"My mother,"
he answered.
"Then you don't live here all by yourself?" She
had a bitter feeling of disappointment.
"Oh, no."
"I
_wish_ you did." This escaped her before she could think. Strange,
that some magic power in this child had already made her say as much
as had said.
"I must go now," he said sorrowfully. "But I'll be
out this afternoon--I guess."
Eepersip fell on her knees in
front of him and said entreatingly: "Will you do something for me?"
"I will--maybe."
"Don't tell _anybody_ about me."
"Why?"
"Never mind why, but don't, will you?"
"I want
to."
"Then I won't play with you any more."
"All right,
Eepersip. I won't." She looked at him doubtfully. "I _promise_ you
I won't. Goodbye. I like you."
Eepersip was delighted with
her little friend. She waited anxiously for him to come out. Presently
he came.
"Eepersip," he said, "will you swim with me again?"
They went in again, and this time Eepersip showed him how to swim,
by holding him up while he kicked with his arms and legs. After a long
time he could swim a little bit by himself; and then Eepersip took him
to some rather high rocks and showed him how to jump in. At first he
wouldn't do it alone; she took his hand and they jumped in together.
After that he did it alone, and screamed with laughter when he came
up. Then Eepersip showed him how to go in head first, and he had so
much faith in her that he tried it right off. Although he went rather
flat, he liked it very much. The next time Eepersip bent him 'way over
before he went in, and he straightened out and hit the water clean as
an arrow. That was much better, he said.
Eepersip asked him what
his mother had said about the fern dress, for he had gone in so quickly
that he had forgotten his own clothes. He said that she had asked him
about it, and he had said that he found it. Eepersip thanked him for
not telling about her.
But she was discovered in spite of her
caution. One day when they were playing in the woods, Mrs. Carrenda
came out and found them. Eepersip dashed for the waves immediately, in
spite of the fact that Toby's mother called: "Don't run away, little
girl; I won't hurt you!"
But Toby began to cry bitterly. "Why
did you send her away, Mother?"
"I didn't, Toby. She ran as
soon as I came. Who is she?"
That Toby did not answer. There
were two instincts equally strong struggling within him--one to obey
his mother, and the other to do what the strange girl asked him to
with the threat of refusing to play with him if he did not.
"I
can't tell you, Mother," he said courageously. It would have been as
true if he had said "I don't know," for he knew nothing but her name,
after all. However, he never stopped to think that knowing her name was
not all there was to knowing _her_.
Mrs. Carrenda wisely
pursued the matter no further; but she determined to keep watch.
Eepersip was much more cautious after this. She was always on the
lookout. Several times Toby asked her why she didn't want to be seen.
But she would not answer him. She was, however, very kind in all
other respects. Several times Mrs. Carrenda found Toby playing with
her, but never spoke or let him know. She saw that Eepersip played
nicely with him and that they liked each other much; so she did not
interfere. Once, however, she put her hands suddenly on Eepersip's
shoulders from behind and said kindly: "Little girl, don't be afraid
of me."
Eepersip sprang to her feet, stared wildly a moment,
and then dashed off straight to the sea. But for fear of making Toby
very unhappy, Mrs. Carrenda never questioned him about her.
She
and her husband had many anxious conferences together. Her husband
thought that it was exceedingly risky to let Toby play so unwatched
with Eepersip, but Toby's mother did not feel that way at all. Then
they talked over the matter of who she was.
One day Eepersip was
peeping into the house to see if she could find Toby, for he had not
been out to play with her. Looking into the dining-room, she saw him
there, eating luncheon with Mr. and Mrs. Carrenda. They were talking
anxiously, and she was curious, and listened.
"I have it," said
Mr. Carrenda suddenly. "Don't you remember those people--the Eeglines,
or Eigleens--that came over to the hill near Mount Varcrobis where we
lived before we came here? who wanted to know if we had seen a strange
little girl, dressed all in ferns? She is the Eigleens' lost little
girl."
Mrs. Carrenda looked puzzled.
"They told us, you
know, that they had given up all hope of having Ee--ee--serpip" (Toby
started violently) "back again--"
"Oh yes, I remember now."
"--When Fleuriss came, and--"
"Oh yes, it all comes back
to me now. They were making a great effort to find her and entice her
back home by telling her about her baby sister."
"Yes."
"Why, father," said Toby," Eepersip--"He suddenly saw her in his
mind, kneeling in front of him, begging him not to tell--and he said
no more. Nobody noticed his remark.
A moment Mrs. Carrenda
gazed at her husband astounded. Then she said: "I believe it is so.
Let us send word to them right off."
"No," said Mr. Carrenda,
bluntly. "Supposing they came all the way down here. Supposing the
plan failed. Mrs. Eigleen would only be unhappier than ever. We'll
just have to let them alone for a while. Supposing _we_ try
it. Supposing it fails. Mrs. Eigleen will never know. Supposing it
succeeds. They will be _much_ happier, and we shall have made
some staunch and grateful friends."
"Oh, let's try it!" agreed
Mrs. Carrenda.
"I bet Eepersip--Ee-serpip, Eeserpip, Eepersip,
Eeserpip, Eepersip--funny name! I bet she'll go home fast when she
finds out."
"Perhaps--but she is like a sea-nymph now. How
strange it is! Well, it's worth trying, at any rate."
Eepersip
had listened with growing amazement--fascinated, entranced. But when
they paused in their conversation, the charm was broken that had held
her there. She sped away into the woods. She came to a place that she
knew well, a glade surrounded by ferns and a few wild-rose-bushes now
in bloom.
She had a little sister!--it was too much. And that
little sister haunted her dreams and her imagination, making everything
seem less joyful than before. She felt a strange longing--the longing
to see her. She might be several years old now. Eepersip had forgotten
what a "year" meant, but she had a vague feeling that Fleuriss had been
living some time already. Why had no one told her? She felt a sort of
angry resentment, but it cooled immediately when she remembered that
her parents _had_ been trying desperately to tell her. Yes, a
plan was certainly shaping itself in Eepersip's mind--but not the
plan of letting herself be caught, tamed, and carried home. No indeed.
She dreamed of some day going home by stealth, seeing Fleuriss, and
playing with her as she now played with Toby. She wondered silently if
she would be anything like the fair-haired little boy. She wondered
whether Fleuriss, too, would play with her secretly. If Fleuriss
were like Toby, how wonderful it would be!
But the problem of
getting back home to see her did not appear so serious to her now
while she had Toby to play with.
She continued her beloved
explorations, discovering islands, beaches, peninsulas, and rocks out
of sight of land, which she charted down in her mind, so that she
could almost always find them.
One day Toby came to her and
told her that they were going off on a tramp, rowing over across the
bay to the woods near a little cottage that Mr. Carrenda knew about.
They had always been interested in the cottage; they wanted to see
who was living there. And they had heard about some beautiful hills
behind it, which Mr. Carrenda wanted very much to see. And if it was
pleasant they were going to start the next day. Eepersip was curious.
She wondered if it could possibly be _her_ cottage and _her_
hills--the cottage she had discovered, and the hills that she had
climbed about in. She decided to follow and see where it was that the
Carrendas were going.
When the boat started she let it get some
way off, then she plunged into the sea and followed it. The waves came
up behind, and she gained fast, but when she got dangerously near she
stopped for a while, waiting for the boat to get farther off. They
landed just where she thought they might--by the little cottage.
Near it they set up their tent, and soon they were exploring the
peninsula. They climbed the beautiful hill which Eepersip had climbed.
Once they saw her as she darted behind a tree, and wondered how she
had got there so quickly. And they fell to talking about her again.
She heard them talking over their plan of capturing her, telling her
about Fleuriss, and, when she had been smoothed down a bit, letting
her go back to the Eigleens to make them happy. If only they could
have foreseen!
They tried only once, and never had the chance
again. It was a golden day in October. Eepersip was sitting on a rock
repairing some tears in her sea-weed dress. The waves were high, and
every once in a while a little spray would splash up on to the rock
where she was sitting. Mr. Carrenda discovered her sitting there,
and, tiptoeing forward he caught her by the shoulders. She gnashed
her little white teeth at him and struggled to get away, but he held
her fast, and was about to pick her up in his arms. She shouted: "O
waves, help me!" And, magically, a great wave rushed up, whirled itself
into the air, and broke in Mr. Carrenda's face. He dropped her, and
with a lightning manœuvre she dived down from the rock into the sea,
and was far out before he recovered from the surprise. After this she
remained far from the cottage and made her home on a deserted island.
This island was a lovely place. It had a beach of fine sand on one side
and was entirely surrounded with rocks on the other sides--rocks and,
in places, even high cliffs. There was a grove of yellow pines there,
where Eepersip danced when she wished to turn nymph again. There was
a spring of fresh water on a small hill behind the grove. The hill
was still covered with blueberries and raspberries; also there was a
multitude of the plants with the sweet white roots that Eepersip was
so fond of. There were asters, too, and Eepersip wove them in with her
ferns or sea-weed, and crowned herself with them. Very happy to find
not a single house on the island, she lived there for a long time,
glad also to be able to have both the sea and the woods, to which
she still instinctively returned occasionally. The period through
which she stayed on this uninhabited island was one of the happiest
stretches of her life by the sea.
But, now that she was alone
again, Eepersip was filled once more with longing to see the little
sister--to know her, love her, play with her, teach her to leap and
dance and swim: filled with curiosities about what was going on at the
home which she had been away from for so long. And these emotions grew
and grew until they became a firm resolution. She struggled a while
to prevent herself from thinking she had made a mistake in running
away, and, thinking it all over, said that she had not, even if she
did miss such exciting things as little sisters.
The plan of
seeing Fleuriss had become more and more developed, now that she saw
little of the boy and had more time to think about it. (It was only
once in a while that she swam to the mainland to play with him.) Her
idea had changed a great deal: it now was to take Fleuriss away to
live with her. She wondered whether she could ever get her over those
awful crags, through that shadowy forest, to the sea; whether she
could make her comfortable living the wild life. Here was a difficult
situation, for Eepersip was sure that so young a child could never
endure the hardships of the life she lived--at least, until she was
used to it.
This problem troubled her mind for days. Then,
suddenly, as she was gazing over the restless murmuring sea, she had
a great inspiration, "Oh! beautiful!" she exclaimed in her delight.
The vision of the little brown cottage in the grove of white pines had
come back to her--the whole thing, how she had been borne to it on
her raft by those friendly yet terrible waves. And now she had a use
for it! It seemed strange, when she hated houses so. But then, no one
need know. She would go at once and make sure whether the Carrendas
had gone from their camp, then fix up the cottage and discover all its
secrets. _Then_ she could go and take Fleuriss away.
So
one cold day she swam back to the cottage. The Carrendas' tent was
gone; everything was as it had been before. But this time it did not
appear hateful. She opened the door and went into the pleasant little
living-room with the fireplace. Then she investigated the whole house
shore thoroughly. She found a room with glass cupboards on the walls,
filled with a marvellous collection of all kinds of sea-weeds, shells,
and corals (how Fleuriss would enjoy them! she thought); and there was
a tiny kitchen, There was one small attic room, with a ladder going
up to it through a trap-door, and in it was a soft little bed with
warm blankets, and a fireplace. Above the bed were three casement
windows, and Eepersip liked to think how it would delight Fleuriss to
see the stars out these. When she went to the second floor she came
to a snug alcove with glass doors opening on to a porch, free to the
wind and sun, overlooking the sea: and two sunny bedrooms.
But
just as she was preparing to start after Fleuriss, her reason again
detained her. Fleuriss of course could not begin her wild life in the
winter: she must have a summer of it first, to see what it was like. So
Eepersip waited patiently till spring. During the winter she lived in
a great pasture on a hill behind the cottage.
The spring
came round incredibly soon, and again Eepersip prepared to start.
The night before she went a great black cloud came up from the
west, and soon a gale was raging. The waves mounted higher than any
Eepersip had ever seen before, topped with flying snow-white spray.
They leaped the highest cliffs, thundered on the wet rocks, and then
retreated, awashing down through the cracks with a strange hollow
sound and sweeping the sea-weeds wildly up and down. The wind sounded
as on a mountain-top, a curious mixture of high-pitched whistling
and bass droning. Occasionally it would rise into a terrific scream,
making the waves rage with the uncanny storm-green. At the crisis of
the storm Eepersip, who had been standing on the beach watching, her
curls flying, her ferns fluttering and often tearing loose, flung
herself into the storm from a high rock, and was swept about like a
tiny insect, disappearing under a wave, bobbing up to take a breath
just as the next breaker washed over her. She had a glorious time out
in the waves and the spray. The sea-gulls shrieked; sometimes they
struck at a fish, and appeared all covered with spray and shaking the
drops from their wings--strong narrow wings that beat down the air as
the birds rose again, to hover and swoop and plunge. These marvellous
birds being blown wildly in the gale reminded Eepersip of the swallows,
as they were tossed about by the high pasture winds--the swallows
she had loved so when she lived on the meadow.
Slowly the wind
abated its fury, and Eepersip, covered with water-drops and spray like
a silver fish or a sea-gull, swam to the shore bubbling with happiness.
With the water still standing on her hair, she sang a sea-song on the
beach, accompanied by the rocking waves, now calmed down, and by the
screaming and wildly circling gulls.
It was a wonderful night
afterwards, for soon the sea was entirely calm, and the moon and the
stars came out, reflecting themselves in trembling silver. Eepersip was
up all that night, dancing singing, swimming and diving in the glorious
moonlight. And then she remembered--to-morrow! and went up on the hill
to say good-bye to the meadow, the pastured hill, and quiet, mossy pool
that she had loved so.
Up on the hill she saw the sun rise.
First the dark blue sky turned grey, and then a pearly streak came on
the horizon as the first ray of the sun appeared; then it turned to
the most heavenly shade of pink and deep rose, and then into the blue
of one of the most gorgeous days Eepersip had ever seen. She gazed
and gazed at the dawn until it grew pale and buttercup yellow, and
finally turned to blue. The sun made a mass of gold sun-sparkles on the
sea, and they blended together from the high hill and formed a solid
splotch of gold, separating at the edges into individual sparkles.
It was a windy day, but the wind was warm, and at first the sea was
only rippling gently and smiling.
Then Eepersip remembered her
little sister Fleuriss, and she wished her already there to share that
beautiful, beautiful day. And off at one end of the beach she found, to
her delight, a little green boat with two oars, which had been washed
in by the storm. Now she had everything she needed, for the clumsy
raft was difficult to manage in the wind, and she might even be blown
so far off that she could never find the cottage again. Now, however,
all was ready.
And so she made her way home, beginning in the
boat, and rowing to where she had first entered the sea; then past the
great precipices over which she had so laboriously clambered as she
went to the sea. over hills, down into valleys, crossing rivers, and
tearing her way through forests, until at last, to her delight, she
arrived at the beautiful meadow where she had spent her first years
of wildness with Chippy, Snowflake and the deer.
The deer did
not remember Eepersip; that was one thing which distressed her. But
a little fawn came cautiously and sniffed at her, obviously wishing
he dared to approach and eat the ferns of her dress. She did not see
Chippy anywhere.
She was soon at her own house, spying around,
and looking in windows. All she could think of was Fleuriss, her little
sister.
III
THE MOUNTAINS
The droning wind
Entwined about the peaks
A golden trail of music...
Far off, the snow-topped mountains
Were sea-waves
Capped with foam.
Eepersip had begun to wonder whether
it would be so easy to take Fleuriss away. She might consent to play,
like Toby; but to run away, like Eepersip?--it was a great problem.
Eepersip must use some other means than simply appearing and asking
her sister to go with her. Perhaps she would entice her on with the
assurance that there was something wonderful waiting. Or maybe she
could show Fleuriss wonder after wonder--point out the beautiful
sea from far away, then lead her on to the little cottage which she
had prepared. And if Fleuriss was cold, or hungry, what should she
do then? Perhaps she would not like roots to eat. Then, suddenly, an
idea: she would dress herself up in wonderful flowers interwoven with
the ferns, she would lure butterflies about her wreaths, she would
bear armfuls of roses and apple-blossoms and lilacs and scatter them
over Fleuriss, she would make her a fern dress, and, thus fascinating
her, draw her away.
Eepersip wondered where she could sleep,
near the house, and yet concealed. She thought of returning to the
meadow, but that would be too far for convenient communication with
Fleuriss. And then she saw a lilac-bush on the eastern side of the
cottage--a great tall lilac-bush, thick and with great branches. It
looked as though she could go into it. And when she tried, she found,
to her great delight, that she could squeeze in, curl up in comfort,
and be absolutely invisible from the outside.
Then she began to
make her fairy array, weaving more ferns into her skirt, and more and
more, until it was thick and flouncy--maiden-hair ferns and Christmas
ferns, evergreen ferns and hay-scented ferns. She tucked flowers all
over her dress--late daffodils, cosmos, wild geraniums, primroses.
She made a girdle of yellow daisies, a crown of golden buttercups;
she plucked a bunch of roses, lilacs, and ferns, binding them with
daisies woven together. A great bouquet of violets decorated her
dress--violets and little white Pyrolas. With a huge hollyhock for her
wand and her arms full of lilacs and roses, she danced in the woods,
thinking how her little sister would wonder--and follow.
That
evening early she climbed an oak which was beside the window of her
former room, and peeped in. The moonlight shone on the face of a child
lying in a little wooden crib. She had fluffy black curls and bright,
snapping black eyes, and she was watching delightedly the shadows of
the branches on her wall and softly humming.
"Oh," breathed
Eepersip, "the little sister. I want her, I want her!" Entranced,
Eepersip watched, sitting in a crotch just outside the window--watched
her as she lay there, tracing with her finger the curving patterns
on her wall-paper; as she played her hands in the moonlight and the
waving shadows on her wall. And after a while the humming died away,
the finger ceased to stroke the wall, her eyes closed, and in a moment
she was gently sleeping. Before Eepersip went down she left a fair
sprig of apple-blossoms on Fleuriss's bed--apple-blossoms that, with
difficulty, she had brought up the tree. When she went back to her
lilac-bush she imagined Fleuriss's surprise, when she should wake, to
see them on her bed; imagined Fleuriss following her, all fascinated
by butterflies and sweet flowers; imagined her little sister climbing
mountains with her, eating berries and roots, swimming and diving and
dancing; and--Her thoughts began to grow more and more fantastic
--the smell of lilacs intoxicated her--and she went to sleep.
In the morning she climbed the tree again. Fleuriss was just
waking. Her eyes were turned toward the lovely oak-tree, watching
the sunlight playing on the emerald leaves. She caught a glimpse of
Eepersip as she vanished around the trunk.
"Oh, Mother," she
called softly. "I saw a nymph! She smiled at me, and went away."
"Hush, child," said Mrs. Eigleen, coming upstairs and stroking
gently the silky black hair. "You were only dreaming."
"No,
Mother," returned the child, "I was awake. I _saw_ a nymph,
really."
Mrs. Eigleen only smiled.
And then Fleuriss saw
the flowers. "O Mother," she cried, " did you bring those to me?" Mrs.
Eigleen was wonderstruck.
"Why, no!" she answered.
"Maybe
that nymph left them here."
Mrs. Eigleen was astounded enough
not to contradict her. "Perhaps," she said.
Eepersip descended
again and ran off to her safe hiding-place in the lilac-bush. "She is
so, so lovely!" she thought. "I want her more and more."
In a
short time little Fleuriss appeared with Mrs. Eigleen. "Fleuriss," said
her mother, "you may play here in the garden, but don't go outside it,
and don't climb the trees."
"All right, Mother."
"And
don't run off and worry me as you did once before." She had _not_
forgotten Eepersip. Perhaps she scented something in the air. Those
flowers troubled her.
"No, I won't."
Mrs. Eigleen
went in, and Fleuriss began to run about and play. Then Eepersip
stepped out from under the bush, and the lovely butterflies, lured
by her flowers, fluttered and hovered around her.
"Oh," said
Fleuriss," goodness, how you frightened me. Sit down on the grass,
and talk with me. And _how_ do you get those butterflies? They
always fly away from me."
"Listen, Fleuriss," said Eepersip.
"I am Eepersip, who ran away. The butterflies and birds all love me
and come to me in great flocks when I call them. And I want you. I
want to take you with me to live wild, and eat leaves and berries with
the birds--sweet red berries. And if you come the butterflies will
gather around you, too. They will not any other way. And look at all
my flowers! Butterflies love my flowers."
"Oh, did _you_
bring me those _bee-yoo-ti-ful_ flowers?"
"Yes, I did. Come!"
"Oh," answered Fleuriss, "and wouldn't it be funny
if Mother came out and found me not here!"
"And think--the
birds, the butterflies, the flowers! Look, I'd dress you like this,
with ferns and flowers and butterflies. And what fun we could have!
We would dance and sing and chase each other amongst the fluttering
leaves."
"Oo, I could never catch you."
"No, but I could
catch you, and that would be as much fun."
"But Mother doesn't
like me to eat leaves, and berries all the time make one sick."
"But we would not have berries all the time. We would dig up sweet
white roots and wash them clean; and _m-m!_ they are good, little
sister Fleuriss. We would have honey. The bees gather honey from the
flowers, which they would share with us."
"Bees sting," said
Fleuriss, shrinking away; "they sting, and they hurt, Eepersip."
"Oh, but the bees love us all so they don't sting us," answered
Eepersip. "It's only the people that try to hurt them that they sting.
We wouldn't hurt them."
"Oh, _Eepersip!_ the leaves and
butterflies, and--and honey--_m-m!_ But I oughtn't, really," she
said, backing off toward the house.
"Oh, come," said Eepersip,
"come, don't go away. Your Mother wouldn't care; she would love to see
how happy you were. _Please_ come." And Eepersip's hands went out
in supplication, scattering over Fleuriss wreaths of flowers, sprays
of berries, crimson, gold, frosty white.
"Oh, how beautiful!"
exclaimed the little girl. But when she looked up, Eepersip had
vanished.
Suddenly the door opened and Mrs. Eigleen stepped
out. Eepersip had darted under the welcome branches of an apple-tree,
whose thick blossoms kept her from sight.
"How sweet it smells!"
said Mrs. Eigleen--"just as if a fairy had been here. Where did
those flowers come from, Fleuriss?"
"Oh," answered Fleuriss,
"I saw the most beautiful girl. She brought me flowers and called
me 'little _sister'_ and wanted me to go away with her!"
Pale and weak from fright, Mrs. Eigleen took Fleuriss by the hand
and dragged her roughly into the house.
Eepersip sat down under
the apple-tree in ecstasy. "I saw her," she said softly, "I saw her
and talked to her, and--oh, how dear she is! But I _do_
wish she hadn't told about me." She waited there, and in a short time
Fleuriss appeared again, running.
"Eepersip, Eepersip," she
cried, "where are you?"
In a moment Eepersip had her arms around
her waist, kissing her and hugging her.
"Are you coming?" she
asked; "have you decided to come, Fleuriss?"
"Y-y-es," said
Fleuriss, "I really have, Eepersip. I thought all dinner time, and
couldn't eat, I was so 'xcited! But we must go quickly now, or they
will run after us."
So they ran quickly into the woods--ran
amid the trees and flowers until they were far from the house. Eepersip
showed her little sister how to dance, and they danced together. She
also showed her how to leap and run fast, and Fleuriss was delighted.
When they grew tired, they sat down together and made fern dresses and
flower wreaths. Fleuriss followed Eepersip's example, casting aside
her dress, shoes, and stockings.
"Oh, how 'licious the grass
feels on my bare toes!" she said, "and the soft moss. Eepersip, I feel
just like a nymph." (A slight pause.) "When I saw the flowers I said:
'Mother, I think a _nymph_ left them there,' and she said: 'Oh,
no, there aren't any nymphs. You're only dreaming!' _Are_ there
nymphs, Eepersip?"
"Oh, yes, Fleuriss, and if we dance and run
and dress just like them, we'll pretend _we're_ nymphs, too."
"But why can't we _see_ them, Eepersip?"
"Oh, we can,
if we look very hard. They're all around in the trees, the flowers,
and the woods. _Sometimes_ we can't see them, and they turn into
butterflies so we can. I can see them."
"Well, sometimes," said
Fleuriss thoughtfully, "it seems as if they were everywhere--when it's
windy, you know, and sunny, and there are shadows. In my garden it's
so beautiful I think there must be nymphs. I can _feel_ them,
not exactly see."
There was a pause.
Then--"Where we
going now, Eepersip?" for Eepersip was gradually working off to a hill
which was a peak of Mount Varcrobis, north of Eiki-ennern Peak.
"Fleuriss," said Eepersip, with a strange emotion in her voice,"
have you ever seen the sea?"
"No, but I heard Mother talking
about it once. She said maybe you had gone down there; and she told me
it was lots of blue water, and there were boats there. Did you really
go there?"
"Yes; it's _so_ beautiful, Fleuriss. The sun
makes the waves sparkle like gold, and the great white gulls with their
long, narrow wings go gliding, circling over the water, sometimes
plunging down and catching fish underneath. And there is white sand
there, soft sand, and shells and pretty pebbles, and little fishes
swimming. And when it's windy the waves come dashing up on the rocks,
flinging spray high in the air. And there is sea-weed, too, Fleuriss,
green sea-weed that goes floating up and down as the waves stir it.
And corals, too. Oh, my little sister, it's so, so beautiful. I would
show you how to leap into it from the rocks, and how to swim--to
be a mermaid and play with the gulls and the fishes, dressed all in
sea-weeds!"
"Oh, Eepersip I let's go _now!_"
"And I
have a little cottage down there for you to live in--a pretty little
cottage just like your home."
"Oh, how nice!"
"And we
shall go riding up and down on the great waves, Fleuriss, while the
sea-gulls scream over our heads. We shall go 'way out of sight of land
and find islands and rocks out there. And the waves are tremendous
when it's windy--very windy."
"Oo--"
"Fleuriss!" And
Eepersip caught her little sister in her arms--glad that she had
succeeded in entrancing her with the sea.
"But, Eepersip,"
said Fleuriss, doubtfully, "where _are_ we going now?"
"I
thought, Fleuriss, that we'd go to that great hill over there--do you
see?"
"Yes."
"Go over there so that you can see from 'way
of how beautiful it is."
"Oh yes; I'm crazy to see it!"
Eepersip saw that this hill was wooded on one side, but on the far
side it was like a pasture--she could see sunlight glinting on it.
On they went, often stopping to pick flowers, to dig up roots, or to
refresh themselves at some little tinkling brook or mossy spring. Once
as they were pushing through a fence of low beech-branches they came
to a spring all surrounded with green moss--oh! so soft. There were
ferns nodding beside it, and one or two strange pink orchids gazed at
themselves admiringly in its surface. At the bottom were white stones.
A cool, green frog plopped into it as they arrived. And Fleuriss was
fascinated. She sat there for a long time, watching him reappear for
air, then bob down again when he saw that they were still watching
him.
Again they came into a great meadow dotted with flowers.
Butterflies with soft wings stroked Eepersip's cheeks caressingly.
Fleuriss danced through the flowers, looking, as Eepersip thought, like
a little butterfly herself. The sky was a heavenly deep blue--a rich
deep blue, yet filled and sparkling with all the gold of the sun and
all the coolth of snow. She could see for miles into it, as if it had
suddenly come nearer than usual. She reached up and could almost see
her fingers touching it. What a strange sensation!
But Fleuriss
had a stranger one. As Eepersip danced along, it seemed as though
her feet barely touched the ground. The flowers and grasses swayed
gently beneath her, but they were not crushed. And Fleuriss felt a
bit of dread coming into her mind--dread of living and staying with
this strange sister. What if she should grow tired of Fleuriss and
run off? Suppose she should change into a tree--a leaf--a sprite?
But Fleuriss fought with this feeling--because she wanted to live
by the ocean, and to do the things that Eepersip had promised.
After a while they came to the foot of the great hill. They
slept down there, near a tiny lakelet, in the soft grass and among
the flowers, with the tinkle, tinkle of a little brook in their ears
all night. The next morning they climbed the hill together, and it
was very steep and rocky. Fleuriss had to be helped often, and grew
tired before she reached the top. But Eepersip lured her on by the
promise of seeing the ocean, and they struggled painfully up.
The sea stretched away to the horizon, blue and sparkling as it
met the sky. Fleuriss was spellbound.
"Eepersip, is that the
sea?" she asked.
"Yes, Fleuriss--the sea, the sea!"
Off to the north was a range of high blue-green hills, and off beyond
them higher ones, and higher--billowing mountains--and beyond them
was a range of snowy peaks, rising, sharply outlined, into the blue.
The lakelet where they had slept was like an opal set with dark green
pines. But those mountains--! never before had Eepersip seen anything
like them. The sea was not nearly so beautiful. And again she felt
that longing which she had felt when she saw the sea--but a more
passionate longing.
And Fleuriss? How could she climb those
great peaks--she, who had had great difficulty even with the little
hill? Well, Fleuriss could grow more used to such things, and then
they would go together. But Fleuriss--Fleuriss barefoot, dressed in
ferns--on those snowy summits! No, it would be impossible for years
and years. She would have to wait--or else go alone.
But the hill had other things than just the view. For there were the loveliest
little winding lanes, and bright open places, and close spots where
they could hardly push through the bushes; great patches of delicious
soft grass, then again enormous smooth-topped rocks from where they had
first found the long-sought vision of the sea. Such feasts as Nature
laid before them! There were great beds of the most delicious wild
strawberries, and nobody to sham them with but the birds. And they and
the birds gobbled them; and it seemed as if the more they ate the more
there were to eat; they ripened all the time. And in this marvellous
place there were such contrasts! They could have anything they wanted
there. There were places where the sun always struck brilliantly, and
cool, shady ones for the hot days--places where not much sun ever
came. There was the loveliest of soft grass, and then again nothing but
brambles and heaps of pointed rocks. There were lanes leading through
the woods occasionally, and there were places where no one would ever
suspect that there was any such thing as a lane. There were little
fairy glades where they could dance together--glades bordered with
ferns and carpeted with moss.
Fleuriss and Eepersip lived there
enchanted day after day, and although they often saw the sea, they did
not wish to leave the hill. Fleuriss spoke about it several times,
but Eepersip would hurriedly change the subject. That range of blued
hills seemed to be calling her--she would forget the sea for a while,
until the next year. After they had stayed where they were for some
time, they would go on and on to the blue hills, and perhaps explore
the great snowy mountains beyond. She could manage with Fleuriss
somehow.
One day they went exploring farther than ever toward
the east. They followed a narrow path, winding, winding through the
bushes. And then it curved around toward the north-east and led through
low laurel-trees, and here Eepersip stopped to make for Fleuriss a
crown of the blossoms. And again the path turned and came on to a
broader gravel road all bordered with gorgeous roses of red and white,
and Fleuriss was very much surprised at their magnificent beauty.
But Eepersip was distressed. So they had come to a place where there
were roads, houses, and people! But as yet they had seen no house.
Eepersip hoped that there would be none, for she was as entranced as
Fleuriss with the beauty of it all. And then they switched off on
another little path, leading southeast on to a wide lawn all bordered
with marvellous roses. Here they danced together a long time. Next
they turned into another gravelled path which led eastward, through
clumps of roses and laurel, downhill and uphill, for a long way; and
then they saw a garden brilliant with colour. Fleuriss was dazed, there
were so many flowering bushes--rhododendron, laurel, honeysuckle,
azalea, quince, and fire-blossom. Hummingbirds, bright emerald and
ruby with moonlight wings, were darting and sparkling about, sipping
honey, resting and quivering on the air.
But soon after they
had discovered the garden, Eepersip said that she was going on a short
journey, coming back in two or three days. "Will you be all right here
alone, little sister?" she said anxiously.
"Oh yes, Eepersip,
and I'm going to find lots of things to show you when you come back.
But where are you going?"
"I'm going--going--to a beautiful
place--and take you there sometime."
"Oh--I see. Can't I go
now?"
"No--because--it would be too hard now. Wait till I go
and find the easiest way for you."
"All right--good-bye!"
And, with a rustle of ferns, Eepersip vanished around a great
rhododendron-bush.
Fleuriss continued her explorations
alone. She saw a gorgeous butterfly come sailing toward her, of yellow
streaked with black. Others followed, and they covered her with soft
wing-caresses, crowning her head with their wings. Fleuriss thought (as
Eepersip had told her) that they were the fairies turning themselves
into butterflies so that she could see them.
Not a mouse stirred
when she wormed her way through the bushes, taking care not to step on
leaves or dry twigs so as to make a noise. And then the sun started to
set and turned the whole sky golden and rose. Fleuriss crept in among
a vine with golden flowers (there was no rich purple fruit yet, only
the lovely flowers) and watched. And, lo! each leaf was quivering, and
on their smooth surfaces was represented another miniature sunset. How
marvellous the rose and gold looked through the mass of trembling green
leaves
Then Fleuriss squeezed her way out of the bush and began
to explore again. Pushing northward in the dim, rosy light, she came
to a smooth lawn of pale green moss. On the other side was a stretch
of woods, then another lawn, of grass this time and smaller; and then
there was a great row of massive pines and beyond them an opaline lake.
And still the sun went down, and the mass of colour became smaller and
brighter, and Fleuriss, who had never seen so much beauty in her little
life, gazed and gazed. The colour faded slowly, slowly, as she watched,
until only a deep flush was left, and it was then that Fleuriss thought
she was in the heart of a giant rose. And--inconceivable--she looked,
and she was. She was sure of it. She could even see the great curling
petals around her. Right at the sun was a burning spot. That was the
pollen of the great flower. And this tiny fire burned and burned until
only one bright red spark was left. Then it too went out, and after
it all the rose colour faded away.
Then Fleuriss turned to the
lake, which also had held in its bright blue surface an image of the
sunset. The sky was deep blue now. The pines looked even darker against
it, and in the lake Fleuriss could see the reflection of the crescent
moon setting. And then she ran down by the side of the lake, and very
dark and strange it looked in the evening. Dipping her little hands
into the clear, crystal water, she drank, for she was thirsty. But she
was too tired to appreciate any more beauty just then, and so she crept
back to her little nest of flowers to go to sleep. Then she heard a
gurgle of sweet silvery music, and she listened spellbound, entranced.
But it was no wicked witch, seeking to entice her by spells: it was
the solitary wood-thrush, that superb singer of the dusk. And then
Fleuriss dropped off to sleep.
The next morning dawned fair,
and she rose bewitched with what she had been through. The sunset and
the silvery notes of the thrush all came back to her. She went down
by the lake. It was very different now. Its blue was sparkling with
the rays of the sun, whereas before it had looked very solitary--an
icy cold blue. There was no beach--just a grassy bank--and in the
shallow water she saw some little silvery fishes swimming and playing
in shoals. And she watched them in their happy play for a long time,
fascinated by the way they raced after each other around the shining
stones and pebbles. Because they were so bright and gleaming, poor
little Fleuriss thought that they were some rare and unheard-of fish,
little dreaming that they were just common minnows.
Eepersip
came back that day in a strange way. Fleuriss was looking down on the
meadowy side of the hill, where the long green grass waved in the wind
and butterflies were fluttering. And as she looked, suddenly--there
was Eepersip standing in front of her. She had come from nowhere--she
was just there without coming at all. Fleuriss was appalled. She
remembered that strange dancing--was her sister about to melt into the
air? Fleuriss stood stock-still.
Finally she raised her head and
said, at first faintly, but with growing enthusiasm: "Oh, Eepersip,
last night there was a great rose, and I was inside it--and I found a
beautiful lake with fishes in it--oh, wonderful fishes of silver--and
the beautiful birdie sang me to sleep in the flowers." And then, her
voice sounding strangely timid: "O Eepersip--I want--Mother--to see
it--so beautiful. I love--it here, but----I know Mother would like
to see it, too. And I guess I can't get along without her. I guess I
can't, Eepersip."
Eepersip was broken-hearted. "But, Fleuriss,"
she said--and Fleuriss shuddered a very little as Eepersip took her
hand--"Fleuriss, if your mother came, she would take you back home,
and you would not be here any more. If she would come to see it, all
right, but she would not--and so you would not see it either. Come
on, show me the lake you found."
Fleuriss was happy in a flash.
Laughing and dancing, she took her sister down to the lake and showed
her the wondrous fishes. They went in bathing together, and Eepersip
showed Fleuriss how to swim, as she had shown Toby. Fleuriss was wild
with joy. Then they splashed each other and played tag in the water.
Eepersip puzzled Fleuriss by swimming under water, and Fleuriss would
scream with delight when she came up in a totally unexpected place.
This new pastime kept them happy for several days.
But again
Fleuriss began to grow miserable--and homesick.
And again
Eepersip resisted this feeling for a long time--two or three weeks of
misery. But at the end of that time she began to think.
To begin
with, she thought about where she had been on that little expedition
of hers. She had been up toward those blue hills to see from nearer
the snowy mountains. She had loved them more and wanted more than ever
to go to them. She asked Fleuriss if she would not like to climb the
high peaks with her. But Fleuriss replied, almost snappishly: "You
know what I want, Eepersip."
Of course this misery weighed down
Eepersip's mind frightfully; she was very uncomfortable. And then she
began to think that after all she would want to be alone when she went
amongst the mountains; Fleuriss would be all right if she were happy,
perhaps, but a miserable companion would be unendurable. Perhaps she
had made a mistake in taking Fleuriss away. Maybe it was true that they
had to go in different directions--that she herself could not live at
home, and that her little sister could not live elsewhere. And even in
Eepersip's untamed heart there was a bit of pity. And she found that
that pity kept growing. How badly the Eigleens must feel, after all!
Once she smothered it with the thought, "No, she will be happy if she
stays long enough, and they will forget her." But it only began to
grow again.
Up to this unhappy time Fleuriss's flowers had not
withered or drooped: in this they were like those of Eepersip. But now
Eepersip noticed that for some peculiar reason hers only stayed fresh
and sweet. And then she thought again about the mountains and about
those poor wasted flowers, and the pity grew and grew.
And one
happy, happy day for Fleuriss, Eepersip led her safely home again.
"Good-bye, Fleuriss," she said. "I'm sorry you wouldn't stay with
me."
"Yes, I know, Eepersip, but I just couldn't. Why don't
you come home--you've been away so long--and Mother cries for you
still. Please come."
"Oh, Fleuriss, I _couldn't_. If I
were to go back home now, I should just die--even with you."
"Good-bye, then. Sometime I'm going to take Mother to see that
beautiful hill."
"But not for a long time?"
"As soon as I can."
"Don't."
"Why?"
"You know. Please don't."
"Well, I'm not sure. I'm going to--pretty soon.
Good-bye, Eepersip--Aren't you _ever_ coming home?"
"Oh, Fleuriss, no!"
"I wish you would."
"But I can't."
"Won't you let me take Mother and Daddy to live over there?"
"Well, after a while--if you want to. I shan't be there."
"Why, where are you going?"
"I'm going to the beautiful,
beautiful white mountains. And then maybe the sea again, Fleuriss--the
sea."
"Oo!"
"Coming?"
"NO! I'll ask Mother to take me to the sea. She will."
"Then--good-bye!"
And
she decked Fleuriss's fern dress with beautiful flowers--a crown of
them and a girdle. A sweet wind arose, carrying the scent of Eepersip's
flowers to Fleuriss. A few butterflies were blown over to her. Eepersip
stood on her tiptoes an instant: then, quick as a flash, she whirled
about and bounded off, free--relieved of a gigantic burden.</p> <hr>
<p>She went up to the lovely hill and stayed there a few days, amid the
dancing butterflies and the gorgeous roses. At the lake she would dream
hour after hour and watch the little jewelled minnows playing about
the white stones and shining pebbles. In the evening she crept into a
great bed of thick vines with flowers of white and gold, and listened
to the lapping of the waves and watched the twinkling fireflies. They
were her favourites, those poor ignorant little insects. She loved them
as well as the delicate, gauzy butterflies, the sweeping swallows with
their slim white wings, or the great gold-and-black bees. She adored
them all, but the tiny blue-black fireflies, with thin gauze wings and
the spot of phosphorescence showing now and then, were perhaps the
loveliest of all. How she liked to see them playing about at dusk,
sparkling and gleaming--little stars of the trees, in golden waves
across the sky.
Sometimes, when they began to come out, she
would go forth and dance and skip with myriads of them clustered in
her hair. Around each invisible fern and blossom in her dress would
gather a row of the little insects, until finally one could have seen
her entire form bordered with fireflies. And besides these which
alighted on her dress, thousands gathered swarming about her, so that
her head was entirely hidden in a maze of gold.
Sometimes she
would sleep at night and in the daytime play with the butterflies,
birds, and bees. But now she began to sleep more and more in the day
and play about at night.
One cool morning Eepersip went down
the lovely hill that she and Fleuriss had found. She walked down and
then out toward the pastured side of the hill. Here she stayed for a
long time. She lived in the golden smell of steeple-bush, and instead
of the wild strawberries that she had had on the hill she found great
crops of blueberries. And in this pasture she had a sample of a new
food--checkerberries. To be sure, she had eaten the leaves often
enough, but to see the waxen white berries was quite new. These also
she tasted and found greatly to her liking. She would lie and eat
hundreds of those white berries which tasted of the woods. They were
almost as good as the blueberries.
Now this pasture formed
a steep hill, and one delicious morning when a soft, warm wind was
blowing rather strongly, Eepersip climbed to the top of it. And oh,
what a sight met her dark brown eyes! Far and near, far and near rose
mountains, mountains, mountains! Stretching away, fold after fold,
layer after layer, rose marvellous blue peaks, with the dazzling light
of the sun brightening the white granite at some of their tops. Peak
after peak rose up around her, lake after lake stretched out in the dim
blue distance, with the sun striking them until they were a mass of
gold, like great precious stones in that setting of purple mountains.
She could make out three or four farmhouses, but no villages. She stood
there entranced, watching.
Then down she dashed, through the
tall grass sprinkled with buttercups and daisies. It seemed miles. but
it also seemed no more than seconds. At last she found herself by the
shore of a cobalt lake. It was almost perfectly round, with a group of
tiny green islets sprinkled in it like a handful of emerald beads. No
house could Eepersip see, for the lake was entirely surrounded with low
green-blue hills. The shore was for the most part soft white sand, fine
as pepper. With a cry of joy at the discovery of this beautiful little
lake Eepersip dashed into it and swam in the cool of those waters from
the mountains. And then she saw, playing up and down in the shallow
water just off one of those many beaches, a shoal of slim fishes.
They were all silver except one or two that were gold, and they had
rather bulging red eyes.
For a long time Eepersip watched them.
Then something caused her to look up. This something was the strange,
shrill cry of a bird above her. She looked up suddenly and saw the
bird. But she did not watch it, for the glint of something white--a
strange whiteness which she had never seen before--caught her eye.
She gazed long upon it, until, when her eyes became accustomed, she
was able to make out the outline of a peak, going up sharp as a tooth,
with bumps of smoother outline stretching away, away into the blue
immensity of space on either side.
"Oh," said Eepersip, " a
dream! Oh, what a beautiful dream! But--I feel so wide awake."
She gazed and gazed, silent.
"Oh," she said again, after
a while, "it cannot be a dream, it mustn't be a dream!"
She
gazed and gazed again.
"Oh," she repeated, "I must go there at
once! The snowy mountains!"
She plunged into the beautiful,
icy lake and swam across it with never a thought of the beauty in
the green depths around her. Her eyes were fixed upon that one thing
only. Soon she reached the opposite shore, consisting only of thick
woods. Her heart--that heart beautiful, yet with a certain sense of
childlikeness in it which had never left her--was mad for a glimpse
of those mountains. It was then that she felt as if there were a great
bird in her, pulling her, hauling her forward, regardless of the thorns
and nettles which tore her delicate dress of ferns and blossoms. At
last she got through the forest and found herself in an open meadow,
with the wondrous mountain before her and warm rain falling gently.
She saw a farmhouse, and as she went along the simple peasant farmer
saw her and muttered to his wife: "Look there, Mary." Mary looked, and
then she said: "Ay, God hath taken this child into his care--ignorance
demands mercy."
A moment of intense thought. She gazed and
gazed, bewitched. Then she gave, or tried to give, a little laugh.
It did not sound. "Oh," she tried to say, "how _queer_ I feel!
I believe I never felt so queer." And indeed she did feel queer. For
she felt the feeling of speaking to her heart. She was talking, it
seemed to her, loudly, but when, even in the midst of her talk, she
listened, nothing sounded.
After a few seconds, it seemed, she
ran on, leaping through the wet. Raindrops gathered on the ferns and
the flowers of her dress, outlining them with the pearly water. She
looked like a rain-fairy. Hour after hour passed, and she went like
the wind itself; yet she did not tire. At last she found herself near
the foot of that wondrous mountain, shimmering with snow-fields, cold
white against a deepening night sky.
That night a bird of modest
wood-colour, with speckled breast, sang of moonlight; and, rippling
faintly, softly, came echoes from his silver-tongued mate. They sang,
and they answered, and the moon-frost-tipped pines were quiet, and
clouds floated near, snowy palaces of silence. Spellbound, Eepersip
was borne away to fairy kingdoms where she danced and where
birds sang the only melody in the world.
The next morning
the sun came out and shone through every raindrop in splendid crimsons
and purple-greens. Eepersip looked about her and discovered a little
plant with a peculiar flower of white and crimson. She found that its
leaves were quite delicious, unlike anything that she had had in the
meadow or by the shore of the sea. They were green--a strange pale
green, delicately outlined and veined in marble white and pale gold.
Eepersip loved their pleasant flavour, but could not bear to touch
them, they were so beautiful.
Then she looked up and beheld the
strange rough outline of the mountain, and far in the distance, almost
on the top, was a great snow-field, on which the sun shone directly,
covering it incredibly with brilliant tints and shades of gold. And,
oh, the bright green foliage, shining in the dear golden light!
"Fairyland!" whispered Eepersip. "I loved the meadow, I loved the
sea more, but even before I am really _in_ the mountains, I love
them the best of all." Then, after a pause, she added: "That snow-field
of gold, these heavenly little flowers--oh, such beauty!"
After
a few more moments of breathless gazing, gazing upon everything, she
started up the mountain. The first few hundred yards she followed
a faintly marked trail which led through dense woods, over great
boulders covered with dark green moss. Occasionally a little rushing
brook trickled across her path. For quite a way Eepersip kept climbing
over the huge boulders, and the path was very mossy. After a while it
began to grow fainter and harder to follow, and at last it was shut
off entirely by the thick bushes and trees which surrounded it. Here
she sat down to rest and to think a while.
She looked about and
came upon a bubbling spring, at which she drank. No water she had ever
found was like this. It tasted of the strong, delicious mountain air.
She drank deeply, and, when she had quenched her thirst, continued
her way. Here flowers which made her think of foam at sea--white,
star-like, with silver-tipped petals--twined themselves among the
trees mingled with wild roses--dawn-flowers of deep pink or sun-bright
yellow. Strange orchids grew about, many of them pure white and
fringed like fluffy clouds. One had green blossoms with long whitish
spurs--mystic flowers on tall spikes with two smooth leaves. Yellow
lady-slippers made her think of butterflies with folded wings, or of
the sun peeping out from dark clouds. But the loveliest of all were
pink orchids--hosts of them with more deeply tinted lips fringed
like fairies' fingers: hosts of them on slender stems, each stem a
dawn-sprite's wand.
"Like the dawn I saw once," she thought,
"when snow-pink fringey flowers wreathed the sky. The sun was pleased
and smiled. I danced for him, and the bobolinks and skylarks greeted
him with song." There were tall flowers, too, pink silk beneath white
tissue, with very dark and curious leaves up the stalks among the
blossoms. Butterflies were playing like sun rays, winging softly from
flower to flower. And as she went on she passed through forests of
thick bushes and poisonous thorns, open pine-groves, and great pastures
smelling of hay-scented ferns and budding steeple-bush. All the time
the path, or rather the easiest way through the thick bushes, had been
fairly level, but now it began to shoot up steeply, and it was all
Eepersip could do to keep herself from sliding back in an avalanche of
pebbles and stones. A bit of tough scrambling followed, and at last
she broke out on a comparatively level piece of ground. on one side
of which was a deep ravine in which she heard a brook rushing and
rippling. On the other side of the ravine was a peak of the mountain,
crowned with snow and with the sun flashing upon it.
Eepersip
longed to see the brook, which, by the sound, she judged to be quite
large. She was not actually afraid to go down over those steep walls
of dirt and sand, but she _was_ rather afraid that, once being
down, she would not be able to get up again. So on she went, and it
grew so steep that, even by digging her feet into every crevice and
clutching the roots of the trees, which were getting much scarcer and
more stunted, she could just manage to cling on.
But at last
a change came. She stood on that high peak, on which there were only
bare rocks and a little snow, no roots or plants. On either side it
went down, down, and it was getting late in the afternoon. She could
see nothing to do. Still the highest peak was many miles ahead, and
she knew that she could not make it in the remaining daylight. So
she climbed warily down into a little crevice, where a few ferns and
luscious mountain blueberries managed to grow. She ate a supper of
these and of another hardy little berry which she found; then slept in
peace till daybreak, her tired mind dreaming of strange things--of
deep palaces at the bottom of the sea and snow palaces at the tops
of the mountains; of fairies, nymphs, and elves.
In the
morning she breakfasted on the mountain blueberries again, and found,
much to her delight, that they quenched her thirst almost as well as
water. After her juicy breakfast she went on down for about a mile;
then up, up again on sheer walls of rock, where there was not a sign
of a plant of any kind. After a stretch of difficult climbing snow
again began to appear, as the slope became more level. Eepersip went
down through a snug hollow in the rocks, where it was thick with small,
scrubby trees and where very little snow had managed to penetrate the
thick branches.
Oh, but it was cold up here on these tremendous
heights; the wind was keen and shrilly whistling. But, however cold,
it was a mountain wind, an exhilarating mountain wind which made
Eepersip leap into the air--leap and dance as on the meadow. Then,
after she had rested a while under the welcome branches of the stunted
firs and eaten tart mountain blueberries again, she went on, up out
of the hollow and on to the solid rock covered with a deep snow, into
which she sank at every step. Another mile she trudged. along, pulling
herself through it. And still the mighty peak retreated before her, so
that she could make no progress--or, at least, it seemed so. It seemed
as far away and as faint in the snowy distance as from where she had
been when the night had come on--a dreaming peak caressed with fingers
of mist.
At last the ground went up abruptly again. However
steep, Eepersip found it much easier, being there wasn't so much snow.
It rose and rose, becoming more gradual, until she stood on another
high peak, looking off over a tremendous range of mountains. Large
flakes of snow were falling gently, so that she could not see much of
these. She thought that she was now on the highest peak, and she sat
down to wait for the snow to cease and give her a clear view. After a
time it did; and then, and not until then, she saw another peak, the
true summit of the mountain, going up, up, and up on the other side of
a deep valley into which she would have to descend. After sucking a
few handfuls of the pure mountain snow, she set off with a light heart
and a happy spirit, her feet falling fast through the light drifts.
After a while she got down into the valley; and here she came upon a
brooklet full of icicles, winding through the long ravine and dashing
over the green slimy rocks in great cascades of rattling icicles and
foam. Eepersip drank deeply, and was refreshed.
Then, after
resting a few moments, she went on, up that steep wall of snow and
rock which would take her to the longed-for summit. Eepersip counted
sixteen brooklets rushing down over it, carrying hundreds of icicles
with their currents, foaming and dashing with spray and myriads of
shiny iridescent bubbles.
Across brook after brook she went,
watching the colours change in the dazzling snowflakes. The sun was
shining brilliantly now, making everything unimaginably beautiful in
magnificent shades of ruby, copper, silver-gold, emerald, and sapphire.
Each snowflake seemed covered with an almost invisible layer of tiny
sparkling gems. And once, when Eepersip sat down in a deep snow-bank
to watch and to rest, the sun happened to strike directly on one of
the many brooklets that went dashing down the mountain-side, making it
a blinding ribbon of silver and gold. Occasionally Eepersip saw the
blossoms of the beautiful talatuna, with ruby-red leaves and blossoms
of pale green and changing white. She thought that the leaves were
_all_ red, but when the wind flipped one over she saw that their
backs were moon-white, pale but glistening.
On she went,
through the incredible beauty of the fairyland about her. "Oh," she
murmured to herself, "how marvellous it is! Oh, fairies, fairies." She
whirled happily around. She had felt a few delicate touches on her
shoulders, and at once the air was a-flock with glistening snowflakes.
Each fern in her dress was bordered with a row of the fairy things,
and her autumn hair was crowned white.
After a while a slight
breeze sprang up and the big flakes whirled faster. The breeze rose and
rose until it was a strong, cold wind, and she could not see a foot
before her. The only thing to do was to wait for clear weather. But
in that she was disappointed, for it was growing darker and darker,
and at last she realized that night was coming on. So she lay down and
ate a supper of snow, as it fell and fell.
All night the
snow whirled and whirled, and in the morning Eepersip was completely
buried. It was a long, hard task to find her way out, or rather to push
her way out, for almost as fast as the snow fell it froze into ice,
so that there was on top of Eepersip a thick layer of ice. But just
before she decided to give up and wait for warmer weather, she broke
through. Out into the bright sunlight she came; and lo and behold! all
the ferns on her dress, and the dainty blossoms, together with her
hair, were covered with a layer of ice which shimmered and sparkled
in the sun like jewels set in something brighter than the brightest
gold.
But as soon as she came out into the sun the ice began
to melt and run off in all directions, and as she skipped and jumped
about she was almost hidden in the shower of water-drops which flew
from her as she ran.
And how beautiful, how fairy-like, she
was! Each fern was covered with a thin layer of the melting ice, and
the crown of pink blossoms around her curly hair was frozen likewise,
their fair colour persisting through the ice. Once in a while, when
the sun touched her, she was a blaze of colour--of silver and gold,
with here and there a splotch of brilliant red as the sun struck a red
flower.
After she had found that there was nothing to be eaten
except snow, she sucked a few handfuls, flavoured with the petals
of the flowers which she wore. Then she went on, through paradises
of silver, gold, and red, through deep hollows of shining green.
Everything was something besides white, and the world that was in
Eepersip's range of vision was fairyland.
But, as she went on,
clouds began to float in--little white clouds. They grew thicker and
thicker, until, before she had come near the highest peak, there was
nothing but pearly mist--scudding grey mist, curling into fantastic
shapes as it rose. She could see nothing, and she sat down in the snow
to wait. That night a gale came up, whistling and howling around the
peaks, reminding Eepersip of that storm at sea. What an awesome sound
it made! It sleeted, too, and when she awoke the next morning the snow
was covered with a crust. The mist had partly cleared, and she pushed
on again. She went through icy hollows and up on shimmering peaks,
until, finally, she saw near her that long-sought summit, and, with a
shout of joy, she dashed up. Fast she went, but when she really reached
it at last, the mist had closed in again, the wind was up, and it was
sleeting furiously. It was only through a break in the mist that she
had made the summit at all.
The next morning it was still
misty, but not nearly so thick. There was even a faint purple glow
over on the eastern horizon where the sun was rising. Occasionally
the mist would break open above, and she would see glimpses of blue
sky--the deep, deep blue of that day in the meadow with Fleuriss. And
lying all around on the boulders were frost-feathers. When Eepersip
first saw them she thought that she was dreaming. But no, they were
really there, delicate ferns and feathers with scalloped edges--ferns
and feathers of frost.
"Oh, mountain-fairies--fairies have
left them here," she said quietly. Some were as long as her forearm,
and others tiny--oh, so tiny; some were almost round like the inner
feathers of a bird, and others long and narrow like the outer plumes.
Down in a hollow were some stunted firs, laden with snow and covered
with those fronds of ivory chiselled by wind-sprites, lovelier than
anything Eepersip had ever seen, lovelier than anything ever made by
Nature. No, Nature could never have carved them, Eepersip thought.
The fairies--fairies!
Once she found a hollowed rock entirely
lined with them, like a fairy's crystal palace with strange shadowy
recesses. They crowded everywhere they could find room, and sometimes,
when there was no other place, rippled on the snow. They overlapped on
the rocks, and hung from windward crags, pointing into the wind. And
behold! Eepersip's dress and her head were covered with small ones,
like a diadem--a fairy crown and fairy ornaments. Moving gently,
so as not to disturb them from where they rested, she wandered from
one cluster to another, looking carefully at each one, noting each
special pattern, each magic tracery. All day she followed the winding
rabbit-trails amid the feathery firs.
The sun, too, had been
pushing out. Now the mist opened in one direction, and Eepersip caught
a fleeting glimpse of snowy peaks; but it closed again. It opened
a trifle longer in another direction, and Eepersip saw, 'way down
below, first low blue-green foothills and lakes golden with the sun,
then higher purple hills, melting into range after range of billowing
mountains, and valley after valley filled with white clouds rapidly
lifting. The mist shut in. Another direction opened in the same way,
with hills fading into mountains; and far off on the horizon was
another range of snow mountains, lying just under great white clouds.
There were clouds hanging over the valleys too, and they cast strange
shadows on the sunlit trees far below. When the mist shut in, the
golden lakes seemed to stay the longest. and after the mountains had
entirely disappeared they could he seen as if hanging in mid-air,
limpid pools of gold. And more sides opened, and more, the waits
growing shorter in between, until, on a gust of mountain wind, the last
of the mist went scudding away, banished, and the sun broke out into
the blue sky. The snow sparkled, the mountains sparkled, the lakes and
rivers sparkled, the frost-feathers sparkled, the air itself sparkled.
And the mountains of the range that Eepersip was in, crowned with
snow, gleamed like gold. Down on one side of the snowy peak dashed a
great river, green and swirling, covered with clots of foam. Sometimes
it would cascade over the rocks throwing up a fountain of spray, and
sometimes it would slip over a smooth slide, then, whirling round and
round in a rock basin, thunder down another great cliff in a shower
of bubbles, rattling icicles, and foam. It not its way through a
green hollow in the snow, and where it tunnelled under the snow-hanks
it was overhung with long, gleaming icicles.
Eepersip danced
in the snow, among the frost-feathers, all that day--danced like a
mountain sprite, leaping high, then running gracefully in a shower of
water-drops which flew from her as the frost-feathers melted in the
warmth of the sunlight. She danced down to the river and played there
a while--played with the white foam.
At sunset she was again
at the peak of her mountain. The sky was flushed with magic; a great
cloud in the west became a brilliantly fringed with gold and red-gold,
the east was all submerged in a lilac sea, and a delicate laciness
of pink trailed across the zenith. Sunset fairies alighted on the
snow-peaks: they were fiery for a moment, and all the great snow-fields
were flaming. Then the colour faded to pink on the summits. But in
the sky Nature still flung about her colours wildly--fire was in the
zenith, the long bank of clouds was vividly fringed with red-gold, and
there to the south it changed to caverns of shadowed pink and strange
violet. Seas and bays and cloud islands formed out of it--seas of
a strange greenish rose. Then one thrill and flame of gold spread
about the whole earth; the snow at her feet was shadowy gold, and a
pathway of it danced upon the air 'way to the horizon. It played upon
each frost-feather; the eastern mountains were flushed with this soft
gold.
And then, dizzy with the colour and the beauty, Eepersip
fell asleep, her fingers clutching the rosy snow.
The next morning the frost-feathers had almost disappeared underneath a
new snowfall. The air was full of its fresh scent, as it came down
gently in tremendous flakes. Here and there Eepersip saw one of the
lovely blossoms of the talatuna, with those same ruby-red leaves. How
beautiful they were, growing in great clusters, just peeping through
the snow! Once in a while a pale cream-coloured mountain moth would
flit before her. Occasional gusts brought swarms of tiny bottle-green,
white-winged snow-beetles, and the air was a-buzz with them. Sometimes
a blue or white insect like a firefly would hover past, a strange red
light gleaming about its transparent body.
On and on Eepersip explored, seeing nothing but the wonderland about her--the
fairy palaces of snow, the fluttering, hovering insects, and the beautiful
mountain flowers. Following the icy river down, she came sometimes to a
great cascade of the green water--a cascade coming over one of those
great cliffs, washing down the snow, throwing up fountains and clouds
of spray in its furious descent. Sometimes it cut under the banks,
making a green cave hung with icicles gleaming strangely. One of these
had been made when the river was in flood; now it was large enough for
Eepersip to stand in, and, wading in water about up to her knees, she
went back into its innermost recesses, where the roar of the stream was
muffled. There were fish there--trout playing in the whirlpools and
riding swiftly with the current. She found some odd bright stones and
gleaming pebbles in this mysterious place, silent save for the deadened
rush of water.
Sometimes, again, the rushing brook took such
steep course that Eepersip was forced to make a detour into the woods
for a little way, through clumps of the firs, now growing less stunted,
but hung with icicles which clicked together in the wind, sounding to
Eepersip like fairy castanets. Even at this high altitude, she saw
occasionally a white pine, each cluster of pale green needles laden
with snow--tufts of snow which seemed to make little faces peering
out from the tree. Bursts of happiness would overwhelm her now and
then, and she would leap high and dart like some frightened deer or
mountain nymph.
Once she found beautiful little violet-shaped
pink flowers with bowed heads and feathery leaves--snow-pinks blooming
there, thrusting their buds from the snow itself. She tucked a spray
of them into her dress of fluttering ferns.
And then she would
return to the river and follow it again. When the moon came, dappling
the foamy water with silver, she watched it as it dipped down its
forehead in the stream and touched the treetops with magic. Then she
would go on again through the moonlit night. Once she came to a place
where the brook separated, and she had a difficulty choosing which
branch to follow.
And when the russet dawn reappeared, tipping
the mountains with apple-blossom and fire, she had followed it to its
goal in the very meadow from where she had started--a pool hitherto
unseen by her. About a hundred feet across it was, beached with clean
white pebbles. In it bloomed water-lilies, fragrant and white, with
centres of gold; strange red flowers, too, she saw on the bottom,
growing between the pebbles. Dragonflies with crackling wings swept
over it in circles. She saw, too, a shoal of tiny fishes of a brownish
colour, striped with yellow. They would suddenly dart forward as if
something had frightened them, and then poise themselves stock-still,
mimicking so many sticks in the shadows of the abundant lily-pads.
She was wading about in the pool when suddenly--where there had
been ground for her foot to rest on, nothing was there. The bottom
of the pool under her foot had slid forward and collapsed! Suddenly
"Clug-glug, clug-glug, chugarum, glug!" reached her, as a big
bull-frog's nose appeared by the side of a lily-pad. A second later the
frog diked up on the lily-pad and stared at Eepersip with his goggly
eyes. She burst out laughing, he looked so ridiculous staring at her
like that.
She stayed in the meadow, playing gaily among the
leaves and flowers. Butterflies of all the colours of the rainbow swept
over it in great flocks. Flowers bloomed so thickly that there was
hardly any grass--white ones with waxen petals. striped and bordered
with heavy golden bands; red ones with centres of dark green-gold;
great blossoms of pink and purple, whose petals fluttered about in the
breeze like butterflies.
One morning she was awakened early by
"Peep, peep, twitter-itter-ee-e-e-e-e-e, twit chirup, twitter-ee-e-e,
twit!" She looked up and saw a great flock of snow-white birds with
long narrow wings. They were flying northward. The flock was much
more gigantic than Eepersip had supposed, for it kept on until she
began to think that it was going round and round. But no: after ten
or fifteen minutes the sky cleared, and she heard faintly in the
distance: "Twitter-itter-ee-e-e-e-e, _ee-e-per-s-sip!_ e-e-p,
e-ep, chirup."
Day after day she danced here, playing, as on
the first meadow, the butterflies, flowers, and swallows. And now,
as she danced, she seemed to float through the air, her feet almost
motionless. Sometimes she would leap high and come down--_float_
down--quite slowly. She seemed to have no weight at all, and a breeze
would almost lift her off the ground and hold her up in the air.
Indeed, when she ran with the wind behind her she would be _blown_
along--blown like a leaf just above the flowers.
One day
she was dancing there--dancing and leaping in the long grass, amid
the blossoms. Butterflies drifted over the sunny field--butterflies
of red and yellow, blue and green, black and white, orange and purple.
How gracefully they flew; how delicately they alighted on the flowers;
how fairy-like they were, hovering for an instant over some blossom,
then dipping their wings and starting off again! Eepersip felt as
though--as though she were going to be one of them; as though she were
so happy that she must fly about with them, sip the honey from the
flowers with them.
As she was thinking happily she heard a few
faint peeps, which became louder as she danced toward a certain part of
the field. Then there was a desperate twitter right at her feet, and,
looking down she saw a yellow fledgling hopping towards her. She picked
him up carefully and saw that he had broken his left wing. She worked
a moment with her hands and pulled the bone into place. Then she made
him a comfortable nest of grass and set out to see where he had come
from. Looking up, she saw a nest from which a bird was peering about
anxiously. Straightway she took the little one from the nest _she_
had made, and climbed the tree with it to its own nest; upon which the
mother-bird gave a twitter of joy.
After doing this Eepersip
descended the tree and continued her happy dance with the butterflies
until evening. Then they all found shelters under the leaves, and the
stars came out, one by one. Presently Eepersip spied a flicker in the
meadow--then another and still another, until the fireflies were
out in full play. They gathered around Eepersip in one flaming mass,
kissing her with their feathery wings. Making her way over to the pool,
she saw her reflection, a shimmer of gold.
A light darted out
toward her from the woods; then another and yet another, until there
were hundreds of lights flickering and blinking at her from all corners
of the great field--the lights of elves and gnomes, little fairies
of the field. And she danced happily among them--danced until the
dawn appeared on the horizon, sending away the darkness and making
the stars fade into space. It flushed the whole sky with rose, sent
arms of it even as far as the west; arms and streamers of colour which
paled toward their tips. Little white clouds grew pink, too, and the
colour was reflected on the distant mountain-tops. Again the snow-field
seemed to become fire--fire which was soon quenched by the coolness
of the snow. As the sun sent its first golden beams above the horizon,
the colour faded, turned to yellow, and soon entirely disappeared.
Then the sky was blue--deep, quivering blue, with the fluffy clouds
like pearls in an azure setting.
Suddenly Eepersip saw that
she was dressed in a flouncy array of spring crocuses and maidenhair
ferns. Lovely flowers of pink and yellow were entwined in her hair, and
butterflies fluttered around her. She danced happily and leaped high
in the air. How free and light she felt in the lovely dress that had
been given her!
That day Eepersip was even happier than usual.
She floated about, visiting each flower, each bush and tree. She played
games with the butterflies, the games she had played on the old meadow,
that first summer of her life in the House without Windows. When she
rested, she sat on top of a laurel-bush, and not a twig bent beneath
her. The slightest breeze blew her about, changed the direction of
her dance. Butterfly after butterfly flew to her, flock after flock,
as if they had some message to tell her; and after each visit she was
happier than before. Yes, they were messengers, these happy creatures;
messengers who came to whisper her a secret--a secret from Nature,
a secret of the beautiful meadow, a secret from the fairies.
And, when the sun again tinged the sky with colour, a flock of these
butterflies, of purple and gold and green, came swooping and alighted
on her head in a circle, the largest in front. Others came in myriads
and covered her dress with delicate wing-touches. Eepersip held out
her arms a moment. A gold-and-black one alighted on each wrist. And
then--she rose into the air, and, hovering an instant over a great
laurel-bush, vanished.
She was a fairy--a wood-nymph. She would
be invisible for ever to all mortals, save those few who have minds
to believe, eyes to see. To these she is ever present, the spirit of
Nature--a sprite of the meadow, a naiad of lakes, a nymph of the
woods.
HISTORICAL NOTE
_(By Another Hand)_
In the opening week of January, 1923, there appeared on the outside of
a certain door within a dingy, sunless, and cramped apartment a slip
of paper bearing the following typewritten notice:
Nobody may come into this room if the door is shut tight (if it is
shut not quite latched it is all right) without knocking. The person
in the room if he agrees that one shall come in will say "come in," or
something like that and if he does not agree to it he will say "Not
yet, please," or something like that. The door may be shut if nobody
is in the room but if a person wants to come in, knocks and hears no
answer that means that there is no one in the room and he must not go
in.
Reason. If the door is shut tight and a person is in the
room the shut door means that the person in the room wishes to be left
alone. The author of this odd manifesto (here reproduced with strict
textual exactitude from the frayed original) was the author of the
foregoing story, then just three months short of nine years old. The
door on which it appeared was that of the room in which, on a small
typewriter, she wrote down the adventures of Eepersip; and the week
in which it appeared was that in which these adventures had their
beginning.
She finished them, in the same room,
three months later, early in the March of her ninth completed year and
a few days after her birthday. One of her curious, slightly un-American
inventions, I must here explain, was the concept of her own birthday
as an annual occasion for handing out things to the other members of
her family. She planned this story from the beginning as a gift for her
mother on March 4. Would her mother "like" it, though? On that point
there would have to be a disinterested opinion--as it happened, mine.
With intense secrecy, behind the latched door of that room guarded
by the constrained preparatory notice, she read me the instalments
as they were produced.
My candid guess was that her mother
would indeed "like" it. I liked it myself, if only as unconscious
expression of a radiant physical vitality--so much I found in it of
the mighty swimmer, the enjoyable young comrade of trail and river,
always ready to swing a paddle tirelessly or carry ungrumbling a full
fair share of pack. I liked it, too, as her answer to the one year
which she had ever been called upon to spend in undeniably tawdry
surroundings. But, alas, there came interruptions one of them in the
shape of the only appreciable illness she has ever had--and these
pulled down her average daily output. On her big days the small typist
clicked off fresh copy to the extent of from four to five thousand
words; but still the appointed morning caught her some pages short of
the end. The tale came to Finis a few days later. Its length, in that
first incarnation, was some 40,000 words, or not far from what it is
now.
Up to that point there had been, of course, no thought of
print. It was I who introduced the question of print; and it had at
that time no connection whatever with publication. The author of the
story never had (and never has) experienced any school system, public
or private, her education having been exclusively the home-made one
devised by her mother; and I was beginning to think it high time that
print became a part of it. It was, in fine, my idea that we ought to
have a piece of her work put into type in some small shop where she
could set part of it herself, pull her own proofs, learn more about
proof-reading by correcting them, and see the whole thing through to
the binding of a small armful of copies for her friends.
But
before anything of that sort was done I wanted her to have the practice
of revising her first copy as carefully as possible and putting it
into strictly printable condition--as, indeed, she was eager to do.
Accordingly she took it away with her in the summer, worked on it from
early July through September in the intervals of swimming, canoeing,
mountain-climbing, and plain day-dreaming, and brought it back, on
the 5th of October, 1923, ready for print. Twenty-four hours later we
left it in a burning building from which nothing got out but the lucky
human occupants.
From the point of view of an admittedly
fond parent--for I can make no slightest pretension to the ability to
contemplate all this with a stranger's or a critic's detachment--it
was heart-rending to watch the nine-year-old author torture her memory
to the end of reconstituting the tale in its first shape. There were,
during the next weeks, a good many blank hours at the typewriter, and
it was slowly and painfully that page followed page. At this rate, it
was going to take about three years merely to salvage what had once
been manufactured out of the void in three months.
Then, one day
in December, everything was suddenly different. As an experiment of
despair, Barbara had stopped trying to remember the shape of sentences,
the precise order and phraseology of details, and had begun to let the
material come back as it listed. And to her astonishment it came in a
freshet, like northern rivers when the ice goes out. When, a few days
later, we put work aside to organize our makeshift Christmas, she was
still in a happy glow, the first third of the fantasy existed again,
and the story was running over its banks.
There followed one
interruption after another, and it was not until the autumn of 1924
that the second draft was completed. In the late winter of 1924-25,
Barbara worked patiently through the first third, putting it in what
she hoped would be final shape. The manuscript had to be laid away
in May of 1925, and was not touched again for nine months. Then, in
February and March, 1926, she did her revision of the second and third
parts, made a few minor improvements in Part I, and typed out a fair
copy of the whole--the copy from which this little book is set.
To what extent is this twelve-year-old manuscript identical with the
nine-year-old story? To a far greater extent, I am sure, than seems
compatible with the huge number of hours spent on it since it was
completed; for it happens that a disproportionate number of those
hours has gone into laborious, at times unconscious, recovery of the
precise effects which were in the lost original. The differences are
not where a stranger to the author would naturally look for them: that
is, in the diction and the build of sentences. Barbara's vocabulary
at nine was, of course, a stratified arrangement of deposits from
Walter de la Mare[2][3][4] and Mark Twain, Shelley
and Scott; that is to say, it was just what it is now except for the
later addition of words which could not be in this story anyhow--the
words of history, of science. And certainly the fundamental ideas
and emotions of the story have undergone no change. The fact is,
it was conceived and written at the end of a phase which could not
return--that phase of normal childhood in which nature means nearly
everything and civilization nearly nothing. The whole purport of
Eepersip's existence is simply a healthy nine-year-old consciousness
made articulate--something that an eleven-year-old could recover
only by a feat of the memory, and an adult mind only by an improbable
_tour de force_ of the imagination. Barbara, in short, designed
this curious narrative at the last moment when to do so would have
been at all open to her. By no human possibility could it have been in
her head at eleven if she had not had it down on paper at nine.
[1][2][3] No books meant more to her, between the ages of six and ten,
than The Three Mulla-Mulgars, _A Little Boy Lost_, and The Princess and
the Goblin
The chief differences, then, between the printed and the destroyed
versions represent the inevitable development of the author's taste
in minor particulars, and they are these: (1) There is appreciably
less of the pursuit-and-escape device, and correspondingly more of the
sheer revelling in natural beauty; (2) a great many exact measurements,
in the form of dates, distances, rates, heights, and depths, have
been omitted as realistic and therefore trivializing; (3) there is a
somewhat maturer attempt to keep the fauna and flora consistent with
latitude, altitude, and season; and (4) the lapse of time is managed
rather more consciously and coherently than it was in the first place.
If, in the treatment of these and other details of the story, there
seems to he a progressive increase in maturity, that is a consequence
and a measure of the nine months' interval between the author's
revision of Part I and her revision of Parts II and III.
It
will be observed that the differences involve little or no addition.
The one piece of addition is in the episode of Eepersip's young sister
Fleuriss, which is considerably more developed. The obvious reason for
this is that the author's own young sister, at the time of the first
draft, existed only as an insistent demand on Barbara's part; whereas
in the period of the revision she was a dream fulfilled, subject to
adoring daily observation.
As to ordinary literacy, there is
no perceptible difference, and has been none since the typewritten
by-products of Barbara's sixth and seventh years. In short, what
the reader is here given is an articulate eight and nine-year-old
child's outpouring of her own dreams and longings in a fanciful tale,
superficially revised by the hand of a twelve-year-old girl whose
life on its more artificial side is made up principally of books and
music.
It was the youthful author's idea, not mine, that
her story should be accompanied by a word of explanation from her
father. I do not know how, when, or exactly why she formulated such a
requirement, any more than I can explain where she got many another
of the ideas with which she has been known to startle or confound me.
Long after the story had been completed and while it was undergoing
revision, there arrived a day on which I was told that the requirement
existed: that Barbara had secretly been counting on me, and with
pleasure in the thought. Pleasure! If I could give that and so easily,
and to her, it not mine to make a gesture of resistance. I insist only
that what I have to say shall be placed where it can stand between
no reader and the story.
It would be neither good manners nor
good sense for me to attempt any sort of appraisal of this chronicle
of Eepersip's adventures in the spacious rooms of her House without
Windows. I have been too near to the whole thing, and am too near
the chronicler. The most that I can now add without impropriety is
a statement of why the first thought, a book to be manufactured but
by no means published, gave way after all to a different idea.
It began to strike me that here was something representatively
valuable--valuable, I mean, as a representation of something lovely in
generalized childhood itself--and yet not so very likely to achieve
frequent expression. The fact is that the impulses crystallized in this
story mostly fade into the light of common day a year or two before
the dawn of that amount of mechanical articulacy which is necessary
for a tangible expression of them; and they are therefore almost never
expressed. Actually, I do not happen to be acquainted with a single
prose document of much scope which achieves the full expression, or any
first-hand expression, of what in a normal, healthy child's mind and
heart during that mysterious phase when butterflies, flowers, winging
swallow, and white-tapped waves are twice as real as even a quite
bearable parent, and incomparably more important--the phase before
there is any unshakable Tyranny of Things.
What is probably
unusual about Barbara is the conspiracy of the circumstances which
have made these two things, the phase and the necessary articulacy,
overlap. She is precocious, and the phase may have lasted a year or
two longer than it does in many. She is not excessively gregarious and
has not been regimented in schools and groups; therefore nothing has
as yet standardized her, or ironed out her spontaneity, or made her
particularly ashamed of it. She has been given plenty of time to know
herself. And, almost above all, having used a typewriter as a plaything
from a time that she can't remember, she was able to rattle off an
easy 1200 words an hour, with any awareness of the physical process,
years before penmanship could have developed half the proficiency, even
with intense concentration on the physical process alone.
I
formed, then, the opinion that her Eepersip, who lives an ardent life
of three or four years in nearly every child's consciousness, lives
not at all anywhere no the world's multitude of books. And it came to
seem to me that this Eepersip very possibly has something to say to you
about your children, and about yourself of a time that you may easily
have forgotten, as well as, perhaps, to your children directly.
A last point: Barbara has been given by her parents, in the final
preparation of this manuscript, exactly what help she has asked for.
That is not nearly so much help as many an adult author often has from
us, for there is not one idea or structural change of ours in the
entire story. But I see no value in withholding solicited advice in
order to make a Roman holiday for those who like to chuckle or guffaw
over infantile slips in spelling and grammar. Barbara, whose spelling
and grammarhappen to be very reliable, would want us to straighten
them out for her if they weren't; and we should do it. When she asks
whether a comma will do or ought it to be a semi-colon? we answer as
well as we can. When she wants to know: "have I made it clear what
this means?" or "Have I used this word twice too near together?" of
course we say how it strikes us. Annoyingly from my Yankee point of
view, she insists on a preference for Oxford spelling, undoubtedly
met in three out of four of the contemporary books which she reads.
Well, then, I point out to her that if going to spell "colour" she,
must also spell "favourite" and "storey" and "veranda." But the words
themselves, the sentences, are hers, just as truly as is the pattern
of the whole; and hers is a really workmanlike care for weeding out
gawky constructions and repetitions of the words of which she ins been
successively over-fond.
One of the great objects of imaginative
writing, I take it, is to have joy. Another, not wholly separable from
the first, is to learn as you go. I like to suppose that Barbara,
just turned twelve, is having her just share of both.