MARTHA DEANE TAKES A RESOLUTION.
Mary Potter had scarcely slept during the night of her son's absence. A
painful unrest, such as she never remembered to have felt before, took
complete possession of her. Whenever the monotony of the drenching rain
outside lulled her into slumber for a few minutes, she was sure to start
up in bed with a vague, singular impression that some one had called
her name. After midnight, when the storm fell, the shrill wailing of the
rising wind seemed to forebode disaster. Although she believed Gilbert
to be safely housed in Chester, the fact constantly slipped from her
memory, and she shuddered at every change in the wild weather as if he
were really exposed to it.
The next day, she counted the hours with a feverish impatience. It
seemed like tempting Providence, but she determined to surprise her
son with a supper of unusual luxury for their simple habits, after
so important and so toilsome a journey. Sam had killed a fowl; it was
picked and dressed, but she had not courage to put it into the pot,
until the fortune of the day had been assured.
Towards sunset she saw, through the back-kitchen-window, a horseman
approaching from the direction of Carson's. It seemed to be Roger, but
could that rider, in the faded brown cloak, be Gilbert? His cloak was
blue; he always rode with his head erect, not hanging like this man's,
whose features she could not see. Opposite the house, he lifted his
head--it _was_ Gilbert, but how old and haggard was his face!
She met him at the gate. His cheeks were suddenly flushed, his eyes
bright, and the smile with which he looked at her seemed to be joyous;
yet it gave her a sense of pain and terror.
“Oh, Gilbert!” she cried; “what has happened?”
He slid slowly and wearily off the horse, whose neck he fondled a moment
before answering her.
“Mother,” he said at last, “you have to thank Roger that I am here
tonight. I have come back to you from the gates of death; will you be
satisfied with that for a while?”
“I don't understand you, my boy! You frighten me; haven't you been at
Chester?”
“No,” he answered, “there was no use of going.”
A presentiment of the truth came to her, but before she could question
him further, he spoke again.
“Mother, let us go into the house. I'm cold and tired; I want to sit
in your old rocking-chair, where I can rest my head. Then I'll tell you
everything; I wish I had an easier task!”
She noticed that his steps were weak and slow, felt that his hands were
like ice, and saw his blue lips and chattering teeth. She removed the
strange cloak, placed her chair in front of the fire, seated him in it,
and then knelt upon the floor to draw off his stiff, sodden top-boots.
He was passive as a child in her hands. Her care for him overcame all
other dread, and not until she had placed his feet upon a stool, in the
full warmth of the blaze, given him a glass of hot wine and lavender,
and placed a pillow under his head, did she sit down at his side to hear
the story.
“I thought of this, last night,” he said, with a faint smile; “not that
I ever expected to see it. The man was right; it's a mercy of God that I
ever got out alive!”
“Then be grateful to God, my boy!” she replied, “and let me be grateful,
too. It will balance misfortune,--for that there it misfortune in store
for us. I see plainly.”
Gilbert then spoke. The narrative was long and painful, and he told it
wearily and brokenly, yet with entire truth, disguising nothing of the
evil that had come upon them. His mother sat beside him, pale, stony,
stifling the sobs that rose in her throat, until he reached the period
of his marvellous rescue, when she bent her head upon his arm and wept
aloud.
“That's all, mother!” he said at the close; “it's hard to bear, but I'm
more troubled on your account than on my own.”
“Oh, I feared we were over-sure!” she cried. “I claimed payment before
it was ready. The Lord chooses His own time, and punishes them that
can't wait for His ways to be manifest! It's terribly hard; and yet,
while His left hand smites, His right hand gives mercy! He might ha'
taken you, my boy, but He makes a miracle to save you for me!”
When she had outwept her passionate tumult of feeling, she grew composed
and serene. “Haven't I yet learned to be patient, in all these years?”
she said. “Haven't I sworn to work out with open eyes the work I took
in blindness? And after waiting twenty-five years, am I to murmur at
another year or two? No, Gilbert! It's to be done; I _will_ deserve my
justice! Keep your courage, my boy; be brave and patient, and the sight
of you will hold me from breaking down!”
She arose, felt his hands and feet, set his pillow aright, and then
stooped and kissed him. His chills had ceased; a feeling of heavy,
helpless languor crept over him.
“Let Sam see to Roger, mother!” he murmured. “Tell him not to spare the
oats.”
“I'd feed him with my own hands, Gilbert, if I could leave you. I'd put
fine wheat-bread into his manger, and wrap him in blankets off my own
bed! To think that Roger,--that I didn't want you to buy,--Lord forgive
me, I was advising your own death!”
It was fortunate for Mary Potter that she saw a mysterious Providence,
which, to her mind, warned and yet promised while it chastised, in all
that had occurred. This feeling helped her to bear a disappointment,
which would otherwise have been very grievous. The idea of an atoning
ordeal, which she must endure in order to be crowned with the final
justice, and so behold her life redeemed, had become rooted in her
nature. To Gilbert much of this feeling was inexplicable, because he was
ignorant of the circumstances which had called it into existence. But
he saw that his mother was not yet hopeless, that she did not seem to
consider her deliverance as materially postponed, and a glimmer of hope
was added to the relief of having told his tale.
He was still feverish, dozing and muttering in uneasy dreams, as he lay
back in the old rocking-chair, and Mary Potter, with Sam's help, got him
to bed, after administering a potion which she was accustomed to use in
all complaints, from mumps to typhus fever.
As for Roger, he stood knee-deep in clean litter, with half a bushel of
oats before him.
The next morning Gilbert did not arise, and as he complained of great
soreness in every part of his body, Sam was dispatched for Dr. Deane.
It was the first time this gentleman had ever been summoned to the
Potter farm-house. Mary Potter felt considerable trepidation at
his arrival, both on account of the awe which his imposing presence
inspired, and the knowledge of her son's love for his daughter,--a fact
which, she rightly conjectured, he did not suspect. As he brought
his ivory-headed cane, his sleek drab broadcloth, and his herbaceous
fragrance into the kitchen, she was almost overpowered.
“How is thy son ailing?” he asked. “He always seemed to me to be a very
healthy young man.”
She described the symptoms with a conscientious minuteness.
“How was it brought on?” he asked again.
She had not intended to relate the whole story, but only so much of it
as was necessary for the Doctor's purposes; but the commencement excited
his curiosity, and he knew so skilfully how to draw one word after
another, suggesting further explanations without directly asking them,
that Mary Potter was led on and on, until she had communicated all the
particulars of her son's misfortune.
“This is a wonderful tale thee tells me,” said the Doctor--“wonderful!
Sandy Flash, no doubt, has reason to remember thy son, who, I'm told,
faced him very boldly on Second-day morning. It is really time the
country was aroused; we shall hardly be safe in our own houses. And all
night in the Brandywine flood--I don't wonder thy son is unwell. Let me
go up to him.”
Dr. Deane's prescriptions usually conformed to the practice of his
day,--bleeding and big doses,--and he would undoubtedly have applied
both of these in Gilbert's case, but for the latter's great anxiety to
be in the saddle and on the hunt of his enemy. He stoutly refused to be
bled, and the Doctor had learned, from long observation, that
patients of a certain class must be humored rather than coerced. So
he administered a double dose of Dover's Powders, and prohibited the
drinking of cold water. His report was, on the whole, reassuring to Mary
Potter. Provided his directions were strictly followed, he said, her son
would be up in two or three days; but there _might_ be a turn for the
worse, as the shock to the system had been very great, and she ought to
have assistance.
“There's no one I can call upon,” said she, “without it's Betsy
Lavender, and I must ask you to tell her for me, if you think she can
come.”
“I'll oblige thee, certainly,” the Doctor answered. “Betsy _is_ with us,
just now, and I don't doubt but she can spare a day or two. She may be a
little headstrong in her ways, but thee'll find her a safe nurse.”
It was really not necessary, as the event proved. Rest and warmth were
what Gilbert most needed. But Dr. Deane always exaggerated his patient's
condition a little, in order that the credit of the latter's recovery
might be greater. The present case was a very welcome one, not only
because it enabled him to recite a most astonishing narrative at
second-hand, but also because it suggested a condition far more
dangerous than that which the patient actually suffered. He was the
first person to bear the news to Kennett Square, where it threw the
village into a state of great excitement, which rapidly spread over the
neighborhood.
He related it at his own tea-table that evening, to Martha and Miss
Betsy Lavender. The former could with difficulty conceal her agitation;
she turned red and pale, until the Doctor finally remarked,--
“Why, child, thee needn't be so frightened.”
“Never mind!” exclaimed Miss Betsy, promptly coming to the rescue, “it's
enough to frighten anybody. It fairly makes me shiver in my shoes.
If Alf. Barton had ha' done his dooty like a man, this wouldn't ha'
happened!”
“I've no doubt Alfred did the best he could, under the circumstances,”
the Doctor sternly remarked.
“Fiddle-de-dee!” was Miss Betsy's contemptuous answer. “He's no more
gizzard than a rabbit. But that's neither here nor there; Mary Potter
wants me to go down and help, and go I will!”
“Yes, I think thee might as well go down to-morrow morning, though I'm
in hopes the young man may be better, if he minds my directions,” said
the Doctor.
“To-morrow mornin'? Why not next week? When help's wanted, give it
_right away_; don't let the grass grow under your feet, say I! Good luck
that I gev up Mendenhall's home-comin' over t' the Lion, or I wouldn't
ha' been here; so another cup o' tea, Martha, and I'm off!”
Martha left the table at the same time, and followed Miss Betsy
up-stairs. Her eyes were full of tears, but she did not tremble, and her
voice came firm and clear.
“I am going with you,” she said.
Miss Lavender whirled around and looked at her a minute, without saying
a word.
“I see you mean it, child. Don't think me hard or cruel, for I know your
feelin's as well as if they was mine; but all the same, I've got to look
ahead, and back'ards, and on this side and that, and so lookin', and
so judgin', accordin' to my light, which a'n't all tied up in a napkin,
what I've got to say is, and ag'in don't think me hard, it won't do!”
“Betsy,” Martha Deane persisted, “a misfortune like this brings my
duty with it. Besides, he may be in great danger; he may have got his
death,”--
“Don't begin talkin' that way,” Miss Lavender interrupted, “or you'll
put me out o' patience. I'll say that for your father, he's always
mortal concerned for a bad case, Gilbert Potter or not; and I can mostly
tell the heft of a sickness by the way he talks about it,--so that's
settled; and as to dooties, it's very well and right, I don't deny it,
but never mind, all the same, I said before, the whole thing's a snarl,
and I say it ag'in, and unless you've got the end o' the ravellin's in
your hand, the harder you pull, the wuss you'll make it!”
There was good sense in these words, and Martha Deane felt it. Her
resolution began to waver, in spite of the tender instinct which told
her that Gilbert Potter now needed precisely the help and encouragement
which she alone could give.
“Oh, Betsy,” she murmured, her tears falling without restraint, “it's
hard for me to seem so strange to him, at such a time!”
“Yes,” answered the spinster, setting her comb tight with a fierce
thrust, “it's hard every one of us can't have our own ways in this
world! But don't take on now, Martha dear; we only have your father's
word, and not to be called a friend's, but _I'll_ see how the land lays,
and tomorrow evenin', or next day at th' outside, you'll know everything
fair and square. Neither you nor Gilbert is inclined to do things rash,
and what you _both_ agree on, after a proper understanding I guess'll be
pretty nigh right. There! where's my knittin'-basket?”
Miss Lavender trudged off, utterly fearless of the night walk of two
miles, down the lonely road. In less than an hour she knocked at the
door of the farm-house, and was received with open arms by Mary Potter.
Gilbert had slept the greater part of the day, but was now awake, and so
restless, from the desire to leave his bed, that his mother could with
difficulty restrain him.
“Set down and rest yourself, Mary!” Miss Betsy exclaimed. “I'll go up
and put him to rights.”
She took a lamp and mounted to the bed-room. Gilbert, drenched in
perspiration, and tossing uneasily under a huge pile of blankets, sprang
up as her gaunt figure entered the door. She placed the lamp on a table,
pressed him down on the pillow by main force, and covered him up to the
chin.
“Martha?” he whispered, his face full of intense, piteous eagerness.
“Will you promise to lay still and sweat, as you're told
“Yes, yes!”
“Now let me feel your pulse. That'll do; now for your tongue! Tut,
tut! the boy's not so bad. I give you my word you may get up and dress
yourself to-morrow mornin', if you'll only hold out to-night. And as for
thorough-stem tea, and what not, I guess you've had enough of 'em; but
you can't jump out of a sick-spell into downright peartness, at one
jump!”
“Martha, Martha!” Gilbert urged.
“You're both of a piece, I declare! There was she, this very night, dead
set on comin' down with me, and mortal hard it was to persuade her to be
reasonable!”
Miss Lavender had not a great deal to relate, but Gilbert compelled
her to make up by repetition what she lacked in quantity. And at every
repetition the soreness seemed to decrease in his body, and the weakness
in his muscles, and hope and courage to increase in his heart.
“Tell her,” he exclaimed, “it was enough that she wanted to come. That
alone has put new life into me!”
“I see it has,” said Miss Lavender, “and now, maybe, you've got life
enough to tell me all the ups and downs o' this affair, for I can't say
as I rightly understand it.”
The conference was long and important. Gilbert related every
circumstance of his adventure, including the mysterious allusion
to Alfred Barton, which he had concealed from his mother. He was
determined, as his first course, to call the volunteers together and
organize a thorough hunt for the highwayman. Until that had been tried,
he would postpone all further plans of action. Miss Lavender did not say
much, except to encourage him in this determination. She felt that there
was grave matter for reflection in what had happened. The threads of
mystery seemed to increase, and she imagined it possible that they might
all converge to one unknown point.
“Mary,” she said, when she descended to the kitchen, “I don't see but
what the boy's goin' on finely. Go to bed, you, and sleep quietly; I'll
take the settle, here, and I promise you I'll go up every hour through
the night, to see whether he's kicked his coverin's off.”
Which promise she faithfully kept, and in the morning Gilbert came down
to breakfast, a little haggard, but apparently as sound as ever.
Even the Doctor, when he arrived, was slightly surprised at the rapid
improvement.
“A fine constitution for medicines to work on,” he remarked. “I wouldn't
wish thee to be sick, but when thee is, it's a pleasure to see how thy
system obeys the treatment.”
Martha Deane, during Miss Lavender's absence, had again discussed, in
her heart, her duty to Gilbert. Her conscience was hardly satisfied with
the relinquishment of her first impulse. She felt that there was, there
must be, something for her to do in this emergency. She knew that he
had toiled, and dared, and suffered for her sake, while she had done
nothing. It was not pride,--at least not the haughty quality which
bears an obligation uneasily,--but rather the impulse, at once brave and
tender, to stand side by side with him in the struggle, and win an equal
right to the final blessing.
In the afternoon Miss Lavender returned, and her first business was to
give a faithful report of Gilbert's condition and the true story of his
misfortune, which she repeated, almost word for word, as it came from
his lips. It did not differ materially from that which Martha had
already heard, and the direction which her thoughts had taken, in
the mean time, seemed to be confirmed. The gentle, steady strength of
purpose that looked from her clear blue eyes, and expressed itself in
the firm, sharp curve of her lip, was never more distinct than when she
said,--
“Now, Betsy, all is clear to me. You were right before, and I am right
now. I must see Gilbert when he calls the men together, and after that I
shall know how to act.”
Three days afterwards, there was another assemblage of the Kennett
Volunteers at the Unicorn Tavern. This time, however, Mark Deane was on
hand, and Alfred Barton did not make his appearance. That Gilbert
Potter should take the command was an understood matter. The preliminary
consultation was secretly held, and when Dougherty, the Irish ostler,
mixed himself, as by accident, among the troop, Gilbert sharply ordered
him away. Whatever the plan of the chase was, it was not communicated
to the crowd of country idlers; and there was, in consequence, some
grumbling at, and a great deal of respect for, the new arrangement.
Miss Betsy Lavender had managed to speak to Gilbert before the others
arrived; therefore, after they had left, to meet the next day, equipped
for a possible absence of a week, he crossed the road and entered Dr.
Deane's house.
This time the two met, not so much as lovers, but rather as husband
and wife might meet after long absence and escape from imminent danger.
Martha Deane knew how cruel and bitter Gilbert's fate must seem to his
own heart, and she resolved that all the cheer which lay in her buoyant,
courageous nature should be given to him. Never did a woman more sweetly
blend the tones of regret and faith, sympathy and encouragement.
“The time has come, Gilbert,” she said at last, “when our love for each
other must no longer be kept a secret--at least from the few who, under
other circumstances, would have a right to know it. We must still wait,
though no longer (remember that!) than we were already agreed to wait;
but we should betray ourselves, sooner or later, and then the secret,
discovered by others, would seem to hint at a sense of shame. We shall
gain respect and sympathy, and perhaps help, if we reveal it ourselves.
Even if you do not take the same view, Gilbert, think of this, that it
is my place to stand beside you in your hour of difficulty and trial;
that other losses, other dangers, may come, and you could not, you must
not, hold me apart when my heart tells me we should be together!”
She laid her arms caressingly over his shoulders, and looked in his
face. A wonderful softness and tenderness touched his pale, worn
countenance. “Martha,” he said, “remember that my disgrace will cover
you, yet awhile.”
“Gilbert!”
That one word, proud, passionate, reproachful, yet forgiving, sealed his
lips.
“So be it!” he cried. “God knows, I think but of you. If I selfishly
considered myself, do you think I would hold back my own honor?”
“A poor honor,” she said, “that I sit comfortably at home and love you,
while you are face to face with death!”
Martha Deane's resolution was inflexibly taken. That same evening she
went into the sitting-room, where her father was smoking a pipe before
the open stove, and placed her chair opposite to his.
“Father,” she said, “thee has never asked any questions concerning
Alfred Barton's visit.”
The Doctor started, and looked at her keenly, before replying. Her voice
had its simple, natural tone, her manner was calm and self-possessed;
yet something in her firm, erect posture and steady eye impressed him
with the idea that she had determined on a full and final discussion of
the question.
“No, child,” he answered, after a pause. “I saw Alfred, and he said thee
was rather taken by surprise. He thought, perhaps, thee didn't rightly
know thy own mind, and it would be better to wait a little. That is the
chief reason why I haven't spoken to thee.”
“If Alfred Barton said that, he told thee false,” said she. “I knew my
own mind, as well then as now. I said to him that nothing could ever
make me his wife.”
“Martha!” the Doctor exclaimed, “don't be hasty! If Alfred is a little
older”--
“Father!” she interrupted, “never mention this thing again! Thee can
neither give me away, nor sell me; though I am a woman, I belong to
myself. Thee knows I'm not hasty in anything. It was a long time before
I rightly knew my own heart; but when I did know it and found that it
had chosen truly, I gave it freely, and it is gone from me forever!”
“Martha, Martha!” cried Dr. Deane, starting from his seat, “what does
all this mean?”
“It means something which it is thy right to know, and therefore I have
made up my mind to tell thee, even at the risk of incurring thy lasting
displeasure. It means that I have followed the guidance of my own heart
and bestowed it on a man a thousand times better and nobler than Alfred
Barton ever was, and, if the Lord spares us to each other, I shall one
day be his wife!”
The Doctor glared at his daughter in speechless amazement. But she
met his gaze steadily, although her face grew a shade paler, and
the expression of the pain she could not entirely suppress, with the
knowledge of the struggle before her, trembled a little about the
corners of her lips.
“Who is this man?” he asked.
“Gilbert Potter.”
Dr. Deane's pipe dropped from his hand and smashed upon the iron hearth.
“Martha Deane!” he cried. “Does the d---- _what_ possesses thee? Wasn't
it enough that thee should drive away the man I had picked out for thee,
with a single view to thy own interest and happiness; but must thee take
up, as a wicked spite to thy father, with almost the only man in the
neighborhood who brings thee nothing but poverty and disgrace? It shall
not be--it shall never be!”
“It _must_ be, father,” she said gently. “God hath joined our hearts and
our lives, and no man--not even thee--shall put them asunder. If there
were disgrace, in the eyes of the world,--which I now know there is
not,--Gilbert has wiped it out by his courage, his integrity, and his
sufferings. If he is poor, I am well to do.”
“Thee forgets,” the Doctor interrupted, in a stern voice, “the time
isn't up!”
“I know that unless thee gives thy consent, we must wait three years;
but I hope, father, when thee comes to know Gilbert better, thee
will not be so hard. I am thy only child, and my happiness cannot be
indifferent to thee. I have tried to obey thee in all things”--
He interrupted her again. “Thee's adding another cross to them I bear
for thee already! Am I not, in a manner, thy keeper, and responsible for
thee, before the world and in the sight of the Lord? But thee hardened
thy heart against the direction of the Spirit, and what wonder, then,
that it's hardened against me?”
“No, father,” said Martha, rising and laying her hand softly upon
his arm, “I _obeyed_ the Spirit in that other matter, as I obey my
conscience in this. I took my duty into my own hands, and considered it
in a humble, and, I hope, a pious spirit. I saw that there were innocent
needs of nature, pleasant enjoyments of life, which did not conflict
with sincere devotion, and that I was not called upon to renounce them
because others happened to see the world in a different light. In this
sense, thee is not my keeper; I must render an account, not to thee, but
to Him who gave me my soul. Neither is thee the keeper of my heart and
its affections. In the one case and the other my right is equal,--nay,
it stands as far above thine as Heaven is above the earth!”
In the midst of his wrath, Dr. Deane could not help admiring his
daughter. Foiled and exasperated as he was by the sweet, serene, lofty
power of her words, they excited a wondering respect which he found it
difficult to hide.
“Ah, Martha!” he said, “thee has a wonderful power, if it were only
directed by the true Light! But now, it only makes the cross heavier.
Don't think that I'll ever consent to see thee carry out thy strange
and wicked fancies! Thee must learn to forget this man, Potter, and the
sooner thee begins the easier it will be!”
“Father,” she answered, with a sad smile, “I'm sorry thee knows so
little of my nature. The wickedness would be in forgetting. It is very
painful to me that we must differ. Where my duty was wholly owed to
thee, I have never delayed to give it; but here it is owed to Gilbert
Potter,--owed, and will be given.”
“Enough, Martha!” cried the Doctor, trembling with anger; “don't mention
his name again!”
“I will not, except when the same duty requires it to be mentioned. But,
father, try to think less harshly of the name; it will one day be mine!”
She spoke gently and imploringly, with tears in her eyes. The conflict
had been, as she said, very painful; but her course was plain, and she
dared not flinch a step at the outset. The difficulties must be met face
to face, and resolutely assailed, if they were ever to be overcome.
Dr. Deane strode up and down the room in silence, with his hands behind
his back. Martha stood by the fire, waiting his further speech, but he
did not look at her, and at the end of half an hour, commanded shortly
and sharply, without turning his head,--
“Go to bed!”
“Good-night, father,” she said, in her usual clear sweet voice, and
quietly left the room.