Chapter III: A Neophyte

"And the soul of Jonathan was knit to the soul of David, and he

loved him as his own soul."

These words often came into the mind of the priest, Thomas Garret,

during the three days which Anthony Dalaber spent at his house,

hard by the rushing river, in the city of London.

There were ten years in age between them. Dalaber was a youth who

had seen little of life beyond what he had learned in Oxford,

whereas Garret had already passed through strange and perilous

experiences. The one had so far lived amongst books, and with

youthful companions of his own standing; the other had been a

pioneer in one of the most dangerous movements of the day, and had

seen what such courses might well lead him to. Storm and stress had

been the portion of the one, a pleasant life of study and pleasure

that of the other. It was only during the past six months that

association with Clarke and some others of his way of thinking had

aroused in Dalaber's mind a sense of restless discontent with

existing ordinances, and a longing after purer, clearer light,

together with a distaste and ofttimes a disgust at what he saw of

corruption and simony amongst those who should have been the salt

of the earth.

Had it not been for the talks he had heard of late, in Dr.

Langton's house, he might have passed through his divinity studies

at Oxford as his brother had done before him, content to drift with

the stream, ignorant of the undercurrents which were already

disturbing its apparently tranquil surface, and ready in due course

to be consecrated to his office, and to take some benefice if he

could get it, and live and die as the average priest of those times

did, without troubling himself over the vexed questions of papal

encroachment and traffic in pardons and indulgences which were

setting Germany in a flame.

But he had been first aroused by seeing the light in Freda's eyes

as these questions had been discussed in the hearing of her and her

sister. From the first moment of his presentation to Dr. Langton's

family Dalaber had been strongly attracted by the beautiful

sisters, and especially by Freda, whose quick, responsive eagerness

and keen insight and discrimination made a deep impression upon

him. The soundness of her learning amazed him at the outset; for

her father would turn to her to verify some reference from his

costly manuscripts or learned tomes, and he soon saw that Latin and

Greek were to her as her mother tongue.

When she did join in the conversation respecting the interpretation

or translation of the Holy Scriptures, he had quickly noted that

her scholarship was far deeper than his own. He had been moved to a

vivid admiration at first, and then to something that was more than

admiration. And the birth and growth of his spiritual life he

traced directly to those impulses which had been aroused within him

as he had heard Freda Langton speak and argue and ask questions.

That was how it had started; but it was Clarke's teaching and

preaching which had completed the change in him from the careless

to the earnest student of theology. Clarke's spirituality and

purity of life, his singleness of aim, his earnest striving after a

standard of holiness seldom to be found even amongst those who

professed to practise the higher life, aroused the deep admiration

of the impulsive and warm-hearted Dalaber. He sought his rooms, he

loved to hear his discourses, he called himself his pupil and his

son, and was the most regular and enthusiastic attender of his

lectures and disputations.

And now he had taken a new and forward step. Suddenly he seemed to

have been launched upon a tide with which hitherto he had only

dallied and played. He was pushing out his bark into deeper waters,

and already felt as though the cables binding him to the shores of

safety and ease were completely parted.

It was in part due to the magnetic personality of Garret that this

thing had come to pass. When Dalaber left Oxford it was with no

idea that it would be a crisis in his life. He wished, out of

curiosity, to be present at the strange ceremony to be enacted in

St. Paul's Churchyard; and the knowledge that Clarke was going to

London for a week on some private business gave the finishing touch

to his resolution.

But it was not until he sat with Thomas Garret in his dark

lodgings, hearing the rush of the river beneath him, looking into

the fiery eyes of the priest, and hearing the fiery words which

fell from his lips, that Dalaber thoroughly understood to what he

had pledged himself when first he had uttered the fateful words, "I

will be a member of the Association of Christian Brothers."

True, Clarke had, on their way to town, spoken to him of a little

community, pledged to seek to distribute the life-giving Word of

God to those who were hungering for it, and to help each in his

measure to let the light, now shrouded beneath a mass of

observances which had lost their original meaning to the unlettered

people, shine out in its primitive brilliance and purity; but

Dalaber had only partially understood the significance of all this.

Clarke was the man of thought and devotion. His words uplifted the

hearts of his hearers into heavenly places, and seemed to create a

new and quickened spirituality within them. Garret was the man of

action. He was the true son of Luther. He loved to attack, to

upheave, to overthrow. Where Clarke spoke gently and lovingly of

the church, as their holy mother, whom they must love and cherish,

and seek to plead with as sons, that she might cleanse herself from

the defilement into which she had fallen, Garret attacked her as

the harlot, the false bride, the scarlet woman seated upon the

scarlet beast, and called down upon her and it alike the vials of

the wrath of Almighty God.

And the soul of Dalaber was stirred within him as he listened to

story after story, all illustrative of the corruption which had

crept within the fold of the church, and which was making even holy

things abhorrent to the hearts of men. He listened, and his heart

was hot as he heard; he caught the fire of Garret's enthusiasm, and

would then and there have cast adrift from his former life, thrown

over Oxford and his studies there--and flung himself heart and soul

into the movement now at work in the great, throbbing city, where,

for the first time, he found himself.

But when he spoke words such as these Garret smiled and shook his

head, though his eyes lighted with pleasure.

"Nay, my son; be not so hot and hasty. Seest thou not that in this

place our work for the time being is well-nigh stopped?

"Not for long," he added quickly, whilst the spark flew from his

eyes--"not for long, mind you, ye proud prelates and cardinal. The

fire you have lighted shall blaze in a fashion ye think not of. The

Word of God is a consuming fire. The sword of the Spirit, the Word

of God, pierces the heart and reins of man; and that sword hath

been wrested from the scabbard in which it has rusted so long, and

the shining of its fiery blade shall soon he seen of all men.

"No," added the priest, after a moment's pause to recover himself

and take up the thread of his discourse; "what was done at Paul's

Cross yesterday was but a check upon our work. The last convoy of

books has been burnt--all, save the few which we were able to save

and to bide beneath the cellar floor. The people have been cowed

for a moment, but it will not last. As soon seek to quench a fire

by pouring wax and oil upon it!"

"You will get more books, then? The work will not cease?"

"It will not cease. More books will come. Our brave Stillyard men

will not long be daunted. But we must act with care. For a time we

must remain quiet. We may not be reckless with the holy books,

which cost much in money and in blood--or may do, if we are rash or

careless. But nothing now can stop their entrance into a land where

men begin to desire earnestly to read them for themselves. Not all,

mind you. It is strange how careless and apathetic are the gentry

of the land--they that one would have thought to be most eager,

most forward. They stand aloof; and the richer of the trades'

guilds will have little to say to us. But amongst the poor and

unlettered do we find the light working; and in them are our

chiefest allies, our most earnest disciples."

"Yet we have many at Oxford, learned men and scholars, who would

gladly welcome changes and reforms in the church; and there are

many amongst the students eager after knowledge, and who long to

peruse the writings of Luther and Melancthon, and see these new

versions of the Scriptures."

"Ay, I know it. I was of Oxford myself. It is but a few years that

I left my lodging in Magdalen College. I love the place yet. The

leaven was working then. I know that it has worked more and more.

Our good friends Clarke and Sumner have told as much. Is not your

presence here a proof of it? Oh, there will be a work--a mighty

work--to do in Oxford yet; and you shall be one of those who shall

be foremost in it."

"I?" cried Dalaber, and his eyes glowed with the intensity of his

enthusiasm. "Would that I could think it!"

"It shall be so," answered Garret. "I read it in your face, I hear

it in your voice. The thought of peril and disgrace would not daunt

you. You would be faithful--even unto death. Is it not so?"

"I would!--I will!" cried Dalaber, stretching out his hand and

grasping that of Garret. "Only tell me wherein I can serve, and I

will not fail you."

"I cannot tell you yet, save in general terms; but the day will

come when you shall know. Oxford must have books. There will soon

be no doubt as to that. And when we have books to scatter and

distribute there, we want trusty men to receive and hide them, and

sell or give them with secrecy and dispatch. It is a task of no

small peril. Thou must understand that well, my son. It may bring

thee into sore straits--even to a fiery death. Thou must count the

cost ere thou dost pass thy word."

"I care nothing for the cost!" cried Dalaber, throwing back his

head. "What other men have done and dared I will do and dare. I

will be faithful--faithful unto death."

"I shall remember," answered Garret, with a smile upon his thin

ascetic face--"I shall remember; and the day will come--a day not

far distant, as I hope--when I shall come to thee and remind thee

of this promise."

"I shall not have forgotten," spoke Dalaber, holding out his hand;

"whenever the Brotherhood calls upon me it will find me ready."

There was silence for a while, and then Dalaber looked up and

asked:

"What of Clarke, and Sumner, and others there? Will they not help

also in the good work?"

"Yes; but in a different fashion," answered Garret. "It is not

given to all to serve alike. Those men who dwell within college

walls, overlooked by dean and warden, waited on by servants in

college livery, bound by certain oaths, and hemmed about by many

restrictions, cannot act as those can do who, like yourself, are

members of the university, but dwellers in small halls, and under

no such restraints. Clarke has done great service, and will do

more, by his teachings and preachings, which prepare the hearts of

men to receive the good seed, and awaken yearnings after a deeper,

purer, spiritual life than that which we see around us in those who

should be the bright and shining lights of the day. That is their

work, and right well do they perform their tasks. But to such as

you belongs the other and arduous labour of receiving and

distributing the forbidden books. When the time comes, wilt thou,

Anthony Dalaber, be ready?"

"I will," spoke the youth in earnest tones; and it was plain that

he spoke in all sincerity.

The position of students living in colleges and living in halls, as

they were called, was, as Garret had said, altogether different.

Graduates and undergraduates of the colleges which had sprung up

were fenced about with rules and restrictions which have been

modified rather than changed with the flight of time. But the hall

of olden Oxford was merely a sort of lodging house, generally kept

by a graduate or master, but not subject to any of the rules which

were binding upon those students who entered upon one of the

foundations. Indeed, the growth of colleges had been due in great

part to the desire on the part of far-seeing men and friends of

order as well as learning to curb the absolute and undesirable

freedom of the mass of students brought together at Oxford and

Cambridge, and in the middle ages living almost without discipline

or control, often indulging in open riots or acts of wholesale

insubordination.

Anthony Dalaber was not at present a member of any college, nor

even of one of the religious houses where students could lodge, and

where they lived beneath a sort of lesser control. He and Hugh

Fitzjames, both of them youths of limited means, shared a lodging

in a house called St. Alban Hall, and were free to come and go as

they pleased, none asking them wherefore or whither. He saw at once

that what would not be possible to a canon of Cardinal College

would be feasible enough to him and his friend, if Fitzjames should

sympathize with him in the matter. And, so far, he believed his

friend was with him, though without, perhaps, the same eager

enthusiasm.

When the visit to Garret came to an end, and Anthony Dalaber said

farewell to him at the water side, where a barge was to convey them

some distance up the river, the priest held his hands long and

earnestly, looking into his eyes with affectionate intensity, and

at the last he kissed him upon both cheeks and said: "God be with

thee, my young brother! May He keep thee firm and steadfast to the

last, whatever may befall!"

"I am very sure He will," answered Dalaber fervently. "I am yours,

and for the good cause, for life or death."

They parted then, and the voyage began; but little was spoken by

the travellers so long as they remained in the barge. Clarke seemed

to be thinking deeply, his eyes fixed earnestly upon Dalaber's face

from time to time; whilst the latter sat gazing behind him at the

city, sinking slowly away out of his sight, his eyes filled with

the light of a great and zealous purpose.

They left the water side in the afternoon, and walked towards a

certain village, and Clarke, turning towards his companion, said:

"I have promised to preach this evening in a certain house yonder.

I trow there will be no peril to me or to those who hear me. But of

that no man can be certain. What wilt thou do? Come with me, or

walk onwards and let us meet on the morrow?"

Dalaber hesitated no single moment; Clarke's preaching was one of

his keenest delights. And upon this evening he was moved beyond his

wont as the young master spoke from his heart to his listeners, not

striving to arouse their passions against tyranny or bigotry, but

rather seeking to urge them to patience, to that brotherly love

which endures all things and hopes all things, and turns to the

Almighty Father in never-ceasing faith and joy, imploring His help

to open the eyes of the blind, soften the hearts that are puffed

up, and cleanse the church, which must be made pure and holy as the

bride of Christ, for that heavenly marriage supper for which her

spouse is waiting.

Nothing was spoken which the orthodox could well complain of; yet

every listener knew that such a discourse would not have been

preached by any man not "tainted" with what was then called heresy.

But the hearts of the hearers burnt within them as they listened;

and when, after some further time spent in discussion and prayer,

the preacher and his companion found themselves alone for the night

in a comfortable bed chamber, Dalaber threw himself upon Clarke's

neck in an outburst of fervid enthusiasm.

"Oh, let me be ever your son and scholar," he cried, "for with you

are the words of life and light!"

Then the elder man looked at him with a great tenderness in his

eyes, but his voice was full of gravity and warning.

"Dalaber," he said, "you desire you know not what. And I fear

sometimes that you seek to take upon yourself more than you wot

of--more than you are able. My preaching is sweet unto you now, for

that no persecution is laid upon you. But the time will come--of

that I am well assured, and that period peradventure shortly--when,

if ye continue to live godly therein, God will lay upon you the

cross of persecution, to try whether you, as pure gold, can abide

the fire."

"I know it! I am ready!" cried Dalaber, with the characteristic

backward motion of his head. His face was like the face of a young

eagle. He was quivering from head to foot.

Clarke looked at him again with his fatherly smile, but there was

trouble also in his eyes.

"Be not over confident, my son; and seek not to take upon you more

than you are able to bear."

Dalaber understood instantly to what Clarke was alluding.

"I trust I have not done so. But men will be wanted. I am a

Christian Brother. I must not shrink. My word is passed. Not to

you, my master, alone, but to Master Garret also."

"To whom I did make you known," spoke Clarke, with a very slight

sigh. "My son, I would not speak one word to discourage your godly

zeal; but bethink you what this may mean. You shall (it may be) be

judged and called a heretic; you shall be abhorred of the world;

your own friends and kinsfolk shall forsake you; you shall be cast

into prison, and none shall dare to help you; you shall be accused

before bishops, to your reproach and shame, to the great sorrow of

all your friends and kindred. Then will ye wish ye had never known

this doctrine; then (it may be) ye will curse Clarke, and wish you

had never known him, because he hath brought you into all these

troubles."

But Dalaber could bear that word no longer; he flung himself at the

feet of his master, and the tears broke from his eyes.

"Nay, nay, speak not so, I beseech you; you cut me to the heart! I

boast not of myself as being wiser or braver or more steadfast than

other men; I only pray of you to try me. Send me not away. Let me

be pupil, and scholar, and son. I cannot turn back, even if I

would. My heart is in the good work. Let me follow in the path I

have chosen. I have put my hand to the plough; how can I turn

back?"

Clarke looked down upon the youth with a world of tender love in

his eyes, and raising him up in his arms he kissed him, the tears

standing on his own cheeks.

"The Lord God Almighty give you grace and steadfastness now and

ever," he said in a deep voice, full of feeling, "and from

henceforth and ever take me for your father in Christ, and I will

take you for my son!"

So the compact was sealed between the two; and when on the morrow

they took their way towards Oxford, the heart of Anthony Dalaber

was joyful within him, for he felt as though he had set his foot

upon the narrow path which leads to life everlasting, and he reeked

little of the thorns and briers which might beset the way,

confident that he would be given grace to overcome.

He was happier still when he was able to obtain the exclusive

companionship of Freda Langton in the sunny garden of the Bridge

House, and pour into her willing ears all the story of his visit

and its wonderful consequences. To Anthony Dalaber some sympathetic

confidante was almost a necessity of existence; and who so well

able to understand him as the girl he loved with every fibre of his

being, and who had almost promised him an answering love? There was

no peril to her in knowing these things. The day for making

rigorous inquisition in all directions had not yet come, and there

was no danger to himself in entrusting his safety to one as true

and stanch as this maiden.

Freda's sympathies from the outset had been with those independent

thinkers, who were in increasing peril of being branded as

heretics; and she listened with absorbing interest to the story of

the hidden books, the little band of Christian Brothers, the work

going on beneath their auspices, and the check temporarily put upon

it by the holocaust of books which Dalaber had witnessed at St.

Paul's.

"And you saw it--you saw them burn the books! You saw the great

cardinal sitting on his throne and watching! O Anthony, tell me,

what was he like?"

"His face I could not well see, I was too far away; but he walked

with stately mien, and his following was like that of royalty

itself. Such kingly pomp I have never witnessed before."

"And our Lord came meek and lowly, riding upon an ass, and had not

where to lay His head," breathed Freda softly. "Ah, ofttimes do I

wonder what He must think of all this, looking down from heaven,

where He sits expecting, till His enemies be made His footstool. I

wonder what yonder pageant looked like to Him--a prelate coming in

His place (as doubtless the cardinal would think) to judge those

whose crime has been the spreading abroad of the living Word, and

now watching the burning of countless books which contain that

living Word, and which might have brought joy and gladness to so

many. When I think of these things I could weep for these proud

men, who never weep for themselves. I can better understand the

words of Master Clarke when he says, 'Plead with your mother--plead

with her.'"

"We will plead. We have pleaded already; we will plead again and

yet again!" cried Dalaber, with a flash in his dark eyes. "But

methinks a time will come when the day of pleading will be past,

and the day of reckoning will come; and she will have to learn that

her children will not always suffer her impurities and abominations,

but that they will rise up and cleanse the sanctuary from the

filthiness wherewith it is defiled."

"Yet let them not cease to love her," spoke Freda gently, "for, as

Master Clarke truly says, we are all one body--the Body of Christ;

and if we have to war one with another, and rend that body for its

own healing, we must yet remember that we are all members one of

another even in our strife."

"It is a hard saying," spoke Dalaber, "yet I believe it is the

truth. God send us more men like John Clarke, to show us the way

through this tangle of perplexities!"

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