CHAPTER XI

P.P.C.

'It always seems to me so unlike you,' Aylmer said (he had arrived

punctually at twenty minutes to four)--'your extreme fondness for

newspapers. You're quite celebrated as a collector of Last Editions,

aren't you?'

'I know it's very unliterary of me, but I enjoy reading newspapers

better than reading anything else in the world. After all, it's

contemporary history, that's my defence. But I suppose it is because

I'm so intensely interested in life.'

'Tell me exactly, what papers do you really read?'

She laughed. 'Four morning papers--never mind their names--four

evening papers; five Sunday papers: _The Academy, The Saturday Review,

The Bookman, The World, The English Review_.'

'Well, I think it's wicked of you to encourage all this frivolity. And

what price _The Queen, Horrie Notes, or The Tatler_?'

'Oh, we have those too--for Bruce.'

'And does Archie show any of this morbid desire for journalism?'

'Oh yes. He takes in _Chums and Little Folks_.'

'And I see you're reading _Rhythm_. That's Vincy's fault, of course.'

'Perhaps it is.'

'How do you find time for all this culture?'

'I read quickly, and what I have to do I do rather quickly.'

'Is that why you never seem in a hurry? I think you're the only

leisured-looking woman I know in London.'

'I do think I've solved the problem of labour-saving; I've reduced it

to a science.'

'How?'

'By not working, I suppose.'

'You're wonderful. And that blue....'

'Do you really think so?'

He was beginning to get carried away. He stood up and looked out of the

window. The pink and white hyacinths were strongly scented in the warm

air. He turned round.

She said demurely: 'It will be nice weather for you to go away now,

won't it?'

'I don't think so.' He spoke impulsively. 'I shall hate it; I shall be

miserable.'

'Really!' in a tone of great surprise.

'You're dying to ask me something,' he said.

'Which am I dying to ask you: _where_ you're going, or _why_ you're

going?' She gave her most vivid smile. He sat down with a sigh. People

still sigh, sometimes, even nowadays.

'I don't know where I'm going; but I'll tell you why.... I'm seeing too

much of you.'

She was silent.

'You see, Mrs Ottley, seeing a great deal of you is very entrancing,

but it's dangerous.'

'In what way?'

'Well--your society--you see one gets to feel one can't do without it,

do you see?'

'But why should you do without it?'

He looked at her. 'You mean there's no reason why we shouldn't keep on

going to plays with Bruce, dining with Bruce, being always with Bruce?'

(Bruce and Aylmer had become so intimate that they called each other by

their Christian names.) 'Don't you see, it makes one sometimes feel one

wants more and more of you--of your society I mean. One could talk

better alone.'

'But you can come and see me sometimes, can't you?'

'Yes; that's the worst of all,' he answered, with emphasis.

'Oh.'

Aylmer spoke decidedly: 'I'm not a man who could ever be a tame cat.

And also I'm not, I hope, a man who--who would dare to think, or even

wish, to spoil--to--'

'And is that really why you're going?' she asked gently.

'You're forcing me to answer you.'

'And shall you soon forget all about it?'

He changed his position and sat next to her on the sofa.

'And so you won't miss me a bit,' he said caressingly. 'You wouldn't

care if you never saw me again, would you?'

'Yes, I should care. Why, you know we're awfully good friends; I like

you immensely.'

'As much as Vincy?'

'Oh! So differently.'

'I'm glad of that, at any rate!'

There was an embarrassed pause.

'So this is really the last time I'm to see you for ages, Mrs Ottley?'

'But aren't we all going to the theatre tomorrow? With you, I mean?

Bruce said so.'

'Oh yes. I mean the last time alone. Yes, I've got a box for _The

Moonshine Girl_. Bruce said you'd come. Lady Everard and Vincy will be

there.'

'That will be fun--I love that sort of show. It takes one right away

from life instead of struggling to imitate it badly like most plays.'

'It's always delightful to hear what you say. And anything I see with

you I enjoy, and believe to be better than it is,' said Aylmer. 'You

know you cast a glamour over anything. But the next day I'm going away

for three months at least.'

'A long time.'

'Is it? Will it seem long to you?'

'Why, of course. We shall--I shall miss you very much. I told you so.'

'Really?' he insisted.

'Really,' she smiled.

They looked at each other.

Edith felt less mistress of the situation than she had expected. She

was faced with a choice; she felt it; she knew it. She didn't want him

to go. Still, perhaps.... There was a vibration in the air. Suddenly a

sharp ring was heard.

Overpowered by a sudden impulse, Aylmer seized her impetuously by the

shoulders, kissed her roughly and at random before she could stop him,

and said incoherently: 'Edith! Good-bye. I love you, Edith,' and then

stood up by the mantelpiece.

'Mr Vincy,' announced the servant.

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