"Alas! my lord, if talking would prevail,
I could suggest much better arguments
Than those regards you throw away on me,
Your valor, honor, wisdom, prais'd by all.
But bid physicians talk our veins to temper
And with an argument new-set a pulse,
Then think, my lord, of reasoning into love."
Young.
By the time they reached Lansdale, Mildred was weary enough to be very
glad of a few days' rest; rest whose delights were doubled and trebled
by being taken in the society of her dear old aunt.
The travellers were received with the warmest of welcomes, Mildred
embraced over and over again, and Mr. Lord repeatedly and heartily
thanked for bringing her.
"Dear child, how you are improved!" Aunt Wealthy said the first moment
they found themselves alone together.
"Have I grown, auntie?" Mildred asked with an arch smile, laying two
shapely, soft white hands on the old lady's shoulders and gazing
lovingly into her eyes, as they stood facing each other on the
hearth-rug in front of the open fire-place in Miss Stanhope's cosey
sitting-room; for it was a cool rainy evening, and the warmth of a
small wood fire blazing and crackling there was by no means unpleasant.
"Not in height, Milly," Miss Stanhope answered, giving the young girl
a critical survey, "nor stouter either; but your form has developed,
your carriage is more assured and graceful, your dress has a certain
style it lacked before, and--But I must not make you vain," she added,
breaking off with her low musical laugh. "Come tell me all about your
uncle Dinsmore and his family."
"And little Elsie, the sweet darling!" sighed Mildred. "Aunt Wealthy,
she is a perfect little fairy: the sweetest, most beautiful creature
you ever laid eyes on."
"Ah! I only wish I could lay eyes on her," the old lady rejoined. "Does
she resemble her father in looks?"
"Not in the least: she is said to be the image of her mother;" and from
that Mildred went on to dwell with minuteness and enthusiasm on all
the charms of the little one, arousing in her companion a very strong
desire to see and know Elsie for herself.
That subject pretty well exhausted, Mildred could talk of something
else, and found a great deal to tell about the other Dinsmores, her
own experiences in the South, and the incidents of her late journey.
They had seated themselves on a sofa. Mr. Lord, suffering from an
attack of sick headache, had retired to his own apartment directly
after tea, leaving them to the full enjoyment of each other.
"And have you come back heart whole, Milly, my dear?" asked the old
lady, smiling into the eyes of her young relative and softly stroking
the hand she held.
The question brought a vivid blush to the fair young face.
"Excuse me, dear child; I do not wish to pry into your secrets," Aunt
Wealthy hastened to say.
"No, no, auntie dear, I do not consider it prying, or wish to keep
my affairs from your knowledge. You and mother are the two I wish to
confide in and consult."
And with many blushes, sighs, and now and then a few quiet tears,
Mildred poured out the whole story of Charlie Landreth's and her
own love for each other, and the barrier between them: Aunt Wealthy
listening with deep interest and heartfelt sympathy.
"Don't despair, dear child," she said, caressing the narrator in
tender, motherly fashion, "and don't give him up. We will join our
prayers in his behalf, and the Lord will, in his own good time, fulfil
to us his gracious promise to those who agree together to ask a boon of
him."
"Yes, auntie, I do believe he will," Mildred responded, smiling through
her tears, "if we pray in faith; for in asking for the conversion of a
soul we shall certainly be asking that which is agreeable to his will.
And yet--O auntie! it may be long years before our prayers receive the
answer, and I--I may never see him again!"
"'Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life,'"
repeated Miss Stanhope in low, soft tones. "Milly dear, try to leave
the future in the hands of Him who has said, 'I have loved thee with an
everlasting love; I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.'"
Both mused in silence for a little; then Miss Stanhope said, turning
with a slight smile toward her young relative, "Milly, child, you are
very attractive to the other sex."
Mildred colored and looked down. "Aunt Wealthy," she said, "I hope you
do not think me a coquette?"
"No, child, no! I'm quite sure you are too kind-hearted to enjoy giving
pain to any living creature."
"That is true, auntie; and for that reason I wish none would care for
me in that way but the one I can care for in return."
"Yes, and therefore I wish"--Miss Stanhope paused, then in answer to
Mildred's inquiring look concluded her sentence--"that some other
escort had been found for you."
Mildred's cheek crimsoned. "Aunt Wealthy!" she exclaimed, "do you--do
you really think he cares for me in that way? Oh I hope not. Aunt
Dinsmore said something of the sort, but I hoped she was mistaken."
Miss Stanhope's only answer was a meaning smile and a slight shake of
the head.
"Then, Aunt Wealthy, you must help me to avoid being left alone with
him!" cried Mildred in a tone of apprehension and annoyance; "and I do
hope there will always be other passengers in the boats and stages, so
that he will have no chance to say a word."
"I'll do what I can, child; cling as close to me as you will, but you
may rest assured he is bound to speak and have it out with you, sooner
or later."
"He shall not if I can prevent him. How can he be so extremely silly!
But indeed, Aunt Wealthy, I think you must be mistaken. He surely has
too much sense to fancy me."
"You won't be rude, Milly? you won't forget the respect due to him as
your minister?"
"Not if I can help it. Aunt Wealthy, you must help me by not leaving us
alone together for a single moment."
"But, my dear, how are my household affairs to be attended to?"
"When we are all together and you want to leave the room, just clear
your throat and give me a look, and I'll go first. Then you can readily
excuse yourself on the plea of domestic matters calling for your
attention; and he may amuse himself with a newspaper or a book until we
rejoin him."
Miss Stanhope laughingly agreed to the proposed programme, and they
carried it out during the whole visit.
Mr. Lord was very desirous to see Mildred alone, but found every effort
to that end frustrated. Miss Stanhope seemed always in the way, and
Mildred would accept no invitation to walk or drive unless her aunt was
included in it. He had formerly considered the aunt quite a charming
old lady, but changed his opinion somewhat at this particular time.
Though undoubtedly a most excellent woman, and without a superior as a
hostess, it was a decided bore to have to listen to and answer her talk
when he was longing for a private chat with Mildred.
He bore the trial with what patience he might, comforting himself with
the hope of a favorable opportunity for his wooing somewhere on the
journey from Lansdale to Pleasant Plains.
Mildred was dreading the same thing, and fully resolved to prevent
it if possible. Therefore, when the stage drew up for them at Miss
Stanhope's gate, it was with very different feelings they perceived
that it already contained several passengers.
"Safe for the present, auntie," whispered the young girl, as they
folded each other in a last, lingering embrace.
"You can't expect to be so fortunate always," returned the old lady in
the same low key, and with a humorous look. "Be sure to let me have the
whole story in your next letter."
It was staging all the way now. Sometimes they travelled day and night;
sometimes stopped for a few hours' rest and sleep at a wayside inn.
It was on Monday morning they left Lansdale, and the journey was not
completed until Saturday noon.
Through all the earlier part of the route they had plenty of company,
the stage being always pretty well filled, if not crowded. Most of
their fellow-travellers proved intelligent and agreeable, some, both
ladies and gentlemen remarkably so; and the tedium of the way was
beguiled by talk, now grave, now gay, and embracing a wide range of
topics.
On one occasion a discussion arose on the propriety and lawfulness
of intermarriage between Christians and worldlings. Some took the
ground that it was a mere matter of choice; others that it was both
dangerous and sinful for a follower of Christ to marry any other than a
fellow-disciple, or one who was esteemed such.
Of these latter Mr. Lord was one of the strongest and most decided in
the expressions of his sentiments and convictions, quoting a number of
passages of Scripture to sustain his views.
During the whole of the conversation Mildred was a silent but deeply
interested listener, her heart sinking more and more with each word
uttered by Mr. Lord; for as her pastor and spiritual instructor, his
expressed convictions of truth carried great weight with her, and
seemed to widen the gulf between herself and him who was the choice of
her heart.
Her only comfort was the hope that some day the barrier might be
removed; but ah! many long years might intervene, and who should say
that in the mean time Charlie would not grow disheartened and weary of
waiting; or, incredulous of the love that could keep him waiting, allow
some other to usurp her place in his affections?
These were depressing thoughts, and throughout the remainder of the
journey they filled Mildred's mind almost constantly. It was only by
a determined effort that she could shake them off and talk of other
things.
In the course of that day and the next, which was Friday, the other
passengers dropped off one by one, until, to her dismay, she found
herself alone with Mr. Lord for the first time since they had left
Lansdale.
The last to leave them was an elderly lady who had been occupying the
back seat along with Mildred since the stage had started that morning.
When it drew up before her door, Mr. Lord alighted and politely handed
her out. On getting in again, instead of resuming his former seat, he
took the one she had just vacated.
Mildred's heart gave a throb and the color rushed over her face, for
she foresaw what would follow. Still she would foil him if possible,
and perhaps their numbers might be presently again augmented as they
rolled onward.
With that last thought in his mind also, the gentleman was disposed to
seize his opportunity instantly. He cleared his throat, turned to his
companion, and opened his lips; but with her back toward him she was
gazing eagerly from the window.
"Look, look at those maples!" she cried; "was there ever more gorgeous
coloring? How perfectly lovely the woods are! And the weather is
delightful to-day. October is the pleasantest month of the year for
travelling, I think."
"Any month and any weather would be pleasant to me with you for my
companion," he said, "and nothing, my dearest girl, could make me so
supremely happy as to secure you as such for the whole journey of life."
She feigned not to have heard or fully understood. "I for one have
travelled quite far enough," she responded, still keeping her face
toward the window. "I'm tired of it, and of being so long away from
the dear home-circle. Oh, I am so glad that I shall be with them
to-morrow, if all goes well!"
"God grant it, dear Mildred; I shall rejoice in your happiness and
theirs, but--"
"Oh see!" she interrupted, pointing to a group of trees near the
roadside, "what brilliant reds and yellows! And there! what a beautiful
contrast those evergreens make!"
"Yes; God's works are wonderful and his ways past finding out," he
answered devoutly, then kept silence; while for some minutes Mildred
rattled on, hardly knowing or caring what she was saying so she might
but avoid the necessity of listening to and answering the proposal he
was evidently so desirous to make.
But his silence disconcerted her, he did not seem to hear her remarks,
and at length she found herself too much embarrassed to continue them.
For five minutes neither spoke, then he made her a formal offer of his
heart and hand, which she gently but decidedly declined, saying she
felt totally unfit for the position he would place her in.
He said that in that he could not agree with her; he had never met
any one who seemed to him so eminently fitted for the duties and
responsibilities he had asked her to assume. "And he loved her as
he never had loved and never could love another. Would she not
reconsider? Would she not be persuaded?"
She told him she highly esteemed him as a man and a minister, that she
felt greatly honored by his preference, but could not love him in the
way he wished.
"Ah," he said, "what a sad blunderer I am! I see have spoken too soon.
Yet give me a little hope, dear girl, and I will wait patiently and do
my best to win the place in your heart I so ardently covet."
She could not bring herself to acknowledge that that place was already
filled, and he would not resign the hope of finally winning her.
During the rest of that day and the morning of the next he treated her
to frequent, lengthened discourses on the duty of every one to live
the most useful life possible, on the rare opportunities of so doing
afforded by the position of minister's wife, and on the permanence
and sure increase of connubial love when founded upon mutual respect
and esteem, till at length a vague fear crept over her that he might
finally succeed in proving to her that it was her duty to resign the
hope that at some future day the barrier to her union with the man of
her choice would be swept away, and to marry him on account of the
sphere of usefulness such a match would open to her.
She heard him for the most part in silence, now and then varied by a
slight nod of acquiescence in the sentiments he expressed, yet even
from these scant tokens of favor he ventured to take courage and to
hope that her rejection of his suit would not prove final.
It was a great relief to her that they were not alone for the last ten
miles that lay between them and Pleasant Plains.