CONJUGAL CONFIDENCE.
Bleeker-Street is not attractive, either for rambling or residence.
The tall houses present all the outward and visible signs of
over-habitation with which eyes accustomed to exercise themselves in
great cities are familiar, and the passage of the often-recurring
tramways keeps up a perpetual vibration and a remorseless noise which
banish all rest and peace for the sojourner. It is a street to live in
only under pressure of necessity; and it is to be presumed that the
people who do live in it have no great latitude for choice.
There are, however, degrees of discomfort, disorderliness, and
out-of-elbow makeshift even in Bleeker-street, for the houses have
numerous and desultory inmates, of all arms in the serried ranks of
humanity fighting in the battle of life--only among the rank and file
though, be it understood; and the parlours all along the line of the
house fronts are mostly occupied by respectable artisans, with a
sprinkling of superannuated _rentiers_ in a small way.
An observer ascending from story to story would find the status of the
dwellers in the monotonous dreary houses progressing crab fashion. The
poorer in circumstances, the lower in position, the inmate, the higher
tip he, she, or they--or much more usually he and she and they--dwelt
in the swarming buildings.
To Bleeker-street Ephraim Jenkins took his way when his mysterious
authoritative employer dismissed him; and one of the poorest,
dingiest, and most crowded of its houses received his somewhat
slouching form. His form was a little less slouching than when he had
struggled down to the place of rendezvous to meet the sailor; the most
inveterate loafer pricks up for a little while under the proud
consciousness of having got something to do for which he is going to
be paid.
Ephraim Jenkins did not object to a temporary occupation of a kind to
leave him a future margin of idleness, without danger of coming to
want; and it was with a decided accession of cheerfulness to his
countenance and alacrity to his step that he climbed the stair of one
of the least inviting of the houses in Bleeker-street to the topmost
story, and presented himself in a dull, close, ill-furnished room,
carpetless, curtainless, and forlorn-looking. This room had one tenant
already--a woman, who sat in an attitude expressive of deep
despondency and utter listlessness beside the rusty stove, leaning her
head against the wall, and with her hands folded in her black stuff
apron.
This woman moved when Ephraim Jenkins entered; but before her glance
turned towards him it fell upon an object, commonplace in itself, but
to which that unconscious spontaneous look lent a pathetic interest;
it was an empty cradle. The woman was still young, and though not
quite handsome, was very comely. She had kindly bright dark eyes,
black hair, a fresh colour, and a singularly honest expression of
countenance. She was neatly though poorly dressed, in what seemed to
be an attempt at mourning, but wore no new article of attire; though
it was evident the motive of the attempt was recent, for when she
spoke to Jenkins, it was with streaming eyes and a broken voice.
'What a time you have been away, and how lonely I have felt!' she
said, as he hung his hat on a nail, and threw himself heavily into one
of the two chairs in the room.
'Yes, Bess, I've been a goodish bit about it; but it's been worth it,'
he replied; 'the tide's on the turn, my girl, and we shall do well
now.'
'It's turned too late for me, then. O, Eph, to think it was only
yesterday we buried him! It seems like a year of misery.'
The empty cradle had a melancholy meaning. This woman's infant had
suddenly sickened and died three days before, and one of the
repetitions, countless as human lives, of the human tragedy was going
on in that shabby room in Bleeker-street. The woman would not be
comforted, because the child was not.
'Poor little Ted!' said Jenkins, with an awkward tenderness of a man
honestly endeavouring to soothe a grief which he does not share, and
hardly comprehends. 'I daresay it is much better for him; but it's
hard on you, Bess, considering how fond you were of him, and how you
never grudged the trouble; but he'd never have been well, you know.
Even our turn of luck couldn't have straightened his little legs or
strengthened his little back; and you would only have fretted worse to
see him growing up not able to get along for himself.'
'That's true, Eph; but I can't think about it now,' said the woman
with an impatient shiver, as she rose and dried her eyes. 'I would
rather have "the trouble," as you call it, and him, than any luck you
can tell me of without him.'
'Of course, of course,' assented Ephraim; 'and you must not think I
don't miss him too, Bess. Children ain't as much to men as they are to
women, because men have so much more to think of.' Mr. Jenkins's
_bonâ-fide_ belief in his own occupied mind and industrious life was
something edifying to behold, not to say humorous. 'And you know,
Bess, you're a deal more to me than any children could ever be, and I
can't bear to see you fretting.'
She had begun to lay out some tea-things in a noiseless tidy way, and
he drew his chair to the table with a not unskilful assumption of
wanting his tea. Ephraim Jenkins was loose and a loafer, but he was
not more than 'half bad,' and the other half was redeemed by a very
genuine and constant love for his wife. She saw the best side of his
character always, and she formed an extremely erroneous estimate,
happily for her, of the whole of it.
'While the tea is drawing, I will tell you all about it, Bess,' he
said; and she sat down quietly, looking straight at him, and evidently
trying hard to rally her spirits and fix her attention. 'I thought it
was only a temporary job to buy a horse at some Western fair, or to go
and look at some premises, or to follow up some debtor,' began
Jenkins; 'and I was not a little stumped when I found that Warren
wanted me for a big job and some time--three months certain, Bess.'
'Three months! What for?'
'Well, that's it. I don't exactly know what for. At least, I know what
I've got to do, but I don't know what it means; however, it's no
business of mine, as you'll see.'
Thereupon Ephraim Jenkins proceeded to give his wife an account of the
interview between himself and Warren. It was a garbled account, and it
presented the mission he had undertaken in a light which he perfectly
well knew was not its real one; but he had an elastic conscience, and
was apt to accommodate circumstances to his wife's notions when they
differed from his own, rather than to abide by the cold, unyielding,
and inconvenient letter of facts. He made out to her that he was to be
employed as an agent, not as a substitute; for he had an instinctive
consciousness that she would take alarm at the other view of the
transaction, and discern the existence of indefinite danger in the
very evident trickery which it implied. He did not propose to himself
to give so very free a version of the transaction as he found himself
led into giving, but the fact was, that when he had concluded what he
called an 'account' of the interview from which he had just returned,
his wife had only two clear ideas about it--the first that he was
going to leave her for he did not exactly know how long, the second
that he was going to conduct certain business operations of a kind
with which she had no reason at all to believe him practically
acquainted. She was not an educated woman, but neither was she
ignorant, and it struck her as a most unaccountable imprudence that a
man of business should put affairs into the hands of a person who had
neither knowledge nor position to bring to the transaction of them.
Ephraim Jenkins perceived at once that his story had not satisfied his
wife, and that he must improve upon it if he hoped to serve the first
important end to be gained, _i.e_. her willing acquiescence in their
indefinite separation.
'Whatever I shall tell her'--so ran the ingenuous current of his
thoughts--'I must not let out that I am going to pass for an
independent gentleman, for, of course, she would like to have her
share in a game of that kind, and why shouldn't she?'
'I don't understand it plain enough yet, Eph,' she said; and Eph knew
the resolute ring in the voice, quite free from temper, but meaning
him to mind it. 'You must be more distinct, please. And I should like
you to tell me how it is that you and this Warren have turned friends
again. I never knew much about your quarrel or how you were mixed up
with him at first; but it seems to me, considering he wouldn't answer
your letters or see you or help you to get anything to do for some
time back, he must have some very strong reason for changing round all
of a sudden, and putting you into a thing which must want management
and must mean confidence.'
'Ain't she shrewd!' thought Jenkins rather admiringly, though his
wife's shrewdness bothered him just then; 'goes straight at it and
hits it in the hull's-eye.' And then he formed a resolution.
'You are quite right, Bess,' he replied. 'I am sure his reason is a
very strong one, only I don't know it, and it don't matter to me, for
I am safe to get paid, and you see that's the chief thing, and I'm
sure you'll allow--and there's the queerest tricks going on in
business, tricks that would make you stare to hear of and you could
hardly believe. If there is any such tricks up in this game, you
understand, it's Warren will be playing them, not me, and they don't
concern me; and you may take your oath Warren knows what he's about.
But I am going to tell you something, Bess, which I have not told you
before, just because we have always had enough trouble to get along,
and a big share of it has been yours, my girl, and I did not want to
make it bigger by giving things a look of greater hardship and blacker
injustice than they need have; but I can't go on without telling you
now, Bess, when you ask me how it comes that Warren has changed his
mind and his hand about me. You know he is not aware of your
existence!'
'Yes,' Bess replied anxiously, 'I know you thought it better he should
not know you were married.'
'I had my reasons. Long ago, Warren said to me he would never get me
another job, or help me with another cent, if I mixed myself up in any
affair with a woman. I have no doubt he did not mean by that if I
married, for he never thought of such a thing, but he just said that,
and he meant it. "He would not have any woman told anything about his
affairs," he said, "and I had better act on the caution."
'I did, Bess, _you_ know how, and I have been obliged to stick to it. If
I had gone to him and pleaded poor little Ted, instead of softening
him, the notion of the poor little crippled baby would only have
exasperated him, and he would have told me I was a cursed fool, and
might take the consequences. It was only while he believed me to be
knocking about alone, and at his beck and call, that I could count on
Warren's remembering me sometimes for his own sake; and so I never
told him I had a wife, Bess, and I can't tell him now; but I will when
this job is through, for I mean to save every cent I can while it is
on, and then we will set up in some little way, and I will be steady.'
Poor Bess had heard many such promises already during the two years
she had been Ephraim Jenkins's wife, and had tested their
worthlessness, but she still cherished the delusion concerning her
husband, which, however foolish, is always lovable and excusable in a
woman; and therefore she smiled, faintly indeed, for the little tenant
had left its cradle empty too lately for the mother's lips to smile in
full or genuinely, and said, 'I know you will, Eph; I know you will.'
'That's hearty, my girl, and encourages a man. I will say for you,
Bess, you never do nag, not even in your own mind, you know. I know
you don't, for I should see it in your face if you held your tongue
ever so. And now for what I promised to tell you. There is a reason
why Warren should help me, why he should turn round after all his
hardness and put a job into my hands rather than into any one else's;
for he is my brother, Bess; yes, indeed, my father was his father,
but his mother was his father's wife, and my mother was that wife's
maid--that's all the difference! Only a trifle!' he added, with a
bitter laugh, 'but it made a deuced deal of difference to me. My
father's wife died when Warren and I were young children, and we grew
up together in a rather indecent sort of fellowship, I daresay--he in
the parlour, and I in the stable-yard; but we were never long parted,
and there has always been some sort of feeling--a bad sort generally
on his side--between us. I have been a loafer and a ne'er-do-well; it
is not elevating and encouraging to have such a family history as mine
to look back upon; though, mind, I don't mean to lay the blame on
that, Bess; that's cant, and cowardly too! Now you know all about it,
and you understand why Warren, when he wants some one to help him and
to keep it dark, sends for me.'
'Yes, I understand that now, and a good many other things as well,'
said Bess, 'and I do hope, Eph, you will get free of him by this job,
and let us make a fair start. But what am I to do? I must try to get
some plain sewing, I suppose, and stay here, unless I can get a
cheaper place!'
'Plain sewing be hanged!' exclaimed Ephraim, slapping the rickety
table with his hand and making the cracked crockery-ware ring; you
sha'n't go in for _that_. I've got a notion, Bess, and I think you
will like it. You know what the doctor said, don't you, about poor
little Ted's death, and your having to be careful on account of
leaving off nursing so suddenly?'
Bess nodded; her eyes filled with tears.
'Well, then'--he spoke with a little effort, creditable to the poor
loafer--'look here,' taking a newspaper from his pocket, 'here's an
advertisement for a wet-nurse. "Wanted immediately, by Mrs. Alston
Griswold, of Fifth-avenue, a young woman to undertake the charge of a
delicate infant." What do you say to trying for the place at once? for
I must leave you tomorrow, Bess; it's hard lines, but Warren must have
his dollar's worth for his dollar; it will be a good one, I'm sure,
and if you were to get it, my mind would be at rest about you.'
'O, Eph, to have a child at my breast, and little Ted in his grave!'
cried the young mother, with a burst of infinitely touching sorrow,
and threw her arms around the 'loafer's' neck.
He let her cry in silence for a few moments, and then she recovered
herself, and said:
'This is foolish, I know. The idea is a good one, Eph; but I don't
think it can be done. Do you know anything about Mrs. Griswold?'
'No, I don't,' said Jenkins, with an odd look, which his wife did not
observe; 'but where's the difficulty? The advertisement is only this
morning's, and you might see after the place to-night.'
'No lady would take me without a recommendation, and where am I to get
one?'
'O, for the matter of that,' said Jenkins incautiously, 'I'll write
you out half-a-dozen different ones in half-a-dozen different hands;
and the last lady you lived with can be gone to Europe, so that she
can't be applied to.'
One of Mr. Jenkins's accomplishments was a faculty for writing several
different hands, which Bess never liked, though she had hitherto
regarded it with only a vague disfavour and distrust. But she coloured
violently when Jenkins said this, and hastily bade him:
'Hush, hush you are only jesting, and I don't like such jests. No; I
will go to this lady, and try if she will engage me when I tell her
the truth about our little Ted.'
* * * * * *
Bess Jenkins put on her mourning bonnet and shawl--the only new
articles of attire in her scanty wardrobe--and the two set off to walk
to Fifth-avenue. On the way Jenkins confided to his wife--being forced
to do so in order that she might be able to write to him during his
absence--that condition of his undertaking which he had been most
strenuously cautioned against revealing: his assumption of the name of
Warren. Bess was vaguely alarmed when she heard it, and when he told
her she must let no one see the address upon her letters; but she felt
that remonstrance was now useless, and so she submitted.