Chapter VI. Reckless Words and Deeds.

Light carriages now began to wheel rapidly up to the entrance,

and were followed soon by the lumbering and heavily-laden stages.

Joyous greetings and merry repartee made the scene pleasant to

witness even by one who, like Van Berg, had no part in it. Stanton,

who at this moment joined him, drew his special attention to a thin

and under-sized gentleman somewhat past middle age, who mounted the

steps with a tread that was as inelastic as his face was devoid of

animation.

"There is poor Uncle Mayhew," remarked the young man indifferently.

"I suppose I must go and speak to him."

"Mr. Mayhew?" said Van Berg, in some surprise. "You have not spoken

of him before. I was not aware that there was any such person in

existence."

"You are not to blame for that," replied Stanton with a shrug.

"You might have been one of the friends of the family and scarcely

have learned the fact. Indeed, poor man, he only about half exists,

for he has been so long overshadowed by his fashionable wife and

daughter, that he is but a sickly plant of a man."

Van Berg saw that the greeting received by Mr. Mayhew from his wife

and daughter was very undemonstrative to say the least, and that

then the gentleman quickly disappeared, as if fearing that he might

be in the way.

"From my very limited means of judging," Van Berg remarked, "I

cannot see anything more objectionable in the head of the family

than in the other members."

"Your phrase, 'head of the family,' as applied to Mr. Mayhew, makes

me smile. His name figures at the head of the large family bills,

but scarcely elsewhere with much prominence. You will soon learn,

if you remain here, that Mr. Mayhew imbibes rather more than is

good for him, so I may as well mention the disagreeable fact at

once. But to do the poor man justice, I suppose he drinks to keep

his spirits up to the ordinary level, rather than from any hope

of becoming a little jolly occasionally. Why my aunt married him

I scarcely know; and yet I have often thought that he might be a

very different did she not so quench him by a manner all her own.

As it is, his life seems to consist of toiling and moiling all the

week, and of stolidly and joylessly soaking himself into semi-stupidity

on Sunday. It this wretched state of affairs could be kept secret

I would not mention it even to you, my intimate friend; but, since it

continues no secret wherever they happen to remain for any length

of time, I would rather tell you the exact truth at once, than

permit you to guess at it through distorted rumors. As you artists

occasionally express yourselves concerning pictures, so I suppose

you will think that this family, with all its wealth is quite

lacking in tone."

"Well, Stanton, I must admit that I find myself chiefly inclined

towards the subdued and neutral-tinted Mr. Mayhew. If you have a

chance I wish you would introduce me to him."

"Are you in earnest?"

"Certainly."

"Then I'll ask him to smoke with us after supper. Well, Van,

I congratulate you again that your correct and cultivated taste

enabled you to see the fatal flaw in my cousin's beauty. If you

had been bewitched by her, and had insisted on imagining (as so

many others have done) that her faultless features were the reflex

of what she is or could become in mind and character, I might have

had a good deal of trouble with you; for you are a mulish fellow when

you get a purpose in your head. I don't care how badly singed the

average run of moths become. You may see two or three fluttering

around to-night, if you care to look on, but I wish no friend of mine

to make sport, at serious cost to himself, for yonder incorrigible

coquette, if she is my cousin. But after what you have seen and now

know, you would be safe enough, even if predisposed to folly. The

little minx! but I punished her well for her spite this afternoon."

"O most prudent Ulysses! you have indeed filled my ears with wax.

I thank you all the same as if my danger were greater."

"Well, view them all with such charity as you can. I hope you were

not very much annoyed by the loss of your ride. The young lady

will not be in a hurry to play such a trick again. I'll join you

after supper in this your favorite and out-of-the-way corner."

"Was beauty ever environed within and without by such desperately

prosaic and inartistic surroundings?" mused Van Berg. "It glistens

like a lost jewel in an ash-barrel; or, more correctly, it is like

an exquisite flower that nature has perversely made the outcome

of a rank and poisonous vine. Of course the flower is poisonous

also, and as soon as its first delicate bloom is over, will grow

as rank and repulsive as the vine that bears it. Like produces

like; and with such parentage, what hope is there for her? I am

glad no one suspects my absurd project; for every hour convinces

me of its impracticability. The ancient Undine was a myth, and my

modern Undine might be called a white lie, but one that will grow

darker every day. At a distance she presents the semblance of a

very fair woman, but I have been unable to detect a single element

yet that will prevent her from developing into an old and ugly hag,

in spite of all that art and costume can do for her."

After supper Stanton brought Mr. Mayhew to Van Berg's retired

nook, and the artist gave the hand of the weary, listless man such

a cordial pressure as to cause him a slight surprise, but after

satisfying his faint interest by a brief glance, he turned the back

of his chair towards all the gay company, although it contained

his wife and daughter, puffed mechanically at his cigar, and looked

vacantly into space. Before the evening was over, however, Van berg

had drawn from him several quite animated remarks, and secured the

promise that he would join him and Stanton in a ramble immediately

after breakfast the following morning.

Nor had the young man been oblivious of the daughter who now seemed

in her native element. From his dusky point of observation he

caught frequent glimpses of her, now whirling through a waltz in

the parlor, now talking and laughing in a rather pronounced way from

the midst of a group of gentlemen, and again coquettishly stealing

off with one of them through the moonlit walks. Her manner, whether

assumed or real, was that of extravagant gaiety. Occasionally she

seemed to glance towards their obscure corner, but neither she nor

her mother came to seek the man who had been toiling all the week

to maintain their idle luxury.

As Mrs. Mayhew and her daughter were preparing for dinner on the

following day, Mr. Mayhew entered with a brisker step than usual.

"Why, father, where have you been?" Ida asked, surprised by the

fact that he had not been drinking and dozing in his room all the

morning.

"I have been shown a glimpse of something that I have not seen for

many years."

"Indeed, and what is that?"

"Beauty that seemed beautiful."

"That's a compliment to us," remarked Mrs. Mayhew, acidly.

"I mean the kind of beauty which does one good and makes a man wish

that he were a man."

"Do you mean an unmarried man?" said his wife with a discordant

laugh.

"Probably your own wishes suggested that speech, madam," replied

the husband, bitterly.

"And pray, where did you find so much beauty?" said Mrs. Mayhew,

ignoring his last remark.

"On a breezy hill-side. It's a kind of beauty, too, that one can

enjoy without paying numberless bills for its enhancement. I refer

to that of the scenery."

"Oh," remarked Mrs. Mayhew, indifferently; "it would have been

more to your credit if you had gone to church instead of tramping

around the fields."

"I think the fields have done more for me than church for you."

"Why so?" was the sharp response.

"They have at least kept me from indulging in one bad habit. I am

sober."

"They do not keep you from making ill-natured remarks," said Mrs.

Mayhew, sailing out of the room fully bedizened for the solemnity

of dinner.

"You say you were 'shown' all this beauty," remarked Ida, who was

giving the finishing touches to her toilet before a large mirror,

and by whom the frequent bickerings of her parents were scarcely

noted. "Who officiated as showman?"

"A man who understands the beauties of a landscape so well that he

could make them visible even to my dim eyes, and attractive to my

deadened and besotted nature. I'd give all the world if I could

be young, strong, and hopeful like him, again. It was good of

him--yes, good of him, to try to cheer a stranger with pleasant

thoughts and sights. I suppose you are acquainted with Mr. Van

Berg, since he is a friend of Ik's?"

"No, I'm not," was the sharp reply; "nor do I wish to be."

"Why not?" asked Mr. Mayhew in some surprise.

"It's sufficient that I don't like him."

"He's not your style, I suppose you mean to say?"

"Indeed he is not."

"So much worse for your style, Ida."

She was sweeping petulantly from the room when her father added

with a depth of feeling very unlike his wonted apathy: "O, Ida, it

were better that all three of us had never been born than to live

as we do! Your life and your mother's is froth, and mine is mud.

How I hated it all this bright June morning, as Mr. Van Berg gave

me a glimpse into another and better world!"

"Do you mean to say that Mr. Van Berg presumed to criticise my mode

of life?" Ida asked with a darkening face.

"Oh, no, no! How small and egotistical all your ideas are! He

never mentioned you, and probably never thought of you. He only

took a little pains that a tired and dispirited man might see and

feel the eternal beauty and freshness of nature, as one might give,

in passing, a cup of water to a traveller."

"I don't see what reason you have for feeling and appearing so

forlornly, thus asking for sympathy from strangers, as it were,

and causing it to seem as if we were making a martyr of you. As

for this artist, with his superior airs, I detest him. He never

loses a chance to annoy and mortify me. I've no doubt he hoped

you would come home and tell us, as you have, how much better he

was than---"

"There, there, quit that kind of talk or I'll be drunk in half

an hour." said her father, harshly. "If you had the heart of a

woman, let alone that of a daughter, you would thank the man who

had unwittingly kept me from making a beast of myself for one day

at least. Go down to your dinner, I'm in no mood for eating."

She went without a word, but with a more severe compunction of

conscience than she had ever felt before in her life. Her father's

face and words smote her with a keen reproach, piercing the thick

armor of her vanity and selfishness. She saw, for a moment, how

unnatural and unlovely she must appear to him, in spite of her

beauty, and the thought crossed her mind:

"Mr. Van Berg despises me because he sees me in the same light.

How I hate his cold, critical eyes!"

Even at his far remove Van Berg could see that she was ill at

ease during the dinner hour. There would be times of forced and

unnatural gayety, followed by a sudden cloud upon the brow and

an abstracted air, as if her thoughts had naught to do with the

chattering group around her. It would also appear that her appetite

was flagging unusually, and once or twice he thought she darted an

angry look towards him.

As if something were burdening her mind, she at last left the table

hastily, before the others were through with their dessert.

As may be surmised, she sought her father's room. Receiving no response

to her knock, she entered and saw at a glance the confirmation of

her fears. Her father sat in an arm-chair with his head upon his

breast. A brandy bottle stood on the table beside him. At the

sound of her step he looked up for a moment with heavy eyes, and

mumbled:

"He ain't of your style, is he? Nor of mine, either. Froth and

mud!"

Ida gave a sudden stamp of rage and disgust, and whirled from the

room.

Van Berg happened to see her as she descended to the main hall-way,

and her face was so repulsive as to suggest to him the lines from

Shakespeare:

"In nature there's no blemish, but the mind;

None can be called deformed, but the unkind;

Virtue is beauty; but the beauteous--evil

Are empty trunks, o'er flourished by the devil."

That afternoon and evening her reckless levity and open coquetry

secured unfavorable comment not only from the artist, but from

others far more indifferent, whose attention she half compelled by

a manner that did not suggest spring violets.

Van Berg was disgusted. He was less versed in human nature than

art, and did not recognize in the forced and obtrusive gayety the

effort to stifle the voice of an aroused conscience. Even to her

blunted sense of right it seemed a hateful and disgraceful truth

that a stranger had helped her father towards manhood, an that she

had destroyed the transient and salutary influence. Her complacency

had been disturbed from the time her cousin had repeated Van Berg's

remark, "I could not speak civilly to a lady that I had just seen

giggling and flirting through one of Beethoven's finest symphonies;"

and now, through an unexpected chain of circumstances, she had,

for the first time in her life, reached a point of self-disgust and

self-loathing. Such a moral condition is evil's opportunity when

a disposition towards penitence or reform is either absent or

resisted. The thought, therefore, of her father's drunkenness that

day, and of herself as the immediate cause, made her so wretched and

reckless that she tried to forget her miserable self in excitement,

as he had in lethargy. Even her mother chided her, asking if she

did not "remember the day."

"Indeed, I shall have occasion to remember it," was her ambiguous

answer; "but Mondays in the country are always blue, and I'll do

my repenting then. If I were a good Catholic I'd hunt up a priest

to-morrow."

"I'll be your father-confessor to-day," said a black-eyed young

man, twirling his mustache.

"You, Mr. Sibely? You would lead me into more naughtiness than you

would help me out of, twice over. For my confessor I would choose

an ancient man who had had his dinner. What a comfortable belief

it is, to be sure! All one has to do is to buzz one's sins through

a grating (that is like an indefinite number of key-holes) to

a dozing old gentleman inside, and then away with a heart like a

feather, to load up again. I'd bless the man who could convert me

to a Papist."

But she hated the man who had made her feel the need of absolution,

and who seemed an inseparable part of all her disagreeable experiences.

Although he appeared to avoid any locality in which she remained,

she observed his eyes turned towards her more than once before the

day closed, and it exasperated her almost beyond all endurance to

believe that their expression was only that of contempt.

She might have been a little better pleased, perhaps, if she had

known that she made the artist almost as uncomfortable as herself.

Never before had there seemed to him so great a contrast between

her beauty and herself, her features and her face. The latter could

not fail to excite his increased disgust, while the former was so

great that he found himself becoming resolutely bent on redeeming

them from what seemed a horrid profanation. In accordance with

one of his characteristics, the more difficult the project seemed,

the more obstinately fixed became his purpose to discover whether

she had a mind of sufficient calibre to transform her into what she

might be, in contrast with what she was. The more he saw of her

the more his interest as an artist, and, indirectly, as a student

of character, was deepened. If she had no mind worth naming he

would give the problem up to the solution of time, which, however,

promised nothing but a gradual fading away of all beauty, and the

intensifying of inward deformity until fully reproduced in outward

ugliness.

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