CHAPTER XXIII.

CARES MULTIPLIED.

"I have been thinking," said Gertrude, as she drew near home, "how we

shall manage, doctor, so as not to alarm Mrs. Sullivan."

"What's going to alarm her?" asked the doctor.

"You, if she knows at once you are a physician. I think I had better

introduce you as a friend, who brought me home in the storm."

"Oh! so we are going to act a little farce, are we? Stage manager,

Gertrude Flint--unknown stranger, Dr. Jeremy. I'm ready. What shall I

say first?"

"I leave that to a wiser head than mine, doctor, and trust entirely to

your own discretion to obtain some knowledge of her symptoms, and only

gradually disclose to her that you are a physician."

"Ah, yes! pretend at first to be only a private individual of an

inquiring mind. I can manage it." As they opened the door, Mrs. Sullivan

rose from her chair with a troubled countenance, and hardly waited for

the introduction to Gertrude's friend before she asked if Mr. Cooper

were not with them.

"No, indeed," replied Gertrude. "Hasn't he come home?"

Upon Mrs. Sullivan saying that she had not seen him since morning,

Gertrude informed her, with a composure she was far from feeling, that

Mr. Miller had undertaken the care of him, and could, undoubtedly,

account for his absence. She would seek him at once.

"Oh, I'm so sorry," said Mrs. Sullivan, "that you should have to go out

again in such a storm; but I feel very anxious about grandpa--don't you,

Gerty?"

"Not very: I think he's safe in the church. But I'll go for him at once;

you know, auntie, I never mind the weather."

"Then take my great shawl, dear." And Mrs. Sullivan went to the closet

for her shawl, giving Gertrude an opportunity to beg of Dr. Jeremy that

he would await her return; for she knew that any unusual agitation of

mind would often cause an attack of faintness in Mrs. Sullivan, and was

afraid to have her left alone, to dwell with alarm upon Mr. Cooper's

prolonged absence.

It was a very disagreeable afternoon, and already growing dark. Gertrude

hastened along the wet footpath, exposed to the blinding storm, and,

after passing through several streets, gained the church. She went into

the building, now nearly deserted by workmen, saw that Mr. Cooper was

not there, and began to fear she should gain no information concerning

him, when she met Mr. Miller coming from the gallery. He looked

surprised at seeing her, and asked if Mr. Cooper had not returned home.

She answered in the negative, and he informed her that his efforts were

insufficient to persuade the old man to go home at dinner-time, and that

he had therefore taken him to his own house; he had supposed that long

before this hour he would have been induced to allow one of the

children to accompany him to Mrs. Sullivan's.

As it seemed probable that he was still at Mr. Miller's, Gertrude

proceeded thither at once. After an uncomfortable walk, she reached her

destination. She knocked at the door, but there was no response, and

after waiting a moment, she opened it, and went in. Through another door

there was the sound of children's voices, and so much noise that she

believed it impossible to make herself heard, and, therefore, without

further ceremony, entered the room. A band of startled children

dispersed at the sight of a stranger, and ensconced themselves in

corners; and Mrs. Miller, in dismay at the untidy appearance of her

kitchen, hastily pushed back a clothes-horse against the wall, thereby

disclosing to view the very person Gertrude had come to seek, who, in

his usual desponding attitude, sat cowering over the fire. But, before

she could advance to speak to him, her attention was arrested by a most

unexpected sight. Placed against the side of the room, opposite the

door, was a narrow bed, in which some person seemed to be sleeping.

Hardly, however, had Gertrude presented herself in the doorway before

the figure suddenly raised itself, gazed fixedly at her, lifted a hand

as if to ward off her approach, and uttered a piercing shriek.

The voice and countenance were not to be mistaken, and Gertrude, pale

and trembling, felt something like a revival of her old dread as she

beheld the well-known features of Nan Grant.

"Go away! go _away_!" cried Nan, as Gertrude advanced into the room.

Again Gertrude paused, for the wildness of Nan's eyes and the excitement

of her countenance were such that she feared to excite her further. Mrs.

Miller now came forward and said, "Why, Aunt Nancy! what is the matter?

This is Miss Flint, one of the best young ladies in the land."

"No, 'tan't!" said Nan. "I know better."

Mrs. Miller now drew Gertrude aside into the shadow of the

clothes-horse, and conversed with her in an undertone, while Nan,

leaning on her elbow, and peering after them, maintained a watchful,

listening attitude. Gertrude was informed that Mrs. Miller was a niece

of Ben Grant's, but had seen nothing of him or his wife for years,

until, a few days previous. Nan had come there in a state of the

greatest destitution, and threatened with the fever under which she was

now suffering. "I could not refuse her a shelter," said Mrs. Miller;

"but, as you see, I have no accommodation for her; and it's not only bad

for me to have her sick here in the kitchen, but, what with the noise of

the children, and all the other discomforts, I'm afraid the poor old

thing will die."

"Have you a room that you could spare above-stairs?" asked Gertrude.

"Why, there's our Jane," answered Mrs. Miller; "she's a good-hearted

girl as ever lived; she said, right off, she'd give up her room to poor

Aunt Nancy, and she'd sleep in with the other children. I don't feel,

though, as if we could afford to keep another fire agoing, and so I

thought we'd put a bed here for a day or two, and just see how she got

along. But she's looked pretty bad to-day; and now, I'm thinking from

her actions that she's considerable out of her head."

"She ought to be kept quiet," said Gertrude; "and, if you will have a

fire in Jane's room at my expense, and do what you can to make her

comfortable, I'll send a physician here to see her." Mrs. Miller was

beginning to express the warmest gratitude, but Gertrude interrupted her

with saying, "Don't thank me, Mrs. Miller; Nancy is not a stranger to

me; I have known her before, and, perhaps, feel more interested in her

than you do yourself."

Mrs. Miller looked surprised; but Gertrude could not stop to enter into

a further explanation. Anxious to speak to Nan, and assure her of her

friendly intentions, she went up to the side of the bed, in spite of the

wild and glaring eyes which were fixed steadily upon her. "Nan," said

she, "do you know me?"

"Yes! yes!" replied Nan, in a half-whisper, speaking quickly, and

catching her breath; "what have you come for?"

"To do you good, I hope."

But Nan still looked incredulous, and in the same undertone, and with

the same nervous accent, inquired, "Have you seen Gerty? Where is she?"

"She is well," answered Gertrude, astonished at the question, for she

had supposed herself recognised.

"What did she say about me?"

"She says that she forgives and pities you, and is in hopes to do

something to help you and make you well."

"Did she?" said the sick woman; "then you won't kill me?"

"Kill you?--No, indeed. We are in hopes to make you comfortable and cure

you."

Mrs. Miller, who had been preparing a cup of tea, now drew near with it

in her hand. Gertrude took it and offered it to Nan, who drank eagerly

of it, staring at her over the edge of the cup. When she had finished,

she threw herself heavily upon the pillow, and began muttering some

indistinct sentences, the only distinguishable word being the name of

her son Stephen. Finding the current of her thoughts thus apparently

diverted, Gertrude now feeling in haste to return and relieve Dr.

Jeremy, who had so kindly agreed to stay with Mrs. Sullivan, moved a

little from the bedside, saying as she did so, "Good-bye, I will come

and see you again."

"You won't hurt me?" said Nan, starting up.

"Oh, no. I will bring you something you will like."

"Don't bring Gerty here with you! I don't want to see her."

"I will come alone," replied Gertrude.

Nan now laid down, and did not speak again while Gertrude remained in

the house, though she watched her steadily until she was outside the

door. Mr. Cooper made no objection to accompanying his young guide, and

though the severity of the storm was such that they did not escape a

thorough wetting, they reached home in safety.

Dr. Jeremy, seated with his feet upon the fender, had the contented

appearance of one who is quite at home. He had been talking with Mrs.

Sullivan about the people of a country town where they had both passed

some time in their childhood, and the timid woman had come to feel so

much at her ease in the society of the social and entertaining

physician, that, though he had accidentally disclosed his profession,

she allowed him to question her upon the state of her health, without

any of the alarm she had fancied she should feel at the sight of a

doctor. By the time Gertrude returned, he had made himself well

acquainted with the case, and was prepared, on Mrs. Sullivan's leaving

the room, to provide dry clothes for her father, to report to Gertrude

his opinion.

"Gertrude," said he, as soon as the door was shut, "that's a very sick

woman."

"Do you think so, Dr. Jeremy?" said Gertrude, much alarmed, and sinking

into the nearest chair.

"I do," replied he. "I wish I had seen her six months ago."

"Why, doctor? Do you date her illness so far back as that?"

"Yes, and much farther. She has borne up under the gradual progress of a

disease which is now, I fear, beyond the aid of medical treatment."

"Dr. Jeremy," said Gertrude, "you do not mean to tell me that auntie is

going to die and leave me, and her poor old father, and without ever

seeing Willie again, too? Oh, I had hoped it was not nearly so bad as

that!"

"Do not be alarmed, Gertrude," said the doctor. "I did not mean to

frighten you;--she may live some time yet. I can judge better of her

case in a day or two. But it is absolutely _unsafe_ for you to be here

alone with these two friends of yours--to say nothing of its overtasking

your strength. Has not Mrs. Sullivan the means to keep a nurse, or even

a domestic? She tells me she has no one."

"Yes, indeed," answered Gerty; "her son supplies her wants most

generously. I know that she never draws nearly the whole of the amount

he is anxious she should expend."

"Then you must speak to her about getting some one to assist you at

once; for, if you do not, I shall."

"I intend to do it," said Gertrude. "I have seen the necessity for some

time past; but she has such a dread of strangers, that I hated to

propose it."

"Nonsense," said the doctor; "that's only imagination in her; she would

soon get used to being waited upon."

Mrs. Sullivan now returned, and Gertrude, giving an account of her

unexpected re-encounter with Nan Grant, begged Dr. Jeremy to go the next

day and see her. "It will be a visit of charity," said she, "for she is

probably penniless; and, though staying with your old patients, the

Millers, she is but distantly connected, and has no claim upon them.

That never makes any difference with you, however, I know very well."

"Not a bit, not a bit," answered the doctor. "I'll go and see her

to-night, if the case requires it, and to-morrow I shall look in to

report how she is, and hear the rest of what Mrs. Sullivan was telling

me about her wakeful nights. But, Gertrude, do you go, child, and change

your wet shoes and stockings. I shall have you on my hands next."

Mrs. Sullivan was delighted with Dr. Jeremy. "So different," said she,

"from common doctors" (a portion of humanity for which she seemed to

have an unaccountable aversion); "so social and friendly! Why, I felt,

Gertrude, as if I could talk to him about my sickness as freely as I can

to you."

Gertrude joined in the praises bestowed upon her much-valued friend, and

it was tea-time before Mrs. Sullivan was weary of the subject. After the

evening meal was over, and Mr. Cooper had been persuaded to retire to

rest, while Mrs. Sullivan, reclining on the sofa, was enjoying what she

always termed her happiest hour, Gertrude broached the subject

recommended by Dr. Jeremy. Contrary to her expectations, Mrs. Sullivan

no longer objected to the proposal of introducing a domestic into the

family. She was convinced of her own incompetency to perform any active

labour, and was equally opposed to the exertion on Gertrude's part which

had, during the last week, been requisite. Gertrude suggested Jane

Miller as a girl well suited to their wants, and it was agreed that she

should be applied for on the next morning.

One more glance at Gertrude, and we shall have followed her to the

conclusion of the day. She is alone. It is ten o'clock, and the house is

still. Mr. Cooper is sound asleep. Gertrude has just listened at his

door, and heard his loud breathing. Mrs. Sullivan, under the influence

of a soothing draught recommended by Dr. Jeremy, has fallen into an

unusually quiet slumber. The little Calcutta birds, ten in number, that

occupy a large cage in the window, are nestled side by side on their

slender perch, and Gertrude has thrown a warm covering over them, that

they might not suffer from the cold night air. She has locked the doors,

made all things safe and comfortable, and now sits down to read, to

meditate, and pray. Her trials and cares are multiplying. A great grief

stares her in the face, and a great responsibility; but she shrinks not

from either. No! on the contrary, she thanks God that she is here; that

she had the resolution to forsake pleasure and ease, and in spite of

her own weakness and man's wrath, to place herself in the front of

life's battle, and bravely wait its issues. She thanks God that she

knows where to look for help. But, though her heart is brave and her

faith firm, she has a woman's tender nature; and, as she sits alone she

weeps--weeps for herself, and for him who, far away in a foreign land,

is counting the days, the months, and years which shall restore him to a

mother he is destined never to see again. But remembering that she is to

stand in the place of a child to that parent, and that her hand must

soothe the pillow of the invalid, and minister to all her wants, comes

the stern necessity of self-control--a necessity to which Gertrude has

long since learned to submit--and, rallying all her calmness and

fortitude, she wipes away the tears, and commends herself to Him who is

strength to the weak and comfort to the sorrowing.

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