and

declining were balanced by my daughter F. with amusing anxiety.... The

two sexes are now neck and neck. Dear little Maud was in high glee over

every male acceptance. Out of all this hubbub got a precious forty-five

minutes with Kant...."

The party proved "very gay and pleasant."

Now came a more important event: the Musical Festival celebrating the

close of the war, which was given by the Handel and Haydn Society, at

its semi-centennial, in May, 1865. Our mother sang alto in the chorus.

The Journal records daily, sometimes semi-daily, rehearsals and

performances, Kant squeezed to the wall, and getting with difficulty his

daily hour or half-hour. Mendelssohn's "Hymn of Praise" and "Elijah";

Haydn's "Creation," Handel's "Messiah" and "Israel in Egypt"; she sang

in them all.

Here is a sample Festival day:--

"Attended morning rehearsal, afternoon concert, and sang in the evening.

We gave 'Israel in Egypt' and Mendelssohn's 'Hymn of Praise.' I got a

short reading of Kant, which helped me through the day. But so much

music is more than human nerves can respond to with pleasure. This

confirms my belief in the limited power of our sensibilities in the

direction of pure enjoyment. The singing in the choruses fatigues me

less than hearing so many things."

After describing the glorious final performance of the "Messiah," she

writes:--

"So farewell, delightful Festival! I little thought what a week of youth

was in store for me. For these things carried me back to my early years,

and their passion for music. I remembered the wholeness with which I

used to give myself up to the concerts and oratorios in New York, and

the intense reaction of melancholy which always followed these

occasions."

And the next day:--

"Still mourning the Festival a little. If I had kept up my music as I

intended, in my early youth, I should never have done what I have

done--should never have studied philosophy, nor written what I have

written. My life would have been more natural and passionate, but I

think less valuable. Yet I cannot but regret the privation of this

element in which I have lived for years. But I do believe that music is

the most expensive of the fine arts. It uses up the whole man more than

the other arts do, and builds him up less. It is more passional, less

intellectual, than the other arts. Its mastery is simple and absolute,

while that of the other arts is so complex as to involve a larger sphere

of thought and reflection. I have observed the faces of this orchestra

just disbanded. Their average is considerably above the ordinary one.

But they have probably more talent than thought."

On May 31 we find a significant entry. The evening before she had

attended the Unitarian Convention, and "heard much tolerable speaking,

but nothing of any special value or importance." She now writes:--

"I really suffered last evening from the crowd of things which I wished

to say, and which, at one word of command, would have flashed into life

and, I think, into eloquence. It is by a fine use of natural logic that

the Quaker denomination allows women to speak, under the pressure of

religious conviction. 'In Christ Jesus there is neither male nor

female,' is a good sentence. Paul did not carry this out in his church

discipline, yet, one sees, he felt it in his religious contemplation. I

feel that a woman's whole moral responsibility is lowered by the fact

that she must never obey a transcendent command of conscience. Man can

give her nothing to take the place of this. It is the _divine_ right of

the human soul."

The fatigue and excitement of the Festival had to be paid for: the

inevitable reaction set in.

"_June 3._ Decidedly I have spleen in these days. Throughout my whole

body, I feel a mingled restlessness and feebleness, as if the nerves

were irritated, and the muscles powerless. I feel puzzled, too, about

the worth of what I have been doing for nearly three years past. There

is no one to help me in these matters. I determine still to work on and

hope on. Much of the work of every life is done in the dark."

Again: "Spleen to-day, and utter discouragement. The wind is east, and

this gives me the strange feeling, described before, of restlessness and

powerlessness. My literary affairs are in a very confused state. I have

no market. This troubles me.... God keep me from falling away from my

purpose, to do only what seems to me necessary and called for in my

vocation, and not to produce for money, praise, or amusement."

"Was melancholy and Godless all day, having taken my volume of Kant back

to the Athenæum for the yearly rearrangement. Could not interest myself

in anything.... Visited old Mrs. Sumner,[53] whose chariot and horses

are nearly ready."

[53] The mother of Charles Sumner.

At this time there was some question of selling Lawton's Valley for

economic reasons. The exigency passed, but the following words show the

depth of her feeling on the subject: "If I have any true philosophy, any

sincere religion, these must support me under the privation of the

Valley. I feel this, and resolve to do well, but nature will suffer.

That place has been my confidante,--my bosom friend,--intimate to me as

no human being ever will be--dear and comforting also to my

children...."

"_June 11...._ Thought of a good text for a sermon, 'In the world ye

shall have tribulation,' the scope being to show that our tribulation,

if we try to do well, is in the world, our refuge and comfort in the

church. Thought of starting a society in Newport for the practice of

sacred music, availing ourselves of the summer musicians and the

possible aid of such ladies as Miss Reed, etc., for solos. Such an

enterprise would be humanizing, and would supply a better object than

the empty reunions of fashion...."

"_Wednesday, June 21._ Attended the meeting at Faneuil Hall, for the

consideration of reconstruction of the Southern States. Dana made a

statement to the effect that voting was a civic, not a natural, right,

and built up the propriety of negro suffrage on the basis first of

military right, then of duty to the negro, this being the only mode of

enabling him to protect himself against his late master. His treatment

was intended to be exhaustive, and was able, though cold and conceited.

Beecher tumbled up on the platform immediately after, not having heard

him, knocked the whole question to pieces with his great democratic

power, his humor, his passion, and his magnetism. It was Nature after

Art, and his nature is much greater than Dana's art."

A few days after this she writes: "... Sumner in the evening--a long

and pleasant visit. He is a very sweet-hearted man, and does not grow

old."

The Musical Festival had not yet exacted full arrears of payment; she

was too weary even to enjoy the Valley at first; but after a few days of

its beloved seclusion she shook off fatigue and was herself again,

reading Kant and Livy, teaching the children, and gathering mussels on

the beach.

She flits up to town to see the new statue of Horace Mann, "in order to

criticise it for Chev's pamphlet";[54] meets William Hunt, who praises

its simplicity and parental character; and Charles Sumner, who tells her

it looks better on a nearer view.

[54] Dr. Howe raised the money for this statue.

The day after--"we abode in the Valley, when three detachments of

company tumbled in upon us, to wit, Colonel Higginson and Mrs. McKay,

the Tweedys and John Field, and the Gulstons. All were friendly. Only on

my speaking of the rudeness occasionally shown me by a certain lady,

Mrs. Tweedy said: 'But that was in the presence of your superiors, was

it not?' I replied: 'I do not know that I was ever in Mrs. X.'s company

under those circumstances!' After which we all laughed."

She was at this time sitting to Miss Margaret Foley for a portrait

medallion and was writing philosophy and poetry. Family and household

matters also claimed their share of attention.

"Finished reading over 'Polarity' [her essay]. Reading to the children,

'Foxes have holes, and birds of the air have nests, but the Son of Man

hath not where to lay his head'--my little Maud's eyes filled with

tears."

"Much worried by want of preparedness for today's picnic. Managed to get

up three chickens killed on short notice, a pan of excellent

gingerbread, two cans of peaches, and a little bread and butter. Went in

the express wagon.... At the picnic I repeated my Cambridge poem, ...

and read 'Amanda's Inventory' and my long poem on Lincoln's death....

Duty depends on an objective, happiness upon a subjective, sense. The

first is capable of a general and particular definition, the second is

not."

"In the afternoon mended Harry's shirt, finished Maud's skirt, read Livy

and Tyndall, and played croquet, which made me very cross."

"Exhumed my French story and began its termination. Mended a sheet badly

torn."

After a long list of purchases--

"Worked like a dog all day. Went in town, running about to pick up all

the articles above mentioned.... Came home--cut bread and butter and

spread sandwiches till just within time to slip off one dress and slip

on another. My company was most pleasant, and more numerous than I had

anticipated...."

"Legal right is the universal compulsion which secures universal

liberty."

"I feel quite disheartened when I compare this summer with the last. I

was so happy and hopeful in writing my three Essays and thought they

should open such a vista of usefulness to me, and of good to others. But

the opposition of my family has made it almost impossible for me to

make the use intended of them. My health has not allowed me to continue

to produce so much. I feel saddened and doubtful of the value of what I

have done or can do...."

"_August 23...._ Rights and duties are inseparable in human beings. God

has rights without duties. Men have rights and duties. If a slave have

not rights, he also has not duties...."

"With the girls to a matinée at Bellevue Hall. They danced and I was

happy."

"My croquet party kept me busy all day. It was pleasant enough...."

"... 'My peace I give unto you' is a wonderful saying. What peace have

most of us to give each other? But Christ has given peace to the world,

peace at least as an ideal object, to be ever sought, though never fully

attained."

"_September 10...._ Read Kant on state rights. According to him, wars of

conquest are allowable only in a state of nature, not in a state of

peace (which is not to be attained without a compact whose necessity is

supreme and whose obligations are sacred). So Napoleon's crusade against

the constituted authority of the European republic was without logical

justification,--which accounts for the speedy downfall of his empire.

What he accomplished had only the subjective justification of his genius

and his ambition. His work was of great indirect use in sweeping away

certain barriers of usage and of superstition. He drew a picture of

government on a large scale and thus set a pattern which inevitably

enlarged the procedures of his successors, who lost through him the

prestige of divine right and of absolute power. But the inadequacy of

his object showed itself through the affluence of his genius. The

universal dominion of the Napoleon family was not to be desired or

endured by the civilized world at large. The tortoise in the end

overtook the hare, and slow, plodding Justice, with her loyal hack,

distanced splendid Ambition mounted on first-rate ability, once and

forever...."

"To Zion church, to hear ---- preach. Text, 'Son, remember that thou in

thy lifetime receivedst thy good things.' Sermon as far removed from it

as possible, weak, sentimental, and illiterate. He left out the 'd' in

'receivedst,' and committed other errors in pronunciation. But to sit

with the two aunts[55] in the old church, so familiar to my childhood,

was touching and impressive. Hither my father was careful to bring us.

Imperfect as his doctrine now appears to me, he looks down upon me from

the height of a better life than mine, and still appears to me as my

superior."

[55] Mrs. Francis and Mrs. McAllister.

"A little nervous about my reading. Reached Mrs. [Richard] Hunt's at

twelve. Saw the sweet little boy. Mrs. Hunt very kind and cordial. At

one Mr. Hunt led me to the studio which I found well filled, my two

aunts in the front row, to my great surprise; Bancroft, too, quite near

me. I shortened the essay somewhat. It was well heard and received.

Afterwards I read my poem called 'Philosophy,' and was urged to recite

my 'Battle Hymn,' which I did. I was much gratified by the kind

reception I met with and the sight of many friends of my youth. A most

pleasant lunch afterwards at Mrs. Hunt's, with Tweedys, Tuckermans, and

Laura."

"I see no outlook before me. So many fields for activity, but for

passivity, which seems incumbent upon me, only uselessness, obscurity,

deterioration. Some effort I must make."

Many efforts were impending, though not precisely in the direction

contemplated. First, a new abode must be found for the winter, as the

owners of 13 Chestnut Street claimed it for themselves. She and the

Doctor added house-hunting to their other burdens, and found it a heavy

one. On October 6 she writes:--

"Much excited about plans and prospects. Chev has bought the house in

Boylston Place.[56] God grant it may be for the best. Determine to have

classes in philosophy, and to ask a reasonable price for my tickets....

[56] No. 19.

"The Sunday's devotion without the week's thought and use is a spire

without a meeting-house. It leaps upward, but crowns and covers nothing.

"I have too often set down the moral weight I have to carry, and frisked

around it. But the voice now tells me that I must bear it to the end, or

lose it forever."

The move to Boylston Place was in November. Early in the month a

"frisking" took place, with amusing results. Our mother went with

Governor and Mrs. Andrew and a gay party to Barnstable for the annual

festival and ball. The Ancient and Honorable Artillery Company acted as

escort, and--according to custom--the band of the Company furnished the

music. For some reason--the townspeople thought because the pretty girls

were all engaged beforehand for the dance--the officer in command

stopped the music at twelve o'clock, to the great distress of the

Barnstable people who had ordered their carriages at two or later. The

party broke up in disorder far from "admired," and our mother

crystallized the general feeling in the following verses, which the

Barnstableites promptly printed in a "broadside," and sang to the then

popular tune of "Lanigan's Ball":--

THE BARNSTABLE BALL

A LYRIC

(_Appointed to be sung in all Social Meetings on the Cape_)

March away with your old artillery;

Don't come back till we give you a call.

Put your Colonel into the pillory;

He broke up the Barnstable Ball.

Country folks don't go a-pleasuring

Every day, as it doth befall;

They with deepest scorn are measuring

Him who broke up the Barnstable Ball.

He came down with his motley company,

Stalking round the 'cultural hall;

Couldn't find a partner to jump any,

So broke up the Barnstable Ball.

Warn't it enough with their smoking and thundering,

Sweeping about like leaves in a squall,

But they must take to theft and plundering,--

Steal the half of the Barnstable Ball?

Put the music into their pocket,

Order the figure-man not to bawl,

Twenty jigs were still on the docket,

When they adjourned the Barnstable Ball.

Gov'nor A. won't hang for homicide,

That's a point that bothers us all;

He must banish ever from his side

Such as murdered the Barnstable Ball.

When they're old and draw'd with rheumatiz,

Let them say to their grandbabes small,

"Deary me, what a shadow of gloom it is

To remember the Barnstable Ball!"

This autumn saw the preparation of a new volume of poems, "Later

Lyrics." Years had passed since the appearance of "Words for the Hour,"

and our mother had a great accumulation of poems, the arrangement of

which proved a heavy task.

"The labor of looking over the manuscript nearly made me ill.... Had a

new bad feeling of intense pressure in the right temple."

And again:--

"Nearly disabled by headaches.... Determine to push on with my volume."

"Almost distracted with work of various sorts--my book--the new

house--this one full of company, and a small party in the evening."

"All these days much hurried by proofs. Went in the evening to the

opening of the new wards in the Women's Hospital--read two short poems,

according to promise. These were kindly received...."

The next day she went with a party of friends to the Boys' Reform School

at Westboro. "In the yard where the boys were collected, the guests

were introduced. Quite a number crowded to see the Author of the 'Battle

Hymn.' Two or three said to me: 'Are you the woman that wrote that

"Battle Hymn"?' When I told them that I was, they seemed much pleased.

This I felt to be a great honor."

The next day again she is harassed with correcting proofs and furnishing

copy. "Ran to Bartol for a little help, which he gave me."

The Reverend C. A. Bartol was our next-door neighbor in Chestnut Street,

a most kind and friendly one. His venerable figure, wrapped in a wide

cloak, walking always in the middle of the road (we never knew why he

eschewed the sidewalk), is one of the pleasant memories of Chestnut

Street. We were now to leave that beloved street; a sorrowful flitting

it was.

"_Friday, November 3._ Moving all day. This is my last writing in this

dear house, No. 13 Chestnut Street, where I have had three years of good

work, social and family enjoyment. Here I enjoyed my dear Sammy for six

happy months--here I mourned long and bitterly for him. Here I read my

six lectures on Practical Ethics. Some of my best days have been passed

in this house. God be thanked for the same!"

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