Simon Darche was undoubtedly a bore. Since bores exist and there is no
other name for them, the strong word has some right to pass into the
English language. The old gentleman belonged to the unconscious and
self-complacent variety of the species, which is, on the whole, less
unbearable than certain others. Generally speaking, it is true that
people who are easily bored are bores themselves, but there are many
very genuine and intolerable bores who go through life rejoicing and
convinced that their conversation is a blessing and their advice a
treasure to those who get it.
Bores always have one or two friends. Simon Darche had found one in his
daughter-in-law and he availed himself of her friendship to the utmost,
so that it was amazing to see how much she could bear, for she was as
constantly bored by him as other people, and appeared, indeed, to be
his favourite victim. But no one had ever heard her complain. Day after
day she listened to his talk, smiled at his old stories, read to him,
and seemed rather to seek his society than to avoid it. She was never
apparently tired of hearing about John's childhood and youth and she
received the old man's often repeated confidences concerning his own
life with an ever-renewed expression of sympathy.
"I simply could not stand it for a day!" exclaimed Dolly occasionally.
"Why, he is worse than my school children!"
Miss Maylands could not put the case more strongly. Perhaps no one else
could.
"I like him," answered Mrs. Darche. "I know he is a bore. But then, I
suppose I am a bore myself."
"Oh, Marion!" And Dolly laughed.
That was generally the end of the conversation. But Dolly, who was by
no means altogether frivolous and had a soul, and bestowed now and then
considerable attention upon its religious toilet, so to say--Dolly
fancied that Papa Darche, as she called him, took the place of a baby
in her friend's heart. Rather a permanent and antique baby, Dolly
thought, but better than nothing for a woman who felt that she must
love and take care of something helpless. She herself did not care for
that sort of thing. The maternal instinct developed itself in another
direction and she taught children in a kindergarten. The stupid ones
tired her, as she expressed it, but then her soul came to the rescue
and did its best, which was not bad. Dolly was a good girl, though she
had too many "purposes" in life.
Not many minutes after she and Vanbrugh had entered the room on the
morning described in the previous chapters, luncheon was announced.
"Tell Mr. Darche that luncheon is ready, Stubbs," said Marion, and
Stubbs, gray-haired, portly, rosy-cheeked and respectful, disappeared
to summon the old gentleman.
Vanbrugh looked at Brett and both smiled, hardly knowing why. Neither
of them had ever lunched at the house without hearing the same order
given by the hostess. People often smile foolishly at familiar things,
merely because they are familiar. Dolly and Mrs. Darche had sat down
together and the two men stood side by side near a table on which a
number of reviews and periodicals were neatly arranged in order. Brett
idly took up one of them and held it in his hand.
"By the bye," he said, "to-day is not Sunday. You are not ill, I hope."
"Only lazy," answered Vanbrugh.
"So am I," answered Brett after a moment's pause.
There they stood in silence, apathetically glancing at the two ladies,
at the fire and at the window, as two men who know each other very well
are apt to do when they are waiting for luncheon. Brett chanced to look
down at the magazine he held in his hand. It was bound in white paper
and the back of the cover was occupied by a huge advertisement in large
letters. The white margin around it was filled with calculations made
in blue and red pencil, with occasional marks in green. Mechanically
Brett's eyes followed the calculations. The same figure, a high one,
recurred in many places, and any one with a child's knowledge of
arithmetic could have seen that there was a constant attempt to make
up another sum corresponding to it,--an attempt which seemed always to
have failed. Brett remembered that Darche carried a pencil-case with
leads of three colours in it, and he tossed the magazine upon the table
as though he realised that he had been prying into another person's
business. He glanced at Mrs. Darche who was still talking with Dolly,
and a moment later he took up the magazine again and cautiously tore
off the back of the cover, crumpled it in his hands, approached the
fire and tossed it into the flames. Mrs. Darche looked up quickly.
"What is that?" she asked.
"Oh, nothing," answered Brett, "only a bit of paper."
Just then Simon Darche entered the room and all rose to go in to
luncheon together.
The old gentleman shook hands with Dolly and with both the men, looking
keenly into their faces, but mentioning no names. He was cheerful and
ruddy, and a stranger might have expected his conversation to be
enlivening. In this however, he would have been egregiously
disappointed.
"What have you been doing this morning?" asked Mrs. Darche turning to
him.
She had asked the question every day for years, whenever she had
lunched at home.
"Very busy, very busy," answered Mr. Darche.
His hands did not tremble as he unfolded his napkin, but he seemed to
bestow an extraordinary amount of attention on the exact position of
the glasses before him, pushing them a little forwards and backwards
and glancing at them critically until he was quite satisfied.
"Busy, of course," he said and looked cheerfully round the table.
"There is no real happiness except in hard work. If I could only make
you understand that, Marion, you would be much happier. Early to bed
and early to rise."
"Makes a man stupid and closes his eyes," observed Brett, finishing the
proverb in its modern form.
"What, what? What doggerel is that?"
"Did you never hear that?" asked Dolly, laughing. "It is from an
unwritten and unpublished book--modern proverbs."
Simon Darche shook his head and smiled feebly.
"Dear me, dear me, I thought you were in earnest," he said.
"So he is," said Dolly. "We may have to get up at dawn sometimes, but
we are far too much in earnest to go to bed early."
This was evidently beyond Simon Darche's comprehension and he relapsed
into silence and the consumption of oysters. Mrs. Darche glanced
reproachfully at Dolly as though to tell her that she should not chaff
the old gentleman, and Vanbrugh came to the rescue.
"Do you often get up at dawn, Miss Maylands?" he inquired.
"Do I look as if I did?" retorted the young lady.
"How in the world should I know," asked Vanbrugh. "Do I look as though
I associated with people who got up at dawn?"
Brett laughed.
"It always amuses me to hear you and Vanbrugh talk, Miss Maylands."
"Does it, I am so glad," said Dolly.
"Yes, you seem perfectly incapable of saying one word to each other
without chaffing."
Old Mr. Darche had finished his oysters.
"Yes--yes," he observed. "A pair of chaffinches."
A moment of silence followed this appalling pun. Then Mrs. Darche
laughed a little nervously, and Brett, who wished to help her, followed
her example. The old gentleman himself seemed delighted with his own
wit.
"We are beginning well," said Dolly. "Puns and proverbs with the
oysters. What shall we get with the fruit?"
Vanbrugh was inclined to suggest that the dessert would probably find
them in an idiot asylum, but he wisely abstained from words and tried
to turn the conversation into a definite channel.
"Did you read that book I sent you, Mrs. Darche?" he asked.
"Yes," answered the latter, "I began to read it to my father-in-law but
he did not care for it, so I am going on with it alone."
"What book was that, my dear?" inquired the old gentleman.
Mrs. Darche named a recent foreign novel which had been translated.
"Oh, that thing!" exclaimed her father-in-law. "Why, it is all about
Frenchmen and tea parties! Very dull. Very dull. But then a busy man
like myself has very little time for such nonsense. Mr. Trehearne, I
suppose I could not give you any idea of the amount of work I have to
do."
He looked at Vanbrugh as he spoke.
"Trehearne?" Brett repeated the name in a low voice, looking at Mrs.
Darche.
"I know you are one of the busiest men alive," said Vanbrugh quietly
and without betraying the slightest astonishment.
"I should think so," said Simon Darche, "and I am very glad I am.
Nothing keeps a man busy like being successful. And I may fairly say
that I have been very successful--thanks to John, well--I suppose I may
take a little credit to myself."
"Indeed you may," said Mrs. Darche readily.
Every one thought it wise and proper to join in a little murmur of
approval, but Dolly was curious to see what the old gentleman would say
next. She wondered whether his taking Vanbrugh for old Mr. Trehearne,
who had been a friend of his youth and who had been dead some years,
was the first sign of mental decay. From Mrs. Darche's calm manner she
inferred that this was not the first time he had done something of the
kind, and her mind went back quickly to her conversation with Vanbrugh
that morning in Gramercy Park. Simon Darche was still talking.
"The interests of the Company are becoming positively gigantic, and
there seems to be no end to the fresh issues that are possible, though
none of them have been brought to me to sign yet."
Brett looked quickly at Vanbrugh, but the latter was imperturbable.
At that moment the door opened and John Darche entered the dining-room.
His face was a little paler than usual and he seemed tired. Mrs. Darche
looked at him in surprise and her father-in-law smiled as he always did
when he saw his son. Every one present said something more or less
incomprehensible by way of greeting. The new-comer shook hands with
Dolly Maylands, nodded to the rest and sat down in the place which was
always reserved for him opposite his wife.
"I had nothing particular to do, so I came home to luncheon," he said,
by way of explaining his unexpected appearance.
"I am so glad."
"Nothing particular to do!" exclaimed the old gentleman momentarily
surprised into his senses.
"Nothing requiring my presence," answered John Darche gravely. "I was
down town early this morning and cleared off everything. I shall ride
this afternoon."
"Quite right, quite right, my boy!" put in Simon Darche. "You should
take care of your health. You have been doing too much of late. I
suppose," he added, looking about at the others, "that there is not a
man alive who has my son's power of work."
"You do work dreadfully hard, John," said Mrs. Darche.
"But then," said her father-in-law with evident pride, "John leads such
a regular life. He does not drink, he does not smoke, he does not sit
up late at night--altogether, I must say that he takes better care of
himself than I ever did. And that is the reason," continued the old
gentleman with increasing animation, "that he has accomplished so much.
If some of you young men would follow his example you would do a great
deal more in the world. Regular hours, regular meals, no cocktails--oh
I daresay if I had never smoked a cigar in my life I should be good for
another fifty years. John will live to be a hundred."
"Let us hope so," said Vanbrugh blandly.
"What is this particular disagreeable thing you have given me to eat?"
inquired John looking at his wife.
Mrs. Darche looked up in surprise. The remark was quite in keeping with
his usual manner, but it was very unlike him to notice anything that
was put before him.
"I believe it is a shad," she said.
"Yes, I suppose it is," answered John. "The thing has bones in it. Give
me something else, Stubbs."
He got something else to eat and relapsed into silence. The remainder
of the luncheon was not gay, for his coming had chilled even Dolly's
good spirits. Brett and Vanbrugh did their best to sustain the
conversation, but the latter felt more certain than ever that something
serious was the matter. Old Simon Darche meandered on, interspersing
his praise of his son and his boasts of the prosperity of the Company
with stale proverbs and atrocious puns. Almost as soon as the meal was
over the few guests departed with that unpleasant sense of unsatisfied
moral appetite which people have when they have expected to enjoy being
together and have been disappointed.
When every one was gone John Darche remained in the drawing-room with
his wife. He sat down in his chair like a man over-tired with hard
work, and something like a sigh escaped him. Mrs. Darche pushed a small
table to his side, laid his papers upon it and sat down opposite him. A
long silence followed. From time to time she looked up at her husband
as though she expected him to say something, but he did not open his
lips, though he often stared at her for several minutes together. His
unwinking blue eyes faced the light as he looked at her, and their
expression was disagreeable to her, so that she lowered her own rather
than encounter it.
"Are things growing worse, John?" at last she asked him.
"Worse? What do you mean?"
"You told me some time ago that you were anxious. I thought that
perhaps you might be in some trouble."
John did not answer at once but looked at her as though he did not see
her, took up a paper and glanced absently over the columns of
advertisements.
"Oh no," he said at last, as though her question had annoyed him.
"There is nothing wrong, nothing whatever." Again a silence followed.
Mrs. Darche went to her writing-table and began to write a note. John
did not move.
"Marion," said he at last, "has any one been talking to you about my
affairs?"
"No indeed," answered Mrs. Darche in evident surprise at the question,
but with such ready frankness that he could not doubt her.
"No," he repeated. "I see that no one has. I only asked because people
are always so ready to talk about what they cannot understand, and are
generally so perfectly certain about what they do not know. I thought
Dolly Maylands might have been chattering."
"Dolly does not talk about you, John."
"Oh! I wonder why not. Does she dislike me especially--I mean more than
most people--more than you do, for instance?"
"John!"
"My dear, do not imagine that it grieves me, though it certainly does
not make life more agreeable to be disliked. On the whole, I hardly
know which I prefer--my father's perpetual outspoken praise, or your
dutiful and wifely hatred."
"Why do you talk like that?"
Mrs. Darche did not leave her writing-table, but turned in her chair
and faced him, still holding her pen.
"I fancy there is some truth in what I say," he answered calmly. "Of
course you know that you made a mistake when you married me. You were
never in love with me--and you did not marry me for my money."
He laughed rather harshly.
"No, I did not marry you for your money."
"Of course not. You have some of your own--enough--"
"And to spare, if you needed it, John."
"You are very kind, my dear," replied Darche with a scarcely
perceptible touch of contempt in his tone. "I shall survive without
borrowing money of my wife."
"I hope you may never need to borrow of any one," said Marion.
She turned to the table again and began arranging a few scattered notes
and papers to conceal her annoyance at his tone, hoping that her
inoffensive answer might soon have the effect of sending him away, as
was usually the case. But Darche was not quite in his ordinary state.
He was tired, irritable, and greedy for opposition, as men are whose
nerves are overwrought and who do not realise the fact, because they
are not used to it, and it is altogether new to them.
"I am tired of 'yea, yea.' Change the conversation, please, and say
'nay, nay.' It would make a little variety."
"Do you object to my agreeing with you? I am sorry. It is not always
easy to guess what you would like. I am quite ready to give up trying,
if you say so. We can easily arrange our lives differently, if you
prefer it."
"How do you mean?"
"We might separate, for instance," suggested Mrs. Darche.
John was surprised. He had sometimes wondered whether it were not
altogether impossible to irritate his wife's calm temper to some open
expression of anger. He had almost succeeded, but he by no means liked
the form of retort she had chosen. A separation would not have suited
him at all, for in his character the love of his possessions was
strong, and he looked upon his wife as an important item in the
inventory of his personal property. He hesitated a moment before he
answered.
"Of course we might separate, but I do not intend that we should--if I
can help it," he added, as though an afterthought had occurred to him.
"You are not doing your best to prevent it," answered Mrs. Darche.
"Oh!--what are my sins? Are you jealous? This begins to interest me."
"No, I am not jealous, you have never given me any cause to be."
"You think that incompatibility of temper would be sufficient ground,
then?"
"For a temporary separation--yes."
"Ah--it is to be only temporary? How good you are!"
"It can be permanent, if you like."
"I have already told you that I have no idea of separating. I cannot
imagine why you go back to it as you do."
"You drive me back to it."
"You are suddenly developing a temper. This is delightful."
Mrs. Darche made no answer, but occupied herself with her papers in
silence. She could hardly account for the humour in which she was
answering her husband, seeing that for years she had listened to his
disagreeable and brutal sayings without retort. It is impossible to
foresee the precise moment at which the worm will turn, the beast
refuse its load, and the human heart revolt. Sometimes it never comes
at all, and then we call the sufferer a coward. After a pause which
lasted several minutes, John renewed the attack.
"I am sorry you will not quarrel any more, it was so refreshing," he
said.
"I do not like quarrelling," answered Marion, without looking up. "What
good can it do?"
"You are always wanting to do good! Life without contrasts is very
insipid."
Mrs. Darche rose from her seat and came and stood by the fireplace.
"John," she said, "something has happened. You are not like yourself.
If I can be of any use to you, tell me the truth and I will do all I
can. If not, go and ride as you said you would. The fresh air will rest
you."
"You are a good creature, my dear," said Darche looking at her
curiously.
"I do not know whether you mean to be flattering, or whether you wish
to go on with this idle bickering over words--you know that I do not
like to be called a good creature, like the washerwoman or the cook.
Yes--I know--I am angry just now. Never mind, my advice is good. Either
go out at once, or tell me just what is the matter and let me do the
best I can to help you."
"There is nothing to tell, my dear."
"Then go out, or go and talk to your father--or stay here, and I will
go away."
"Anything rather than stay together," suggested Darche.
"Yes--anything rather than that. I daresay it is my fault, and I am
quite willing to bear all the blame, but if we are together in the same
room much longer we shall do something which we shall regret--at least
I shall. I am sure of it."
"That would be very unfortunate," said Darche, rising, with a short
laugh. "Our life has been so exceptionally peaceful since we were
married!"
"I think it has," answered Marion, calmly, "considering your character
and mine. On the whole we have kept the peace very well. It has
certainly not been what I expected and hoped that it might be, but it
has not been so unhappy as that of many people I know. We both made a
mistake, perhaps, but others have made worse ones. You ask why I
married you. I believe that I loved you. But I might ask you the same
question."
"You would get very much the same answer."
"Oh no--you never loved me. I cannot even say that you have changed
much in five years, since our honeymoon. You did not encourage my
illusions very long."
"No. Why should I?"
"I daresay you were right. I daresay that it has been best so. The
longer one has loved a thing, the harder it is to part from it. I loved
my illusions. As for you--"
"As for me, I loved you, as I understand love," said Darche walking up
and down the room with his hands in his pockets. "And, what is more, as
I understand love, I love you still."
"Love cannot be a very serious matter with you, then," answered Marion,
turning from him to the fire and pushing back a great log with her
foot.
"You are mistaken," returned Darche. "Love is a serious matter, but not
half so serious as young girls are inclined to believe. Is it not a
matter of prime importance to select carefully the woman who is to sit
opposite to one at table for a lifetime, and whose voice one must hear
every day for forty years or so? Of course it is serious. It is like
selecting the president of a company--only that you cannot turn him out
and choose another when you are not pleased with him. Love is not a
wild, insane longing to be impossibly dramatic at every hour of the
day. Love is natural selection. Darwin says so. Now a sensible man of
business like me, naturally selects a sensible woman like you to be the
mistress of his household. That is all it comes to, in the end. There
is no essential difference between a man's feeling for the woman he
loves and his feeling for anything else he wants."
"And I fill the situation admirably. Is that what you mean?" inquired
Marion with some scorn.
"If you choose to put it in that way."
"And that is what you call being loved?"
"Yes--being wanted. It comes to that. All the rest is
illusion--dream-stuff, humbug, 'fake' if you do not object to Bowery
slang."
"Are you going out?" asked Mrs. Darche, losing patience altogether.
"No. But I am going upstairs to see the old gentleman. It is almost the
same."
He went towards the door and his hand was on the handle of the lock
when she called him back.
"John--" there was hesitation in her voice.
"Well? What is the matter?" He came back a few steps and stood near
her.
"John, did you never care for me in any other way--in any better
way--from the heart? You used to say that you did."
"Did I? I have forgotten. One always supposes that young girls
naturally expect one to talk a lot of nonsense, and that one has no
choice unless one does--so one makes the best of it. I remember that it
was a bore to make phrases so I probably made them. Anything else you
would like to ask?"
"No--thanks. I would rather be alone."
John Darche left the room and Marion returned to her writing-table as
though nothing had been said, intending to write her notes as usual.
And indeed, she began, and the pen ran easily across the paper for a
few moments.
Then on a sudden, her lip quivered, she wrote one more word, the pen
fell from her fingers, and bowing her head upon the edge of the table
she let the short, sharp sobs break out as they would.
She was a very lonely woman on that winter's afternoon, and the tension
she had kept on herself had been too great to bear any longer.