CHAPTER V. WHAT WILL SHE DO WITH IT?

George Fournel was the heir to the Seigneury of Pontiac, not Louis

Racine. There it was in the will of Monsieur de la Riviere, duly signed

and attested.

Madelinette’s heart stood still. Louis was no longer--indeed, never had

been--Seigneur of Pontiac, and they had no right there, had never had

any right there. They must leave this place which was to Louis the

fetich of his soul, the small compensation fate had made him for the

trouble nature had cynically laid upon him. He had clung to it as a

drowning man clings to a spar. To him it was the charter from which he

could appeal to the world as the husband of Madelinette Lajeunesse. To

him it was the name, the dignity, and the fortune he brought her. It

was the one thing that saved him from a dire humiliation; it was the

vantage-ground from which he appealed to her respect, the flaming

testimony of his own self-esteem. Every hour since his trouble had

come upon him, since Madelinette’s great fame had come to her, he had

protested to himself that it was honour for honour; and every day he

had laboured, sometimes how fantastically, how futilely! to dignify his

position, to enhance his importance in her eyes. She had understood it

all, had read him to the last letter in the alphabet of his mind and

heart. She had realised the consternation of the people, and she knew

that, for her sake, and because the Cure had commanded, all the obsolete

claims he had made were responded to by the people. Certainly he had

affected them by his eloquence and his fiery kindness, but at the same

time they had shrewdly smelt the treason underneath his ardour. There

was a definite limit to their loyalty to him; and, deprived of the

Seigneury, he would count for nothing.

A hundred thoughts like these went through her mind as she stood by the

table under the hanging lamp, her face white as the loose robe she wore,

her eyes hot and staring, her figure rigid as stone.

To-morrow--how could she face to-morrow, and Louis! How could she tell

him this! How could she say to him, “Louis, you are no longer Seigneur.

The man you hate, he who is your inveterate enemy, who has every reason

to exact from you the last tribute of humiliation, is Seigneur here!”

How could she face the despair of the man whose life was one inward

fever, one long illusion, which was yet only half an illusion, since he

was forever tortured by suspicion; whose body was wearing itself out,

and spirit was destroying itself in the struggle of a vexed imagination!

She knew that Louis’ years were numbered. She knew that this blow would

break him body and soul. He could never survive the humiliation. His

sensitiveness was a disease, his pride was the only thing that kept

him going; his love of her, strong as it was, would be drowned in an

imagined shame!

It was midnight. She was alone with this secret. She held the paper in

her hand, which was at once Louis’ sentence or his charter of liberty. A

candle was at her hand, the doors were shut, the blinds drawn, the house

a frozen silence--how cold she was, though it was the deep of summer!

She shivered from head to foot, and yet all day the harvest sun had

drenched the room in its heat.

Yet her blood might run warm again, her cold cheeks might regain their

colour, her heart beat quietly, if this paper were no more! The thought

made her shrink away from herself, as it were, yet she caught up the

candle and lighted it.

For Louis. For Louis, though she would rather have died than do it for

herself. To save to Louis what was, to his imagination, the one claim

he had upon her respect and the world’s. After all, how little was it in

value or in dignity! How little she cared for it! One year of her voice

could earn two such Seigneuries as this. And the honour--save that it

was Pontiac-it was naught to her. In all her life she had never done or

said a dishonourable thing. She had never lied, she had never deceived,

she had never done aught that might not have been written down and

published to all the world. Yet here, all at once, she was faced with

a vast temptation, to do a deed, the penalty of which was an indelible

shame.

What injury would it do to George Fournel! He was used now to his

disappointment; he was rich; he had no claims upon Pontiac; there was no

one but himself to whom it mattered, this little Seigneury. What he

did not know did not exist, so far as himself was concerned. How

easily could it all be made right some day! She felt as though she were

suffocating, and she opened the window a little very softly. Then she

lit the candle tremblingly, watched the flame gather strength, and

opened out the will. As she did so, however, the smell of a clover

field, which is as honey, came stealing through the room, and all at

once a strange association of ideas flashed into her brain.

She recalled one summer day long ago, when, in the church of St.

Saviour’s, the smell of the clover fields came through the open doors

and windows, and her mind had kept repeating mechanically, till she

fell asleep, the text of the Curb’s sermon--“As ye sow, so also shall ye

reap.”

That placid hour which had no problems, no cares, no fears, no penalties

in view, which was filled with the richness of a blessed harvest and the

plenitude of innocent youth, came back on her now in the moment of her

fierce temptation.

She folded up the paper slowly, a sob came in her throat, she blew out

the candle, and put the will back in the cupboard. The faint click of

the spring as she closed the panel seemed terribly loud to her.

She started and looked timorously round. The blood came back to her

face--she flushed crimson with guilt. Then she turned out the lighted

lamp and crept away up the stairs to her room.

She paused beside Louis’ bed. He was moving restlessly in his sleep; he

was murmuring her name. With a breaking sigh she crept into bed slowly

and lay like one who had been beaten, bruised, and shamed.

At last, before the dawn, she fell asleep. She dreamed that she was in

prison and that George Fournel was her jailor.

She waked to find Louis at her bedside.

“I am holding my seigneurial court to-day,” he said.

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