CHAPTER LXXXV.

When laurelled ruffians die, the Heaven and Earth,

And the deep Air give warning. Shall the good

Perish and not a sign?--ANONYMOUS.

It was the evening after the event recorded in our last chapter: all

was hushed and dark in the room where Mordaunt sat alone; the low and

falling embers burned dull in the grate, and through the unclosed

windows the high stars rode pale and wan in their career. The room,

situated at the back of the house, looked over a small garden, where

the sickly and hoar shrubs, overshadowed by a few wintry poplars and

grim firs, saddened in the dense atmosphere of fog and smoke, which

broods over our island city. An air of gloom hung comfortless and

chilling over the whole scene externally and within. The room itself

was large and old, and its far extremities, mantled as they were with

dusk and shadow, impressed upon the mind that involuntary and vague

sensation, not altogether unmixed with awe, which the eye, resting

upon a view that it can but dimly and confusedly define, so frequently

communicates to the heart. There was a strange oppression at

Mordaunt's breast with which he in vain endeavoured to contend. Ever

and anon, an icy but passing chill, like the shivers of a fever, shot

through his veins, and a wild and unearthly and objectless awe stirred

through his hair, and his eyes filled with a glassy and cold dew, and

sought, as by a self-impulse, the shadowy and unpenetrated places

around, which momently grew darker and darker. Little addicted by his

peculiar habits to an over-indulgence of the imagination, and still

less accustomed to those absolute conquests of the physical frame over

the mental, which seem the usual sources of that feeling we call

presentiment, Mordaunt rose, and walking to and fro along the room,

endeavoured by the exercise to restore to his veins their wonted and

healthful circulation. It was past the hour in which his daughter

retired to rest: but he was often accustomed to steal up to her

chamber, and watch her in her young slumbers; and he felt this night a

more than usual desire to perform that office of love; so he left the

room and ascended the stairs. It was a large old house that he

tenanted. The staircase was broad, and lighted from above by a glass

dome; and as he slowly ascended, and the stars gleamed down still and

ghastly upon his steps, he fancied--but he knew not why--that there

was an omen in their gleam. He entered the young Isabel's chamber:

there was a light burning within; he stole to her bed, and putting

aside the curtain, felt, as he looked upon her peaceful and pure

beauty, a cheering warmth gather round his heart. How lovely is the

sleep of childhood! What worlds of sweet, yet not utterly sweet,

associations, does it not mingle with the envy of our gaze! What

thoughts and hopes and cares and forebodings does it not excite!

There lie in that yet ungrieved and unsullied heart what unnumbered

sources of emotion! what deep fountains of passion and woe! Alas!

whatever be its earlier triumphs, the victim must fall at last! As

the hart which the jackals pursue, the moment its race is begun the

human prey is foredoomed for destruction, not by the single sorrow,

but the thousand cares: it may baffle one race of pursuers, but a new

succeeds; as fast as some drop off exhausted, others spring up to

renew and to perpetuate the chase; and the fated, though flying victim

never escapes but in death. There was a faint smile upon his

daughter's lip, as Mordaunt bent down to kiss it; the dark lash rested

on the snowy lid--ah, that tears had no well beneath its surface!---

and her breath stole from her rich lips with so regular and calm a

motion that, like the "forest leaves," it "seemed stirred with

prayer!" [And yet the forest leaves seem stirred with prayer.--

BYRON.] One arm lay over the coverlet, the other pillowed her head,

in the unrivalled grace of infancy.

Mordaunt stooped once more, for his heart filled as he gazed upon his

child, to kiss her cheek again, and to mingle a blessing with the

kiss. When he rose, upon that fair smooth face there was one bright

and glistening drop; and Isabel stirred in sleep, and, as if suddenly

vexed by some painful dream, she sighed deeply as she stirred. It was

the last time that the cheek of the young and predestined orphan was

ever pressed by a father's kiss or moistened by a father's tear! He

left the room silently; no sooner had he left it, than, as if without

the precincts of some charmed and preserving circle, the chill and

presentiment at his heart returned. There is a feeling which perhaps

all have in a momentary hypochondria felt at times: it is a strong and

shuddering impression which Coleridge has embodied in his own dark and

supernatural verse, that something not of earth is behind us; that if

we turned our gaze backward we should behold that which would make the

heart as a bolt of ice, and the eye shrivel and parch within its

socket. And so intense is the fancy that when we turn, and all is

void, from that very void we could shape a spectre, as fearful as the

image our terror had foredrawn. Somewhat such feeling had Mordaunt

now, as his steps sounded hollow and echoless on the stairs, and the

stars filled the air around him with their shadowy and solemn

presence. Breaking by a violent effort from a spell of which he felt

that a frame somewhat overtasked of late was the real enchanter, he

turned once more into the room which he had left to visit Isabel. He

had pledged his personal attendance at an important motion in the

House of Commons for that night, and some political papers were left

upon his table which he had promised to give to one of the members of

his party. He entered the room, purposing to stay only a minute; an

hour passed before he left it: and his servant afterwards observed

that, on giving him some orders as he passed through the hall to the

carriage, his cheek was as white as marble, and that his step, usually

so haughty and firm, reeled and trembled like a fainting man's. Dark

and inexplicable Fate! weaver of wild contrasts, demon of this hoary

and old world, that movest through it, as a spirit moveth over the

waters, filling the depths of things with a solemn mystery and an

everlasting change! Thou sweepest over our graves, and Joy is born

from the ashes: thou sweepest over Joy, and lo, it is a grave! Engine

and tool of the Almighty, whose years cannot fade, thou changest the

earth as a garment, and as a vesture it is changed; thou makest it one

vast sepulchre and womb united, swallowing and creating life! and

reproducing, over and over, from age to age, from the birth of

creation to the creation's doom, the same dust and atoms which were

our fathers, and which are the sole heirlooms that through countless

generations they bequeath and perpetuate to their sons.

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