With his face to the intruder, Chisholm stood leaning with his hand upon
the back of a chair.
"Friends are to me useless, Miss Mortimer," he answered her.
"Others perhaps are useless, but I may prove to be the exception," she
said very gravely. "You want a friend, and I am ready to become yours."
"Your offer is a kind one," he replied, still regarding her with
suspicion, for he could not divine the real reason of her visit there,
or why she had concealed herself, unless she had done so to learn, if
possible, his secret. "I thank you for it, but cannot accept it."
"But, surely, you do not intend to perform such a cowardly act as to
take your own life," she said in a measured tone of voice, looking at
him with her wide-open eyes. "It is my duty to prevent you from
committing such a mad action as that."
"I quite admit that it would be mad," he said. "But the victim of
circumstances can only accept the inevitable."
"Why, how strangely and despondently you talk, Mr. Chisholm! From my
hiding-place at the back of those curtains, I've been watching you this
hour or more. Your nervousness has developed into madness, if you will
permit me to criticise. Had it not been for my presence here you would
by this time have taken your life. For what reason? Shall I tell you?
Because, Mr. Chisholm, you are a coward. You are in terror of an
exposure that you dare not face."
"How do you know?" he cried fiercely, springing towards her in alarm.
"Who told you?"
"You told me yourself," she answered. "Your own lips denounced you."
"What did I say? What foolish nonsense did I utter in my madness?" he
demanded, the fact now being plain that she had heard all the wild words
that had escaped him. The old colonel had warned him that this woman
was not his friend. He reflected that, at all costs he must silence
her. She paused for a few moments in hesitation.
"Believing yourself to be here alone, you discussed aloud your secret in
all its hideousness--the secret of your sin."
"And if I did--what then?" he demanded defiantly. His courtliness
towards her had been succeeded by an undisguised resentment. To think
that she should have been brought into his house to act as eavesdropper,
and to learn his secret!
"Nothing, except that I am now in your confidence, and, having rescued
you from an ignominious end, am anxious to become your friend," she
answered in a quiet tone of voice. Her face was pale, but she was,
nevertheless, firm and resolute.
He was puzzled more than ever in regard to her. With his wild eyes full
upon her, he tried to make out whether it was by design or by accident
that she was there, locked in that room with him. That she was an
inveterate novel-reader he knew, but her excuse that she had come there
to obtain a book at so late an hour scarcely bore an air of probability.
Besides, she had exchanged her smart dinner-gown for a dark stuff
dress. No, she had spied upon him. The thought lashed him to fury.
"To calculate the amount of profit likely to accrue to oneself as the
result of a friend's misfortune is no sign of friendship," he said in a
sarcastic voice. "No, Miss Mortimer, you have, by thus revealing your
presence, prolonged my life by a few feverish minutes, but your words
certainly do not establish the sincerity of your friendship. Besides,"
he added, "we scarcely know each other."
"I admit that; but let us reconsider all the facts," she said, leaning a
little toward him, across the back of a chair. "Your actions have shown
that the matter is to you one of life or death. If so, it manifestly
deserves careful and mature consideration."
He nodded, but no word passed his lips. She seemed a strangely sage
person, this girl with the fair hair, whose parentage was so obscure,
and whose invitation to his house was due to some ridiculous _penchant_
felt for her by Claudia. Why she had ever been invited puzzled him. He
would gladly have asked her to return to town on the day of her arrival
if it had been possible to forget the laws of hospitality and chivalry.
The whole matter had annoyed him greatly, and this was its climax.
"Well, now," she went on, in a voice which proved her to be in no way
excited, "I gather from your words and actions that you fear to face the
truth--that your guilt is such that exposure will mean ruin. Is this
so?"
"Well, to speak plainly, it is so," he said mechanically, looking back
at the glassful of death on the table.
"You must avoid exposure."
"How?"
"By acting like a man, not like a coward."
He looked at her sharply, without replying. She spoke with all the
gravity of a woman twice her years, and he could not decide whether she
were really in earnest in the expression of her readiness to become his
friend. One thing was absolutely certain, namely, that she was
acquainted with the innermost secrets of his heart. In the wild madness
of despair he had blurted out his fear and agony of mind, and she had
actually been the witness of those moments of sweet melancholy when, at
the sight of that lock of hair, he had allowed his thoughts to wander
back to the days long dead, when the world was to him so rosy and full
of life. Should he conciliate her, or should he, on the other hand,
defy her and refuse her assistance? That she, of all women, should in
this fashion thrust herself into his life was strange indeed. But had
she actually thrust herself upon him, or was her presence there, as she
had alleged, a mere freak of fortune?
"You say that I ought to act like a man, Miss Mortimer. Well, I am
ready to hear your suggestion."
"My suggestion is quite simple: it is that you should live, be bold, and
face those who seek your downfall."
He sighed despairingly.
"In theory that's all very well, but in practice, impossible," he
answered after a short pause.
"Think! You are wealthy, you are famous, with hosts of friends who will
come to your aid if you confide in them--"
"Ah! but I cannot confide in them," he cried despondently, interrupting
her. "You are the only person who knows the secret of my intention."
"But surely you will not deliberately seek such an inglorious end--you,
the pride and hope of a political party, and one of a race that has
century after century been famous for producing noble Englishmen. It is
madness--sheer madness!"
"I know it," he admitted; "but to me birth, position, wealth, popularity
are all nothing."
"I can quite understand that all these qualities may count as nothing to
you, Mr. Chisholm," she said in a tone of voice indicative of
impatience, "but there is still one reason more why you should hesitate
to take the step you have just been contemplating."
"And what is that?"
For a moment she remained silent, looking straight at him with her
splendid eyes, as if to read the book of his heart. At length she made
answer:
"Because a woman worships you."
He started, wondering quickly if his midnight visitor intended those
words to convey a declaration of love. With an effort he smiled in a
good-humoured way, but almost instantly his dark features regained their
tragic expression.
"And if a woman pays me that compliment, is it not a misfortune for
her?" he asked. There was a motive in her concealment there. What
could it be?
"It surely should not be so, if the love is perfect, as it is in the
present case."
"Well," he said, smiling, "apparently you are better acquainted with my
private affairs than I am myself, Miss Mortimer. But in any case the
love of this woman whom you mention can be only a passing fancy. True,
I was loved once, long ago. But that all belongs to the past."
"And the only relic of the bygone romance is that lock of hair? Yes, I
know all. I have seen all. And your secret is, I assure you, safe with
me."
"But this woman who--well, who is attracted towards me? What is her
name?" he demanded, not without some interest.
"You surely know her," she answered. "The woman who is your best and
most devoted friend--the woman in whom you should surely confide before
attempting to take such a step as you are contemplating to-night--Lady
Richard Nevill."
His lips again set themselves hard at the mention of that name. Was it
uttered in sarcasm, or was she in real earnest? He regarded her keenly
for a moment, and then inclined to the latter opinion.
"The relations existing between Lady Richard and myself are our own
affair," he said, vexed by her reference to a subject which of all
others, next to the knowledge of his sin, perturbed him most.
"But your secret concerns her," Muriel declared. "Many times you have
confided in her and asked her help at the various crises in your career.
Why not now? Her very life is yours."
"Am I to understand that you wish to pay me compliments, Miss Mortimer?"
"No. This is hardly the time for paying compliments. I speak the
truth, Mr. Chisholm. She loves you."
"Then if that is really so, it seems an additional misfortune has
overtaken me," he replied hoarsely, unable as yet to grasp her motive.
"All the world knows that she is madly in love with you, and would be
ready to become your wife to-morrow. Under all the circumstances I must
say that your indifference strikes me as almost unbelievable."
She was pleading for Claudia, a fact which made the mystery surrounding
her all the more perplexing. He did not notice that she was calmly
watching the effect of her words upon him.
"You hold a brief for Lady Richard, but I fail to see the reason why.
We are friends, very old friends, but nothing else. Our future concerns
no one but ourselves," he said.
"Exactly. The future of each of you concerns the other," she answered
triumphantly. "She loves you, and because of this all her thoughts are
centred in you."
"I must really confess, Miss Mortimer, that I do not see the drift of
your argument," he said. "Lady Richard has no connection whatever with
the present matter, which is my private affair alone."
"But since she loves you as devotedly as she does, it concerns her
deeply."
"I repeat that we are friends, not lovers," he replied with some
asperity.
"And I repeat, just as emphatically, that she loves you, and that it is
your duty to confide in her," answered Muriel, determined not to haul
down her flag.
"Love!" he cried bitterly, beginning to pace the room, for as soon as he
thought of Claudia his attempt to remain calm was less and less
effective; "what is love to me? There is no love for such as I."
"No, Mr. Chisholm," she said earnestly, stretching forth her hand.
"Pardon me, I pray, for speaking thus, but to every man and woman both
love and happiness are given, if only they will accept it."
He was thinking of Claudia, and of the fact that she had first seen
Cator and had contrived to keep him aloof from the guests. She could
surely suspect nothing, otherwise she would have waited to see him after
the visitor's departure. Yes, he knew that everything said by this
fair-haired girl was quite true. That was the unfortunate factor in the
affair. She loved him.
"Tell me, then," he demanded at last, "what do you advise? You know
that I have a secret; that I intend deliberately to take my life and to
trouble no one any further. As you have prevented me from doing so, it
is to you I look for help and good counsel."
"I am ready and eager to give both," she exclaimed, "only I very much
fear that you do not trust me, Mr. Chisholm! Well, after all, that is
not very remarkable when the short period of our acquaintanceship is
borne in mind. Nevertheless, I am Claudia's friend, and consequently
yours. You must really not do anything foolish. Think of your own
position, and of the harsh judgment you will naturally provoke by your
insane action!"
"I know! I know!" he replied. "But to me the opinion of the world
counts for absolutely nothing. I have sinned, and, like other men, must
bear the penalty. For me there is no pardon on this side of the grave."
"There is always pardon for the man who is loved."
"A love that must turn to hate when the truth is discovered," he added
bitterly, with a short, dry laugh. "No, I much prefer the alternative
of death. I do not fear the end, I assure you. Indeed, I really
welcome it," and he laughed again nervously, as though suicide were one
of the humours of life.
"No," she cried in earnestness, laying her hand gently on his arm.
"Listen to reason, Mr. Chisholm. I know I have no right to speak to you
like this--only the right of a fellow-creature who would prevent you
from taking the rash step you contemplate. But I want you fully to
realise your responsibility towards the woman who so dearly loves you."
"Our love is ended," he blurted out, with a quick, furtive look at the
glass upon the writing-table. "I have no further responsibility."
"Has it really ended?" she asked anxiously. "Can you honestly and
truthfully say before your Maker that you entertain no love for Lady
Richard--that she is never in your thoughts?"
Her question nonplussed him. A lie arose to his lips, but remained
there unuttered.
"You are thinking of that former love," she went on; "of that wild,
impetuous affection of long ago, that madness which has resulted so
disastrously, eh? Yes, I know. You still love Lady Richard, while she,
for her part, entertains a loving thought for no other man but you. And
yet there is a sad, sweet memory within you which you can neither stifle
nor forget." There was a tone of distinct melancholy in her voice.
"You have guessed aright," he answered in a strained tone. "The tragedy
of it all is before me day and night, and it is that alone which holds
me at a distance from Claudia."
"Why not make full confession to her?" she suggested, after a short
pause.
Surely it was very strange, he thought, that she, who was little more
than a mere girl, should venture to debate with him his private affairs.
To him it appeared suspiciously as though she had already discussed the
situation with the woman who had introduced her beneath his roof. Had
they arranged all this between them? But if his madness had not blinded
him, he would have detected the contemptuous curl of the lip when she
uttered Claudia's name.
"I have neither the wish nor the intention to confess anything," he
answered. "You alone know my secret, Miss Mortimer, and I rely upon
your honesty as a woman to divulge nothing."
For answer she walked quickly to the table, took up the glass, and flung
its contents upon the broad, old-fashioned hearthstone.
"I solemnly promise you," she said, as she replaced the empty tumbler
and confronted him again. "I promise you that as long as you hold back
from this suicidal madness the world shall know nothing. Live, be
brave, grapple with those who seek your downfall, and reciprocate the
love of the woman who is both eager and ready to assist and defend you."
It struck him that in the last words of this sentence she referred to
herself. If so, hers was, indeed, a strange lovemaking.
"No," replied the despondent man. "My position is hopeless--utterly
hopeless."
As his head was turned away, he did not notice the strange glint in her
eyes. For a single instant the fierce fire of hatred burned there, but
in a moment it had vanished, and she was once more the same calm,
persuasive woman as throughout the conversation she had been.
"But your position is really not so serious as you imagine," she
declared. "If you will only place confidence in me I can help you ever
so much. Indeed, I anticipate that, if I so wish, I can rescue you from
the exposure and ruin that threatens you."
"You?" he cried incredulously. "How can you hope to rescue me?" he
demanded sharply, taking a step toward her in his eagerness to know what
the answer to his question would be.
"By means known only to myself," she said, watching him with
panther-like intensity. She had changed her tactics.
"From your words it would appear that my future is to be controlled in
most respects by you, Miss Mortimer," he observed with a slight touch of
sarcasm in his hard voice.
"You have spoken correctly. It is."
"And for what reason, pray?" he inquired, frowning in his perplexity.
"Because I alone know the truth, Mr. Chisholm," she said distinctly. "I
am aware of the secret of your sin. All of these hideous facts are in
my possession."
He started violently, glaring at her open-mouthed, as though she were
some superhuman monstrosity.
"You believe that I am lying to you, but I declare that I am not. I am
in full possession of the secret of your sin, even to its smallest
detail. If you wish, I will defend you, and show you a means by which
you can defy those who are seeking to expose you. Shall I give you
proof that I am cognisant of the truth?"
He nodded in the affirmative, still too dumbfounded to articulate.
Moving suddenly she stepped forward to the table, took up a pen, and
wrote two words upon a piece of paper, which she handed to him in
silence.
He grasped it with trembling fingers. No sooner had his eyes fallen
upon it than a horrible change swept over his countenance.
"My God! Yes!" he gasped, his face blanched to the lips. "It was that
name. Then you really know my terrible guilt. You--a comparative
stranger!"
"Yes," she answered. "I know everything, and can yet save you, if you
will place your trust in me--even though I am little more than a
stranger."
"And if I did--if I allowed you to strive on my behalf? What then?"
She looked straight at him. The deep silence of the night was again
broken by the musical chimes high up in the ancient turret.
"Shall I continue to speak frankly?" she asked at last.
"Most certainly. In this affair there can be no concealment between us,
Miss Mortimer, for it seems that my future is entirely in your hands."
"It is," she answered, in a deep, intense voice. "And in return for my
silence and defence of yourself I make one condition."
"And that is?"
She again placed her soft hand tenderly upon the arm of the nervous,
haggard-faced man whom she had just rescued from self-destruction, and
looked earnestly into his pallid face.
"My sole condition is that you shall give me yourself," she answered in
a wild, hoarse voice; "that you shall cast aside this other woman and
give me your love."
"Then you actually love me!" he exclaimed in his astonishment.
"Yes," she cried fiercely, her clear eyes looking anxiously up into his
face. "Yes, I frankly confess that I love you."