MARTHA DEANE.
Little did Dr. Deane suspect the nature of the conversation which had
that morning been held in his daughter's room, between herself and Betsy
Lavender.
When the latter returned from her interview with Gilbert Potter, the
previous evening, she found the Doctor already arrived. Mark came home
at supper-time, and the evening was so prolonged by his rattling tongue
that no room was left for any confidential talk with Martha, although
Miss Betsy felt that something ought to be said, and it properly fell to
her lot to broach the delicate subject.
After breakfast on Sunday morning, therefore, she slipped up to Martha's
room, on the transparent pretence of looking again at a new dress,
which had been bought some days before. She held the stuff to the
light, turned it this way and that, and regarded it with an importance
altogether out of proportion to its value.
“It seems as if I couldn't git the color rightly set in my head,” she
remarked; “'t a'n't quiet laylock, nor yit vi'let, and there ought, by
rights, to be quilled ribbon round the neck, though the Doctor might
consider it too gay; but never mind, he'd dress you in drab or slate if
he could, and I dunno, after all”--
“Betsy!” exclaimed Martha, with an impetuousness quite unusual to her
calm nature, “throw down the dress! Why won't you speak of what is in
your mind; don't you see I'm waiting for it?”
“You're right, child!” Miss Betsy cried, flinging the stuff to the
farthest corner of the room; “I'm an awkward old fool, with all my
exper'ence. Of course I seen it with half a wink; there! don't be so
trembly now. I know how you feel, Martha; you wouldn't think it, but I
do. I can tell the real signs from the passin' fancies, and if ever I
see true-love in my born days, I see it in you, child, and in _him.”_
Martha's face glowed in spite of herself. The recollection of Gilbert's
embrace in the dusky glen came to her, already for the thousandth time,
but warmer, sweeter at each recurrence. She felt that her hand trembled
in that of the spinster, as they sat knee to knee, and that a tender dew
was creeping into her eyes; leaning forward, she laid her face a moment
on her friend's shoulder, and whispered,--
“It is all very new and strange, Betsy; but I am happy.”
Miss Lavender did not answer immediately. With her hand on Martha's
soft, smooth hair, she was occupied in twisting her arm so that the
sleeve might catch and conceal two troublesome tears which were at that
moment trickling down her nose. Besides, she was not at all sure of her
voice, until something like a dry crust of bread in her throat had been
forcibly swallowed down.
Martha, however, presently lifted her head with a firm, courageous
expression, though the rosy flush still suffused her cheeks. “I'm not as
independent as people think,” she said, “for I couldn't help myself when
the time came, and I seem to belong to him, ever since.”
“Ever since. Of course you do!” remarked Miss Betsy, with her head
down and her hands busy at her high comb and thin twist of hair; “every
woman, savin' and exceptin' myself, and no fault o' mine, must play Jill
to somebody's Jack; it's man's way and the Lord's way, but worked out
with a mighty variety, though I say it, but why not, my eyes bein' as
good as anybody else's! Come now, you're lookin' again after your own
brave fashion; and so, you're sure o' your heart, Martha?”
“Betsy, my heart speaks once and for all,” said Martha, with kindling
eyes.
“Once and for all. I knowed it--and so the Lord help us! For here I
smell wagon-loads o' trouble; and if you weren't a girl to know her own
mind and stick to it, come weal, come woe, and he with a bull-dog's
jaw that'll never let go, and I mean no runnin' of him down, but on the
contrary, quite the reverse, I'd say to both, git over it somehow for
it won't be, and no matter if no use, it's my dooty,--well, it's t'other
way, and I've got to give a lift where I can, and pull this way, and
shove that way, and hold back everybody, maybe, and fit things to
things, and unfit other things,--Good Lord, child, you've made an awful
job for _me!”_
Therewith Miss Betsy laughed, with a dry, crisp, cheerfulness which
quite covered up and concealed her forebodings. Nothing pleased her
better than to see realized in life her own views of what ought to be,
and the possibility of becoming one of the shaping and regulating powers
to that end stirred her nature to its highest and most joyous activity.
Martha Deane, equally brave, was more sanguine. The joy of her expanding
love foretold its fulfilment to her heart. “I know, Betsy,” she said,
“that father would not hear of it now; but we are both young and can
wait, at least until I come into my property--_ours,_ I ought to say,
for I think of it already as being as much Gilbert's as mine. What other
trouble can there be?”
“Is there none on his side, Martha?”
“His birth? Yes, there is--or was, though not to me--never to me! I am
so glad, for his sake,--but, Betsy, perhaps you do not know”--
“If there's anything I need to know, I'll find it out, soon or late.
He's worried, that I see, and no wonder, poor boy! But as you say,
there's time enough, and my single and solitary advice to both o' you,
is, don't look at one another before folks, if you can't keep your eyes
from blabbin'. Not a soul suspicions anything now, and if you two'll
only fix it betwixt and between you to keep quiet, and patient, and
as forbearin' in showin' feelin' as people that hate each other like
snakes, why, who knows but somethin' may turn up, all unexpected, to
make the way as smooth for ye as a pitch-pine plank!”
“Patient!” Martha murmured to herself. A bright smile broke over her
face, as she thought how sweet it would be to match, as best a woman
might, Gilbert's incomparable patience and energy of purpose. The tender
humility of her love, so beautifully interwoven with the texture of its
pride and courage, filled her heart with a balmy softness and peace. She
was already prepared to lay her firm, independent spirit at his feet,
or exercise it only as her new, eternal duty to him might require. Betsy
Lavender's warning could not ripple the bright surface of her happiness;
she knew that no one (hardly even Gilbert, as yet) suspected that in
her heart the love of a strong and faithful and noble man outweighed all
other gifts or consequences of life--that, to keep it, she would give up
home, friends, father, the conventional respect of every one she knew!
“Well, child!” exclaimed Miss Lavender, after a long lapse of silence;
“the words is said that can't be taken back, accordin' to _my_ views
o' things, though, Goodness knows, there's enough and enough thinks
different, and you must abide by 'em; and what I think of it all I'll
tell you when the end comes, not before, so don't ask me now; but one
thing more, there's another sort of a gust brewin', and goin' to break
soon, if ever, and that is, Alf. Barton,--though you won't believe
it,--he's after you in his stupid way, and your father favors him. And
my advice is, hold him off as much as you please, but say nothin' o'
Gilbert!”
This warning made no particular impression upon Martha. She playfully
tapped Miss Betsy's high comb, and said: “Now, if you are going to be so
much worried about me, I shall be sorry that you found it out.”
“Well I won't!--and now let me hook your gownd.”
Often, after that, however, did Martha detect Miss Betsy's eyes fixed
upon her with a look of wistful, tender interest, and she knew, though
the spinster would not say it, that the latter was alive with sympathy,
and happy in the new confidence between them. With each day, her own
passion grew and deepened, until it seemed that the true knowledge of
love came after its confession. A sweet, warm yearning for Gilbert's
presence took its permanent seat in her heart; not only his sterling
manly qualities, but his form, his face--the broad, square brow; the
large, sad, deep-set gray eyes; the firm, yet impassioned lips--haunted
her fancy. Slowly and almost unconsciously as her affection had been
developed, it now took the full stature and wore the radiant form of her
maiden dream of love.
If Dr. Deane noticed the physical bloom and grace which those days
brought to his daughter, he was utterly innocent of the true cause.
Perhaps he imagined that his own eyes were first fairly opened to her
beauty by the prospect of soon losing her. Certainly she had never
seemed more obedient and attractive. He had not forgotten his promise to
Alfred Barton; but no very convenient opportunity for speaking to her on
the subject occurred until the following Sunday morning. Mark was not at
home, and he rode with her to Old Kennett Meeting.
As they reached the top of the long hill beyond the creek, Martha reined
in her horse to enjoy the pleasant westward view over the fair September
landscape. The few houses of the village crowned the opposite hill; but
on this side the winding, wooded vale meandered away, to lose itself
among the swelling slopes of clover and stubble-field; and beyond, over
the blue level of Tuffkenamon, the oak-woods of Avondale slept on the
horizon. It was a landscape such as one may see, in a more cultured
form, on the road from Warwick to Stratford. Every one in Kennett
enjoyed the view, but none so much as Martha Deane, upon whom its
harmonious, pastoral aspect exercised an indescribable charm.
To the left, on the knoll below, rose the chimneys of the Barton
farm-house, over the round tops of the apple-trees, and in the nearest
field Mr. Alfred's Maryland cattle were fattening on the second growth
of clover.
“A nice place, Martha!” said Dr. Deane, with a wave of his arm, and a
whiff of sweet herbs.
“Here, in this first field, is the true place for the house,” she
answered, thinking only of the landscape beauty of the farm.
“Does thee mean so?” the Doctor eagerly asked, deliberating with himself
how much of his plan it was safe to reveal. “Thee may be right, and
perhaps thee might bring Alfred to thy way of thinking.”
She laughed. “It's hardly worth the trouble.”
“I've noticed, of late,” her father continued, “that Alfred seems to set
a good deal of store by thee. He visits us pretty often.”
“Why, father!” she exclaimed, as they, rode onward, “it's rather _thee_
that attracts him, and cattle, and crops, and the plans for catching
Sandy Flash! He looks frightened whenever I speak to him.”
“A little nervous, perhaps. Young men are often so, in the company of
young women, I've observed.”
Martha laughed so cheerily that her father said to himself: “Well, it
doesn't displease her, at any rate.” On the other hand, is was possible
that she might have failed to see Barton in the light of a wooer, and
therefore a further hint would be required.
“Now that we happen to speak of him, Martha,” he said, “I might as well
tell thee that, in my judgment, he seems to be drawn towards thee in the
way of marriage. He may be a little awkward in showing it, but that's a
common case. When he was at our house, last First-day, he spoke of thee
frequently, and said that he would like to--well, to see thee soon. I
believe he intends coming up this afternoon.”
Martha became grave, as Betsy Lavender's warning took so suddenly
a positive form. However, she had thought of this contingency as a
possible thing, and must prepare herself to meet it with firmness.
“What does thee say?” the Doctor asked, after waiting a few minutes for
an answer.
“Father, I hope thee's mistaken. Alfred Barton is not overstocked with
wit, I know, but he can hardly be that foolish. He is almost as old as
thee.”
She spoke quietly, but with that tone of decision which Dr. Deane so
well knew. He set his teeth and drew up his under-lip to a grim pout.
If there was to be resistance, he thought, she would not find him so
yielding as on other points; but he would first try a middle course.
“Understand me, Martha,” he said; “I do not mean to declare what Alfred
Barton's sentiments really are, but what, in my judgment, they _might_
be. And thee had better wait and learn, before setting thy mind either
for or against him: It's hardly putting much value upon thyself, to call
him foolish.”
“It is a humiliation to me, if thee is right, father,” she said.
“I don't see that. Many young women would be proud of it. I'll only say
one thing, Martha; if he seeks thee, and _does_ speak his mind, do thee
treat him kindly and respectfully.”
“Have I ever treated thy friends otherwise?” she asked.
“My friends! thee's right--he _is_ my friend.”
She made no reply, but her soul was already courageously arming itself
for battle. Her father's face was stern and cold, and she saw, at once,
that he was on the side of the enemy. This struggle safely over, there
would come another and a severer one. It was well that she had given
herself time, setting the fulfilment of her love so far in advance.
Nothing more was said on this theme, either during the ride to Old
Kennett, or on the return. Martha's plan was very simple: she would
quietly wait until Alfred Barton should declare his sentiments, and then
reject him once and forever. She would speak clearly, and finally; there
should be no possibility of misconception. It was not a pleasant task;
none but a vain and heartless woman would be eager to assume it; and
Martha Deane hoped that it might be spared her.
But she, no less than her irresolute lover, (if we can apply that word
to Alfred Barton,) was an instrument in the hands of an uncomfortable
Fate. Soon after dinner a hesitating knock was heard at the door, and
Barton entered with a more uneasy air than ever before. Erelong, Dr.
Deane affected to have an engagement with an invalid on the New-Garden
road; Betsy Lavender had gone to Fairthorn's for the afternoon, and the
two were alone.
For a few moments, Martha was tempted to follow her father's example,
and leave Alfred Barton to his own devices. Then she reflected that this
was a cowardly feeling; it would only postpone her task. He had taken
his seat, as usual, in the very centre of the room; so she came forward
and seated herself at the front window, with her back to the light,
thus, woman-like, giving herself all the advantages of position.
Having his large, heavy face before her, in full light, she was at
first a little surprised on finding that it expressed not even the fond
anxiety, much less the eagerness, of an aspiring wooer. The hair and
whiskers, it is true, were so smoothly combed back that they made long
lappets on either side of his face; unusual care had been taken with his
cambric cravat and shirt-ruffles, and he wore his best blue coat,
which was entirely too warm for the season. In strong contrast to this
external preparation, were his restless eyes which darted hither and
thither in avoidance of her gaze, the fidgety movements of his thick
fingers, creeping around buttons and in and out of button-holes, and
finally the silly, embarrassed half-smile which now and then came to his
mouth, and made the platitudes of his speech almost idiotic.
Martha Deane felt her courage rise as she contemplated this picture.
In spite of the disgust which his gross physical appearance, and the
contempt which his awkward helplessness inspired, she was conscious of a
lurking sense of amusement. Even a curiosity, which we cannot
reprehend, to know by what steps and in what manner he would come to the
declaration, began to steal into her mind, now that it was evident her
answer could not possibly wound any other feeling than vanity.
In this mood, she left the burden of the conversation to him. He might
flounder, or be completely stalled, as often as he pleased; it was no
part of her business to help him.
In about three minutes after she had taken her seat by the window, he
remarked, with a convulsive smile,--
“Apples are going to be good, this year.”
“Are they?” she said.
“Yes; do you like 'em? Most girls do.”
“I believe I do,--except Russets,” Martha replied, with her hands
clasped in her lap, and her eyes full upon his face.
He twisted the smoothness out of one whisker, very much disconcerted
at her remark, because he could not tell--he never could, when speaking
with her--whether or not she was making fun of him. But he could
think of nothing to say, except his own preferences in the matter of
apples,--a theme which he pursued until Martha was very tired of it.
He next asked after Mark Deane, expressing at great length his favorable
opinion of the young, carpenter, and relating what pains he had taken
to procure for him the building of Hallowell's barn. But to each
observation Martha made the briefest possible replies, so that in a
short time he was forced to start another topic.
Nearly an hour had passed, and Martha's sense of the humorous had long
since vanished under the dreary monotony of the conversation, when
Alfred Barton seemed to have come to a desperate resolution to end his
embarrassment. Grasping his knees with both hands, and dropping his
head forward so that the arrows of her eyes might glance from his fat
forehead, he said,--
“I suppose you know why I come here to-day, Miss Martha?”
All her powers were awake and alert in a moment. She scrutinized his
face keenly, and, although his eyes were hidden, there were lines
enough visible, especially about the mouth, to show that the bitter
predominated over the sweet, in his emotions.
“To see my father, wasn't it? I'm sorry he was obliged to leave home,”
she answered.
“No, Miss Martha, I come to see you. I have some thing to say to you,
and I 'in sure you know what I mean by this time, don't you?”
“No. How should I?” she coolly replied. It was not true; but the
truest-hearted woman that ever lived could have given no other answer.
Alfred Barton felt the sensation of a groan pass through him, and it
very nearly came out of his mouth. Then he pushed on, in a last wild
effort to perform the remainder of his exacted task in one piece:
“I want you to be--to be--my--wife! That is, my father and yours are
agreed about it, and they think I ought to speak to you. I'm a good deal
older, and--and perhaps you mightn't fancy me in all things, but they
say it'll make little difference; and if you haven't thought about it
much, why, there's no hurry as to making up your mind. I've told you
now, and to be sure you ought to know, while the old folks are trying
to arrange property matters, and it's my place, like, to speak to you
first.”
Here he paused; his face was very red, and the perspiration was
oozing in great drops from every pore. He drew forth the huge red silk
handkerchief, and mopped his cheeks, his nose, and his forehead; then
lifted his head and stole a quick glance at Martha. Something in his
face puzzled her, and yet a sudden presentiment of his true state of
feeling flashed across her mind. She still sat, looking steadily at him,
and for a few moments did not speak.
“Well?” he stammered.
“Alfred Barton,” she said, “I must ask you one question, do you love
me?”
He seemed to feel a sharp sting. The muscles of his mouth twitched; he
bit his lip, sank his head again, and murmured,--
“Y-yes.”
“He does not,” she said to herself. “I am spared this humiliation. It is
a mean, low nature, and fears mine--fears, and would soon hate. He shall
not see even so much of me as would be revealed by a frank, respectful
rejection. I must punish him a little for the deceit, and I now see how
to do it.”
While these thoughts passed rapidly through her brain, she waited until
he should again venture to meet her eye. When he lifted his head, she
exclaimed,--
“You have told an untruth! Don't turn your head away; look me in the
face, and hear me tell you that you do not love me--that you have not
come to me of your own desire, and that you would rather ten thousand
times I should say No, if it were not for a little property of mine! But
suppose I, too, were of a similar nature; suppose I cared not for what
is called love, but only for money and lands such as you will inherit;
suppose I found the plans of my father and your father very shrewd and
reasonable, and were disposed to enter into them--what then?”
Alfred Barton was surprised out of the last remnant of his hypocrisy.
His face, so red up to this moment, suddenly became sallow; his chin
dropped, and an expression of amazement and fright came into the eyes
fixed on Martha's.
The game she was playing assumed a deeper interest; here was something
which she could not yet fathom. She saw what influence had driven him to
her, against his inclination, but his motive for seeming to obey, while
dreading success, was a puzzle. Singularly enough, a slight feeling of
commiseration began to soften her previous contempt, and hastened her
final answer.
“I see that these suppositions would not please you,” she said, “and
thank you for the fact. Your face is more candid than your speech. I am
now ready to say, Alfred Barton,--because I am sure the knowledge will
be agreeable to you,--that no lands, no money, no command of my father,
no degree of want, or misery, or disgrace, could ever make me your
wife!”
She had risen from her chair while speaking, and he also started to
his feet. Her words, though such an astounding relief in one sense, had
nevertheless given him pain; there was a sting in them which cruelly
galled his self-conceit. It was enough to be rejected; she need not have
put an eternal gulf between their natures.
“Well,” said he, sliding the rim of his beaver backwards and forwards
between his fingers, “I suppose I'll have to be going. You're very
plain-spoken, as I might ha' known. I doubt whether we two would make a
good team, and no offence to you, Miss Martha. Only, it'll be a mortal
disappointment to the old man, and--look here, it a'n't worth while to
say anything about it, is it?”
Alfred Barton was strongly tempted to betray the secret reason which
Martha had not yet discovered. After the strong words he had taken from
her, she owed him a kindness, he thought; if she would only allow the
impression that the matter was still undecided--that more time (which a
coy young maiden might reasonably demand) had been granted! On the other
hand, he feared that her clear, firm integrity of character would be
repelled by the nature of his motive. He was beginning to feel, greatly
to his own surprise, a profound respect for her.
“If my father questions me about your visit,” she said, “I shall tell
him simply that I have declined your offer. No one else is likely to ask
me.”
“I don't deny,” he continued, still lingering near the door, “that I've
been urged by my father--yours, too, for that matter--to make the offer.
But I don't want you to think hard of me. I've not had an easy time of
it, and if you knew everything, you'd see that a good deal isn't rightly
to be laid to my account.”
He spoke sadly, and so genuine a stamp of unhappiness was impressed upon
his face, that Martha's feeling of commiseration rose to the surface.
“You'll speak to me, when we happen to meet?” he said.
“If I did not,” she answered, “every one would suspect that something
had occurred. That would be unpleasant for both of us. Do not think that
I shall bear malice against you; on the contrary, I wish you well.”
He stooped, kissed her hand, and then swiftly, silently, and with
averted head, left the room.