THE TRUE VISION
To her bedchamber went Mora--she who had been Prioress of the White
Ladies--bearing in her arms the full robes of her Order, and in her
hand the jewelled cross of her high office. She went, expecting to
spend hours in doubt and prayer and question before the shrine of the
Virgin. But, as she pushed open the door and entered the sunlit
chamber, on the very threshold she was met by a flash of inward
illumination. Surely every question had already been answered; the
second issue had been decided, while the first was yet wholly uncertain.
She had said she must have a divine vision. Had she not this very day
been granted a two-fold vision, both human and divine; the Divine,
stooping in unspeakable tenderness and comprehension to the human; the
Human, upborne on the mighty pinions of pure love and stainless honour
in a self-sacrifice which lifted it to the Divine?
In the lonely chapel on the mountain, she had seen her Lord. Not as
the Babe, heralded by angels, worshipped by Eastern shepherds, adored
by Gentile kings, throned on His Mother's knee, wise-eyed and God-like,
stretching omnipotent baby hands toward this mysterious homage which
was His due; accepting, with baby omniscience, the gold, the
frankincense, the myrrh, which typified His mission; nor as the Divine
Redeemer nailed helpless to the cross of shame; dead, that the world
might live. These had been the visions of her cloistered years.
But in the chapel on the mountain she had seen Him as the human Jesus,
tempted in all points like as we are, His only visible halo the "yet
without sin," which set upon His brow in youth and manhood the divine
seal of perfect purity, and in His eyes the clear shining of
uninterrupted intercourse with Heaven.
As she had left the chapel, turning from the sculptured figure which
had helped her to this realisation, she had become wondrously aware of
the Unseen Presence of the Christ, close beside her. "As seeing Him
Who is invisible" she had come down from the mount, conscious that He
went on before. She seemed to be following those blessèd footsteps
over the heather of her native hills, even as the disciples of old
followed them through the cornfields of Judea, and over the grassy
slopes of Galilee. Yet conscious also that He moved beside her, with
hand outstretched in case her spirit tripped; and that, should a hidden
foe fling shafts from an ambush in the rear, even there that Unseen
Presence would be behind her as a shield. "Lo I am with you always,
even unto the end of the world."
Strong in this most human vision of the Divine, she had come down from
the Holy Mount, prepared to face the dumb demon she dreaded, the silent
acquiescence in deception, which threatened to tear her happiness,
bruise her spirit, and cast into the fire and into the waters to
destroy them, those treasures which her heart had lately learned to
hold so dear.
Prepared for this, she came; and lo, Heaven granted her the second
vision. She saw deep into the heart of a true man's faithfulness; an
example of chivalry, of profound reverence for holy things, which
shamed her doubts of him; a self-sacrifice which lifted the great human
love, to which she, in her cloistered sanctity, had pictured herself as
stooping, far above her, to the ideal of the divine. Was not this
indeed a Vision of Truth?
Crossing the room, Mora laid the robes she carried upon the couch.
While mounting the stairs she had planned, in the secret of her own
chamber, to clothe herself in them once again, to hang her jewelled
cross about her neck, and thus--once more Prioress of the White
Ladies--to kneel at our Lady's shrine, and implore guidance in this
final decision. But now, she laid them gently down upon the bed.
She could not stand fast in this new liberty, with the heavy folds of
that white habit entangling her feet in a yoke of bondage.
The heart, filled with a love so full of glowing tenderness for her
Knight of the Silver Shield proved worthy, could not beat beneath a
scapulary. Nor could her cross of office lie where his dear head had
rested.
She stood before the shrine. The Madonna looked gravely upon her. The
holy Babe gazed with omniscient eyes, holding forth tiny hands of
omnipotence.
Even so had they looked in her hour of joy, when she had kneeled in a
transport of thanksgiving.
Even so had they looked in her hour of anguish, when she had poured out
her despair at having been twice deceived.
Yet help had not come, until she had lifted her eyes unto the hills.
She turned from the shrine, went swiftly to the open casement, and
stood looking over the green tree tops, to the heavenly blue beyond,
flecked by swift moving clouds.
She, who had now learned to "look . . . at the things that are not
seen," could not find help through gazing on carven images.
Thoughts of our Lady seemed more living and vital while she kept her
eyes upon the fleecy whiteness of those tiny clouds, or watched a
flight of mountain birds, silver-winged in the sunshine.
What was the one command recorded as having been given, by the blessèd
Mother of our Lord, to men? "Whatsoever He saith unto you, do it."
And what was His last injunction to His Church on earth? "Go ye into
all the world and preach glad tidings to every creature. . . . And lo,
I am with you always."
Mora could not but know that she had come forth into her world bringing
the glad tidings of love requited, of comfort, and of home.
By virtue of this promise the feet of the risen Christ would move
beside her "all the days."
It seemed to her, that if she went back now into her Convent cell, she
would nail those blessèd feet to the wood again. In slaying this new
life within herself, she would lose forever the sense of living
companionship, retaining only the religion of the Crucifix. Enough,
perhaps, for the cloistered life. But this life more abundant,
demanded that grace should yet more abound.
A great apostolic injunction sounded, like a clarion call, from the
stored chancel of her memory. "As ye have therefore received Christ
Jesus the Lord, so walk ye in Him."
She flung wide her arms. A sense of all-pervading liberty, a complete
freedom from all bondage of spirit, soul, or body, leapt up responsive
to the call.
"I will!" she said. "Without any further fear or faltering, I will!"
She passed to the couch, folded the robes she had worn so long, and
laid them away in an empty chest.
This done, she took her cross of office, and went down to the terrace.
Her one thought was to reach Hugh with as little delay as possible.
She could not leave that noble heart in suspense, a moment longer than
she need.
The sun was still high in the heavens. By the short way through the
woods, she could reach the castle long before sunset.
She owed Hugh much. Yet there was another to whom she also owed a
debt; how much she owed to him, this day's new light had shewn her.
She would go forward to her joy with a freer heart if she gave herself
time to discharge, by acknowledgment and thanks, the great debt she
owed to her old and faithful friend, Symon, Bishop of Worcester.
She sent for her steward.
"Zachary," she said, "Sir Hugh has ridden on before. I follow by the
short way through the forest, and shall not return to-night. Bid them
saddle my white palfrey, Icon. I shall be ready to start within an
hour. But first I must despatch to Worcester, a packet of importance.
Bid two of the men, who rode with us from Worcester, prepare to mount
and return thither. If they start in an hour's time, they can be well
on their way, and make a safe lodging, before nightfall."
She passed into the library, laid the cross before her on the table,
and began her letter to the Bishop.
Straight from her hand to his, that letter went; straight from her
heart to his, that letter spoke; and Symon's comfort in it, lies
largely in the knowledge that she was alone when she wrote it, alone
when she sealed it, and that none in this world, saving they two, will
ever know exactly what the woman, whom he had loved so purely and
served so faithfully, said to him in this letter.
Bare facts, however, may be given.
She told him, as briefly as might be, of that morning's great
experience; of Hugh's return, and noble self-effacement; of the clear
light she had received, and the decision to which she had come; and of
how she was now going forward, with a free heart, to her great
happiness.
And then, in glowing words, she told him all she owed to his faithful,
patient friendship, to the teaching of long years, the trend of which
had always been life, light, liberty; a wider outlook, a fearless
judgment, a clear knowledge of God, based on inspired writings; and,
above all, belief in those words, often on his lips, always in his
heart: "Love never faileth."
"Truly, my dear lord," she wrote, "your love----" Nay, it may not be
quoted!
She told him how his teaching, following along the same lines as that
of Father Gervaise years before, had prepared her mind for this
revelation of the ever-living Saviour.
"Now the mystery is unveiled to me also," she wrote, "I realise that
you knew it all along; and that, had I but been more teachable,
Reverend Father, you could have taught me more. Oh, I pray you, take
heart of grace, and teach these great truths to others."
She blessed him for his faithfulness in striving to make her see her
duty to Hugh, and her life's true vocation.
She blessed him for her great happiness, yet thanked him for his care
in sending her cross of office, thus making all easy in order that, had
her conscience so required, she could have safely returned. She
herewith sent him the cross, and begged that he would keep it,
remembering when he chanced to look upon it----
She also begged him to forgive her the many times when she had tried
his patience, and been herself impatient of his wise counsel and
control.
And, finally, she signed herself ---- ---- ----
Mora held the cross to her lips, then placed it within the letter,
folded the packet, sealed it with her own seal, addressed it with full
directions, and called for the messenger.
Thus, fully four days before he had looked to have it, the answer for
which he waited, reached the Bishop's hand. As he opened it, and
perceived the gleam of gold and emeralds, he glanced across to the deed
chest, where lay the Knight's white stone.
The rose beside it had not yet faded. It might have been plucked and
placed in the water that morning, so fair it bloomed--a red, red rose.
Ah, Verity! Little Angel Child!
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It was said in sunny Florence in the years that followed, and, later
on, it was remarked in Rome, that if the Lord High Cardinal--kindest of
men--was tried almost beyond bearing, if even _his_ calm patience
seemed in danger of ruffling, or if he was weary, or sad, or
disheartened, he had a way of slipping his hand into the bosom of his
scarlet robe, as if he gently fingered something that lay against his
heart.
Whereupon at, once his brow grew serene again, his blue eyes kindly and
bright, his lips smiled that patient smile which never failed; and, as
he drew forth his hand, the stone within his ring, though pale before,
glowed deep red, as juice of purple grapes in a goblet.