VI. Susanna Speaks in Meeting

It was the Sabbath day and the Believers were gathered in the

meetinghouse, Brethren and Sisters seated quietly on their separate

benches, with the children by themselves in their own place. As the men

entered the room they removed their hats and coats and hung them upon

wooden pegs that lined the sides of the room, while the women took off

their bonnets; then, after standing for a moment of perfect silence,

they seated themselves.

In Susanna's time the Sunday costume for the men included trousers of

deep blue cloth with a white line and a vest of darker blue, exposing

a full-bosomed shirt that had a wide turned-down collar fastened with

three buttons. The Sisters were in pure white dresses, with neck and

shoulders covered with snowy kerchiefs, their heads crowned with their

white net caps, and a large white pocket handkerchief hung over the

left arm. Their feet were shod with curious pointed-toed cloth shoes of

ultramarine blue--a fashion long since gone by.

Susanna had now become accustomed to the curious solemn march or dance

in which of course none but the Believers ever joined, and found in

her present exalted mood the songs and the exhortations strangely

interesting and not unprofitable.

Tabitha, the most aged of the group of Albion Sisters, confessed that

she missed the old times when visions were common, when the Spirit

manifested itself in extraordinary ways, and the gift of tongues

descended. Sometimes, in the Western Settlement where she was gathered

in, the whole North Family would march into the highway in the fresh

morning hours, and while singing some sacred hymn, would pass on to the

Center Family, and together in solemn yet glad procession they would

mount the hillside to “Jehovah's Chosen Square,” there to sing and dance

before the Lord.

“I wish we could do something like that now!” sighed Hetty Arnold,

a pretty young creature who had moments of longing for the pomps and

vanities. “If we have to give up all worldly pleasures, I think we might

have more religious ones!”

“We were a younger church in those old times of which Sister Tabitha

speaks,” said Eldress Abby. “You must remember, Hetty, that we were

children in faith, and needed signs and manifestations, pictures and

object-lessons. We've been trained to think and reason now, and we've

put away some of our picture-books. There have been revelations to tell

us we needed movements and exercises to quicken our spiritual powers,

and to give energy and unity to our worship, and there have been

revelations telling us to give them up; revelations bidding us to sing

more, revelations telling us to use wordless songs. Then anthems were

given us, and so it has gone on, for we have been led of the Spirit.”

“I'd like more picture-books,” pouted Hetty under her breath.

Today the service began with a solemn song, followed by speaking and

prayer from a visiting elder. Then, after a long and profound silence,

the company rose and joined in a rhythmic dance which signified the

onward travel of the soul to full redemption; the opening and closing of

the hands meaning the scattering and gathering of blessing. There was

no accompaniment, and both the music and the words were the artless

expression of fervent devotion.

Susanna sat in her corner beside the aged Tabitha, who would never dance

again before the Lord, though her quavering voice joined in the chorus.

The spring floor rose and fell under the quick rhythmic tread of the

worshipers, and with each revolution about the room the song gained in

power and fervor.

I am never weary bringing my life unto God,

I am never weary singing His way is good.

With the voice of an angel with power from above,

I would publish the blessing of soul-saving love.

The steps grew slower and more sedate, the voices died away, the arms

sank slowly by the sides, and the hands ceased their movement.

Susanna rose to her feet, she knew not how or why. Her cheeks were

flushed, her head bent.

“Dear friends,” she said, “I have now been among you for nearly three

months, sharing your life, your work, and your worship. You may well

wish to know whether I have made up my mind to join this Community, and

I can only say that although I have prayed for light, I cannot yet see

my way clearly. I am happy here with you, and although I have been

a church member for years, I have never before longed so ardently to

present my body and soul as a sacrifice unto the Lord. I have tried not

to be a burden to you. The small weekly sum that I put into the treasury

I will not speak of, lest I seem to think that the 'gift of God may be

purchased with money,' as the Scriptures say; but I have endeavored to

be loyal to your rules and customs, your aims and ideals, and to the

confidence you have reposed in me. Oh, my dear Sisters and Brothers,

pray for me that I be enabled to see my duty more plainly. It is not

the fleshpots that will call me back to the world; if I go, it will be

because the duties I have left behind take such shape that they draw me

out of his shelter in spite of myself. I thank you for the help you have

given me these last weeks; God knows my gratitude can never be spoken in

words.”

Elder Gray's voice broke the silence that followed Susanna's speech.

“I only echo the sentiments of the Family when I say that our Sister

Susanna shall have such time as she requires before deciding to unite

with this body of Believers. No pressure shall be brought to bear upon

her, and she will be, as she ever has been, a welcome guest under our

roof. She has been an inspiration to the children, a comfort and aid to

the Sisters, an intelligent comrade to the Brethren, and a sincere and

earnest student of the truth. May the Spirit draw her into the Virgin

Church of the New Creation!”

“Yee and amen!” exclaimed Eldress Abby, devoutly: “'For thus saith the

Lord of hosts: I will shake the heavens, and the earth, and the sea,

and the dry land; and I will shake all nations, and the desire of all

nations shall come: and I will fill this house with glory, saith the

Lord of hosts.'”

“O Virgin Church, how great the light,

What cloud can dim thy way?”

sang Martha from her place at the end of a bench; and all the voices

took up the hymn softly as the company sat with bowed heads.

Then Brother Issachar rose from his corner, saying: “Jesus called upon

his disciples to give up everything: houses, lands, relationships, and

even the selfishness of their own lives. They could not call their

lives their own. 'Lo! we have left all and followed thee,' said Peter;

'fathers, mothers, wives, children, houses, lands, and even our own

lives also.' It is a great price to pay, but we buy Heaven with it!”

“Yee, we do,” said Brother Thomas Scattergood, devoutly. “To him that

overcometh shall the great prize be given.”

“God help the weaker brethren!” murmured young Brother Nathan, in so

low a voice that few could hear him. Moved by the same impulse, Tabitha,

Abby, and Martha burst into one of the most triumphant of the Shaker

songs, one that was never sung save when the meeting was “full of the

Spirit”:--

“I draw no blank nor miss the prize,

I see the work, the sacrifice,

And I'll be loyal, I'll be wise, A faithful overcomer!”

The company rose and began again to march in a circle around the center

of the room, the Brethren two abreast leading the column, the Sisters

following after. There was a waving movement of the hands by drawing

inward as if gathering in spiritual good and storing it up for future

need. In the marching and countermarching the worshipers frequently

changed their positions, ultimately forming into four circles,

symbolical of the four dispensations as expounded in Shakerism, the

first from Adam to Abraham; the second from Abraham to Jesus; the third

from Jesus to Mother Ann Lee; and the fourth the millennial era.

The marching grew livelier; the bodies of the singers swayed lightly

with emotion, the faces glowed with feeling.

Over and over the hymn was sung, gathering strength and fullness as

the Believers entered more and more into the spirit of their worship.

Whenever the refrain came in with its militant fervor, crude, but

sincere and effective, the singers seemed faith-intoxicated; and Sister

Martha in particular might have been treading the heavenly streets

instead of the meetinghouse floor, so complete was her absorption. The

voices at length grew softer, and the movement slower, and after a few

moments' reverent silence the company filed out of the room solemnly and

without speech.

I am as sure that heav'n is mine

As though my vision could define

Or pencil draw the boundary line

Where love and truth shall conquer.

“The Lord ain't shaken Susanna hard enough yet,” thought Brother Ansel

shrewdly from his place in the rear. “She ain't altogether gathered

in, not by no manner o' means, because of that unregenerate son of Adam

she's left behind; but there's the makin's of a pow'ful good Shaker in

Susanna, if she finally takes holt!”

“What manner of life is my husband living, now that I have deserted him?

Who is being a mother to Jack?” These were the thoughts that troubled

Susanna Hathaway's soul as she crossed the grass to her own building.

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