OBSERVATIONS OF A RETIRED VETERAN VI

Well, we have gotten you into a new year! Life and Fate and Time, all

have managed to get you here. With many of you they had a hard pull

to get you here. Some of you have been near to death; some of you so

miserable you hardly wanted to try another year here, and the majority

of you have shown the least interest about getting here. I don't

reproach you; you are only following the perverse example of Human

Nature. Did it ever strike you that the globe and the people who live

on its surface, are always marching different ways? While all the

restless tide of humanity moves to the West, the globe turns itself

to the East. On its surface, Man is much like the acrobat we see at

the theatres, who, mounted on his parti-colored ball, faces one way

while it moves the other. It must be a queer spectacle to those who,

from the planetary dress circle of the universe, are watching us through

their opera glasses. It must be still queerer to them when they hear

us chanting a Miserere at the approach of an invincible line across

the face of Time, as imaginary as the Equator, and when it is passed,

filling the air with a Jubilate--the songs of the dying and the coming

year. It is rather a comfort to us that we don't believe in the dress

circle of gazers; that we have the comfortable belief that we are the

only people in the Universe, and that beyond the questionable discovery

of a canal across one of the planets, the wisest of astronomers have

found no evidence of human life elsewhere. And so, with a Crusoe-like

sense of solitude, we live on our traditions, on our religions, and

on our ideas of Man to the exclusion of the rest of the Universe.

With an impartial judgment, therefore, and not influenced by the

approval or disapproval of this vast dress circle, in whose existence

we have no faith, let us take up these imaginary lines for a moment.

It is unquestionable that, whether for good or evil, they have descended

to us by tradition and custom as a legacy. They are sufficiently real

to be of practical use, and they are used. It is by them that we set

a time--alas, that we should have the necessity of doing it--to discard

some vice, some sin, some weakness. We use them in the interest of

procrastination--that we may put off the parting day with something

our conscience, or our taste, or both, disapprove. By them we appoint

a time when we shall say to the divine spark within our breasts, you

may flame out into our daily life. By them we give a respite which

alas, often ends in a commutation of sentence and oftener still in a

full pardon and restoration to peace.

So, you see, I do not think a great deal of old year remorse or New

Year resolutions. I think they are just that much better than none at

all, and this has to be qualified by the damage they do in having us

put off reformation. That a man should fix a day to reform in this or

that particular, is at least an evidence that he is aware of his need

of it--a great point gained. These years are but little stepping-stones

across the narrow brook of Time that pours into the vast ocean of

Eternity, and it is a good sign when a man approaches the next, and

the next, and the next with increasing reverence and sense of the

responsibility of his progress. It is a good sign when a man begins

to discover in the impediments of life, what is necessary and what is

absolutely hurtful to him in the journey of life, and when, with the

discovery, he summons up enough resolution to fix a day to throw away

the bad. It is hard for the best of us to get our load rightly picked

over. When we have failed to start right in youth, it is unspeakably

hard after getting out into the dust and glare of the world to assort

our burden over, and drop what ill elements we have gathered on the

road. That a man should fix a time to do this is itself a good thing

and just that far these imaginary lines are good.

But something far better, far manlier, is to have the firmness to draw

our own lines at our own times. It is so peculiarly a personal matter

that we can well afford to let the World have its lines and we have

our own. If you agree with me, then your own line is drawn at To-day

and Every Day. If a man cannot enter on a new life every day, he can

unquestionably enter on at least a newer life every day. It must be

a barren and unfruitful mind to which something--good or evil--is not

added every day, to make it that much newer. You know this yourself.

You have seen healthy, pure-minded boys start out in life and you have

met them later with minds so darned with vice here, and patched with

sin there, that you hardly recognized them. That transformation was

not done in a day. You have seen boys that you knew at school without

a bad habit, and when you met them again they had added to their lives

drinking, gambling, everything this side of a police court. That was

not done in a day. We do nothing in a day--not even reform in a day.

All good and evil is a matter of ascent and descent-the latter only

the faster because the grade is easier. It is not an easy experiment

in the world to be a good man. No man ever fixed a day to become a

good one. It is an uphill road, a long road, and one who proposes to

walk it must fix no later hour than now lest night-fall find him far

from the end of it.

But the young man who determines to walk it in this day, has a far

easier road than he would have had thirty years ago. It is the fashion

to say that the road grows no better. It is not true; the world's

opinion grows better every day. There were many things respectable

thirty years ago that are absolutely disreputable now. Then, a

middle-aged man might drink at a bar with a boy of twenty. If he did

it to-day he would be marked at once. Then, drinking and gambling were

looked upon as the wild oats a young man might sow, without losing

caste. To-day, the young man who drinks and gambles is looked upon as

of doubtful social position, by both men and women. To-day, in making

their lists of invitations, leaders in society cross out the names of

dissipated young men as promptly as they do those of fast young women.

Whereas thirty years ago there was rather a mantle of sentimental

charity fitted on the shoulders of a disreputable young fellow, to-day

he is roughly talked of as a "drunkard" or a "common fellow"; terms

that no one dreamed of applying to him then. There has been nothing

that public opinion, especially that section of it that may be called

social opinion, has changed in more than in the standard it fixes for,

and demands from, all men, and particularly young men. The result is

that when a man wants to be superior to vice now, he has the moral

weight of a sounder public opinion and finds the road easier than he

would have had thirty years ago.

I have said nothing to you about any higher inducement to commence a

better life every day, than those you can find in the world. They are

quite sufficient, or ought to be. A healthy body, a clear mind, success

in the world--these are the rewards which a good life offers here.

There is just one other word about what it offers elsewhere. I am not

a preacher, you need not be afraid of a sermon. I am just one of

yourselves; only I have come over a longer road than you have, and

have seen more of its pitfalls as well as more of its sign-boards. Nor

do I pretend to know more than you of what it offers elsewhere. But

I just wish to say one word to recall what you already know; what you

must know. There is nothing that we all know better--nothing that is

more surely planted in the human mind than that this is only a part

of our life; that when we shall reach a future existence, we shall

there find a life awaiting us which will match with the piece we carry

from this one. It is a very grave thought--graver than any which we

shall consider on earth, if we are intelligent men--which the match

will be--whether it will be found in one of infinite misery or one of

infinite betterment. Here we have the power to say which it shall be.

It is a priceless power. Let us use it, not in fixing days for

reformation, not in lamenting over promises of reforms broken, and

fixing other days to come; but in living a newer life every day--As

we can make no bargain nor compromise about the time and place where

our life shall end, let us take the matter into our own hands and so

live that it will matter little when or where the end comes. So live

that when the summons come,

"Thou go not, like the quarry slave at night

Scourged to his dungeon, but, sustained and soothed

By an unfaltering trust, approach thy grave

Like one who wraps the drapery of his couch

About him, and lies down to pleasant dreams."

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