COUNT KARL
Colonel Katona's impatience mounted fast; and when he again insisted in
an even more violent tone that I should tell him all I knew, I had to
fall back upon a woman's second line of defence. I became hysterical.
I gurgled and sobbed, choked and gasped, laughed and wept in regulation
style; and then, to his infinite confusion and undoing, I fainted. At
least I fell back in my chair seemingly unconscious, and should have
fallen on the floor, I believe in thoroughness, had he not caught me in
his rough, powerful arms and laid me on a sofa.
I can recall to this day the fusty, mouldy smell of that couch as I lay
there, while he made such clumsy, crude efforts as suggested themselves
to him as the proper remedies to apply. He chafed and slapped my
hands, without thinking to take off my gloves; he called for cold water
which the soldier servant brought in, and bathed my face; lastly he
told the man to bring some brandy, and in trying to force it between my
teeth, which I clenched firmly, he spilt it and swore at his own
clumsiness.
Then, fearing he would try again and send me out reeking like a saloon
bar, I opened my eyes, rolled them about wildly, began to sob again,
sat up, rambled incoherently and asked in the most approved fashion
where I was.
I took a sufficiently long time to come round, and was almost ashamed
of my deceit when I saw how really anxious and self-reproachful he was.
But I had forged an effective weapon; and had only to show the
slightest disposition to "go off" again, to make him abjectly
apologetic.
I always maintain that a woman has many more weapons than a man. He
can at best cheat or bribe; while a woman can do all three, and in
addition can wheedle and weep and, at need, even faint.
It was a long time before I consented to talk coherently; and during
the incoherent interval I managed to introduce my father's name.
"I am getting better. Oh, how silly you must think me," I murmured.
"It was my fault. I was too violent," he said. "I am not used to
young ladies."
"Oh dear, oh dear, I am so ashamed. But she told me you were a very
violent man. I wish I hadn't come."
"Who told you? Gareth?"
"No, no. In America. Miss von Dreschler. Oh, what have I said?" I
cried, as he started in amazement. "Oh, don't look so cross. I didn't
know you'd be so angry;" and I began to gasp, spasmodically.
"I am not angry," he said, quickly. "What name did you say?"
"That horrible girl with the red hair. I don't suppose you've ever
seen her, in America. She said you were a villain and had been her
father's friend; Colonel von Dreschler, he was. She said you'd kill
me. But I'm sure you're kind and good, or dear Gareth would never be
your daughter. She said horrible things of you. That you'd ruined her
father and imprisoned him; and much more. But of course she would say
anything. She was jealous of my friendship with Gareth, and red
haired. And I don't know what I'm saying, but she was really a wicked
girl. And, oh dear, if it's true, I wish I hadn't come. Give me some
water please, or I know I shall go off again."
I gabbled all this out in a jerky, breathless way, pausing only to
punctuate it with inane giggles and glances of alarm; and at the end
made as if I were going to faint.
Had I been in reality the giggling idiot I pretended, I might well have
fainted at the expression which crossed his stern, sombre face. At the
mention of my father and his imprisonment, he caught his breath and
started back so violently that he stumbled against a chair behind him
and upset it; and only with the greatest effort could he restrain
himself from interrupting me.
He was trembling with anger as he handed me the water I asked for; and
when he had put down the glass, he placed a chair and sat close to me.
"Do you mean that Colonel von Dreschler's daughter knows Gareth?"
"Oh, yes, of course."
"Mother of Heaven, I see it now," he murmured into his tangled beard.
"It is he who has taken her away. What do you know of this?"
"Oh, Colonel Katona, what on earth could he want to do that for?
Besides, how could he?" I cried, with an empty simper.
"You don't understand, Miss Gilmore. Can you tell me where to find
this girl--Miss von Dreschler."
"Oh yes. In Jefferson City, Missouri. I come from there. It's a long
way off, of course; but it's just the loveliest town and well worth a
visit;" and I was babbling on when he put up his hand and stopped me.
"Peace, please. And do you know Colonel von Dreschler?"
"Lor', how could I? He's been dead ever so long. Two years and more,
that horrid little red-haired thing said. But of course she may have
been fibbing."
He stared down at me as if to read the thoughts in my brain; his look
full charged with renewed suspicion. But I was giggling and trying to
put my hat straight; and with a sigh he tossed up his hand and rose.
"I can't understand you," he said. "Can you tell me anything about
Gareth, when you saw her last?"
"Not much, I'm afraid. I have such a silly memory. It must be quite
six months ago--yes, because, I had this hat new; and I've had it quite
six months."
"Where was it?" he asked, growing keener again.
"Karlsbad; no, Marienbad; no, Tyrnau; no, Vienna; I can't remember
where it was, but I have it down in my diary. I could let you know."
"Did she--she speak of me?"
"Oh yes. She said she was happy and would have been quite happy if
only she could have let you know where she was."
"Why couldn't she?"
"I suppose he wouldn't let her; but I'm sure----"
"What he? For heaven's sake, try to speak plainly, Miss Gilmore. Do
you mean she was with any one?"
"I don't know. I only know what we thought. Oh, don't look like that
or I can't say any more."
His eyes flashed fire again. "Tell me, please," he murmured
restraining himself.
"We thought she had run away with him." I said that seriously enough.
He paused, nerving himself for the next question. It came in a low,
tense, husky voice. "Do you mean she was--married?"
I hung my head and was silent.
"'Fore God, if any one, man or woman dares to hint shame of my
child----" he burst out, and stopped abruptly.
It was time to be serious again, I felt, as I answered, "I love Gareth
dearly, and would say no shame of her. If I can help you to find her
and learn the truth, will you have my help?"
"Help me, and all I have in the world shall be yours. And if any one
has wronged her, may I burn in hell if I do not make his life the
penalty." The vehement, concentrated earnestness of the oath filled me
with genuine awe.
A tense pause followed, and then, recovering myself, I began to display
anew my symptoms of hysterics. This time I was not going to get well
enough to be able to speak of the matter farther; and I declared I must
go away.
I was going to play a dangerous card; and when he asked me when he
should see me again, I told him that if he would come that afternoon to
me--I gave him Madame d'Artelle's address--I would tell him all I could.
I went away well satisfied with the result of my visit; and then
planned my next step. It was to be a bold one; but the crisis called
for daring; and if I was to win, I must force the moves from my side.
I walked back, glad of the exercise and the fresh air, and as I was
passing through the Stadtwalchen, busily occupied with my thoughts, I
met Count Karl. He was riding with an attendant and his look chanced
to be in my direction. He stared as if trying to recollect me, then he
bowed. I responded, but he passed on; and I concluded he had not
placed my features in his muddled memory. But a minute later I heard a
horse cantering after me; and he pulled up, dismounted, and held out
his hand.
"You are Madame d'Artelle's friend, Miss Gilmore?"
"Yes," I said, scarce knowing whether to be glad or sorry he had come
after me.
"May I walk a few steps with you?"
"Certainly, if you wish."
"Take the horses home," he said as he gave the reins to the servant.
"I have been wishing to speak to you alone, Miss Gilmore. Shall we
walk here?" and we turned into a side path at the end of which some
nursemaids and children were gathered about the fountains.
He did not speak again for some moments, but kept staring at me with a
directness which, considering all things, I found embarrassing.
"Would you mind sitting down here?" he asked, as we reached a seat
nearly hidden by the shrubbery.
"Not in the least," I agreed; and down we sat.
"You will think this very singular of me," he declared after a pause.
"One person could not very well be plural," I said inanely; and he
frowned at the irrelevant flippancy. "I am a student you know, and
therefore appreciate grammatical accuracy."
"I wish to ask you some questions, if I may."
"They appear to be very difficult to frame. You may ask what you
please."
"I wish you would smile," he said, so unexpectedly that I did smile.
"It is perfectly marvellous," he exclaimed with a start.
I knew what that meant. In the old days he had talked a lot of
nonsense about my smile.
"If I smile it is not at the waste of your life and its opportunities,
Count Karl," I ventured.
"Opportunities!" he repeated with a laugh. "I have seized this one at
any rate. I have been thinking about you ever since I saw you two days
ago at Madame d'Artelle's."
"Why?" I asked pointedly.
"That is a challenge. I'll take it up. Because your name is
Christabel. Is it really Christabel?"
"My name seems to cause considerable umbrage," I said, with a touch of
offence. "Two days ago your brother not only doubted the Christabel,
but wished to give me a fresh surname as well, von Decker or Discher,
or Dreschler, or something."
He frowned again. "Gustav is a good fellow, but he should hold his
tongue. You're so like her, you see, and yet so unlike, that----" he
finished the sentence with a cut of his riding whip on his gaiters.
"I am quite content to be myself, thank you," I declared with a touch
of coldness.
"Your voice, too. It's perfectly marvellous."
"May I ask what all this means?" I put the question very stiffly.
"Chiefly that I'm an idiot, I think. But I don't care. I'm long past
caring. Life's only rot, is it?"
"Not for those who use it properly. It might be a glorious thing for a
man in your position and with your future."
"Ah, you're young, you see, Miss Gilmore," he exclaimed, with the
self-satisfaction of a cynic. "I suppose I thought so once, but
there's nothing in it."
"There's opium," I rapped out so sharply that he gave a start and
glanced at me. Then he smiled, heavily.
"Oh, you've found that out, eh; or somebody has told you? Yes, I can't
live without it now, and I don't want to try. What does it matter?"
and he jerked his shoulders with a don't-care gesture.
"I should be ashamed to say that."
"I suppose you would. I suppose you would. I should have been, at one
time, when I first began; but not now. Besides, it suits everybody all
right. You see, you don't understand."
"I have no intention of trying it."
"No, don't. It's only hell a bit before one's time. But I didn't stop
you to talk about this. I don't quite know why I did stop you now;"
and he ran his hand across his forehead as if striving to remember.
A painful gesture, almost pathetic and intensely suggestive.
"I suppose it was just a wish to speak to you, that's all," he said at
length, wearily. "Oh, I know. You reminded me so much of--of another
Christabel of the name you mentioned, Christabel von Dreschler, that I
wondered if you could be any relation. You _are_ an American, are you
not?"
"Yes. But that is not an American name."
"But she was American. I knew her in New York years ago. Lord, what
long years ago. You are not a relation of hers?"
"I have no relative of that name, Count Karl."
"I wish you had been one."
"Why?"
"That's just what I've been asking myself these two days. It wouldn't
have been any good, would it? And yet--" he sighed--"yet I think I
should have been drawn to speak pretty freely to you."
"About what?"
He turned at the pointed question and looked quizzically at me. "I
wonder. You're so like her, you see."
"Were you in love with her, then?"
He started resentfully at the thrust. Coming from me it must have
sounded very much like impertinence.
"Miss Gilmore, I----" then he smiled in his feeble, nothing-matters
manner. "Of course that's a question I can't answer, and you oughtn't
to ask. But life's much too stupid for one to take offence when it
isn't meant. And I don't suppose you meant any, did you?"
"No, on the contrary. I should very much like to be your friend," I
said, very earnestly.
"Would you? I daresay you would. Lots of people would like to be the
friend of the Duke Ladislas' eldest son. If they only knew! What
humbug it all is."
"I am not a humbug," I protested.
"I daresay you have a motive in that clever little brain of yours. No
clever people do anything without one, and they both agree you're
clever and sharp. I wonder what it is. Tell me."
"'They both?'" I repeated, catching at his words.
His face clouded with passing doubt and then cleared as he understood.
"I'm getting stupid again; but you don't get stupid. You know what
Henriette and Gustav are in my life. You've spotted it, of course. It
saves a heap of trouble to have some one to think for you. You mayn't
believe it--you like to think for yourself; but it does, a regular heap
of bother. And after all, the chief thing in life is to dodge trouble,
isn't it?"
"No." I said it with so much energy that he laughed.
"That's only your point of view. You're American, you see. But I'm
right. I hate taking trouble. Of course I know things. They think I
don't, but I do. And I don't care."
"What things do you know?"
He stopped hitting his boots with his whip and looked round at me,
paused, and then shook his head slowly. "You don't understand, and it
wouldn't do you any good if you did."
But I did understand and drove the spur in. "I don't understand one
thing--why the elder son should think his chief object in life is to
make way for the younger brother."
He leant back on the seat and laughed. "They're right. You have a
cute little head and no mistake. That's just it. I'm not surprised
Gustav warned me against you. But he needn't. I shouldn't let you
worry me into things. I'm glad I spoke to you, though. You've got old
fox Erlanger round that little finger of yours, too, haven't you?"
"I was governess to General von Erlanger's daughter."
"And played chess with the old boy. I know;" and he laughed again.
"And he sent you to look after Henriette, eh?"
"No. I knew Madame d'Artelle in Paris, years ago; and I went to her
thinking her influence would help me."
"Did you? I'm not asking. But if you did, you can't be so clever as
they think. She hasn't any influence with any one but me--and I don't
count. I never shall either."
"Whose fault is that but your own?"
"I don't want to. I don't care. If I did care, of course----" The
momentary gleam of energy died out in another weary look and wave of
the hand. He waited and then asked. "But won't you tell me that
motive of yours, for wanting to be my friend, you know?"
"I did not say I had one."
"I hoped you might want me to do something for you."
"Why?"
"Because you might do something for me in return."
"I'll promise to do that in any case."
"Ah, they all say that. The world's full of unselfish people willing
to do things for a Duke's son," he said, lazily.
"What is it you wish me to do?"
"You have friends in America, of course?"
"Yes."
"Do you think they could find that other girl--the one you're like,
Christabel von Dreschler?"
"Yes, I've no doubt they could."
"Well, I'd like to hear of her again."
"Would you like her to know what your life is and what you have become?"
That made him wince.
"By God, that hurts!" he muttered, and he leant back, put his hand to
his eyes, and sat hunched up in silence. Presently he sighed. "You're
right. I'm only a fool, am I?"
"If she cared for you, it might have hurt _her_ to know," I said.
"Don't, please. You make me think; and I don't want to think."
"If she loved you then, she would scarcely love you now."
"Don't, I say, don't," he cried, with sudden vehemence. "You are so
like her that to hear this from you is almost as if----I beg your
pardon. But for a moment I believe I was almost fool enough to feel
something. No, no; don't write or do any other silly thing of the
sort. It doesn't matter;" and he tossed up his hands helplessly.
We sat for a few moments without speaking, and presently he began to
fumble in his pocket. He glanced at me rather shamefacedly, and then
with an air of bravado took out a phial of morphia pills.
"Since you know, it doesn't matter," he said, half-apologetically.
"It does matter very much," I declared, earnestly.
He held the little bottle making ready to open it, and met my eyes.
"Why?"
"Would you take it if she were here?"
"I don't know;" and he heaved a deep sigh.
"Think that she is here, and then you daren't take it."
He laughed. "Daren't I?" and he partly unscrewed the cap.
I put my hand on his arm. "For her sake," I said.
"It means hours of hell to me if I don't."
"It means a life of hell if you do."
"I must."
"For her sake," I pleaded again, and held out my hand for the phial.
"You would torture me?"
"Yes, for your good."
The struggle in him was acute and searching. "It's no good; I can't,"
he murmured, his gaze on the phial.
I summoned all the will power at my command and forced him to meet my
eyes. "For her sake; as if she were here; give it me," I said.
"I shall hate you if you make me."
"For her sake," I repeated. We looked each into the other's eyes,
until I had conquered.
"I suppose I must," he murmured with a sigh; and let the little bottle
fall into my hand. I threw it down and ground it and the pellets to
powder with my heel. He watched me with a curious smile. "How savage
you are. As if you thought that could finish it."
"No. It is only the beginning--but a good beginning."
He got up. "We'd better go now, before I begin to hate you."
"You will think of this and of her when the next temptation comes."
"Oh, it will come right enough; and I shan't resist it. I can't.
Good-bye. I like you yet. I--I wish I'd known you before."
And with that and a sigh and a smile, he lifted his hat and left me.